As soon as the cashier at the "Mood Café" left, I went into my room with the student ID card and sat in a well-lit position before opening it.

There is no doubt that the student ID card is that girl's, because the ID photo can match her number, but even if it is a completely unmodified ID photo, she is so beautiful, but this beauty is mixed with a kind of stubbornness and pride, I think for the first time that the original beauty can become complicated, or a temperament other than beauty, this temperament can not be imitated by others at all, it is unique to her.

I continued to watch, only to know that this girl's original name was Xiao Ai, a senior student in the Nanyi Music Performance Department, and she is 22 years old this year, although I have always called her so, in fact, she is only 3 years younger than me, regardless of academic qualifications, there is no age gap between us.

Putting my student ID aside, I repeatedly thought about the name Xiao Ai in my brain, I have done so many weddings, could it be that at a certain wedding, we had a passing fate?

For a long time, I was still very unfamiliar with the name, and finally stopped forcing myself to think about this result, at least not yet.

After washing, I lay down in bed, thinking about my 25th birthday on Monday, but I was actually afraid of my birthday because I remembered all these years of helplessness. Every birthday I remember has never been celebrated, not even greeted by my parents, so I always invite as many friends as possible to cover up the frustration, and sometimes I just pretend to forget, and when no one reminds me, it just goes by in a daze.

I suddenly didn't want to have a birthday party, anyway, Chen Yi was not there, so I just cooked some food and drank some wine at home, in my memory, I haven't cooked a dinner for myself for a long time, and I have been relying on the roadside food stall to get my three meals a day.

Lighting a cigarette, I picked up my mobile phone, and then stared at Chen Yi's avatar on WeChat for a while, in fact, every night, I really want to chat with her a few words, but restraint has become the emotion I have used most on her over the years, because I am afraid that I will inadvertently turn my dependence on her into her burden, it is better to be cool all the time, she does not take the initiative to find me, I would rather stare at her avatar and see two dizzy eyes, and never send her a word, an expression.

The phone suddenly vibrate, it turned out to be a voice invitation sent to me by Chen Yi through WeChat, I connected it with a shake of my hand, and complained: "What are you doing, I was about to fall asleep just now, and I was woken up by your voice invitation again." ”

Chen Yi was puzzled: "Do you sleep so early on the weekend?" ”

"During the day, you have to take care of your dragon's body at night."

"Huh."

"Say, what are you looking for me, won't it just be a chat."

"I just wanted to ask you if you remember to close the doors and windows of my house."

I deliberately exclaimed, "Ah! ”

"Look at you, I don't remind you, you really forgot, go and close it, if it rains at night, all those furniture by the window will be finished!"

"Actually, I closed your doors and windows in the evening...... Haha, I love to listen to your nervous voice. ”

Chen Yi's tone was a little displeased: "Jiang Qiao, don't you think you're a little bored?" ”

I replied disapprovingly: "You said that I have no friends and no cultural accomplishments, and if I can't learn to have fun in boredom, how boring my life is......"

Chen Yi didn't respond to me again, I only heard the loud waves on the other side of the phone, occasionally mixed with the sound of seabirds, telling me that she was on the beach in Qingdao at the moment, and she finally said to me: "Jiangqiao, do you hear the sound of the sea?" ”

"I heard it, and it was very strong...... It's like telling a story far away. ”

"Well, it would be nice if we lived by the sea since we were young, and when we looked at it, we felt that the whole person was very open, and the things that had been bothering us didn't seem to be so important."

"Why are you stressing about us? …… I think Nanjing is very good, and I don't feel much about the sea. ”

Her words were a little low: "It's nothing, I'll just talk about it casually." ”

I sensed her strangeness, and after a moment of silence, finally asked her, "Are you not in a good mood?" ”

This time, she was silent for a longer time, and I listened to her breathing and the sound of the sea breeze blowing, and only after a long time did she whisper to me, "Jiangqiao...... My boyfriend from college came to Qingdao to find me today. ”

"What's going on?"

