201. Selfishness

When there were only two of us left, the first thing my second wife said to me was, "What do you want?" ā€

I said, "I don't want to do anything. ā€

The second wife sneered and said, "You don't want to do anything? ā€

I said, "I didn't expect it to be like this." ā€

The second wife said, "In other words, you have not broken contact with each other? How did you promise me? ā€

I said, "You should ask your son, you shouldn't ask me about that." ā€

The second wife said, "This child must be killed." ā€

I said, "Why? ā€

The second wife said word by word: "Just because you are Shen Ting's wife, he is Shen Ting's son, is this enough?" ā€

I pursed my lips and said, "I don't care about that. ā€

The second wife patted her chest excitedly and said, "You don't care." I care, the reputation of the Shen family cares, and Bai Teng cares! His face cares! After the child was born, did you let him come and be a younger brother to Berteng?! Or do you claim that you and your stepson ** gave birth to a child who doesn't know what identity it is?! Do you know how to write the word face?! ā€

For the second wife's excitement, I seemed much calmer, I stiffened my neck and said: "I can claim to the outside world that the child was born to me and someone else, I can leave the Shen family, I can not want anything." ā€

The second wife sneered and said: "There is no impermeable wall in the world, if the child is known by others to be Bai Teng's species, what are you going to do?" What to do then? This scourge must not be left, this is a time bomb, maybe one day one will explode if you don't pay attention, don't talk about you then, even Bai Teng does not have the ability to bear this consequence, I will never allow such a thing to happen! ā€

I sat there and didn't speak.

The second wife said again: "Now Bai Teng and Yuan Zi are married. There are already two people between you, from the day you choose to marry your master, this is a move with no turning back, now that you have been clean, why let a child entangle you to death? ā€

I sneered and said, "Is that second wife planning to make me old and helpless in the future?" Can the Shen family protect me for the rest of my life? What should I do when I'm old? Can Yuan Zi tolerate me? At least have a child, I don't have to worry about being old and helpless, you are always thinking about what Shen Boteng wants, I am me, I am not Shen Boteng, the reason why I want to give birth to this child. It's for himself, not for your son, and besides, he didn't say anything, is it up to you to decide this child? ā€

The second wife was so angry with me that she kept panting, she held her chest and kept calming down, for a long time, she leaned on the bed and said angrily: "I don't mind if you kill this child and have a child with another man, I can promise you that after the child is born, most of the property of the Shen family will be inherited by him, but the child in your belly cannot be kept." ā€

I said, "What did you take me for?" Whore? ā€

I sneered and said, "Prostitutes also have the right to choose men, if this child is not killed, I will never be lost, it's a big deal." I will break this matter and let everyone in the world come to see the joke of the Shen family in advance. ā€

The second wife was so angry that my whole body trembled, her breath became more and more uneven, I was afraid of being stimulated again, what should I do if she fainted again without breathing, I could only take a deep breath, and said in a soft voice as much as possible: "I don't want to have too many disputes with you, I know that this child has brought you fear, and I also know that you are for the sake of Bai Teng, please give me a little time to let me think clearly, whether the child should stay, I also hope you understand." We are all women, and you should know what children mean to women. I hope you don't push me. ā€

The second wife coughed violently, she listened to my words, but she didn't say anything, and her anger disappeared a little, she naturally knew that this matter could not be with me, she said in a hoarse voice: "I am for your good, I am naturally also a mother, of course, I also know what a child means to a mother, you also have to understand my distress, after all, I only have a son of Patten, I don't want him to be ruined." ā€

I said, "I'm not going to destroy him." ā€

The second wife said: "You won't ruin it, but this situation will be ruined, and the moral filial piety in this world will ruin him." ā€

I said, "You take care of your illness first, and then you can talk about it later." ā€

When I got up to leave, the second wife lay on the bed and begged, "Please think about it, as if I was begging you...... This home really can't stand the toss anymore. ā€

I didn't answer her, but quickly walked out of the second wife's room.

When I ran back to my room, I didn't open the door or pay attention to anyone in the room, and when I got to the bathroom and turned on the faucet, I leaned against the door and covered my lips and cried. Dirt ditch fork garbage.

After crying happily, I got up and turned off the faucet, changed my clothes, took a pair of sunglasses and hurried downstairs, just when I was about to go out, I bumped into Assistant Zhou, he seemed to come to see Rong Lan's condition, and when he saw me in a hurry, he called: "Mrs." ā€

I didn't look at him, I didn't answer him, I took my bag out of the hall, got into a car outside, and left.

After the car arrived at the central square, I got out of the car and asked the driver to go back first, and I stopped another taxi, and when I arrived in the car, the driver asked me where I was going, and I said hospital.

The driver glanced at me, and after a sigh, he turned the car around, and after driving to a nearby hospital, about ten minutes away, the car stopped at a city hospital, and after I gave the money, I walked straight to the hospital hall.

It took me 30 minutes to get in line, and when I arrived at the gynecology ward, the doctor asked me where I was not feeling well.

