Chapter 15: Impermanence
"A friend once told me that a visit to my lover's grave would take away the pain. γLatest chapter reading. He also heard it from somewhere else, but he advised me to try it. β
I knew she was still lying there, guiding me my way back.
I've tried so much that I can't remember when I met her. The war is over, and there are so many sad experiences that my memory is blurred a lot. If I'm honest, probably no one will believe it, but I don't care: I have the impression that when there seems to be a memory, there is her. How long ago can a person remember, how old is a baby to remember, and does a person have memories of before birth? I would say that I knew her before everything happened.
I don't know why I'm reminiscing about this, she'll laugh at me. One year during the Spring Festival, I learned one thing from the conversations and malicious jokes of the adults: Qiao Hongyu was my distant cousin. Forget it, I don't want to mention my family, not a word.
When I was in elementary school, we were in the same school and class, and my father always told me to take care of her more, come back together after school, and don't let her walk alone at night if she is too late for self-study. In fact, they don't need to say this, Qiao Hongyu is always with me. The compound we live in is at the back of the school, and we have to go around a long path through the back door to get home after school. In retrospect, the trail was lined with strange trees, and walking in it was like walking in the middle of a canyon sandwiched by a forest, which was scary and exciting. I remember that she would always stop coldly, crouch down, and quietly look at some unremarkable flower on the side of the road, and look at it for a long time.
She has a very quiet personality and is the complete opposite of me. For me, she was very introverted and always devoted herself to contemplation, or buried in a book, which she would read for hours on end. Qiao Hongyu is a very smart girl, and in front of her, I have always been a primary school student. When I can't do my homework, I dump the problem at her, and she always solves it quickly. I don't know when, presumably, after she got tired of reasoning, then she started to secretly show me some very strange books, which I couldn't read at all, but she was just interested in those jerky and weird things. I have always admired what she saw and heard, and gradually, somehow, I was influenced by her and began to like those mysterious things. I was too young to understand everything, but I could help her get the books she couldn't reach.
You know, there's always a "mystery house" in the library. A lot of big libraries have a low mezzanine between two floors for very, very old books that are old or unattended, with no lights and no caretakers. Qiao Hongyu loves to go there the most, but those bookshelves are too high, and it is my job to climb up and down.
I couldn't read the books she loved, I just felt her hands were cold. She often opened the dusty cover with her cold hands in the library, and sometimes held my hand, I felt that her body temperature was about to be sucked away by those strange books, but she was always excited to explain to me the meaning of those strange foreign words in the book, like a song, her voice was very beautiful, especially at night, it was a frightening and beautiful voice.
I admit I was a little scared of her. She was about to turn 15 that year.
One day, she suddenly grabbed me with her cold hand, and that wonderful voice told me a terrible thing. She said that she had a dream in which she was buried alive, and she knew she was alive, but she was buried in the mausoleum, but I abandoned her and only cared about having fun outside. When she woke up, she couldn't forget the dream. With that, she fell into a deep melancholy.
"I swear to her: I will never leave her, never turn my back on her. These words are utterly sincere. At that time, although she was only a child, she was very serious and happy about this vow. I felt her pale face flush again. β
"I understand." Chloe sat in front of her, listening.
In retrospect, she had been planning a death since that day.
She took me to the first mausoleum, and it was an empty tomb, as I said. Later, there were some such locations, all of which were very eerie, and I didn't want to go into the details of these mausoleums, but now that I think about it, I still find it very scary. Although each secret location called a mausoleum changes, it is only related to moving, which means that only one place can be called a "mausoleum" at a time.
I thought she was just reading too many strange books and too deeply, and felt that the future had lost its freshness, so she was choosing the end of her life. I think she's already laying out me and her death.
But then I realized I was wrong. She is indeed laying out our death, but not as an end, but as a starting point. β
"The starting point?" Chloe couldn't help but ask.
"The starting point, the starting point to the other world."
"Is it the other side of the Hundred Day Ghost?"
"Yes." Speaking of this, I couldn't help but sigh, "I only learned the name of the other side world later, and Qiao Hongyu knew that there was such an electronic soul world long before I participated in the Hundred Days Ghost Project. β
"You're saying that the world on the other side does exist, and people can be resurrected after death."
