readx; Chapter 30: You have to be strong in life

I struggled with writing this chapter for a long time, and the pain and insomnia plagued me like waves, and friends who have read the first few chapters I published know that I have absolutely no problem writing five or six chapters a day! My fingers ached, but I persevered to tell my story. But she is the person I respect the most in www.biquge.info my life, the person who gave me life, the person who taught me to be a person, the person who influenced my life, and she is my mother. An ordinary rural housewife, she has never been to school, she has read books, and she can't even write her name. But what she said and did was full of life philosophy. She said that suffering is a blessing. She said that there are two things to live for: being a person and doing things. If you are a good person in life, it doesn't matter if you do something almost, everyone will understand you. If you are bad at life and do things well, everyone will put up with your temper because of your professionalism, but the premise is that you at least know the basic etiquette of socializing! She told me a lot...... When I was a child, she beat me the most, but she is still the person I respect the most in my mind, and this is my mother. But now that she's gone, our already desolate home is even more desolate! Her departure is not only the biggest blow to our family, but also to our three siblings. It's like the last backer in life is gone, the shelter doesn't exist, it seems to have been abandoned by the whole world, especially me, my brother and sister, one is married, the other is ready to get married, and I am alone! Mother, don't you love me? Mother, don't you love your second hammer the most? Why are you willing to let me go? You are so ruthless, I hate you so much! Your departure is a disaster for me, like the end of the world! Without your shelter from the wind and rain, for me, I must go forward in the rain on the road of life......

Mother, I also know that you don't want to leave us, and you are still worried about the marriage of Sledgehammer before you leave! My sister's house is not in good condition either, her house! I'm still worried about me and Xia Jing. It's so sad and painful to leave...... I'm distressed, and you should be more distressed than I am. That kind of distress should make you more sad than your physical pain, right? Because you chose to give up treatment for my brother's marriage, for fear that the high medical expenses would increase the burden on our three sisters and brothers, my father has been gone for more than a year, and you also chose to leave us, it turns out that your nearly 35 years of beating and scolding are all acting, and you chose my father to leave our three sisters and brothers. That's what husband and wife are, right? That's love, right? Although ordinary, it just doesn't give up! I have so many things to say to you, but you have ruthlessly abandoned me. I have insomnia at night, who to talk to when I am sad? Mother: Do you really not love me? I'm now alone in a bustling city, savoring loneliness! There are thousands of lights outside, but none of them belong to me. I looked at the lights outside the window, and I was so homesick, with your nagging, my father's food, and the laughter of my sister and brother...... That's the taste of home I want! And with you gone, the house is still that house, but the home is not that home anymore? At that time, even if you were sick, as long as you were there, the three of us were happy! But now, although we are not under much financial pressure, we are very heartbroken and sad! I don't even want to reminisce! This is the eternal pain of my life, and I dare not face it until now! I envy those children who have mothers, only mothers are good in the world...... The son wants to raise but does not wait, and now it is too late to say this, may my mother be well in heaven, and continue the love between you and my father for thirty-five years.

This is what your son wrote with tears, I'm sorry mother, I'm not strong enough!

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