“…… Liu Fei, are you okay? ”

Shen Yuxin leaned against the tree, stared at the mound in the distance, and muttered to herself.

That mound is the tomb of the two children of Sanmaozi and Erya, because they are young, according to customs, they do not engrave the words on the tablet for the children.

The mound stood alone, and months passed, and in front of the mound there were already dots of grass, gently swaying in the breeze. It seems to be silently telling their short life.

Just now, Zuo Jian jokingly said that he wanted to introduce someone to Shen Yuxin.

At that moment, Shen Yuxin's heart involuntarily remembered a name, Liu Fei.

The young man who was missing an arm and always wanted to show confidence in front of her, but in fact, he couldn't help but have a trace of inferiority in his every move, and often stared at his young man intently.

"Ask the world, what is love, and the direct teaching promises life and death......," Shen Yuxin said in a low voice. In the past, when she saw this sentence, she always thought that the poet had written too exaggerated.

There will always be such a bloody plot of men and women who love each other and do not care about their lives on TV dramas, and after watching too much, they will become numb, and even feel that it is too fake, in this era of money, many people have long lost their faith, the only thing they chase is money, in their eyes, money is simply more important than their own lives.

So Shen Yuxin didn't believe that in this world, there are really people who regard other people's lives as more important than their own lives.

If there is really such a person, then Shen Yuxin believes that this person must only exist in the fairy tale world.

As she picked up a green grass on the ground, Shen Yuxin bit it with her teeth, and when Zuo Jian was joking just now, her heart, for a moment, was very panicked, and even a little frightened. She didn't know why she felt the way she did. Fortunately, she hid her emotions in time.

But no one can control the emotion. The name Liu Fei seems to be like a key that can open Pandora's box, once it comes out of the depths of the heart, it will hover in his mind.

Shen Yuxin didn't know why she came to the resting place of these two children, perhaps, deep in her subconscious, she always felt that Liu Fei and these two children had something in common...... Just, what exactly is the same place? She was also a little unclear.

Maybe it's because they're still young!

Bei Yan bit the grass lightly, looking at the sky with beautiful eyes, and the corners of Shen Yuxin's eyes were unconsciously a little moist.

Although it has been a long time since the previous days, there are times when Shen Yuxin thinks about it, and she always feels as if it happened yesterday. In front of her eyes, the scene always comes to mind, and that scene seems to be frozen in her mind.

“…… Yuxin, you go quickly, leave me alone......"

Liu Fei hugged Holfield's leg tightly, looking at Shen Yuxin's eyes, full of tenderness, attachment and reluctance, that gaze seemed to tell his inner thoughts, those eyes were so good-looking. Shen Yuxin sometimes thinks that the most beautiful eyes in the world are Liu Fei's eyes.

“…… What was he thinking at the time? ”

Shen Yuxin looked at the sky stupidly. She knew that Liu Fei must have been thinking in her heart at that time, as long as she was safe, it would be fine.

He is willing to give everything, even his life, for his own safety. Shen Yuxin sometimes hates herself very much. If he hadn't brought up to pick up things back and forth that day, he wouldn't have met Holfield, and Liu Fei would naturally not have died.

If there were regret pills in the world that could be bought, how great would it be? Let all the regrets and regrets that have happened have a chance to start over.

Thinking in her heart, a smile appeared on Shen Yuxin's pretty face, but in an instant, her smile was replaced by bitter tears.

Crystal clear tears, like beads, slipped down her eyes and dripped onto the ground beside her. Yes, Shen Yuxin felt guilty. And the biggest reason why she feels guilty is because she hates herself. She felt that a large part of the reason for Liu Fei's death was due to her.

So Shen Yuxin couldn't forgive herself. But she didn't tell anyone about it. Including her sister Shen Monong. No one knows that there are many nights when Shen Yuxin can't sleep night after night because of the guilt in her heart. Sleepless until dawn.

With the passage of time, Shen Yuxin chose to escape, she deliberately forgot the shadow in her heart, and tried her best to make herself happy. But, she knew, she was just deceiving herself.

An unforgettable relationship will not fade and forget with the passage of time, in fact, it is deliberately chosen to forget by itself, but one day, when you think about it inadvertently, you will still burst into tears in an instant, and you can't help yourself.

……

Listening to the distance, Shen Yuxin's muttering voice was heard by the wind.

