Chapter 303: Confiding
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It turns out that he is deliberately making me happy...... Hearing Zuo Jian's words, Su Shishi felt an indescribable inexplicable feeling in her heart for a moment, some were 'excited', some were happy, and even, there was a trace of emotion. Novel./――
But soon, she controlled her mood, smiled, and said, "Thank you, it's a lot better." Immediately, Su Shishi hesitated for a moment and said, "How did you guess that I'm in a bad mood?" She was a little curious.
"Do you still need to guess?" Zuo Jian felt a little funny, "Only people who are in a bad mood will be in a daze inexplicably, right?" Do you think there will be people who are in a daze when they are in a happy mood? ”
"Not necessarily." Su Shishi retorted and said forcefully: "Don't you know that anything can happen? ”
Zuo Jian shrugged his shoulders and did not speak. On such a boring and unnutritious topic, he didn't bother to argue about anything.
"Ugh." Su Shishi sighed, feeling a little depressed, "Zuo Jian, do you think, am I a qualified teacher?" She looked at Zuo Jian seriously with a pair of beautiful eyes, "What do you think in your heart, or what do you think, you can just sue me directly...... I don't want to listen to lies, I don't want to listen to hypocrisy, I just want to hear what you really think. ”
I'm afraid that's the question you wanted to ask me! Zuo Jian thought to himself, looked at Su Shishi's expectant eyes, sighed for a while, and said affirmatively: "I think you are a qualified teacher!" ”
"Really?" Su Shishi looked at him suspiciously, "You didn't lie to me, did you?" ”
"Absolutely not." Zuo Jian tried to make a serious appearance, "I can swear to the Virgin Mary of Jesus God." ”
"Huh." Su Shishi was amused by him and laughed out loud, and then she said: "But why, I think myself, I am not a qualified teacher? ”
"Isn't it that your requirements for yourself are a little too high?" Zuo Jian asked tentatively.
"Isn't it right to be too demanding of yourself?" Su Shishi used his words and asked him rhetorically.
"This ...... You can't generalize. ”
Zuo Jianshen groaned for a while, and said seriously: "Sometimes, it is a good thing to be demanding of yourself, but sometimes, it is not necessarily a good thing. As the saying goes, do things according to your ability. Read the full text of the latest chapter. If you can't do something you can't do, but you still have to force yourself, or even 'force' yourself to do it, do you think this is appropriate? ”
Su Shishi pondered Zuo Jian's words carefully in her heart, shook her head, and was a little confused on her pretty face, "What you said seems to be very reasonable...... However, I also feel that if there are some things that I don't work on and 'force' myself, how can I know that I can't do it? ”
This time, it was Zuo Jian's turn to be speechless. He smiled wryly and said, "Well, there seems to be some truth to what you said. But then again, why would you suddenly ask me the question of whether you are a qualified teacher? ”
Su Shishi sighed faintly, and a bitter smile appeared on her pretty face, "Because sometimes, I feel that I can't be called a qualified teacher...... For example, today's 'Spring Outing', before I set off, I was full of plans, wanting to leave a good memory for the children in the class. ”
"But as a result, you should have found out too. Today's 'spring' tour can only be described as a failure. Su Shishi shook her head and said: "For example, before leaving, I only reminded them to bring some food, and I didn't take into account that since it is a 'spring' tour, then they should have a picnic in the wild, which can not only exercise their hands-on ability, but also meet the 'spring' tour ...... Like them, bring a lot of snacks, and there is no feeling of a 'spring' trip at all. ”
"Fortunately, Tian Hao brought a bunch of kitchen utensils." Speaking of this, Su Shishi was also a little crying and laughing, "But all he brings are kitchen utensils like rice cookers and electric woks, I really don't know what he is thinking in his head, does he think that there will be a 'plug' seat in the wild for him to use?" ”
"Actually, I was also responsible, I didn't remind them before. It can also be said that I did not do my duty. A qualified teacher should take all aspects into account when doing things. It's not like me, throwing things around. ”
Su Shishi said a lot in one breath.
"And then?" Zuo Jian smiled, "You're starting to wonder if you're a qualified teacher?" ”
"That's right."
Su Shishi nodded, as if muttering to herself, as if explaining something, "When I was a child, my biggest dream was to grow up and become a teacher, for this dream, I have always been studying hard and studying hard, my father is the principal of the third high school, so as soon as I graduate, I can enter the school and become a teacher." ”
"I used to think that it was easy to be a teacher, just write lesson plans and mark homework every day, but in fact, it wasn't until I became a teacher that I realized that this profession is not as simple as I imagined."