I said with a blank face, "Abortion." ā€

The doctor remembered me and asked, "What's wrong?" Wasn't it okay last time? How can I have an abortion again. ā€

I said, "The timing wasn't right, so ...... I want to abort the child and ...... it later Again. ā€

The doctor asked, "Did your husband agree?" ā€

I said, "He wouldn't have raised this child anyway without his consent." ā€

When the doctor heard my words, she instantly seemed to understand something, but she was very professional and did not force me, but asked me, "You really think about it?" ā€

I sat there silent for a long time, pinching my clothes, and after a long time, I didn't hesitate, but said very firmly: "I've thought it all through." ā€

The doctor said, "Okay, since you, as a mother, have thought about it, then I, as a doctor, can only help you." She wrote a few words on the note and said, "The operating room is on the third floor, go pay and line up." ā€

I trembled my hand to take it, looked at it for a while, and then took it and got up to leave.

But who knows, the phone in the pocket rang at this time, I glanced at the call reminder, it was Shen Boteng's call, I didn't think about it, I directly pressed the hang up button and went out of the office, after paying the money, I waited in line outside the door of the operating room, I sat on the cold wooden chair and looked at the ground in a daze, there were six in front of me, and I was still far away.

The phone I put in my bag remembered at this time, I didn't plan to answer it, but sat next to me, and the girl who also came to have an abortion reminded me, "Your phone is ringing." ā€

I came back to my senses and looked at her in a trance, she saw that I was stunned, and said, "Your phone has been ringing for a long time, it's very noisy, take it." ā€

I reacted, immediately went to the bag to get it, after taking it out, the phone screen was still showing Shen Boteng's call, I bit my lip for a long time, still thinking about whether to answer, but it was obvious that the ringtone was too noisy in the quiet corridor, everyone was like me cast strange and dissatisfied eyes, I could only quickly press the answer button, and then got up and went to a more private place to answer the call.

As soon as the phone was connected, Shen Boteng's voice came from the other end of the phone, and he asked, "Are you at Shen's house?" ā€

My hand holding the phone shook a little, and even a cold sweat broke out, and I said a little weakly, "Well, yes." ā€

Shen Boteng asked in a gentle tone on the phone again: "Have you used lunch?" ā€

I said, "Already...... I used it. ā€

Shen Boteng said: "In the room? ā€

I said, "Yes." ā€

Shen Boteng said: "No wonder it's so quiet. ā€

I couldn't stand to talk to him on the phone at this time, so I said, "I want to rest, so I won't call you yet." ā€

Shen Boteng let me go quickly, he said, "Okay, rest early." ā€

After we hung up, I looked at the words "The fairy tale has ended" on the screen of my phone, and I put my head against the wall and whimpered.

I cried hoarsely, afraid of missing the operation time, so I touched the tears on my face, and when I turned around to leave this place, as soon as I raised my eyes, Shen Boteng appeared in front of me expressionlessly.

I saw him for a moment, involuntarily took a few steps back, and the mobile phone in my hand fell unconsciously, I panicked for a moment, but soon, I calmed down, and the corners of my mouth used a lot of strength to pull up a trace of ugly smile, I said, "Why are you here." ā€

Shen Boteng's tone of voice was inaudible, and he also looked at me calmly and asked, "It should be me asking you, why are you here." ā€

I smiled as calmly as I could and said, "I—I'm not feeling well, so, so ......"

Shen Boteng took a few steps closer to me, his eyes fell on the paper I was holding, he stretched out his hand and said, "What is this, show me." ā€

I immediately hid behind me and said in a panic, "This ...... Just some slips, nothing to look at. ā€

Shen Boteng smiled and said, "Really? ā€

I was embarrassed to say, "Yes." ā€

Shen Boteng laughed, with a hint of coldness in his smile, and his hand held in the air did not retract, but walked a few steps closer to me and said, "Since it is just some documents, then...... It doesn't hurt to show me, right? ā€

The cold sweat in my palms soaked the receipts, and I whispered, "It's really nothing, why do you have to read it?" ā€

Shen Boteng pressed me step by step and said, "Don't you know? I'm very curious, and as long as it's something I'm suspicious or curious about, I like to understand it. ā€

Shen Boteng's long arm stretched out and held my back instead, and hugged me into his arms, I just wanted to resist, he had already clamped my hand from my back, and those documents soon reached him.

I wanted to grab it, Shen Boteng had already trapped me so that there was no room for struggle, holding the slip in one hand and holding me down with the other, he looked at it carefully, and then let go of me, he asked, "What is this." ā€

I knew that there was nothing to quibble about now that the facts were in front of me, so I asked him with red eyes, "Don't you know?" ā€

He said, "I want you to tell me personally." ā€

I said: "It's very simple, she doesn't agree, she doesn't agree with me giving birth to this child, she said, you and I are already in the past, this child should not be saved zĆ i, in the future, you and Yuan Zi will have a child belonging to the two of you, and this child is a child who is not expected by everyone, or even blessed by everyone, he must disappear, and she also said I will destroy you." ā€

No matter how hard I tried to endure the tears in my eyes, I couldn't stop it, and finally it flowed out, and I said, "I don't want to destroy you, then I can only choose to destroy this child, who makes me selfish?" ā€

I clutched my chest, looked at Shen Boteng and said, "It turns out that at this time, I have never been able to hurt you, it turns out that I am not a good mother, I have my own selfish desires, I can only choose to kill this child in order to prevent you from suffering from gossip." ā€

I burst into tears and said, "But what can I do?" The identity between us is already predestined, and this child will not be born at all. ā€