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Tang Jingyun dreamed. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

She knew that she was dreaming, because the Tang Zhiqian in the dream was very different from the Tang Zhiqian she knew now.

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That was the first time she stepped into the Tang family.

Everything was completely different from her humble and dilapidated home. Probably can only be described with the words she described in the book, magnificent, magnificent, elegant, ancient, especially the old mansion of the Tang family, which is even more amazing, and even a pond can be seen in front of the courtyard.

At that time, it was the height of summer, and the lotus planted in it was in full bloom, Tang Jingyun didn't know what kind of lotus was at that time, only that it seemed to be different from the variety she saw in the pond over there. Clusters, clusters, the color of each petal is just right, red and pink, reflecting the emerald green lotus leaves, it looks like the purple and red, the flowers are like brocade, just like the Tang family.

Tang Jingyun looked at the lotus pond, for the first time, she seemed to feel inferior to what she was wearing, she seemed to be out of place here, and she couldn't even compare to those lotus flowers.

What is Nirvana? What is Power? At that moment, Tang Jingyun had an intuitive feeling in her heart.

I don't know if the Tang family wants to give her a dismount, she was forgotten here, and she couldn't find anyone after walking in several places.

This old mansion of the Tang family is too big, too cold, and too majestic, so that she feels very strongly depressed when she is here.

It's so big, where is she going? Is it forward? Oh no, maybe it's time to go back?

She hesitated for a moment, not knowing where to go.

In that situation, Tang Jingyun saw a man, this man looked very young, he had a face she was very familiar with, his phoenix eyes were raised, and his expression was indifferent, but Tang Jingyun looked at this strange man, and she felt a little excited and happy in her heart.

He held out his hands to her and said to her in a gentle voice, "Take my hand and I'll take you." ”

Many years later, when Tang Jingyun knocked down the Tang family's roadblocks in front of her and had reached the highest position, she still couldn't forget those hands. No one had ever extended a friendly hand to her, nor had anyone ever taken her hand, and walked through the heavy and rich rooms, and the man, though grim, did not pretend to be gentle towards her.

Tang Jingyun has thought countless times, how good it would be if that section of the road could go for a long time? She secretly looked at his tall and burly figure, as if she could shelter her from the wind and rain, as if the suffering of the first twenty years of her life was just a dream. The man, who walked up to her as an elder, gave her hope and gave her a touch of family warmth.

But later, Tang Jingyun also resented that man countless times, if he hadn't walked into her world with such a gesture, how good would it be? He should have sneered at her, should have treated her with disdain, should have treated her like mud on the ground, stomped on her hard, and then walked away, saying, "It's just one of my illegitimate daughters." ”

In this way, she would not have expected of him, and she would not have the struggles of the following years.

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"Sit, what do you want to eat? I remember girls like desserts, do you want another cup of hot cocoa? I'll ask Zhao Xun to buy it for you. ”

The man sat in the tea room and said softly to Tang Jingyun. He looked at her very gently, not to mention his other illegitimate son Tang Shaoming, even Tang Lingzheng and Tang Yushan, they were not half as good as now.

She shook her head, "I don't want it, I want tea." ”

"Why?"

"I think you look good when you drink tea, and I want to look good too."

I can still vaguely remember the naïve but innocent words of those years, and the man laughed out loud because of this, and made people change the tea. Every day, he would teach her to drink a kind of tea, and when she finally liked that kind of tea in one sip, he began to teach her the details of drinking tea, from the skills of making tea, to the difference between tea leaves, and the connotation of teapots and teacups.

He taught, she learned. The sun poured in through the window, the father and daughter were filial, and the scene was so warm that it almost made people dare to cry.

She had told herself a thousand times that he was her beloved father, that she loved him, and that she admired him from the bottom of her heart. Because of a lie, only by deceiving yourself can you deceive the most shrewd businessman like Tang Zhiqian.

It was only later that she suddenly discovered that she had injured 1,000 enemies and 800 herself. In that father-daughter relationship that is sincerely devoted, he is a father, she is a daughter, she is acting, but she is also in the play, and the play is too deep, too deep, so that later she really got what she wanted, but found that she was still in that father-daughter relationship and couldn't get out.

People in Kyoto say that the illegitimate daughter of the Tang family is too ruthless, but who knows, in the years since, she has regretted more than once why she is not really ruthless?

