Chapter 35 I can bear the worst

The memorial service was held as scheduled in a sad atmosphere, many high-ranking officials attended with their families, Qiao Xinwei also followed Jiang Hao to the scene of the memorial service, although she had already been mentally prepared, but the scene still shocked her.

This is a kind of national shame, and every soldier who sacrifices is a hero.

It was the first time Qiao Xinwei attended such a grand occasion with Jiang Hao, and she met many people, some of whom were often seen on news broadcasts, and many more couldn't remember their names at all. She didn't dare to look more, and followed Jiang Hao closely, for fear that if she didn't pay attention, she would lose it.

The memorial service began at 8 o'clock in the morning and lasted until 4 o'clock in the afternoon, a full eight hours, without any pause in between, many high-ranking officials spoke, and representatives of family members also spoke.

However, no one quit halfway.

After the memorial service, some of the people in military uniforms were reluctant to leave for a long time, sacrificing their siblings, and they grieved more than others.

Jiang Hao found his father and said, "Dad, Mom, you go first, I want to stay for a while." ”

Jiang Zhizhong nodded and said, "It's okay." ”

Lin Caiyin: "Ah Hao, your good mother is happier than anything else, don't be rash in everything, think about Xibao." ”

Jiang Hao didn't make a sound, Qiao Xinwei said, "Dad, Mom, please take care of Xi Bao, we'll pick him up when we're done." ”

Lin Caiyin: "It's okay, Xi Bao is happier in us, if it's late, we don't have to pick it up, and it's the same if we let Xi Bao sleep with us." ”

An old leader next to him shouted: "Old Jiang, let's go together?" ”

"Okay, okay." Jiang Zhizhong turned around and admonished, "Let's go, pay attention to yourselves." ”

"Hmm." Jiang Hao agreed.

After a period of chaos, Jiang Hao finally met Feng Qingruo, Guo Xueyan's wife, in the lounge of the family area.

Feng Qingruo saw Jiang Hao coming with his wife, it was the first time she had seen the legendary Jiang Hao's wife. It is rumored in the army that Chief Jiang lost his family and his wife for the sake of military orders, so after completing the last drug trafficking case, he retired. Jiang Hao retired, at his good age, during the rise of his career, he retired, how many people are sorry, this head of the regiment with a good career, for the sake of the family, retired.

After a period of polite greetings, Feng Qingruo looked at Qiao Xinwei tightly, and she said sincerely: "Mrs. Jiang, I have heard of a great name for a long time, you are a celebrity among our military wives." ”

"Huh?" Qiao Xinwei was stunned.

"Chief Jiang," Feng Qingruo's gaze shifted to Jiang Hao again, "Xueyan has always respected you and always taken you as an example. ”

Jiang Hao: "Sister-in-law, don't say that, don't call me chief, call me Jiang Hao." If you have any difficulties at home, you can tell me directly, we are all in the same community. ”

Feng Qingruo smiled, her expression was extremely contradictory, there was a trace of fear in her complicated eyes, and at the same time, there was a feeling of openness, she wanted to say it but didn't dare to say it.

Jiang Hao also saw it, "Sister-in-law, if there is any difficulty, just say it, as long as I can do it, I will definitely help you." ”

Feng Qingruo plucked up his courage and said something that he might never say in his life, "Chief Jiang, you have always been an example of learning words, but whenever I have any complaints, he will say to me, 'If you think about Chief Jiang and then think about us, do you think we are quite happy.'" 'Yes, at that time I did think that our family was really nothing compared to the sacrifices you made for the troops. Later, you retired and recommended Xueyan, he was actually not so confident, he knew that his ability in all aspects was not as good as yours, so he told me, 'I'd better go to the training camp for a while, hone and hone, I can't be too inferior to Chief Jiang.' So he went, and when he went, he never came back. ”

As he spoke, Feng Qingruo turned his gaze back to look at Qiao Xinwei, and the tone of his voice was not quite right, "Mrs. Jiang, the reason why I say that you are a celebrity among our military wives is because you have a husband who has enough military achievements, and this husband can also put aside the overall situation and serve you wholeheartedly." ”

Jiang Hao's face was very heavy, and so was Qiao Xinwei.

"It's probably because my family doesn't have this life, my skills are not as good as others, and I have to give my life in danger, this is my spitting and complaining, don't take my words seriously. Hehe, I just want to ask, which soldier doesn't want to go home, which soldier is not young and old, which soldier is helpless, why Chief Jiang can choose to change jobs with everyone's understanding, why is my family Xueyan still being pushed up knowing that he doesn't have that ability, why? ”

Feng Qingruo became excited as she spoke, and when others heard this, they pulled her arm to stop her from continuing, "Sister-in-law, don't say this to Chief Jiang. ”

Jiang Hao: "It's okay...... Sister-in-law, if you have anything to say, say it all. ”

Feng Qingruo was not malicious, but she was resentful of Jiang Hao in her heart, and she couldn't hide this feeling, "Chief Jiang, I'm sorry, please forgive the unreasonable complaint of a middle-aged widow who suddenly lost her pillar, I really feel that you can't shirk the responsibility for the death of Xueyan and the soldiers of the third platoon." If this is a war, and you, you are a deserter who retreats in the name of defending your family. ”

In the end, Feng Qingruo was still pressed down by the two deputy generals next to her, and even Guo Xueyan's parents secretly accused her of doing this.

