Ji Chendong's expression was gloomy, his eyes stared deeply at An Jing, who was pale and couldn't see the slightest blood on his cheeks, and his voice was hoarse and low: "In the morgue." ”

The words were loud, An Jing lifted the quilt covering his body, and then prepared to get out of bed, looking at An Jing's movements, Ji Chendong immediately reached out and grabbed her shoulder, and said with a worried face: "What are you doing?" ”

An Jing stretched out his hand and pulled out the needle in his hand, blood poured out along the needle, and his tone couldn't hear the ups and downs, and he was surprisingly light: "I'm going to see my mother." ”

After speaking, he stretched out his hand to push Ji Chendong who was blocking him, and saw that the back of An Jing's fair and warm hand was suddenly bruised and swollen, and there were wet blood stains on it, Ji Chendong reached out to hold An Jing's shoulder and didn't let her move.

The voice was soothing and low and pleasant, and he whispered, "Wife, the doctor said you need to rest." ”

At this time, An Jing couldn't hear what Ji Chendong said at all, but just insisted on getting off the bed, muttering in his mouth: "No, I'm going to see my mother, where my mother is alone, it will be cold, my mother just told me that she is very cold......"

"Wife ......"

Bang!

Before Ji Chendong's words fell, the door of the ward was vigorously pushed open from the outside, and before the two of them could react, a crisp slap fell firmly on An Jing's cheek, and An Jing instantly turned his head sideways with this force.

"It's all you, it's all you, why didn't you die."

An Ying had red eyes, staring at An Jing on the hospital bed with a fierce look, full of anger, Ji Chendong, who reacted in the next second, stretched out his hand to push An Ying away, his face was full of displeasure, and he looked at An Jing with a cold look in his eyes, and then scolded: "What are you doing." ”

An Ying roared, "In your eyes, is money more important than your mother's life? Isn't it okay for you to give money, didn't I tell you, I'm afraid, why don't you give it, you and I don't give anything. An Ying shook her shoulders and yelled.

An Jing shook his head in despair and said in a low voice: "I gave ...... I gave, I didn't not give it. ”

Ji Chendong, who was separated by An Ying behind him, saw this, immediately pulled An Ying's body away, and said in a deep voice: "Let go." ”

An Jing's eyes were blank, and he muttered to himself, "I gave ...... I really give. ”

Ji Chendong looked at An Ying condescendingly, and scolded sternly: "You shut up for me, it's not An Jing's fault. ”

An Jing got off the hospital bed, stood barefoot on the ground, and walked outside with a pale face: "I'm going to see my mother, I'm going to see my mother." ”

Turning around and seeing An Jing walking outside in a panic, Ji Chendong hurriedly walked towards her, stretched out his hand to stop An Jing's waist, pulled him into his arms, and called worriedly: "Wife." ”

Hearing the sound, after half a sound, An Jing slowly raised his head from Ji Chendong's arms, his black almond eyes were covered with dampness after the mist, which was particularly touching at the moment, which made people pity.

The dry lips slowly opened, and he groaned in a dull and low voice: "Husband, I want to see my mother." ”

The soft and lingering voice outlined on the tip of Ji Chendong's heart, itchy, painful, pitying, pitying, staring at An Jing's helpless eyes, in a stiff heart, it would be ruined at this moment, tilting for her.

Ji Chendong raised his hand to rub An Jing's cold cheeks, and said softly: "Okay, let's put on our shoes and go, okay." ”

An Jing bowed.

An Ying on the side said angrily: "You are not qualified to go." ”

After that, Ji Chendong turned his head suddenly, his eyes were full of anger, and with a hint of indifference and coldness, he said in a loud voice: "Shut up the fuck, you can get out of me if you say more." ”

The words were loud, and An Ying was also calmed by Ji Chendong's deterrence, shrugged his shoulders in shock, and then forced his lips to stop, his eyes were also full of tears, and they fell when he touched them.

