I have seen too many examples of how powerful the virus is, and I know it very well, but when the virus really starts to work on me, I still feel that the self-righteous clarity in the past is really unclear.

Unlike getting sick, the whole process of the virus spreading in your body and controlling your body and even your thoughts is actually felt by yourself, but you have nothing to do with it, and there is no possibility of resistance.

When I woke up from that night, I began to have a high fever that did not go away, and this situation that had occurred in the past when I was seriously ill in the past now made me unable to cope with it at all.

At that time, at least I could know that it was uncomfortable or painful, but now the whole person only feels numb, and everywhere is numb.

It's not uncomfortable or painful, it's just a feeling that makes you want to fall into a certain situation... When I was clear-headed, I knew that once I was completely in that situation, it actually meant that the virus completely took over my body.

Like a puddle of mud, the whole person has basically entered the final stage.

Occasionally sober for a few minutes, see Shuyin next to me, immediately confess to her, anyway, she has nowhere to go in the future, I hope if she can go back to the Wuhan shelter with Chen Wei, occasionally sometimes... Take care of the children for me.

Shuyin wiped her tears and blamed me for being unlucky, but finally nodded in agreement.

My vision could only see the person sitting in front of me, so I didn't know if there was anyone in the room other than the person in front of me.

But it doesn't matter anymore, no one cares about someone who is dying.

When Suotian appeared in front of me, I grabbed his sleeve with almost all my strength, and at this time I couldn't control my tongue very much, and the numbness had reached my face: "Suotian... You... What you said last time can... Can save me, I'm grateful... But don't, don't save me, I have no hope, don't let me be like this anymore... Hurt you... Venture... You also have children... Having a wife... Tell..... Tell Chen Wei that no... Don't save me. ”

Suotian looked at me with eyes that kept shaking again, hanging into the gentleness that had never appeared before, letting me grab his sleeve, Suotian nodded: "I know." (Advertisement)"

In fact... From the moment Suo Tian said that he could save me, I had already made up my mind that I would never let that day happen, because of the look on his face at the time... It's unprecedentedly heavy, and as you can imagine, if they want to save me this time, I'm afraid they will have to pay a very, very heavy price.

I don't want to see that picture again, if someone I care about gives their lives for my rotten life, then what's the use of self-blame later?

............

When I knew that I didn't have much time, Xiao Wu still didn't show up, I want to tell her, it's not that I'd rather die than let go of Chen Wei, that's Chen Wei's own choice, I can't control these things at all in the future, it's just that she is too selfish in many things, I still have two children, and Chen Wei is their only one after I don't have me, how can I let someone like her be the stepmother of my child;.

I'll admit it's a bit selfish... But there are so many things in this world that cannot be conceded by sympathy.

I don't have time to wait for Xiao Wu to show up, so I said this to Shuyin with difficulty, hoping that she can convey it for me.

Shuyin looked at me and nodded after listening: "I'll tell her, why don't you think about these things, Xiao Wu... She knows how to go her own way. ”

.................

The surroundings were confused.

Faintly, the surroundings seemed to be much brighter, and in a trance I saw many familiar people standing by the bedside.

My brother and grandmother, both of them had a gentle smile on their faces, and my brother stood by the bed and waved at me: "Silent, long time no see." ”

I stared blankly at my brother's face, strange and so familiar and familiar, and suddenly I wanted to cry, but there were no tears.

At this moment, Chen Wei's voice came from his ears......

He was whispering my name.

The elder brother smiled: "Go talk to him, my grandmother and I are waiting for you here." ”

I reluctantly glanced at my brother and my grandmother standing beside my brother: "Don't go, I'll be back in a while." ”

The elder brother nodded: "Go ahead." ”

....................

I opened my eyes slightly, and just such a slight movement made me feel very tired.

Chen Wei held me in his arms, he hugged me very tightly, close to my face, his head hung very low, and he was still calling my name, and his voice was as gentle as in his dream: "He Mo... Why don't sleep. ”

I squinted my eyes and felt extremely tired: "Chen Wei... I... I am so tired. ”

Chen Wei shook his head: "No, He Mo, don't sleep." Six words, Chen Wei choked twice before he finished speaking, and tears fell to my shoulders, which were hot.

My heart suddenly hurt very much, I wanted to reach out and touch Chen Wei's face, but I couldn't do it at all: "Don't cry, Chen Wei... When you cry, I'm... Reluctantly leaving. ”

Chen Wei pressed his face tightly against mine, and finally cried out of his voice, he cried pitifully: "I beg you, I beg you, don't go." “

"Chen Wei..." only called out his name, and I didn't have the strength to say anything superfluous.

A large thick darkness began to spread in front of him...... Fast and silent.

The darkness made me powerless to resist, but I was not afraid.

The brain is chaotic faster than the spreading darkness, and I'm starting to forget what my name is... What has happened to me, what has happened... Or even what are you going through.........

I only felt that when the darkness spread and enveloped me, my body was more relaxed than ever;

Just as I was about to immerse myself in the darkness, there seemed to be a voice in the distance, and it seemed so familiar to me that I couldn't tell it... In just a moment, darkness enveloped me...

Chen Wei....... I'm sorry, but I couldn't say goodbye to you until the end.

..............................

He Mo died.

It's really dead.

On a sunny afternoon, he went quietly in Chen Wei's arms.

After her death, Dr. Min quickly came to inject her with something, and she was supposed to be a corpse and did not change in any way, and the whole person seemed to be asleep, lying in Chen Wei's arms, not like her at all.

He Mo's departure almost cost Chen Wei's life, he hugged He Mo's corpse and cried speechlessly, Suo Tian stood next to him silently accompanied him, when Dr. Min injected He Mo with something that made her completely unable to stand up again, Suo Tian stepped forward and grabbed Chen Wei's shoulder, Chen Wei only said a word to Suo Tian at this moment.

He said, lock the sky, what should I do? He Mo is gone.

The first time I saw Chen Wei, I was with He Mo and the boss and a few of them outside the barbed wire, at that time he sat quietly under the tree alone, with flower petals flying beside him, he was so beautiful and quiet that people couldn't take their eyes off it.

He Mo must love him very much, the two of them are so old, and her eyes when she looked at Chen Wei could still be full of amazement.

When I was on the boat, He Mo once drank too much, and once hugged my shoulder and said to me, "Shuyin, do you know? I love Chen Wei so much... How could I love him so much? What is love? Strange or not? I don't know what love is, but I know that I love Chen Wei so much. “

...........

He Mo loved Chen Wei so much, holding He Mo's corpse at the moment, he couldn't accept what was happening in front of him at all, he kept crying, crying all the time. Sticking to He Mo's face, which had long been out of temperature, that face would never smile again, would not open his eyes, and would not call Chen Wei's name sweetly or carefully.

Unable to bear to look any further, Shuyin left the room.

Gao Yu stood outside, looking at the quiet courtyard outside with his back hand.

Sensing Shuyin's approaching footsteps, Gao Yu lowered his face: "He Mo, you will wake up." ”

Shuyin didn't understand: "How do you know?" ”

Gao Yu shook his head: "I don't know, guess." ”

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