Chapter 69 Helplessness in life is sorrow
Because Xia Qingtai was promoted to a first-class general, and Zhaoyun was about to be admitted to the palace and named Jieyu, the general's mansion was also a group of joy. The ministers of the DPRK and China came one after another to send congratulatory gifts, and Xia Qingtai and Dongling ushered in the send-off, which was not lively. Many women with heads and faces also came to celebrate the joy of Zhaoyun's canonization, and whenever someone came, Jing's had to say some polite greetings.
For two days in a row, there was a lot of traffic in front of the general's mansion, and people came and went, and there was an endless stream. It was not until evening that the minister's wife gradually dispersed. Jing took some time out of his busy schedule, invited the best tailor in Chang'an City, tailored Zhaoyun, and carefully selected the jewelry given by the emperor, and dressed Zhaoyun very gorgeously.
Zhaoyun was unable to restrain himself, in order to reassure his parents, he forced a smile on the surface, but he felt lost in his heart. In the evening, when Zhaoyun was leaning against the window and weeping, he suddenly saw Xiaolan hesitating. Zhaoyun thought that he was going to enter the palace, Xiaolan had served him for many years, and it was inevitable that he would be reluctant, and his mood was a little calmer, so he wiped his tears and persuaded him: "Xiaolan, I am about to enter the palace, you are getting older, and you have passed the age of the palace, before entering the palace, I will ask my mother to find a good family for you, and it is not in vain that you have followed me for so many years." ”
When Xiaolan heard this, she said sadly: "Miss herself is still sad, leave me alone, there is something, I don't know whether to tell Miss or not, I am afraid that telling Miss will make Miss even more sad and sad." ”
When Zhaoyun heard this, he suddenly thought of Zixuan in his heart, could it be that something happened to Zixuan. Thinking of this, I couldn't help but blurt out, "But what's the matter with Brother Zixuan?" Xiaolan nodded, and said, "Young Master Ling asked me to tell Miss that I look forward to meeting Miss in Liulin tonight." When Zhaoyun heard this, he was just stunned, Xiao Lan looked at his demeanor and continued: "I know that when Miss hears the news, she must be entangled in her heart, if she goes to see Ling Gongzi, it will not be good to meet him except to increase his sadness. If you don't see Ling Gongzi, you can't let go of Ling Gongzi's affection. Whether or not to go, please make up your own mind. ”
"It's better not to see each other than to see each other, and it's hard to miss if you don't see each other." Zhaoyun sighed to himself, "Okay, I'll indulge myself once tonight." Brother Zixuan and I are destined for tonight, and we only hope that we will be lovesick and have no more concern for each other. ”
The bright lights and candles in front of the General's Mansion are naturally attention-grabbing. Zhaoyun originally planned to go alone, but Xiaolan couldn't rest assured, so he let Xiaolan follow. The two of them changed into dark clothes, avoided the vigil in the garden, and slipped out the back door.
As for the willow forest, Zhaoyun saw from a distance that Zixuan was already waiting there, still holding a delicate dice in his hand, so he asked Xiaolan to guard on the edge of the willow forest, and walked over slowly by himself.
When Zixuan saw Zhaoyun, his face was surprised and sad, he sighed, and said: "In just a few days, things have changed so quickly, Sister Yun will enter the palace tomorrow as Jieyu, but she is bitter and lovesick." ”
Zhaoyun was moved when he heard this, but his face did not show anything, but he said happily: "Thanks to the emperor's appreciation, my sister can enter the palace tomorrow, enjoy the glory and wealth, and be able to serve the saint, my sister is very happy in my heart, and Brother Zixuan should also be happy for my sister." ”
When Zixuan heard this, Yin Yin sighed: "Sister Yun, why do you have to be like this, what kind of person you are, I don't know yet." As the daughter of the general, the younger sister is not in the palace, but also a lifetime of glory, and the sister and the saint have never met, neither a good person, how to be happy. After a pause, seeing that Zhaoyun was speechless, he held the exquisite dice in both hands, looked at Zhaoyun, and said sadly: "The token is here, please accept it from Sister Yun." ”
Zhaoyun wanted to refuse, but he couldn't bear it, so he had to take it, open it and take a look, but it was a red bean necklace made of red thread, the red beans were of general size, all of them were crystal clear, and at a glance, he knew that it had taken a lot of fine effort. What's even more rare is that there are small characters engraved on the red beans, Zhaoyun is holding a red bean necklace, and he reads it according to the beginning of the word, but it is a modified quatrain:
There are women in Chang'an, who are absolutely indecent, slender and graceful. The most is after the spring rain every year, and the red beans are rewarded for the beauty.
There are also four small words at the bottom: Xuan Gift Zhaoyun.