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The sunset is gradually setting, and the residual afterglow makes people feel sad for no reason, the residual sun is like blood, the residual sun cries blood, and there seems to be an indescribable sadness under the sunset.

Tang Zhiqian is no longer as high-spirited as he was back then, and the figure that used to be able to block the wind and rain is becoming more and more rickety.

Through the fence, he looked at the child who was surrounded by people, and his expression was calm and complicated.

Someone asked him if he hated? How could he not hate? This is his daughter! O daughter he raised himself! He watched her grow up, become a talent, and become an excellent child, even if it was his two legitimate children, he had never put so much effort into it. He gave everything to the child, even his fatherly heart, and held it in front of her, but she didn't even bother to look at it! The child he raised with his own hands no longer admires him!

How can he not hate, you say?

He hates it!

But no matter how much resentment he had, he softened his heart when he saw Tang Jingyun, he watched this child grow from a soft and gentle mass to his current appearance, no matter how much regret and hatred he had, he could only stay in his heart, leaving a sigh in vain.

"Why? What do you want, I won't give it to you? Why take this path? Tang family, is it really worth your cruelty to me? ”

"What do I want? I'll have to ask you, too. Tang Zhiqian, do you know how much I hate you? Since you are born but not raised, what are you doing when you give birth to me? Why are you my father? If only you weren't my father! ”

If you weren't my father, and you knew one of my male elders, then I would be able to enjoy the care of my elders with peace of mind, but you are my father! Before you appeared, I hated you for so many years, hated that you couldn't give me the warmth of my family, hated you for ruining my mother's family, I must give an explanation to myself and my mother who has suffered so much injustice!

In fact, there are many things that they deliberately ignore, but those old injuries are not something you won't remember if you don't mention them, but they will hurt more and more as time goes by.

Under the setting sun, her figure pulled farther and farther away, but his figure stood on the edge of the fence for a long time, looking like it was carrying the vicissitudes of time, able to span the time and space.

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Tang Jingyun knew that she was dreaming at first, but then she rotated with the scenes in the dream, and gradually, she couldn't tell what was a dream and what was her own heart. There were many things that she thought she had forgotten a long time ago, but she suddenly realized that they weren't.

For example, the pond with lotus flowers on it is so real that it has the illusion that she is in a trance.

She has always felt that the pond is the beginning of all bad fate, and it is the origin of her difficult choice due to the ups and downs of her life, so in this life, she refused to enter the Tang family at the very beginning, which also means that she refuses to repeat the entanglements of the year. If there was no pond, Tang Jingyun would not have held Tang Zhiqian's hand, and would not have raised those father-daughter ties to him.

It's just that the later development was not what she expected, and later, she was still involved with the Tang family, but in a different way of entering, the relationship between her and the Tang family began to change, as for the difference, probably, the interests between each other became very indifferent, and some were just feelings that were difficult to explain.

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Tang Zhiqian looked at Tang Jingyun from a distance, his expression was gentle and a little doting, and he scolded with a smile, "You little rabbit cub, if you are in a good mood, you will call me an old man, and if you are in a bad mood, you will be called 'Tang Zhiqian' and 'Tang Zhiqian', can you give you some face?" People can still listen to Dad, but you are good, and you are never polite to me. ”

The picture turned again, Tang Zhiqian looked resentful, raised his eyebrows, and scolded, "Good little girl!" Lao Tzu only found the top-level Tieguanyin that someone found yesterday, and I kindly sent it to you, and you girl actually threw it all away for me? If you have the ability, you can send it back to me! ”

His table slammed on the "bang", but there was more helplessness than anger in his expression, and he seemed to be a little distressed, like a poor father who wanted to please his daughter but couldn't do anything.

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"Whew......!"

Tang Jingyun suddenly struggled to wake up from her sleep, sat up upright with a "whoosh", and gasped lowly, a little confusion flashed in her phoenix eyes, which was an emotion that would hardly appear on Tang Jingyun.

Tang Jingyun silently thought about the scattered fragments in her dreams, her expression complicated. She has always known that between her and Tang Zhiqian, there are twenty years of time, and there are three lives, nothing is terrible in this world, only the gap forged by time and life is the most difficult to fill. Because, both are no longer traceable.

Jiang Ye also woke up, got up and hugged Tang Jingyun gently, "What's wrong?" What did you dream about? ”

The moonlight came through the window, hazy.

Tang Jingyun gently leaned into Jiang Ye's arms, in fact, there was a moment when she wanted to fall down and live that dream again.