Ji Chendong glanced at her coldly, walked to the bed, bent down to pick up the shoes on the ground, turned around and walked in front of An Jing, and put it on delicately for the lifeless An Jing.

An Jing looked stunned, his eyes fell on a certain place without focus, and after putting on shoes for An Jing, Ji Chendong reached out and hugged her waist, his movements seemed to be very careful, for fear of knocking her.

The cold aura surrounded An Jing's body, and the piercing coldness made her shiver, standing beside Lin Wan, looking down at her gray cheeks, reaching out and slowly attaching her cold face, An Jing rubbed it carefully.

Attached to her ear, she whispered softly, and the voice seemed to echo in this empty morgue, desolate and pitying: "Mom, why don't you want me to dress you just now, you see that your face is so cold, and your hands are so cold......"

An Jing said in his mouth, his warm little hands kept rubbing Lin Wan's already cold palms, his eyes were red, and the mist condensed in an instant, and his voice trembled: "Mom...... You get up and put on some clothes to sleep well, so that it will be warmer. ”

As she spoke, hot tears fell on Lin Wan's cold face, and disappeared silently, An Jing lay on Lin Wan's body with red eyes and wept.

Seeing this, Ji Chendong was also uncomfortable, walked behind An Jing with steps, gently pulled her body, hugged her tightly in his arms, and said in a tight voice: "Wife, don't be like this, Mom will be uncomfortable." ”

An Jing reached out and grabbed the placket of Ji Chendong's chest, buried it in his chest, and the hot tears in his eyes also poured on Ji Chendong's coat, maybe he had released his emotions before, or he was exhausted.

This will An Jing just bit his lip quietly, and his throat made a small beast-like crying sound, which made people feel distressed when he heard it.

His chin rested on the top of An Jing's head, a touch of pain flashed in his eyes, depression, pity, his arms tightened, one hand was still on her back, and he kept stroking her back.

An Jing stretched out his hand and quietly grabbed his clothes, and his voice intermittently groaned: "I have no relatives anymore...... The person who loves me the most is gone, and my mother doesn't want me anymore. ”

The words were resounding, Ji Chendong tightened his arm, kept reassuring her above her head, and whispered: "Wife, I want you, you and I love you, you still have a sister, you still have my husband, we all still want you, we all love you, you are not alone." ”

An Jing didn't seem to hear Ji Chendong's voice, and said to himself: "I didn't hurt my mother...... I'm ready to give them money, I'm really ready to give them money. ”

Ji Chendong gently stroked the back of An Jing's head, and said softly: "I know, I know." ”

An Jing raised his head from Ji Chendong's arms with tears on his face, his face was pale, he looked at Ji Chendong pitifully, and said, "I didn't harm my mother, I really prepared money." ”

Stretched out his hand to rub her skin, his eyes were full of pity, his voice was so soft that he couldn't be soft, leaned over to meet her gaze, and said softly: "I know, I know it's not you who hurt Mom, everything is not your fault, and Mom won't blame you." ”

After speaking, raising her cheeks, Ji Chendong gently pecked on her bloodless lips, lips to lips, and the breath of the two also surrounded each other, and said softly: "It's not your fault, it's not your fault." ”

Maybe it was in Ji Chendong's low voice, the tense nerves suddenly relaxed, An Jing's eyes darkened, and he softened, and then he didn't know anything.

…………

When An Jing woke up again, it was already the next day, and Ji Chendong was taking care of Lin Wan's funeral, and after waking up, An Jing was wearing linen and filial piety in front of Lin Wan's mourning hall.

According to Ji Chendong's request, the funeral was not held very grandly, and it was held in a low-key manner, and there were no relatives in Anjing, Zhangcheng, and most of the people who came to mourn came in front of Ji Chendong.

An Jing was expressionless, standing aside with a wooden face, bending down to return the salute to everyone, Ye Lin also gave Lin Wan a stick of incense with Duan Yi's support, and then walked in front of An Jing.

