Episode 551 Loneliness: The Other Side of Confusion
Bai Haoran, who came back from the cemetery, locked himself directly in the house, and he sat quietly alone looking at the map of mountains and rivers. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 What does this picture mean to him, Bai Haoran's heart is full of confusion. Why do you need such a picture to maintain your existence, what is yourself, and after this matter is over, whether Bai Haoran will still live in the world, these things have become unknown. How much death does it take to realize one's life, and how many times will it take to be separated from one's flesh and blood, and to experience the most unacceptable feelings in the world?
Farewell, for Bai Haoran, this kind of farewell doesn't want to happen again, that feeling is not like our wave goodbye at the station, it is a real feeling in my heart. Once separated, they are completely separated, and they will never see each other again. There will never be another word of conversation, any trace of communication. The secret of life and death is so ruthless, I can no longer hear your thousand words, and you will no longer reach your ears with my cry. Even if two people facing each other are separated forever, all they can get is the emptiness and silence of facing the air.
This kind of goodbye has happened again and again, and it will continue to happen in the future. The panic and confusion in his heart made Bai Haoran really feel tired......
In the past, Bai Haoran had no troubles in his heart, he just lived his life happily and was himself. No matter what the outside world is like, he is who he is. However, now Bai Haoran is no longer living because of himself, he has worries and hesitations. Look at your own children, your own lovers. Bai Haoran couldn't help but feel a burst of fear...... He is heading towards a war, a war full of unknowns, in which no one knows who will survive and who will die. He holds only one goal. Now Bai Haoran found that he actually had nothing, and at such a moment, he had to face this cruel truth alone. In the past, Bai Haoran was bent on knowing the answer, but now he avoids the answer. He was afraid that this truth was simply what he couldn't accept......
"Knock knock......" Someone knocked softly on Bai Haoran's door, and then Tianxiang walked into the room with some snacks. Tianxiang put the snacks on the table, and she sat down next to Bai Haoran. Tianxiang's head gently leaned on Bai Haoran's shoulder and said, "I already know everything about you, in fact, my mother told me before, but I can't believe that all this is true." But now it seems that it is all true......"
Bai Haoran didn't speak, he just shook his head slightly. You can tell from his expression that he doesn't want to talk, he doesn't want to say anything, he doesn't want to do anything. He just wanted to sit here silently, sit quietly here and think about nothing.
Tianxiang said softly, "No matter what, I hope you don't stop there." Because of so many steps, we have all come here, is it only one step away? ”
Bai Haoran just shook his head, Tianxiang looked at Bai Haoran's face, and she asked in a low voice, "You're going to the Taixu Realm, right?" ”
Bai Haoran didn't speak, and Tianxiang continued to speak: "You must be careful when you go, don't let us worry anymore." ”
Bai Haoran slowly looked at Tianxiang, he smiled slightly, and then whispered, "I know." ”
Tianxiang was very understanding and leaned against Bai Haoran's side, and the two of them sat motionless like this. Bai Haoran himself didn't know how much time had passed, and when he came back to his senses, he only found that Tianxiang was asleep leaning on his arms. Bai Haoran hugged Tianxiang, and he hummed in a low voice the tune that Tianxiang always used to hum before going to bed when he was a child. Bai Haoran's mind recalled the scene at that time.
The goose-feathered university fell from the sky, and in the cave of the mountain forest, two children shivered and roasted on fire. The two of them had not eaten anything decent for three days, and the little boy kept adding firewood if the fire was extinguished. They will freeze to death here, in the barren mountains and mountains, and they will get lost outside in order to complete the tasks assigned by their families. It is very dangerous to get lost in the mountains, because here you are not faced with the simple of not finding your way home, but you are very likely to die in the mountains.
"Ah Xiang, don't sleep, you've been hungry for three days, if you sleep like this again, you won't be able to wake up." The little boy said as he added firewood.
The girl curled up next to the little boy closed her eyes and smiled, "Shhh......h I didn't sleep, I was feeling the temperature of Xiao Zhengqi's body, although it was very cold outside, but Xiao Zhengqi's arms were so warm......"
