After the gust of wind blew wildly for a while, it gradually converged, but the emotions surging in this gust of wind did not dissipate from the hearts of Chen Yi and me, we were like the sculpture in the square, frozen next to the emptiest glass flower room in the "Dream Tree".

Chen Yi straightened her windswept hair, and then pinned it behind her ear, she looked at me, did not wipe away her tears, but smiled at me and said, "Jiang Qiao, am I particularly stupid?" It's a woman who is about to get married, and she drove a car for a day to Shanghai to say these useless things to you......"

I also looked at her and wanted to tell her that she was not stupid, but when the words came to her lips, she couldn't say anything anyway. I'm afraid that any inadvertent words of myself will touch her nerves that want to cry.

Chen Yi said in a low voice: "But do you know, I also thought about ending the marriage like this, no one should alarm the best, and I don't even want to send you a wedding card, but this is just self-deception after all...... Perhaps, what you can see in this life is only a weak part of my character, but I also have principles and beliefs that must be adhered to...... How I think that I am the same as Yang Qu, I am really your sister or sister, so that you can put aside all complicated measurements, stay by your side in life and death, and others have no right to interfere with anything. But this is only my own dream-like imagination after all; I know that even if we really get married, I can only live in the contemptuous eyes of your mother and others, and even in your heart there is a thorn that cannot be pulled out, these are all caused by my family, and I am 10,000 unwilling to bear such consequences, but I am their daughter, and it is also an indisputable fact. Therefore, this is the only way we can do it in this life...... And the reason why I still came to you is just to tell myself and tell you that I really tried my best...... When you are down, I will not leave the sword mountain and the sea of fire; When you are prosperous and rich, I am willing to be a pile of sand, and when the wind blows, I will walk briskly, never dragging mud and water. ”

"Well, I understand, everything understands."

Chen Yi exhaled softly, she finally wiped away her tears, and said to me with a smile: "There is nothing more to say, in the end, I just hope that you can coax me like when I was a child, it is best to do it once and for all, so that I can live happily for the rest of the decades." ”

I raised my hand and tried to scratch her nose like I did when I was a child, but I suddenly realized that there was no candy in my pocket to make her laugh, so I put down my hand a little lost, and didn't say anything, just looked at her. Gradually, the whole world was empty......

Before the night came, Chen Yi left this place called the "Dream Tree", maybe she would drive back to Nanjing overnight to widen the distance between us, but I will never forget how lonely her back was in the night, like a floating leaf, just hovering with the wind, never able to find a place to stay......

……

The night has been dark for a long time, but I am still sitting on the bench with Chen Yi's temperature, I don't smoke, I don't do anything extreme, I just turn time into garbage, and I don't feel distressed at all. If no one bothered me, I would sit like this all night......

I don't know how long it took, there was a brisk footstep outside the door, and soon Yang Qu stood in front of me, and she asked me: "What's the matter with you, Sister Jin Qiu and I called you five or six times, and you didn't answer any of them...... Didn't we say we'd eat together in the evening, the dishes are all washed, just wait for you to go back and make them! ”

I didn't look up, and tried to reply in a calm tone: "The phone is not sounding...... You go back and tell Jin Qiu that I'm not going to go tonight, and I'm staying in the Dream Tree. ”

"You're not mistaken, this is the last dinner we have in Shanghai this year, although Sister Jin Qiu and I can't cook, but we buy all the dishes you like to eat, we all take you to heart, why do you want to release our pigeons?"

I didn't answer.

Yang Qu squatted on the ground and looked at me, and exclaimed for a while: "Brother, you are crying!" ……”

"It's okay, Trachoma."

Yang Qu didn't believe it, she replied: "I've been in Shanghai for more than half a year, let alone crying, I haven't even heard you say a few words of complaining, what's wrong with you?!" ”

I put my hand on my forehead, but I still didn't speak. Yang Qu put his hand on my shoulder, and this closeness made me no longer able to hide the loss and sadness, and I choked up and replied, "Don't ask...... Let me be alone for a while. ”

"Brother, I'm really sad that you're like this, even if I can't help you share something, at least I'm a qualified listener."

"You don't understand the adult world...... I cried, not because of how sad I was, but because I was reluctant to let go of some people and some things...... Sometimes, I really envy you, because fate doesn't play too many jokes on you, and when you meet the opposite sex you like in the future, you can freely love and pursue that innocence......"

Yang Qu thought about it, and suddenly seemed to understand, she asked me softly, "Is the news that Sister Chen Yi is going to get married that makes you so sad?" ”

"Don't ask, I want to be quiet."

"You don't have to treat me as a qu, I'm willing to be your quiet."

Yang Qu's lifeless concern made me feel even more tired, I completely lay on the bench, and then closed my eyes, feeling how cold the wind could still blow this night, this is not a kind of self-punishment, just want to let myself know what my heart can be broken into after completely losing a person. And this night I do know, for me, no matter how much I hate Xiao Ai, no matter how painful Chen Yi is, no matter what the future holds, they are women who can never be erased in my memory.