Ye Lin has been kept in captivity by Duan Yi for a while now, and she hasn't paid much attention to the news outside, and after learning that Lin Wan died, Ye Lin's first reaction was to worry about An Jing.

At this time, looking at An Jing, who was mechanical and emotionless, Ye Lin covered her mouth, her eyes were red, and the tears in her eyes were pouring out, and a thousand words were just one word: "Ah Jing......"

Hearing this, An Jing's movements were very slow, like a puppet being pulled by a rope, raising his eyes to look at the person in front of him, the corners of his lips stiffly raised upward, and his voice was hoarse and low: "You are coming." ”

Ye Lin choked up and said, "Ah Jing......"

Hearing this, An Jing raised his hand, reached out and touched Ye Lin's cheek, wiped away the tears on her face with his fingertips, and responded softly: "What are you crying about, I'm not good." ”

Ye Lin really couldn't help An Jing pretending to be calm in front of her, and reached out to hug her body, her voice was uncontrollable, and she cried loudly, and the entire mourning hall was filled with Ye Lin's crying.

I don't know if I have dried up my tears, or if I have accepted the reality, An Jing's heart is very calm at this time, and there is not a single tear in his eyes, but he comforts Ye Lin: "Don't look at it, it's not good for a pregnant woman to cry." ”

As soon as the words fell, Duan Yi behind Ye Lin also stepped forward, took Ye Lin from An Jing's arms into his words, and comforted him softly: "Don't cry, crying like this will hurt the baby." ”

Ye Lin was still crying sadly in Duan Yi's arms, seeing this, An Jing looked at Duan Yi lightly, and said indifferently: "Help her out, it's not good for pregnant women to stay here." ”

Duan Yi bowed his head and said, "Mourning." ”

Hearing this, the corners of An Jing's mouth tugged slightly, and he responded in a light voice: "I know." ”

Next, in the face of the people who came to mourn one by one, whether they heard a familiar voice or an unfamiliar voice, An Jing always hung her head, so that people couldn't see the look in her eyes, and kept repeating the same sentence in her mouth: "Thank you." ”

An Jing didn't expect Chen Songling to come over on the last day, looking at Chen Songling in black in front of her, An Jing was also calm, and her indifferent face made people unable to see any emotion, she bent her body slightly, and called softly and politely: "Auntie." ”

Chen Songling bowed her head, opened her mouth, wanted to say but didn't want to say, and finally just reached out and patted her shoulder, An Jing lowered her head at this time, and missed a faint distress in Chen Songling's eyes.

glanced sideways at Ji Chendong beside An Jing, met Chen Songling's gaze, and shouted, "Mom." ”

Chen Songling reached out and touched Ji Chendong's shoulder, and Yu Guang glanced at An Jing, who had been lowering her head, and said, "Take good care of her." ”

Ji Chendong nodded and responded, "I will." ”

…………

The weather was still clear in the morning of the funeral, and when it was time for the funeral, it was suddenly covered with dark clouds, the sky was also drifting away with hazy light rain, the temperature also dropped suddenly, and the cold breeze blew Anjing's heart depressed and dull.

An Jing stopped motionless in front of Lin Wan's tombstone, her jet-black hair was also wet by the drifting light rain, and the hair was also sticky to the sides of her cheeks, which further set off her thinner and thinner face.

She thought that she had no more tears, she had dried up all her tears in the past few days, but when she saw Lin Wan's ashes being sealed, An Jing's tear ducts seemed to be stimulated by something, and her tears couldn't be stopped, and they slipped down wantonly like spring water.

An Jing knelt in front of Lin Wan's tombstone, and at this time, only her and Ji Chendong were left in front of the tombstone, Ji Chendong held a black umbrella in his hand, standing motionless and quietly beside An Jing to accompany her.

Leaning her head on the tombstone, An Jing tilted her head slightly, she seemed to see Lin Wan waving at her not far away, and in the blink of an eye, Lin Wan's figure disappeared into the gray sky.

