In the deep night, Kang Kang, Liu Liu, and Yao Yu and I drank beer and chatted about doing business. I can tell that these three people have no experience in entrepreneurship, and they have a very serious dead literary complex, and the ideas they come up with are basically losing money and making money. Especially Yao Yu, she has no concept of making money at all.

After drinking a few bottles of beer, my enthusiasm for entrepreneurship gradually waned, and the three people in front of me, although they had a little like-minded feeling, were really not good at starting a business. At this time, I already had the fear of being bitten by a snake for ten years, so I didn't have a lot of confidence in myself.

In short, even if I don't do anything for the time being, eating instant noodles every day in the dark, I will not rashly choose to start a business.

While drinking and chatting, the time had come to 12 o'clock in the middle of the night. If it is placed on Tulip Road in winter, I am afraid that only one convenience store is still open at this point in time, but in Shanghai, you don't feel that it is late at night, and many people's nightlife only starts at this time. For example, Liu Liu and Kang Kang, they were so excited that they had to go to the bar street to have another drink...... They all say that their lives are only for the night. As for the daytime, it is used for sleeping.

Look, look, does such a person have a bit of an entrepreneurial look?

So, I felt even more desperate for this improvisational foursome!

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After leaving the night market, Liu Liu and Kang Kang took Yao Yu to Bar Street, and I took a taxi alone back to the small apartment I bought in Shanghai. To my surprise, the apartment was cleaned, and it looked like Jin Qiu had come to stay here not long ago, because there was a small pot of jasmine tea on the table that he had forgotten to pour out, but it had gone bad.

After washing, I deliberately changed into a set of bedding before turning on the air conditioner and lying on the bed. I habitually lit a cigarette and took out my phone again, just planning to watch some news, and then when I was sleepy, I went to sleep.

But I had insomnia, probably because the night was too quiet, and I came to Shanghai, a very strange city again, and I couldn't help but think of some people who had lost here, and my heart suddenly felt very sour...... I thought in a trance that my grandmother hadn't left yet, and she was in the kitchen, waiting for me and Chen Yi to cook us a pot of small fish potstickers...... The smell was spicy and enticing!

Taking a deep breath of cigarette, my consciousness was pulled back to reality, so I refreshed today's circle of friends, and it was still the same tune, as if there was no unfulfilled dream in this world, only chicken soup for the soul that could not be drunk. I really don't know when it began, good people, but superstitious about those chicken soup for the soul that can be overthrown at any time with another chicken soup for the soul.

After a moment of silence alone, it suddenly "crackled" outside the window and it rained, I was in the house, but my world was wet, this can't blame me, if you want to complain, you will become very sentimental in such a situation.

I wanted to talk to someone for a while, but suddenly I realized that there was no one in this world who would talk to me in the middle of the rainy night.

I looked at the WeChat address book from top to bottom, and finally fixed my eyes on the name Jin Qiu, her avatar seemed to have changed, replaced by a black ant, and the two tentacles were particularly long.

I clicked on the dialog box with her and sent her a message: "When are you coming to Shanghai?" ”

She texted back with a cigarette: "What's wrong?" ”

"You forgot to give me the card of the community, you have to swipe the card when you get on the elevator, please swipe it by the security guard today."

"I'll send it to you with SF Express, and it will arrive the day after tomorrow at the latest."

"Hmm."

I replied briefly, thinking that this was where our conversation ended, when she sent me another message: "Are you going to live in Shanghai in the future?" ”

"I don't know...... If there's anything to do, stay here for a while. ”

"Really? If you think it's the right choice, go for it. ”

I said my plan casually, but I felt that Jin Qiu was a little too serious, so it took a long time to reply to her: "I really don't think that right and wrong in life are so important, it's enough to live comfortably." ”

Jin Qiu didn't reply to me again, probably sleeping, but I was hungry, so I rummaged through the boxes and cabinets in the house, and then found a can of beer and a packet of unopened pepper and salt peanuts from the refrigerator. After that, they filled all the emptiness I had generated during the night.

After eating the bag of peanuts until it was tasteless, I still didn't feel tired, but I didn't expect Jin Qiu to reply to my message at this time, she said, "I was just taking a bath, you slept, right?" ”

"Not yet."

After sending this message, the rain outside the window is louder, and I have been having a nervous breakdown lately, so I can't sleep even more. I was reminded of the cliché of entrepreneurship. I don't know why, I've worked hard, but I always miss a little bit at the critical moment, so that I fall short in the end......

I always thought that I was not defeated by these setbacks, but when I came up with the idea of entrepreneurship again, I found that I had always had a shadow on entrepreneurship in my heart, so I chatted with Liu Liu and them for so long today, and I didn't make up my mind to do something.

Suddenly, I felt that it was time for me to ask Jin Qiu, a successful person, about starting a business.

It's ridiculous to say, this year, Jin Qiu has been like a mirror, using her success to constantly reflect how redundant and helpless my failures are...... Because her success came too easily, and my failure came too unreasonable.

But there is not much truth in this world itself, many people have lost at the starting line from the moment they were born, such as some people have insufficient IQ and emotional intelligence, and some people lack a strong father. Although such a complaint seems negative, it is indeed a life phenomenon that cannot be denied.

I sent another message to Jin Qiu: "Actually, I was quite empty on the first day I came to Shanghai...... I want to do something with my friends, but I'm afraid of failing in whatever I do. ”

After a while, Jin Qiu sent me a long message: "I think it's normal for you to have this mentality now, after all, you have suffered two setbacks, but you should be bolder than before, so that you can completely unleash your imagination...... You're in Shanghai right now, and the city is big and there are a lot of opportunities. So my advice to you is to do things that others can't think of and dare not do, don't be afraid that there will be no market, as long as you dare to take the first step boldly, the huge population base and market space here will definitely bring you a lot of surprises......"

After reading Jin Qiu's message, I sighed softly, because the path she showed me was a little too vague and seemed very conceptual, and I still didn't know where to go.

However, it is also a bonus to have such a person willing to talk to me in the middle of the night. Now that I have drifted away from my former circle of friends, even when I think of Qiao Ye and Qin Miao and others, I will feel an unprecedented sense of strangeness.

Just when I was feeling so nostalgic, Jin Qiu sent me another message: "Tomorrow is the beginning of autumn, it will rain in Shanghai to cool down, you remember to add a piece of clothing." ”

I stared at this message for a long time, and my eyes couldn't help but be a little blurry. No wonder it rained this night, it turned out that autumn had arrived......

My life was one way of life before last fall, and another way of life after the fall, because it was at that time that I had one more woman in my life who was destined to make me feel unforgettable.

It seems slow, it seems fast, we've known each other for a year. Now, the four seasons are reincarnated, and autumn is coming again with rain, but where is she?

Yes, in this rain-soaked night, I thought of her deeply, like a cup of unsweetened coffee, like the loneliness of an old wolf facing alone, like pinning all my hopes on a cigarette between my fingers...... Like, this world is as small as a tulip road, but she has never come back; By the time the petals had withered in the fall, everything had become very open, and we hadn't seen it again.

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