Zuo Jian was also silent.

He knew in his heart that it must be because of his unintentional joke just now that aroused Shen Yuxin's sadness. Indeed, Zuo Jian is in his heart at this moment, and he is also self-examining, the joke just now really shouldn't be said.

Originally, Zuo Jian thought that with the passage of time, Shen Yuxin had long forgotten Liu Fei...... Or rather, have come out of the shadows of that thing.

But it wasn't until that moment just now that Zuo Jian realized that he didn't understand Shen Yuxin's girl's mind at all.

Raising his head and sighing silently, Zuo Jian closed his eyes in some pain, along the way, he had too many emotional debts on his body, so that he couldn't pay it back. So many times, Zuo Jian can only selectively remember and forget.

However, Liu Fei's name still made Zuo Jian's heart faintly hurt. He subconsciously took out a cigarette and lit it with a snap.

This small movement immediately woke Shen Yuxin, who was not far away, from her memories, turned around and took a look, and found that Zuo Jian didn't know when, like a ghost, appeared behind her, she looked at Zuo Jian dumbfounded, "Brother Zuo...... When did you come? As she spoke, she subconsciously quickly wiped the corners of her eyes.

"Uh...... Would you believe me if I said I had just arrived? Zuo Jian was a little embarrassed, he was like being discovered by someone peeping at him now.

"Naturally, I won't believe it."

Shen Yuxin straightened her face and looked at him angrily, "Why are you following me?" Why don't you go back and flirt with your Yan Bing? ”

"Little girl, what do you mean by flirting? The relationship between Yan Bing and me is a pure colleague relationship and a brother and sister relationship. It's not as dirty as you think. Zuo Jian said with a righteous face.

"Bah." Shen Yuxin rolled her eyes and ignored him. Sitting alone against a big tree.

Zuo Jian thought for a moment, walked to her side, followed her example, leaned his back against the tree, sat down, and looked up at the sky.

The breeze blew, and it was very cool under the shade of the trees, and the two of them were like this, neither of them spoke, and time seemed to freeze in this instant.

After a while, Shen Yuxin sighed faintly and said, "Brother Zuo, you say, after a person dies, will there be a soul?" Will it go to heaven? ”

Zuo Jian didn't speak, he took a hard puff of cigarette, exhaling a puff of azure smoke, and then he said slowly: "Yes." ”

"That's good." Shen Yuxin whispered.

Then, the two fell silent again.

"Do you feel guilty?"

Zuo Jian slowly puffed out a puff of smoke and asked softly.

After being silent for a while, Shen Yuxin nodded lightly, "Hmm." ”

"You know what? If, if there really is a soul, in heaven, then I think Liu Fei must be uncomfortable now. Zuo Jian turned his head sideways, looked at her fixedly, and said a word.

"Why?" Shen Yuxin was stunned, with a pair of beautiful eyes, looking at Zuo Jian suspiciously.

"Because I know him well." Zuo Jian turned his head, no longer looked at her, and said as if talking to himself: "Liu Fei is an orphan, he was wandering on the streets back then, and I took him in...... No, I can't say that I took him in, but I should say that it was at that time that I got acquainted with him. ”

Shen Yuxin didn't speak, and looked at Zuo Jian quietly. As smart as she naturally knew, Zuo Jian's words were not finished.

After a pause, Zuo Jian continued: "Liu Fei is a person who is very righteous and attaches great importance to feelings...... This may have something to do with his orphan's life experience, once the person he approves, the other party's business is his business, sticking a knife in both ribs, going to the soup and going to the fire, talking about people like him. ”

Hearing this, Shen Yuxin involuntarily said: "People like him are rare now. ”

"Yes, it's rare." Zuo Jian nodded, with a smile on his face, and said, "It is precisely because he is such a person that I will become friends with him." With that, he turned his head, looked at Shen Yuxin, and said seriously: "Yuxin, you tell me the truth, do you feel guilty in your heart, is it because of regret?" ”

Shen Yuxin hesitated for a moment, subconsciously avoided Zuo Jian's eyes, turned her head, and after a minute, she took a deep breath and said: "Well, yes, I regret it, that night, why did I propose to go back to the building instead of staying in the villa, if I didn't go back that night, I wouldn't have met that person, that incident wouldn't have happened, and Liu Fei wouldn't have ...... Will you leave at such a young age......"