Night is gradually coming, but my world has become simpler in the street lamps that have been lit up one after another, I turned into the abandoned textile factory again, sitting on the steps of the second workshop, not far opposite is the scrapped liberation truck, I can still vaguely remember Jiang Jiyou driving this car to pick me up from school, although old, but those eyes from the envy of classmates are still so real.

I, Jiang Qiao, have also been envied by others because of this truck and Jiang Jiyou, who could drive a motor vehicle at the time. That was in the nineties

Thinking of this, I raised my head and took another sip of the strongest old village chief, there was no food to drink, only countless unspeakable pains, I closed my eyes tightly, and gasped violently, and only in this wasteland that I would only pay attention to, I dared to breathe so freely

I finally opened my eyes and looked at the sky above my head, I was a little dizzy in the red rendered by the city lights, and I saw many pictures of the past against the light, at that time Jiangqiao still had faith, because there was a girl of the same age as me who cared about me and felt sorry for me

I remember the way she pulled me out of the arcade with her schoolbag on her back, and she didn't criticize me like an adult, but invited me to eat scallion pancakes that could be bought for three yuan for one dollar at that time.

I won't forget the distress and nervousness of fighting with gangsters outside the school, her head being slapped out of the bricks, and she was crying while riding her bicycle while taking me to the hospital. I secretly vowed that when I grew up, I would marry a woman like her and have a daughter like her, and I didn't mind that my life was full of her and her shadow, because she was my living faith.

My fingers trembled a little, but I still burned with anger and took a sip of liquor. If I wanted to, I could recall a thousand such things; If I wanted to, I could live my whole life entirely on such memories

What is it that murders us, and what is it that keeps me from liking my current life

I miss the old days a little bit, but I should be more self-reliant in the present life, because I have to face the future, not the past that I always miss

But I just think of her when I'm drunk, and I love the feeling of thinking about her, and I feel sorry that we can't be together after all, because she was the best woman in the world for me.

I finally grabbed the bottle and lay flat on the grass in Workshop 2, and I realized that I had lost my faith. Once, I didn't want to live for pride, for respect, for luxury, I just wanted to live for her. But now that she's gone from my life, what am I living for?

Jin Qiu scolded right, I am a garbage who can't create zào value, I can't even keep my beliefs, and I use cowardice and incompetence to make my world a miasma.

How difficult the night was plagued by troubles, I left the wine bottle in the abandoned textile factory, and sat on the steps in front of Chen Yi's courtyard with half a pack of unsmoked cigarettes, and in the dark night, I could still hear Chen Yi's familiar footsteps.

I finally got a little tired in the footsteps I imagined, a cold wind blew, and the time seemed to go back to more than 10 years ago, she sat on the back of my bicycle, tucked my clothes tightly, and took the trouble to tell me that I should not forget to write the homework left by the teacher today

I smiled with the last of my consciousness and fell asleep in the warmth of the trumpet

The next day, I got up with a headache, I vaguely remember that a neighbor woke me up from the door of Chen Yi's house last night, and then sent me home, I suffered a little bit of a cold, so my physical condition was not particularly good, I kept coughing

I bought myself breakfast, but I barely ate some and went to the coffee shop. I'm still worried about the lack of a store manager, and the top priority is to recruit a barista who can be replaced, because I can take care of some management things, but barista can't be missing.

I started to call some baristas who had job search needs some time ago, but after one morning, those baristas either already had jobs, opened their own coffee shops, or went to other cities, and I didn't get anything at all.

At a loss, I finally remembered Ji Xiaowei, his coffee shop is doing well in Yangzhou, and he should have met a lot of baristas, I hope he can introduce me to one, or borrow one from his shop temporarily, in short, I want to withstand the period before the Chinese New Year.

I called Ji Xiaowei, and he said that he was in Nanjing with his girlfriend and asked me to go to a teahouse over there in the Confucius Temple to find him.