"Especially being a class teacher. You don't know, every day there are all kinds of cumbersome things to find the 'door', for example, the students in the class are naughty and mischievous, and when other teachers are lecturing, they deliberately 'mess' with the teaching discipline, and such things, some teachers will sue me. Also, if students quarrel and fight in the dormitory, people will sue you. ”
"All in all, every day things go on and on, day and night, I feel like I'm busy, so busy that I can't touch the ground, I'm so tired, but when I get home, when I think about what I did today, I realize that I don't seem to have done anything."
"In addition to the student affairs, there are other 'messy' things in the school, such as myself. Because my father was the principal, and as a newcomer who had just graduated from university, I was able to become a class teacher when I first came to work at the school. This incident has made many teachers talk about it behind their backs. ”
"By the way, you probably don't know. Some teachers want to be a class teacher, and some teachers don't want to be a class teacher. Because there are too many things to be a class teacher, it is better to be an ordinary teacher, and the task of going to work every day is to teach two classes, and after the lecture, go home from work, easily, and don't have to worry about anything......
Su Shishi chattered, in fact, she didn't know why she would give Zuo Jian what she had suppressed in her heart for a long time.
In fact, she had already made up her mind to keep all these things in her heart and not tell anyone. However, it wasn't until today's incident with Tian Hao that she realized that she was not as strong as she imagined, and at some critical times, she still needed someone who could stand up and share or bear it for herself.
In today's 'spring' tour, Zuo Jian's table xiàn made Su Shishi greatly admired.
His lack of 'chaos' in danger, his calm judgment, and his good cooking skills when he was on the picnic made Su Shishi's beautiful eyes light up and admired him very much.
All in all, Zuo Jian is completely in line with the image of a perfect man in Su Shishi's mind. Calm, responsible, responsible, and methodical, this is a real man.
Perhaps it is precisely because of this that Su Shishi will pour out her thoughts completely and completely without her realizing it.
Zuo Jian lit another cigarette and listened quietly. He felt that the current Su Shishi didn't really need to comfort her, in fact, all she needed was to hope that she could be a qualified listener.
“…… Excuse me. Su Shishi said for a long time, only to find that she seemed to have said a little too much, you know, there are some things, she didn't even tell her father, her pretty face was slightly red, "The mood is a little 'excited', so it's a little gaffe." ”
"It doesn't matter." Zuo Jian puffed out a puff of smoke, 'revealed' a gentle smile, and comforted: "Teacher Su, I understand your feelings. ”
Although it was just a smile and a simple word, Su Shishi felt warm in her heart when she heard it.
Zuo Jian said in a relaxed tone as much as possible: "I understand what you mean, because your father is the principal, so after you become the head teacher, you naturally want to do something very 'outstanding', so that you will put an end to those gossips, and at the same time add luster to your father's face." ”
Su Shishi nodded slightly, Zuo Jian's words can be described as hitting the nail on the head, pointing to the deepest thoughts in her heart.
"I don't think it's strange at all that you think that, to be honest." Zuo Jian continued: "But I think, if you keep thinking like this in your heart, and at the same time work hard to do it for this goal, or even force yourself to do it, will the pressure on yourself be too much? ”
"What do you mean?" Su Shishi was a little incomprehensible, "Do you think that I shouldn't think like this, or that I shouldn't do it in this way?" ”
"Of course not." Zuo Jian smiled and said seriously: "I just think that since your father agreed to let you be the head teacher, then he must think that you can and have the ability to become a qualified class teacher, but have you ever thought that you can't eat a fat person in one breath!" There's nothing wrong with your ideas and goals, what's wrong is that you're too '' in a hurry! ”
"it too much?" Su Shishi subconsciously said.
"That's right. You should understand a truth, everything should be done gradually, and you can't '' too quickly, otherwise, it can only be counterproductive. ”
Zuo Jian tried to organize the wording, "Okay, for example, if you want to be a qualified teacher, a qualified class teacher, then just work hard in this direction, I think the mistake you are making now is that you don't give yourself too much time, and you always want to change from an inexperienced new teacher to an experienced class teacher all of a sudden." It's like pulling out seedlings to help grow, too much of a hurry. ”