The corners of An Jing's lips rose slightly, her fingertips rubbed the photos in the tombstone, and her voice was extremely soft: "My mother was telling me a few days ago that she wanted to watch me get married in a beautiful wedding dress, and when she was engaged to Tang Shaoyuan for the first time, my mother felt ashamed of me and felt that she didn't have the face to attend my engagement ceremony, and this time she was waiting for a day with joy." ”

After that, An Jing lowered his head, chuckled, and then continued: "This time, my mother's wish was disappointed again, I still have no blessings from relatives at my wedding, I will always be alone, do you say that I am not a broom star, the first time Tang Shaoyuan got married, but he was in a car accident before marriage, this time I got married, my mother will leave me forever, and I will never see her again." ”

Ji Chendong said peacefully: "That's not your fault. ”

After a pause, An Jing laughed mockingly, opened his lips lightly, and said softly: "Do you say that our wedding will not go smoothly either, and we will always stay at the step of getting engaged, and then ......"

Before An Jing's words could speak, Ji Chendong immediately interrupted the words she was about to blurt out next: "No, I will definitely tie the knot smoothly." ”

Hearing this, the corners of An Jing's lips rose, chuckled, and said in a low voice: "I hope." ”

…………

After returning from the cemetery, An Jing had a high fever for several days, the whole person was confused, and she locked herself in the bedroom every day, no matter what Ji Chendong told her, she was weak and listless. After Lin Wan died, An Ying lived in the Nanguo Mansion for a period of time.

But An Ying's workload has also increased now, and most of the time is in the crew, so during this period of time, Ji Chendong also spent a lot of time with An Jing every day, and when he went home at noon one day, he found that there was no An Jing at home, and he called her anxiously, and the mobile phone ringtone came from the bedroom.

Inside and outside the apartment, there was no one in the apartment, and the worry in his heart spread infinitely, Ji Chendong found a lot of positions, in March, the temperature in Zhangcheng was still not high, and it could even be said to be cold, but even in this weather, Ji Chendong was still sweating and his eyes were full of anxiety.

Ji Chendong searched a lot of places, studios, Ye Lina, the places they usually go to, Ji Chendong parked the car on the road, holding a cigarette between his index fingers, and a few green smoke suddenly filled the entire carriage, and his obscure expression was hidden in the dark.

The orange-red fireworks flickered brightly, Ji Chendong took a deep puff of the cigarette, as if thinking of something, Ji Chendong annihilated the cigarette, the car flashed like a meteor, and quickly stopped in Heidelberg Garden.

Standing at the door of the apartment, hanging his hands, for a half-ring, Ji Chendong stood motionless in place, silent for a moment, he finally reached out and opened the door, and with a 'beep' Ji Chendong pushed open the door of the apartment.

There was no heating in the apartment, the moment he opened the door, the cold on his face poked his heart, in the evening, there was no light in the house, a dim light outside the window refracted in, and he could barely see the furnishings in the house.

Standing at the entrance with a 'snap', Ji Chendong turned on the light bulb in the house, he closed the door with his backhand, walked straight upstairs with his steps, standing at the door of the bedroom, Ji Chendong saw An Jing sleeping on the bed, curled up, holding Lin Wan's clothes in his arms.

Standing at the door of the bedroom, Ji Chendong couldn't help but sigh secretly, and the hanging heart suddenly fell.

Ji Chendong walked in front of An Jing, she was facing the window, and the lights were not turned on in the bedroom, but the half-bright light outside the window shone on her face, and Ji Chendong could still see her face clearly.

Curled up, her brows were tightly locked, the pillow was still wet, and there were still tears on her curly eyelashes, Ji Chendong sat beside the bed full of distress, and her slender fingers caressed her fair cheeks.

She was already slender, but since Lin Wan died, she has become more and more thin, her palm-sized face is now even smaller, and he can only see the black and white eyes on her face on her whole face, but she has lost her previous brilliance.