I drove to the Confucius Temple, and then found him in the teahouse that Ji Xiaowei said, at the moment he was chatting with a group of friends in Nanjing, I couldn't open my mouth to talk to him for a while, so I waited patiently.

About an hour passed, Ji Xiaowei's group of friends who played music left, and he finally smiled and asked me, "Say, what are you looking for me for?"

I hurriedly replied: "I have a little trouble in the coffee shop here, and there is a shortage of baristas for the time being, so I want to ask you if there is a suitable barista to introduce." ”

"Yo, why is there a shortage of baristas here, you know, at the end of the year, everyone will not change jobs lightly for the year-end bonus"

I replied helplessly: "Yes, but didn't I take care of this matter, so I asked you for help." ”

Ji Xiaowei thought for a while and said: "Just rush to the favor that Xiao Ai and Yuan Zhen owe you last time, I will do my best to do my best in this matter, I will call and ask first." ”

I nodded, Ji Xiaowei began to make calls, but more than a dozen calls were rejected by the other party, and I said that I could reissue the year-end bonus for job hopping, but there was still no barista tempted.

After making another phone call, Ji Xiaowei said to me: "Jiangqiao, there is really such a barista, because his girlfriend is in Nanjing, but he intends to come to Nanjing for development." ”

"How about the level"

"The one who has won a lot of awards in the industry is a skilled barista, but because it involves job hopping, and there are concerns about the operation and viability of your coffee shop, the other party asks you to pay him all his wages for two years except bonuses, a total of 160,000 yuan."

I'm a little dumbfounded, where am I going to get this money now, it's a huge amount of money for me personally and for the coffee shop.

Ji Xiaowei seemed to see the embarrassment, and he said to me: "You can't blame people for doing this, after all, the probability of the coffee shop going out of business is too great now, and no one can joke about their career prospects, not to mention Jiang Qiao, a barista with a relatively high level, otherwise, you let Chen Yi come forward to make a guarantee and write a guarantee, Chen Yi is a public figure, as long as you can recognize her in this matter, the other party will have no worries." ”

"Can't you make a guarantee?"

Ji Xiaowei shook his head and replied: "I am not familiar with this barista, and I also asked someone to inquire about this matter, I think it is more appropriate for you to find Chen Yi than to find me, her Weibo fan base is so large, just post a Weibo, you can always find a reliable barista, right?"

I looked at Ji Xiaowei and didn't know what to say for a while, although Chen Yi and I grew up together and had a deep relationship, we were no different from strangers at this time, and Chen Yi was not in China at the moment, she couldn't help me anything, and there was no need to help me solve trouble.

After the silence, I finally said to Ji Xiaowei: "You give me the contact information of that barista, and I will think of a way." ”

"Okay."

Ji Xiaowei gave me a number as he spoke, and I immediately fell into deep thought, thinking about who I could borrow this money from. I thought of Lao Jin first, but considering that Jin Qiu had just bought a car, and had given me and Chen Yi 500,000 yuan before, plus various employee benefits and wages to be paid during the Chinese New Year, it was really hard to say how much available funds there were in the company's accounts, so I didn't want to add an extra burden to her.

Qin Miao is a good candidate, 160,000 yuan is probably as easy for her as I lent out 160 yuan, but she has already hated me in her heart, not to mention that I am still running the "mood coffee" left by Su Han, it is really hell that she will help with this

Irritable in my heart, I ignored Ji Xiaowei and lit a cigarette by myself, I felt isolated, but I still stubbornly didn't want to believe that I had done something wrong.

Ji Xiaowei also took out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it, and he suddenly asked me: "Jiang Qiao, Xiao Ai and Yuan Zhen have gone to Japan, you know?"

"I know, Xiao Ai told me."

Ji Xiaowei smiled and replied: "Xiao Ai and Yuan Zhen went to Japan This matter was caused by me, I said that they will definitely be together, this time to Japan is the best opportunity, you are also Xiao Ai's friend, you must be happy for her, two talented women, people who are willing to work hard for each other, if they can be together, this world will be too beautiful."

