My scalp began to tingle when I saw the pale blue case clearly, but the groggy feeling still kept me in a state of confusion, and I just let my sinful hands leave her body. My body was a little weak, and the strength of the wine kept churning in my body, and I fell to the snow, closing my eyes and gasping

When I opened my eyes again, the figure in front of me became more and more blurred, except for a vague glimpse of her picking up the pale blue case, and then turning and walking towards the entrance of the alley that I couldn't reach.

My world suddenly became desolate, there were no open sunflowers, there was no reckless commotion, the body began to be numb after calming, began to dizzy, I lay heavily on the snow, buried my hot face deep in the snow, in the blend of ice and fire, the world was sometimes real and sometimes illusory, countless faces that appeared in my life, with their words and expressions that made me reflect the deepest, in my spiritual world fragmented thoughts

My consciousness grew weaker and weaker, and I finally fell asleep in the snow and ice

Maybe for a short time, maybe for a long time, that familiar voice sounded in my ears, from faint to anxious: "Jiangqiao, wake up, why are you sleeping here?"

I finally opened my eyes again, and before I could say a word, the feeling of wanting to vomit came overwhelmingly, I hollowed out my body and half-knelt on the ground and vomited, but I couldn't vomit a little food, all the wine and stomach juice, splashed myself, and Chen Yi next to me.

Chen Yi lifted me up from the snow, and I finally woke up a little because I vomited, but I still closed my eyes and gasped to relieve the pain in my body, and then several fragments appeared in my brain that could not be pieced together, all of which happened before and after I was drunk.

I couldn't look into Chen Yi's eyes, I just looked at the neon that was still flickering and replied, "I drank too much." ”

Chen Yi didn't say much to me, took out the key to the coffee shop from his handbag, and then helped me into the store, made me a cup of hangover tea, and then took a dustpan and a broom to clean up my vomit, and I looked at her back through the window, I seemed to see that we have been together for decades, all attached to these pure white snowflakes, each piece is telling me that Chen Yi is a good woman, and the woman I love the most in my heart

After cleaning up the vomit, Chen Yi put the broom and dustpan in order, and then asked me softly, "Are you better now?"

"It's better, but my head is a little heavy."

Chen Yi didn't ask me why I drank so much, or if she already knew it in her heart. She supported me again, like a child who always got into trouble out of the coffee shop, and walked to the house with the ** courtyard where I lived, and I was obviously very drunk, but I didn't dare to go crazy like usual.

Chen Yi motioned for me to open the door, and I remembered the table in the room that I overturned, as well as the porridge and chicken wings scattered all over the place, so I subconsciously blocked the door and said to her: "It's late, you can go back and rest early." ”

"Open the door."

"I'm fine."

"Open the door."

Chen Yi repeated something I didn't want to do twice, and the second time, I obviously felt the emotion in her tone, so I didn't dare to look at her face.

I finally found the key to the door from my pocket, hid my injured right hand in my sleeve, and then awkwardly opened the door with my left hand, Chen Yi pushed the door open and walked in the next moment, her back was full of patience

Her footsteps stopped at the doorway, and I stood side by side with her, and we looked at everything I had smashed a few hours ago in the same manner, and I was prepared to watch quietly.

Chen Yi's lips trembled slightly, and tears fell from her cheeks, sticking to her wind-blown hair. At this moment, I seem to be able to feel that every breath she takes is full of tired pain, although there are only two of us standing in this courtyard, but her pity and helplessness have far exceeded the scope of two people, maybe the whole alley and the whole tulip road, she is also the most pitiful woman, because she will not be like me, smash things when she is hot, drink when she is in pain, from childhood to adulthood, the only thing she will do is to endure patience and patience

She wiped away her tears with the back of her hand, then silently walked over to the overturned table, lifted it up, and bent down to pick up the greasy chicken wings one by one

At this moment, I saw a kind of helplessness in her. I'm a little suffocated, I'm worthy of her, this kind of unworthiness is not limited to **, even my loneliness in front of her loneliness seems so disease-free moaning I just stiffened my body and watched her stand up and squat, stand up, squatt, squat, and squat, and the originally empty garbage basket was gradually filled with broken things.

A wisp of blood flowed from between her fingers, it was the broken glass bowl that scratched her, I reacted, hurriedly went to my room to find disinfectant and band-aids, and then squatted in front of her and said, "I'll clean your wounds." ”

"It's okay." She pushed my hand away, and began to pick up the fragments with her hands again, I knew that she was not without temper, but she was unwilling to send it to me, just like Qiu Zi'an said, she took care of me everywhere and tolerated me everywhere

I was afraid that she would scratch again, so I pinched the sharpest side and pulled it out of her hand with all my strength, but the pain of being cut at my index finger came from it, so my hand was still old and new on this snowy night, just like my heart

Chen Yi held my hand, his words were full of heartache, and asked, "What's wrong with your hand, why is it hurt like this?"

