I never thought I'd be so sad about a stranger.

That night, when Lao Pang and the others took away the man's body, I had already fallen into a blank in my brain.

I knew what was going on around me, but at that moment, it was as if my brain could only accept the surroundings but not understand how to think and manipulate my body's actions.

Xiaoyu said that this is called the sequelae of incompetence.

I don't like what is happening in front of me, but I can't change it, and my brain falls into this state of escape.

I was taken back to the hospital, where the nurse washed my hands and face and changed my clothes.

When Xu Yiwen entered the door again, I put a hanging needle on it again, and it is said that some of the wounds on the back of my head that had been stitched up began to bleed again.

Strangely enough, I didn't feel much pain.

Since I came back, I have been waiting for Chen Wei to ask the two of us why we went to the institute without permission.

But he never showed up again except to send me back.

Two days passed like this, and I just stared out the window every day.

There are some strange things in my head, unfounded thoughts, and nonsense thoughts.

Xu Yiwen probably knew that I was in a bad mood, so he didn't bother me, but just sat alone and kept silent.

Finally, that afternoon, Chen Wei, who had disappeared for a few days and had not seen anyone, appeared

Seeing him enter the door, Xu Yiwen patted my arm, signaled that someone was coming, and got up and walked out of the house.

Retracting his eyes that were still looking out of the window, I looked at Chen Wei, who walked to the edge of the bed and sat down by himself.

Before he could speak, I asked, "What about that man's body?" Is it buried? ”

Chen Wei didn't answer my words, stared at me twice and said, "Your kindness can be put away here." ”

"What?" I was stunned.

Chen Wei didn't move, and even his face didn't change, and continued: "I told you a long time ago that if you are not good enough, then change your thinking and life status as soon as possible, this was the case before, and it is even more so here." ”

I looked at him in a daze: "But that's a human life."

"So what? Did you save him? ”

I clenched my fists, and my eyes instantly turned red: "If you can help me at that time!" He probably won't have to die!! ”

"That person has nothing to do with me, why should I save him?"

"To be honest, sometimes Chen Wei's theories make people feel very absurd, at least I think it is very absurd after living in a normal society for 20 years, but every time I see him say these words so calmly, I am always speechless, and I can't refute his words at all.

I haven't reached the level of Chen Wei, I haven't been a strong person, and I've been trying my best to find a chance to live.

I tried my best to build a good relationship with the people in the team, I gritted my teeth and faced those walking corpses that made my heart and liver tremble, obviously I wanted to die emotionally, but I had to face the tragic death of the people around me again and again.

The screams of those people before they died always lingered in my head for a long time, and I often couldn't sleep.

At the end of the day, I'm too weak!

I'm not strong enough, so I have to be patient, in the face of Kiki's vexatiousness, I can only persuade myself to understand, back down, in the face of a qiē, I, even my parents, even the young Tiantian, can only back down.

After being silent for a long time, I sighed deeply as if I had been drained of the strength in my body: "I have always been a weak person, this can't be changed, it can only bring you trouble and annoying hypocrisy, so send me and Xu Yiwen away, I don't want to stay here." ”

I thought I would be angry with Chen Wei because those people treated Sister Yanping like this, but in fact, I did hate him in my heart, why he brought us here, and why I watched Sister Yanping being treated so cruelly.

But that sigh has told all the helplessness in my heart.

We are too weak to be eaten by meat.

No wonder others, Chen Wei has no obligation to protect everyone around me, and even if I blame him, what can I do? Scolding him? How many slaps did you slap him?

I didn't dare.

At this moment, I don't want to care about what kind of place this place is, who Chen Wei is, whether Sister Yanping has become a walking corpse, I just want to get out of here quickly.

The air here is oppressive.

Xu Yiwen and I can at least pick up a big knife and hack a few to death in the face of walking corpses outside, but here, the two of us are the weakest ants, and no one can deal with them.

If it weren't for Chen Wei, maybe I would have been hit in the ghost place of that research institute last time and thrown into the field to rot reads;.

Chen Wei looked at me: "After you go out, you won't live long at all." ”

Shaking his head: "That's okay, I want to get out of here." ”

There was a long silence in the room.

Finally, Chen Wei stood up from his position: "Someone will pick you up tonight, I won't let you go." ”

Without giving me a chance to explain, he turned and walked out of the house.

After a while, Xu Yiwen came in with a plate of fruit that he didn't know where to find and asked eagerly, "Why are you crying?" I came back to my senses, wiped the tears on my face, and shook my head at Xu Yiwen.

That night, the second artillery, who I hadn't seen for a long time, still had wounds on his face, so he brought a few people to clean up my things for me, and took me back to Chen Wei in the name of it.

Xu Yiwen was surprised, but when he saw that I didn't make a sound, he didn't speak.

Chen Wei's home is designed with only one large bedroom, and there is no place for others to live, so Xu Yiwen separated from me again.

Leaving Xu Yiwen, the only person who can rely on each other for his life, I am a little flustered.

When I returned to Chen Wei's beautiful home again, I had no first expectation and joy.

The two people in front of the door are still Connor and Yang Guo.

When they saw me come back, the corners of their mouths twitched fiercely, as if they were dissatisfied with my last time running away without permission.

When I entered the courtyard, the people behind the Second Artillery put the clothes they had brought me into the house, and the group left.

Before leaving, the second artillery said something unclear to me: "You will get your wish." ”

After they left, I didn't want to go into the cage-like room.

He simply hugged his knees and sat on the path of the courtyard crossing the pool.

Although it has been spring for a long time, it has suddenly cooled down since last night, and the weather has been quite cold for the past two days, sitting on the ground, the clothes are not as thick as before, and the cold is a little shivering.

During this period, Yang Guo came in to deliver dinner, and when he saw me sitting on the ground, he didn't say anything, put the end plate aside, and went out.

It was getting dark, and the lights in the hallway were on.

The sparkling courtyard has that ethereal beauty again.

I looked fascinated, but I missed my parents so much.

It seems that since the end of the world, I have paid little attention to them, Tiantian, and my grandmother, and always paid more attention to other people or Chen Wei.

The door opened again, followed by the faint sound of footsteps.

A few seconds later, Chen Wei's voice came from behind him: "What are you doing?" ”

I didn't look back, I didn't move, and I didn't answer Chen Wei's words, I have always seen him as different, I don't know when it started, the girl put him in her eyes after she was troubled, I admit that I do have a significantly different feeling for Chen Wei from others, but even so, I don't want to stay in this place. I'm fed up here, and I'm fed up with Chen Wei's heart that will always make me unpredictable!

Maybe what Xu Yiwen said is not wrong!

Chen Wei, he doesn't like me at all! He doesn't like anyone at all! He doesn't even like it himself!! I can't guess him, I can't see through him, when I first came here, I thought that I was at least different for Chen Wei, so while my mouth was awkward, I was still inevitably happy in my heart, but now it's different

My feelings for Chen Wei have always made me blur the definition of the end of the world in front of me.

When that person died behind me, after his hands were washed by his blood, I suddenly saw clearly, the life in front of me is not watching a movie, nor is it a romance novel, Chen Wei is not those gentle male protagonists, I am not those heroines who are always favored by God, people in the world, including my brother, have been bitten to death by walking corpses, we are all like incompetent ants, all of us are in danger, there is no tomorrow in life, what I should do is to fight with my life to protect my family, friends, Instead of being dazzled by the love that has just opened up.

Chen Wei stood still and didn't move, and his voice was cold: "Get up!" ”