Rubbing his fingertips against her eyes, he called out loudly: "Wife, wife is up." ”

After that, An Jing just rubbed Ji Chendong's thick palm, and his closed eyes showed no sign of opening them.

Ji Chendong couldn't help but reach out and gently shook An Jing's shoulder, and called out again: "Wife." ”

"Hmm......"

An Jing frowned, half a sound, and then slowly opened his heavy eyes, seeing this, Ji Chendong said, "Wife, get up." ”

Hearing the sound, An Jing looked sideways at Ji Chendong above him, staring at him with blinking eyes, in Ji Chendong's eyes, An Jing was a ceramic doll that was easily broken at this time, stretched out his hand and gently rubbed the corners of her lips, and said softly: "Why did you come here?" ”

Blinking his eyes a few times, An Jing's voice was low, and he said sullenly, "I miss my mother." ”

Hearing this, Ji Chendong lowered the curtain and looked at An Jing, and the movements in his hands did not stop, and said softly: "Remember to bring your mobile phone next time you come over, don't let me worry." ”

An Jing bowed.

Ji Chendong said: "Get up and let's go home." ”

After a pause, An Jing stretched out his hand from the quilt and put his hand in front of Ji Chendong, seeing this, he raised his eyebrows lightly at her, An Jing's voice was low and melancholy, and there was a hint of pitiful tone: "Husband, hug me." ”

After that, Ji Chendong picked An Jing up from the bed through the quilt, and then held it in his arms, his palm behind her head, and gently stroked it one by one.

An Jing reached out and hugged Ji Chendong's body, buried his cheek in his neck socket, sniffed the familiar smell on his body deeply, and said sullenly: "Husband, I'm sorry." ”

Ji Chendong rubbed his palms and responded softly: "Why are you sorry for me?" ”

An Jing said: "I'm sorry for making you worry about me all the time. ”

Hearing this, Ji Chendong chuckled, just hugged her tightly and remained silent.

…………

After coming out of the Heidelberg Gardens that night, An Jing's mood was obviously much better than before, but it seemed to have returned to the time when he didn't talk much, and many times he was cold and indifferent.

An Zhicheng was sentenced to life imprisonment, which also announced that his future life would have been spent in prison, and after being sentenced, An Zhicheng deliberately applied to let An Jing come to visit him, but An Jing rejected his request.

No matter what reason he wanted to meet, An Jing didn't want to see him, when she saw him, she would think of Lin Wan's death, hating a person was tired, An Jing didn't want to live in hatred, and she was not a person suitable for carrying hatred on her body.

She can only be out of sight and out of mind.

It's been a month since I met Ye Lin, since the last time I said goodbye to the mourning hall, An Jing and Ye Lin didn't seem to see each other for more than four months, sitting in the café, An Jing looked at Ye Lin who was full of maternal love, the corners of his lips couldn't help but rise, and he smiled softly: "Drink something." ”

After that, without waiting for Ye Lin to reply, An Jing said straightforwardly: "Drink milk." As he spoke, he called the waiter and ordered a cup of black coffee and a glass of hot milk.

An Jing propped his elbows on the table, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, and said softly, "How are you now?" ”

Ye Lin shrugged her shoulders and said loudly, "Don't advance or retreat." ”

An Jing took the opportunity to say, "Duan Yi's mother still hasn't agreed to you being together?" ”

Hearing this, Ye Lin nodded and responded, "I don't agree or object." ”

An Jing smiled and said, "That means it's a good thing." ”

"I hope so."

Ye Lin sat on the sofa, reached out and stroked her slightly bulging belly, and said with a light smile: "I can't be your bridesmaid with a big belly." ”

"You just be honest and pregnant." An Jing smiled: "I don't dare to torture you, if I toss the baby in your belly at that time, I don't know what Duan Yi will do to me at that time." ”

Hearing this, Ye Lin smiled happily, then raised her eyes to look at her, and asked aloud, "When are you going to have a child?" ”

This book was first published in Reading Books