Zhaoyun looked at the finely carved red bean necklace, rubbed it for a long time, but sneered: "It's really an idler's plaything, Brother Zixuan's mind, Zhaoyun doesn't dare to take it." It is said that the red beans are ugly, and the eyes are full of lovesick tears. But I think that tiredness is a ruthless thing, who will be idle with red beans. Brother Zixuan, let's take it back. ”
When Zixuan heard this, he shook his head and sighed: "I thought that red beans can best convey lovesickness, so Tete rushed to work overnight, although it took a lot of effort, in the end it was rushed out." I used to hope that after the years, you and I could bring it under the silver candle and talk about the love for each other when we were young, but now it seems that we can't. ”
Zhaoyun's mind moved slightly, what Zixuan was thinking, how could it not be what she was thinking, but the overall situation had been decided, and there was no room for maneuver. Seeing that Zhaoyun was silent, Zixuan asked tentatively: "During the Western Han Dynasty, the talented girl Zhuo Wenjun and Sima Xiangru fell in love because of the piano and eloped on a moonlit night, and their happy love has also been loved for generations, I don't know what my sister thinks?" ”
When Zhaoyun heard this, there was a trace of anger on his face, and he casually threw the red bean necklace on the ground, and the red beans were scattered on the ground, stained with dust. Zixuan looked at her in surprise, frowned slightly, and hurriedly asked, "Sister, why is this?" As he spoke, he was about to lean over to pick it up, but was stopped by Zhaoyun.
"Brother Zixuan, I always thought that you were full of the books of sages, courtesy, righteousness, honesty, and shame, and you would definitely be able to serve the country in the future, but I don't want to be a disloyal and unfilial person." Zhaoyun scolded sharply, and the anger on his face did not decrease.
Zixuan didn't know what he meant, and asked suspiciously, "What does my sister mean by this?" Zhaoyun looked at Zixuan and said frankly: "For the sake of your children's private feelings, you have ignored the three outlines and five constants. Jun is a minister, and now I have been named the concubine of the heavenly palace, but you want to elope with me, which is disloyal; If you and I elope, it is a capital crime of bullying the king and disrespecting the will, not only is it difficult to protect ourselves, but also the parents and clansmen will be implicated, which is unfilial piety. ”
Zixuan was shocked when he heard this, and said for a while: "Sister, don't blame, Fang is my love for Zhizhi, I originally knew loyalty, filial piety, etiquette and righteousness, but I didn't want to be separated from my sister, and I was in a hurry." When Zhaoyun heard Zixuan say this, his heart was much more stable, and then he said: "Brother Zixuan is proficient in history, don't you hear the saying of the master of high merit, Han Xin of the Western Han Dynasty, Yu Wenying of the Sui Dynasty, and Guo Chongtao of the Tang Dynasty are all great generals of the country, but they were all killed because of their high merits." Daddy's outstanding achievements, the emperor will inevitably not be afraid of a few points, this time to take me into the palace, on the surface is a reward, but it is difficult to guarantee that I am not used as a bargaining chip, although I believe that my father is loyal, but I am always worried that my father will be killed by traitors and end up like General Yue Fei. Therefore, entering the palace this time is an inevitable move, one can make the emperor feel at ease, and the other is to honor the family. For the sake of my parents and clansmen, I can only choose to enter the palace, and I hope that Brother Zixuan will understand Zhaoyun's hard work. ”
After Zhaoyun finished speaking, he saw that Zixuan was silent, and then said against his will: "After Zhaoyun enters the palace, he will serve the emperor diligently, and he has no other thoughts, and I hope that Brother Zixuan can find the person he likes as soon as possible and carry Baishou with him." ”
After saying this, Zhaoyun saw Zixuan bowing his head and sighing, but still didn't say a word, leaned over and said goodbye: "Brother Zixuan, it's getting late, Zhaoyun will say goodbye, and I hope that Brother Zixuan will cherish it." ”
Back in the house, Zhaoyun and Xiaolan still entered through the back door, carefully avoided everyone, and returned to their boudoir, only to find their mother Jing's face gloomy, sitting upright in their boudoir. The maid who served him knelt on the ground, her face was as white as earth, and she was trembling.
Zixuan stood in the willow forest for a long time, and a cool breeze blew, ruffling his hair. The night was like ink, and there was a faint moonlight in the forest, but at some point the dark clouds obscured the moon, so that the willows were much darker. Zixuan didn't feel the cold, the red beans were scattered, the lovesickness was broken, who complained about the situation, but he was sad and bitter.
It wasn't until the middle of the night that Zixuan picked up the red beans scattered all over the ground, turned around and left the willow forest, and thought to himself: I only wish for the next life, I am not the son of the imperial history, and you are not the daughter of Jiangmen, we no longer have to be bound by the etiquette of the eunuchs, we are an ordinary couple, we share weal and woe, and accompany each other for the rest of our lives.