"When is it, you're still here to relax. If we don't go home, our family won't look for us, my mother and her...... Even if I die outside, she won't care about me! Thinking of this, the little boy cried sadly, but the girl on the side put her arms around his neck and said, "How come?...... As long as we're together, it's going to be fine. Rest assured, we'll get out of trouble. As soon as the snow stopped, we continued to look for our way, and we will definitely go out. ”
"Gollum ......" When the little girl was talking, the little boy's stomach suddenly screamed, and the boy blushed and said, "I'm sorry, you haven't eaten, but I ......"
"I'll sing to you! Divert your attention and you won't feel hungry. The little girl smiled and said to the boy.
"Alright! Then Ah Xiang sang it to me......"
"Well, I'll only sing to you in this life." The little girl replied with a smile. Then the little girl hummed softly, and the song was very light and tactful, and it was very beautiful. It's like the sound of spring, and it's by no means comparable to the sound of glamour. When the girl was humming the tune, the child unconsciously closed her eyes, and after the girl finished humming the tune, she looked at the boy and smiled and asked, "Are you better?" ”
The boy nodded happily and said, "Well, it's much better." Ah Xiang, can you marry me when you grow up? ”
"Marry you? Why? The girl asked with a smile as she looked at the boy.
The boy thought for a moment and said, "Because I like you, and I want to protect you for the rest of my life." I want to protect you all my life, as long as Ah Xiang is here, I feel that I can solve anything no matter what. There are no difficulties for me in this world. The only difficulty is that you are not with me! ”
The girl's moving smile looked at the boy so drunk, and the girl nodded slightly and smiled: "I don't want to leave Xiao Zhengqi in this life, because you are all I have!" I have nothing to be nostalgic about in this world, only you make me feel that there is something else in this world that worries me. So I'll stay with you until you dislike me and don't want me anymore. ”
"No, I won't dislike your ......"
Bai Haoran thought of this, he looked at Tianxiang's quiet cheeks, he had grown up at this time. But in the process, he broke his oath...... Thinking of this, Bai Haoran felt a burst of heartache, and Bai Haoran gently stroked Tianxiang's bun. Tianxiang's slender eyelashes moved slightly, she opened her eyes and looked at Bai Haoran and asked, "What?" Remembering something wrong? ”
Bai Haoran was choked by this sentence, and then he couldn't help laughing for some reason, and Tianxiang also laughed. Tianxiang sat up straight, she looked at Bai Haoran and asked, "What do you think of?" ”
"I'm sorry." Bai Haoran replied softly.
Tianxiang shook her head and said, "I don't want to hear a word of sorry. ”
"And what do you want to hear?" Bai Haoran looked at Tianxiang curiously and asked.
Tianxiang leaned on Bai Haoran's arms and whispered, "Don't you understand what I want?" For so many years, you have promised me to always protect me and keep me by your side, but you have never fulfilled this promise. ”
Bai Haoran said: "It's my fault, I didn't fulfill my promise." ”
"I don't want you to admit your mistakes, I want you to promise me, I want the children of the two of us. They've all got them, and I don't want to be the last. Tianxiang looked at Bai Haoran and said softly.
Bai Haoran was stunned, she looked at Tianxiang and asked, "Are you ......?"
"If one day you do die, I don't want to chase you. And just want to help you take care of and raise our children. I am a descendant of Nuwa, the last descendant, and I don't want to cut off my own life, which is a blasphemy of life. So I want to pass on your bloodline while I'm alive...... Even if you fulfill your promise to me. Okay? ”
Bai Haoran said in a low voice: "Okay! I promise you......"
Tianxiang softly hugged Bai Haoran's neck and said, "Then I'll wait for your promise." ”
Bai Haoran picked up Tianxiang, Tianxiang's body was really light. Just like in the past, she has always been very light, Bai Haoran often holds her or carries her back and forth in the mountains and forests. Bai Haoran put Tianxiang on the bed and asked softly, "Won't you wait until the night of the candles in the cave room?" ”
"Those are just a ritual for me, I want just you. And not those things. Tianxiang said softly.