I stared at Ji Xiaowei for a long time before saying, "Yes." ”

When I left Xinjiekou and returned to the coffee shop, I felt lightheaded, and I knew that I had a fever, so I went to the pharmacy and bought some fever reducers. At this time, I will not complain about anything, I am used to such adversity, although I am not a capable and motivated man, but the resilience of the body is not comparable to ordinary people, I gradually got rid of the irritability of the day. I'm becoming more and more calm, and no matter how difficult it is, I'm sure I'm going to keep this coffee shop in business.

On the way back from the pharmacy, I met Lao Jin, who seemed to have come to me on purpose, and I subconsciously shouted: "Mr. Jin." ”

"I've quit the company, don't let Mr. Jin shout, Mr. Jin shouted, call uncle." As he spoke, he looked at the convenience bag I was carrying again and asked, "Why do you still buy fever reducers?"

"It's a little hot."

Lao Jin is a man who has served in the military and experienced life and death, and he will not pay too much attention to the little problem of fever, but just motioned for me to find a place to talk.

In the courtyard of my house, Lao Jin and I sat face to face around the stone table, he didn't gossip with me too much, and asked me directly: "Jiang Qiao, do you know why your Uncle Jin wants you to join our house?"

I looked at him puzzled, and only replied after a while: "I don't know." ”

Lao Jin took a sip of the hot water I poured for him, and said: "Jin Qiu, this girl is too strong, she is born to do business, she can't find a man like her to live Uncle takes a fancy to you, because you are down-to-earth and diligent, there must be a Gu family in a family, so that it is like living a life In addition, I also have a little selfishness, I want you to join our family." Your aunt and I will treat you as our own son, don't be in a hurry to tell me, you have no relationship with Jin Qiu, feelings can be cultivated slowly, as long as you don't dislike Jin Qiu's temper, as for the work of making money, leave it to Jin Qiu, anyway, she likes to do this thing."

I smiled: "Uncle Jin, is it really good that your plan is so detailed, you are actually mainly trying to get into me, after all, there are many only children in these years, and there are too few young men who are willing to get rich."

"You fart"

I looked at Lao Jin and waited for him to continue to explain, but he couldn't say why, so he stared at me like this, and then said again: "I'm just so selfish, is it too much that you and Jin Qiu will have a child in the future, and the second one is surnamed Jiang with your family, I definitely count."

I don't know what to reply, I fell into silence, I can be sure that if I marry Jin Qiu, I will definitely not worry about survival, but a marriage without love, can it be considered a marriage I believe that Jin Qiu thinks the same way.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Lao Jin patted me on the shoulder, and said: "If you are sick, take a good rest, and I'll ask Jin Qiu to buy you something to eat and send it over, don't open your coffee shop, it's not a big deal, if you think your uncle's words make sense, go back to the company to help Jin Qiu, she is tired during this time."

After saying this, Lao Jin left in my astonishment, but I did not dislike him because of his assertiveness.

In fact, after knowing that I was going to drop out of school, he persuaded me and said that as long as I had the ability to be admitted to university, he would provide me with the ability to study, but because of Zhao Chu's death and responsibility to Zhao Mu, I had no intention of continuing to go to school, so I rejected him. And after I dropped out of school, he took me into the wedding company, although I did a lot of hard work, but because of this, he did not let me become a young man who did not learn and did not know how to do it.

I suspect that he had already regarded me as his son-in-law, so he was never embarrassed to ask me to do the dirty work, even though I complained and scolded him for it.

I smiled, if Jiang Jiyou still has something to gain in this life, it is Lao Jin's brother, but I really can't be his son-in-law, because I don't want to lose my faith and become a housewife who just covets comfort.

My life has just begun, and I will never fall in these setbacks, I want to know where my faith is