……

The next morning, I woke up in the glare of the sun, and the night I didn't go anywhere yesterday, just went back to the bar and set up a bunk, and then designed a sketch of the old alley under the flickering fire, which was the only thing I could do since Chen Yi left. I should be glad that I haven't completely lost it, at least there is a place where I can recreate my childhood dreams.

But this is not my wedding gift to Chen Yi, the meaning of its existence can only be a memory between us, even if we meet again in the future, it will be as plain as water. But this old alley standing in the "dream tree" is immortal to record our laughter, these laughter and laughter have nothing to do with ****, just remind us that we once had no guesses with each other, and we were childhood sweethearts in the eyes of others.

At about nine o'clock, Jin Qiu drove her Wrangler and Yang Qu to the "Dream Tree", looking at their ready, I suddenly seemed to see the dusk of the city of Nanjing, especially the Qinhuai River, which must have been lit up as in previous years, and the smell of the New Year was everywhere. And it just so happened that we arrived in Nanjing at dusk.

I don't know why, it's been a year, but many of the images from last year's Chinese New Year still appear in my mind over and over again as they happened yesterday.

I almost forgot that my grandmother, who gave me the New Year's money last year, had passed away, and I also forgot, and Xiao Ai, who accompanied me on the 30th night, was nowhere to be found.

Just standing in place and losing my mind for a while, I finally put my luggage into the car, then put on my sunglasses, and calmly switched driving positions with Jin Qiu, becoming the responsibility of her and Yang Qu along the long way.

I really want to put myself in a good mood on this way home, because the weather is really good today, and those who are left in Shanghai, let them continue to be good.

……

As soon as he got on the highway, Yang Qu complained to me and Jin Qiu: "I really don't know why you two bought this broken car, you can't go off-road a few times throughout the year, but you run long distances in three days, why don't you consider comfort?" Comfort! Big brother and sister, I went to Nanjing once, and I feel that my ass is not my own!! ”

Jin Qiu didn't care about Yang Qu either, she turned around and smiled, and said, "That's because you haven't been in the van that your brother drove back then, I think even if it's a tractor, that's how it feels!" ”

Yang Qu looked at me in disbelief and asked, "He also drove a van?" ”

"Not only did I drive, but I also used that broken car to send me to college for four years......"

I interrupted: "It's not been four years, you've been riding in your dad's car since your senior year, that old Accord, have you forgotten?" ”

Yang Qu's thinking jumped, and she snatched our words again and said: "It's more comfortable to be an Accord than to sit on this Wrangler...... Brother, didn't I say you, how can you say that you are also the big boss of the dream tree, are you embarrassed to rub Sister Jin Qiu's car? This time, I took advantage of the opportunity to return to Nanjing, and quickly picked up a car for myself...... It's best to be more comfortable, I recommend buying a Mercedes-Benz S-class, although the car is very average, but if you want to talk about comfort, it's really not comparable to this broken Wrangler! ”

I glanced at her in the rearview mirror and replied, "Why aren't you afraid of flashing your tongue when you speak?" …… Since the S-class is so ordinary in your mouth, then you hurry up and buy me one. ”

Yang Qu pouted and muttered: "It's not very expensive, if I don't buy a bag for a year and don't use cosmetics, I can probably buy one...... Besides, isn't there our mother, you just have to talk to her, not to mention an S-class, even the Maybach S-class has also been bought......"

As soon as these words came out, Jin Qiu immediately reprimanded: "Your brother has his own pursuits, don't talk nonsense!" ”

This time, my mood surprisingly didn't fluctuate, I just remembered what Chen Yi said to me last night. We are indeed not people of the same level, whether I want to admit it or not, but even if the earth shakes, I can't change the fact that I am Yang Jin's son, and I do benefit from it. Otherwise, the "dream tree" will not grow so smoothly, and the future will only shine even brighter.

But I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

At this time, Jin Qiu said to me again: "Jiang Qiao, seriously, I think you should buy a car...... It's really inconvenient. If I don't have any money for the time being, I still have a little spare money here......" After thinking about it, she said again: "If you think it's not so appropriate to do this, I think you can suggest that Qiao Ye allocate a bus to the company, and whoever wants to use it will not be able to ride a motorcycle when you and Liu Liu go out to socialize." ”

……

On the way back to Nanjing, because there were people to accompany and talk about, although it was already four o'clock in the afternoon when I returned to Nanjing, I didn't feel that this long journey had gone through a long time.

Jin Qiu sent me back to Tulip Road, and then took Yang Qu to his home. When Yang Qu left, she repeatedly said that she wanted me to find a larger short-term rental house, and if I didn't spend time with Lao Jin's family during the Chinese New Year, she would live with me, so she wanted to live with me.

I don't know why, looking at the earnest expression of Yang Qu, I miss that alley and my old house again. If it's still there, I'll probably take Yang Qu to see it, and tell her that there is also a part of Yang Jin's past here, and that she has lived here for more than eight years.

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