Jiang Hao didn't say a word, but Tie Qing's face couldn't hide it, and Qiao Xinwei was also stunned, she turned her head to look at Jiang Hao, she would never forget Jiang Hao's expression at the moment, he had a silence and calmness that was different from usual.

In the two days after the incident, Jiang Hao said only a handful of words, basically asking him questions, and he only replied perfunctorily, his whole person fell into guilt and grief, and Feng Qingruo's words today, especially the word "deserter", deeply pierced his heart.

Many people were persuading him to enlighten him, but only Feng Qingruo said something that he also agreed with, he was a deserter.

On the way home, Jiang Hao had no way to drive at all, and when the car drove a hundred meters away, he stepped on the brakes and stopped. The sky outside gradually darkened, the icy air swept wildly, and his heart was also madly guilty, guilty to the point of convulsions.

Qiao Xinwei held his hand and said lightly, "I'll open it, you can take a rest." ”

Position exchange, Qiao Xinwei sat in the cab, she hadn't driven for four years, a novice hadn't touched the steering wheel for four years, you can imagine how slow she drove.

When she turned around, there was a sudden "click", Qiao Xinwei slammed on the brakes, she thought, oh no, the front of the car must have rubbed against the green belt. She looked at Jiang Hao nervously.

And Jiang Hao didn't say anything, just stretched out a hand and held her hand along with the steering wheel. He took control of the steering wheel and whispered, "Step on the gas." ”

"Huh?"

"It's okay, take it easy and step on the gas slowly."

Qiao Xinwei did so, slowly stepped on the accelerator, and the car slowly drove into the normal lane. She didn't drive for many years, and she couldn't control the direction well, so she hit the steering wheel too much to rub into the flower bed.

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay, the car is out of the way."

Qiao Xinwei took a breath and said, "I'm sorry, it's not just because of the front of the car, it's because of the ......"

"Don't talk about it." Jiang Hao interrupted.

Qiao Xinwei bit her lip and swallowed the bitterness of her heart fiercely, she knew that he was uncomfortable, she wanted to comfort him a few words, and she wanted to share some pain for him.

Jiang Hao said lightly: "Drive well, let's go have a meal first, I haven't eaten for a day...... Then go home, I have something to talk to you about. Heebao let him sleep at my parents' house for one night. ”

"Okay." In fact, Qiao Xinwei also thinks so, things are so messy, she is really afraid that she will not take care of them.

It was getting late, and after a while, night had fallen, and they ate a little casually at the restaurant outside the community, Jiang Hao only ate two bites of food before putting down his chopsticks, which was completely tasteless.

"You haven't eaten properly for two days, eat a little today anyway, otherwise your body will collapse."

Under Qiao Xinwei's persuasion, Jiang Hao reluctantly ate two more bites, he took the rice bowl, stared at the white rice in the bowl, and said: "I remember that there was an actual combat exercise, I led a team to be trapped in the deep mountains and dense forests for four days and four nights, and I didn't have anything to eat, Xueyan suddenly took out a small bag of rice from his pocket. Everyone made a fire to cook, probably just two bowls of rice, and everyone drooled, but they all said that they were not hungry, and insisted on giving me food. Don't be hungry, who believes, hehe......" he smiled wryly.

"How did that work out?"

"Later, it was divided equally, twelve people, and two bowls of rice, two mouthfuls per person. Because this is my order, they must obey it. ”

"And later? Did you win that exercise? ”

"Of course, we're always victorious." When Jiang Hao said this, the corners of his mouth showed unprecedented pride, it was the best special forces soldier he had personally selected and trained.

The more memories there are, the more pain there is, Jiang Hao said and fell silent as he spoke, staring at the rice bowl in a silent daze.

Suddenly, Qiao Xinwei grabbed his wrist and said gently, "You go." ”

Jiang Hao, who lowered his head, raised his head mechanically and looked at her in surprise.

"Don't worry about the family, I will take care of the children, and I will be filial to my parents, so you can go without distractions."

"......" Jiang Hao raised his lips, but he couldn't speak for a long time.

"I know that you have made a decision and cannot be shaken, I say this in the hope that you will not be distracted when you go to the battlefield, and don't think about the guilt of me and the child, Jiang Hao, you have too much thought, throw away all the baggage, I will wait for you at home." If I can't wait for you...... I can live with the worst. ”

In the dark room, Jiang Hao pressed Qiao Xinwei against the wall, he held her face and gnawed her lips, wet and warm tears rubbed on the faces of the two, maybe at this moment, kissing her and owning her was the best way for him to express his love for her

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