"I don't believe it. Theory may make sense, but it doesn't make sense to me. β
Qiao Hongyu longed for it very much, she must have seen it from some strange book. According to her, when people die, they go to a place called the other world, which is infinitely large and infinitely beautiful. Of course, the beauty she narrated always made me feel a little inexplicably scary. If you just talk about it, that place is probably no different from hell, heaven, and reincarnation. But she told me that going there is not death, that souls can go back and forth, but that it takes "a leader to open the door". Otherwise, the soul will become fragments in the doorway, and those things may lose their main essence and become an inexplicable mist, or they may become monsters.
"Puppets?"
"Yes. In the whooping ghost system, it may be easier to explain. The unmanned system is operated by a human, and in the process the operator's personality is recorded and simulated, and once the operation is interrupted, it calculates and acts with the operator's simulated personality. Like cloning, the Whooping System is cloning souls. β
"Ah, that's right." Chloe leaned in, "It's like copying a soul." If you copy all the souls of the whole world on a hard disk, that hard disk is the other world. The so-called resurrection is to copy a specific soul and enter it into the wooden man. The wooden man and the copied soul are the equivalent of the resurrected man. β
"You're really fast. In simple terms, it can probably be compared to this, but it is actually much more complicated. It seems easier to say, but I don't understand the principle myself, "So, what do you think?" Simulated personality, is that you? Exactly the same simulation, exactly the same. β
"That's not me either."
"But do you think I'm still me? Chloe, I've also woken up from the system, maybe I've been a simulated personality for a long time. β
Chloe was dumbfounded.
I laughed.
"Nasty, you scare me. You're definitely you, yes, I pulled you out of the system, I'll admit my mistake. Thinking about the details of this incident, she blushed a little.
"However, when you are confronted with a simulated personality created by a hundred day ghosts, you will never be able to tell the difference. Can you imagine those who you miss the dead, they can come back to you. The other side of the world is a large environment for simulated personalities to calculate and calculate with each other, and this system was developed much earlier than I thought. β
If you extrapolate from time, Qiao Hongyu was fascinated by these mystic things in the other world, which should be earlier than the Hundred Days Ghost Project. I once suspected that Qiao Hongyu was the inspiration for Qiao Fu and even the entire engineering team, but then the plan went out of control, and Qiao Fu felt that it was his responsibility to prevent the continuation of the Hundred Days Ghost Project so extremely.
"Everything ends at the last mausoleum."
Osaka, the place where the Entente was signed at the end of the war, the place where the Hyakini was destroyed, and the place where all strange things began.
Until now, I don't know what happened on the day of the "doomsday" that Qiao Hongyu said.
The only fact I know is that when I accompanied Qiao Hongyu to hide from someone, Qiao Fu died. Actually, I didn't feel sudden, the split of the Hundred Days Ghost Engineering Task Force, the split of the Seven Aces of the First Sino-Japanese War, and many other things, I don't want to talk about them, they make me uncomfortable and disgusting, I really can't be with those people, and I even hate the whole system. Anyway, the war is over, I decided to leave, the farther away the better, to become a mercenary, no longer have to care about the world.
"However, you promised Qiao Hongyu ......"
"Never leave her, I know. But she couldn't go with me, she wouldn't leave the mausoleum. I had been with her for a while, but it was so eerie that it was like hell, and I chose to go outside, to a place where I didn't have to worry about anything, and no one knew about me. So I returned her to Qiao Fu's family and left. I didn't expect to see her again......"
The 100-day ghost incident in the Shangtang base, reminiscing will only make you sadder, stop it.
"When she died, where was she buried?"
"I don't know. After the Hundred Days Ghost was resurrected, Shi Yi took her body with him. Wherever it is, it should be the last, real mausoleum. But she didn't get peace, someone took advantage of her simulated personality, and the wooden man on the Glorious Liaoning was Qiao Hongyu, who came back from the dead. Whatever the conspiracy is, I'm not going to let them do it. β
"I see......," Chloe bowed her head, "if she, if the Hundred Days, if this is not over, you will be leaving again." β
"This is the last time."
"No, don't say last." Chloe leaned over and put her arms around my legs, leaning her face on my knees, "I'll go with you this time." β
"Kara's plane isn't that wide."
As soon as I got here, I knew something was wrong, and the sound of footsteps outside the door indicated that Kara was striding forward. She never knocked on the door, and broke in directly: "The Hundred Days Ghost has appeared!" As he spoke, he handed over the observation record.
"It's not like a whooper. But weird, I can't tell what it is. Where is the signal source? β
"Oriental Rim." Kara hesitated for a moment before adding, "Yes, the orientation of the new Minsk." β
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