I remembered the moment when I was irritable because of the humiliation, but I didn't have the strength to explain it. I don't want to tell Chen Yi, because Qiu Zi'an came to me, I used the things at home to vent my anger, and I used my own limbs to vent my anger, and Qiu Zi'an is such a person who makes me irritable, every time I am humiliated by his words and deeds, I can't say it to anyone, because as soon as I open my mouth, I can see more clearly between me and Qiu Zi'an. Every time I face him, I am not a person who has the means and means, and in the end I can only hold my nest in my heart.

The root cause is that I live in this world too unconfident, if Qiu Zi'an is willing to take 10 million to save Chen Wen's company, and I will backhand 20 million, will there still be this extremely sadistic scene between me and Chen Yi now

I pulled my hand away from Chen Yi's hand and said in the calmest tone: "You are angry with me, please be angry with me, seeing you like this, I am panicking, really panicking"

Chen Yi held my hand again, and my blood stuck to her hand, as if blood was thicker than water. At this moment, the family affection between us seemed to have surpassed love, and she choked up and said to me: "I don't want to be angry with you If I am the loneliest fish in this world, then you are a river abandoned by this world." I grew up in this river, although this river has never been able to take me farther, but he has blocked me from the hottest sun in summer and the coldest frost and snow in winter, so I don't want to hurt him, I see that he has tried his best I know that this river will definitely dry up one day, but I am not afraid, I am willing to die alone in this world with him, because it is enough to have the joy of fish and water for decades"

My heart trembled, I closed my eyes, raised my head, and the next moment I hugged Chen Yi tightly in my arms with a hand full of scars, I cried bitterly, Chen Yi also cried with me, we were under the pressure of reality for the first time, hugging our heads and crying, and behind us was the endless place, in addition to the heavy snow, there was also our loneliness and loneliness, it seemed to be very cold, and it seemed to be a little warm.

Late at night, Chen Yi didn't leave, she slept on the sofa next to my bed, covered with my extra duvet, the snow outside the window was very bright, I could see her facing me sideways, and said to me in a very soft voice: "Jiang Qiao, if you want to drink water later, call me if you want to eat." ”

"Actually, I can take care of myself."

"I won't accompany you at this time, who will accompany you, don't say anything like that again."

I nodded, not knowing if she could see it. After being silent for a long time, he finally asked her: "Have you ever thought that if we really break up one day, it is because of what I mean if, after all, no one can say what will happen in the future." ”

The night will make people become a lot more rational, Chen Yi did not have strong psychological fluctuations because of my hypothetical "breakup", she replied with some sadness: "If there is really that day, it must not be because I don't love anymore, but because I am too tired I will love you for a lifetime, and I will always have a place in my heart that belongs to you, even if we have no fate to be husband and wife in this life." ”

"I don't want to forget that if you really have such a day, I will leave Nanjing with my grandmother and never come back, just like Jiang Jiyou."

Chen Yi sobbed in a low voice, not because it hurt her heart, but she felt sad and couldn't help herself, and the topic of breaking up was too heavy for us.

"Jiang Qiao, listen to me, if one day we have to break up, we must grit our teeth and give each other one last chance, because once we break up, we will become the kind of couple that can't even be friends The feeling of being a stranger, at least it's too painful for me"

I swallowed in pain, unwilling to think about the image of two people holding on to death. After a long time, I finally whispered back: "If there really is a day, don't fight anymore, because at that time, I'm afraid that even the city of Nanjing can no longer tolerate us, I don't want you to suffer with me like this, I really think so, because you were originally a fish that can swim into the sea, so you don't have to be so lonely." ”

"If Nanjing can't accommodate us, I'll go with you, where you go, where I go."

I turned to the side, afraid that Chen Yi would see my tears that I couldn't hold back

She whispered to me again: "If I can only be willful once in this life, that is, this time, if you dare to abandon me ruthlessly, I will marry myself off immediately, and I will never give you a little more hope." ”

"yes, I understand." I didn't dare to say too much, for fear that Chen Yi would hear my choking.

I don't know how long it took, but there was a rooster crowing outside the window, which is also a feature in the alley, because every family has a small yard, and there are many people raising chickens in the neighborhood

It's really getting dawn, and it's time for us to rest