(301) Broken heart? Thousands of miles
"Your Majesty, don't pick it up. Even if you pick up the broken pastries www.biquge.info, you can't eat them. Song Mi'er sighed again, "Your Majesty, this is just like a broken mirror cannot be reunited, what has happened, we can never treat it as if it did not happen." ”
"Your Majesty, I have never seen you look like this, so why bother? Whatever you want, just say it. There is no need to deliberately make another appearance, lead me into being fooled, and deceive me into compromise. You say, what do you want me to do, I will do it naturally," Song Mier hooked the corners of his lips, "Your Majesty, this is really not like you, and it is not suitable for you." ”
Shen Zhan's hand picking up the pastry paused, slowly withdrew his hand, stood up, and the innocent and aggrieved look on his face disappeared, replaced by the cold and deep appearance that Song Mier had often seen before. However, he still had a helpless smile on his face.
I could only hear him say softly: "If I say that I want my Zitong to return to the palace with me, can you do it?" ”
Song Mi'er looked straight at Shen Zhan, almost without thinking, "Yes." ”
Shen Zhan showed a look of joy, and before he could speak again, he heard Song Mi'er say again, "But Your Majesty and I are like this right now, even if I don't say it, Your Majesty also understands that it may not be able to go back to the past." How about we just be a good couple before and take care of each other? ”
It was like a basin of ice water, poured on Shen Zhan from beginning to end.
"What does it mean to be a good couple in front of people?!" Shen froze suddenly, and then became furious, "What do you mean by me and you being like this right now?!" ”
"Look, Your Majesty," compared to Shen Zhan's anger, Song Mi'er was fearless and very calm, "that's what it looks like now." Your Majesty, do you think that after deception, betrayal, and separation, we can still be the same as before? ”
Song Mier's words were like knives, straight into Shen Zhan's heart. "What's more, weren't we in the midst of His Majesty's deception before? What's the difference? Oh, if there is a difference, I'm afraid I'm just making this deception clear. I didn't know before, but now I do. ”
On top of love, there is another thing called self-esteem.
Song Mier is like this now, she feels that she has lost herself, the more she falls in love, the more she feels that she is too disappointed now, and the more she feels that she needs to regain her self-esteem. did not hesitate to face the other party with the harshest words, so that the other party would be in pain, and he would be in pain too.
In fact, subconsciously, Song Mier also subconsciously felt that Shen Zhan just blamed her, and he also had feelings for her. Otherwise, how can the king of a country tolerate the provocation and trampling on his dignity by others?
What's more, Shen Zhan is really heartbroken now.
Once he thought that everything was under his control, once the queen mother told him that sooner or later he would regret it, and he never believed it.
What could be more regrettable in this world than the loss of control of power?
But now he has.
He once thought that in order to reach the top, in order to truly have the supreme power of life and death, he could give up everything, and he could not care.
It turns out that where you can give up, you can not care, it's just that you haven't met the person who is reluctant to let go.
Song Mier grew up with him since he was a child, and he knew that his eldest sister liked her, and his mother also liked her. Her father is the prime minister, and behind him is the Song family, there are a thousand and ten thousand reasons, and he has to be good to her.
So he was so good to her, so good, he cared for her in every way, and asked for warmth.
When he learned that he was going to select the palace concubine, he didn't have to hesitate at all, he knew that his queen would be Song Mier.
He will respect her, take care of her, and give her glory and status.
She is the best candidate for queen. And the love of the queen mother and the friendship between herself and her childhood sweetheart can make her live well in the harem.
In fact, he defended her everywhere, took care of her, and made her as free in the palace as she was at home.
This naturally paid off, the compromise of the Song family and the help of Prime Minister Song, he got closer and closer to the goal he set step by step.
Shen Zhan felt that this was enough. She's alive and well, isn't she? Her mother-in-law likes her as if she were her own daughter, and her husband, who is the emperor, loves and respects her, and gives her a position that no one can surpass.
That's enough, she lives so happily and freely, and she can do what she wants, use what she should use, and make good use of what she can. Isn't it best that they interact with each other and are independent of each other?
But since when has it changed? From the most intimate contact again and again? From finding that staying by her side is the most comfortable and relaxing? From that time to the provincial relatives found out that she was different? From that southern tour, we experienced life and death together? Or did you find that from beginning to end, except for the queen mother, she was the only one who had never calculated or demanded anything about herself?
But he still calculated her. Concealment, deception, betrayal.
Over and over.
Again and again, he comforted himself that it was for her good not to tell her.
Again and again, he deceived even himself, and this was the last time.
Time and time again, he took every step of the way, obviously he had it at his fingertips, but he lost everything in front of her.
When he rode his horse to raise the wind and dust, and rushed back to the palace non-stop, how nervous he was when he learned that Shen Yao had almost killed the queen.
When he found the bones of suspected Song Mier in the burned small bamboo forest, he had a lot of thoughts.
When he found out that this corpse was not Song Mier, he was so happy and happy.
God knows how scared he was, when he learned from Shen Yao that she had coaxed Song Mi'er, he was afraid that Song Mi'er would take it seriously, so he hurriedly searched the palace, but what he got was the news that she had already left the palace.
That fear turned into unwarranted indignation: Why don't you trust me? Why not be nostalgic at all?
But when he couldn't get the news of Song Mier anymore, and he couldn't find Song Mier in the vast world, that fear and anger all turned into regret.
His pain, his helplessness, his restlessness, there is no one to redeem him.
It is only when you lose that you realize what you have gained. What he didn't think was important, what he didn't think he cared about, was the most important.
Mother, you are right, I regret it.
Love is not bitter, resentment will be bitter, you can't ask for bitterness, and the five yin are blazing. There was so much suffering in the world that I could not speak.
And now, he is standing in front of Song Mier again, even putting down his dignity, and wants to exchange it back, but he only gets her one sentence, which is not suitable, it is difficult to recover the water, and it is difficult to break the mirror.
Do people who do things wrong never ask for forgiveness for the rest of their lives? Will those who have ever deceived never deserve to be trusted again?
Shen Zhan's eyes flashed with pain, he covered his heart unnaturally, and finally admitted: "Mi'er, I was wrong in the past. Now, can we start all over again? ”
"All over again?" Song Mi'er sneered, "What does Your Majesty mean to coax me into the palace again to trick me?" As I said, from now on the bridge to the bridge and the road to the road, in front of people, isn't it good? ”