Bai Haoran caressed Tianxiang's cheeks, the seductive aroma made people feel the blood flowing, Tianxiang's graceful figure loomed in front of Bai Haoran, Bai Haoran kissed Tianxiang's white neck, and he whispered: "Actually, this day, I've really been waiting for a long time......"
Tianxiang said softly: "I've been waiting for a long time, I'm not worse than them, right?" ”
Bai Haoran shook his head slightly and said, "I have never compared each of you. Because you are all one, there is nothing to compare. ”
The bed curtain was lowered, and the two finally fell into the dream of love. Tianxiang finally handed herself over to Bai Haoran here, and she almost couldn't stop loving Bai Haoran's haunting carcass. After all, Tianxiang is his first love, and she is also the woman who has always been with him. The two grew up together, endured hardships together, and experienced all kinds of hardships together. After these women, only Tianxiang knew Bai Haoran the most. She is the only one who has been with Bai Haoran for the longest time......
After the clouds and rain, Tianxiang lay in Bai Haoran's arms, and she whispered to Bai Haoran: "You...... Leaving soon, right? ”
Bai Haoran nodded and said in a low voice, "Well, but I will accompany you in the next few days." ”
"No need, your affairs should still be very important, but do you want to go alone?"
Bai Haoran said: "Well, I plan to go alone, after all, it is too dangerous there." ”
Tianxiang replied softly: "Take Yi'an above, right?" ”
"Take her? Why? Bai Haoran looked at Tianxiang puzzled, Tianxiang said with a smile: "She is the strongest among us, and she will be our powerful combat power in the future, Taixu Tian is dangerous for you, but at the same time, it is also a rare experience, and there will definitely be a great improvement." I am a member of the Nuwa tribe, and I cannot leave the earth at will. It was very dangerous for me, and the rest of the people still had concerns, but she didn't have any concerns, and she was a Shura woman. As far as I know, the benefits of the Taixu Heavenly Realm to her are greater than any of you, but it is difficult for the Shura clan to enter the Taixu Heaven, after all, the Heavenly Realm is a hindrance, and I don't want the Shura clan to be too powerful. But if you take her into the void, I'm sure no one will stop you. ”
"I've thought about it too, but you all need to improve your strength, after all, the people we have to face will be very dangerous in the future."
"Don't worry, I am the daughter of Mother Earth, and as long as I stand on the earth, I will not be defeated. These people are the ones who need to be exercised the most. Although she has a good talent, she is already the weakest among her sisters. Tianxiang said with a smile.
Bai Haoran sighed and said: "Where is this reasonable, she was the strongest in the past, but now she needs to be promoted the most." But that's okay, I'm sure she'll have a way to help me out here if she needs anything. After all, I'm not here in this house, and I basically rely on you. ”
Tianxiang asked with a smile: "Are you acquiescing to the identity of my big house?" ”
Bai Haoran smiled: "Haven't you always been my big house?" ”
Tianxiang pursed her lips and smiled: "It seems that you have been pretending to be stupid all along, right?" ”
Bai Haoran said: "It's rare to be confused! ”
"How many times have we done it? How did I forget? Tianxiang suddenly asked with a wicked smile.
Bai Haoran said in surprise: "Eight times!" Sister, are you okay? Everyone else is begging for mercy at this time! ”
"I'm the same as you, I'm a godhead with fertility, you're capable, of course I won't let it, I've been so long, what can I do a few more times? And you've said it's hard to be confused...... How many more times? How can you leave without leaving a child? ”
"What?! Ah Xiang, you're not kidding, are you? Are you trying to drain me? Are you a juicer? Bai Haoran asked in surprise.
Tianxiang turned over and pressed Bai Haoran, she asked with a sweet smile, "You mean I'm a juice squeeze?" Okay~~I don't have an opinion~~ I just hope to prove it to you, I may be stronger than you think! I'm actually a dehydrator! ”
"Help!! Murdered her husband!! Ah~~~"