"He said he couldn't forget me and hoped we could continue the broken relationship......"

I felt a wave of emotions in my heart that I couldn't express in words, and I seemed to see that my love for Chen Yi for so many years had become so slight in just a moment......

"Jiang Qiao, why don't you speak?"

I forced a smile: "Haha...... I was just thinking: What charm do you have that is worth making your ex-boyfriend unforgettable, but I didn't find it after thinking about it for a long time! …… Actually, you're really average. ”

Chen Yi fell into silence again, but fortunately, the sound of the waves has always been like an empathetic mediator, alleviating the embarrassment of having nothing to say between us.

I finally asked her in a normal manner, "Can you tell me what you think in your own heart?" ”

"I've been quite quiet in the past two years since I graduated, and this sudden interruption made me a little uncomfortable."

"If you feel uncomfortable, refuse it, two people together, the most basic thing is to be happy, if you can't even guarantee this, then the rest is even more nonsense!"

Chen Yi didn't give a positive answer, but just said to me: "I won't talk to you about these unhappy things, you can rest quickly, and I'm ready to go back to the hotel." ”

"If you don't talk, you won't talk."

"Well, good night."

"Good night, good dreams."

After ending the voice call with Chen Yi, my mood has not calmed down, so I rummaged through the cabinets and found a CD given to me by Chen Yi a long time ago, put it in the old-fashioned CD player, and listened to it many times before gradually quieting down.

And the one who accompanied me to sleep this night was the song "Listening to the Sea" that has been sung for several eras, and I don't know if Chen Yi, who is far away in Qingdao, will soon calm down and let himself have a high-quality sleep when facing the more real sea.

……

The next day, I was still awake in the strong sunshine of the weekend, but the melancholy of the previous night was not digested in my sleep, and I never got up, just stared at the ceiling above my head, until the smell of the next door neighbor's food wafted out of the window, as if I had wasted the whole morning in a trance.

After I got up and washed, I rode my bicycle to Nanyi, I want to find the girl named Xiao Ai, and then return her student ID card to her, I hope to take this opportunity to turn war with her, at least we know each other, even if we don't meet in the future, don't have hatred in your heart.

Soon I entered the school gate of Nanyi, the library, concert hall and even the teaching building here exude a humanistic atmosphere, I heard that there have been many well-known actors and singers in the entertainment industry, although I have been here a few times because of wedding activities, but when I walked on the green path of the campus again, I still looked left and right with admiration, thinking: not how sacred it is, but my own cultural cultivation is too poor, so any university will cause me to yearn.

After asking a few students, I finally found the dormitory building where the girls of the music performance department lived, and once again stopped a passing girl and asked, "Classmates, classmates...... Do you know a female student named Xiao Ai in the music performance department? ”

Some girls who are slightly chubby but look good replied: "Who are you, what are you looking for Xiao Ai?" ”

"I'm a friend of hers, her student ID card dropped me yesterday, if she wants to be in the dormitory, you can help call it, just say I'm waiting for her downstairs."

"Yo, that's really unfortunate, today the city government receives foreign guests, there is a theatrical performance, she is a guest performer, and she went to the rehearsal in the morning."

"She can still participate in this kind of high-end theatrical performance!? "I immediately sighed, after all, it is a government-standard art show, and if it is not for a very high attainment in a field, there is no such opportunity.

The girl looked at me with a look of disdain and replied, "You and she must not be particularly familiar, right?" Let me tell you: Xiao Aike is a well-known talented girl in our school, she is proficient in several mainstream musical instruments, and her voice conditions are also super good, plus she is very beautiful, almost all the celebrities in the local music circle in Nanjing think she will be popular, but she herself has no interest in the entertainment industry, otherwise she would have signed a record company a long time ago! ”

I was stunned, I never dreamed that the girl who didn't look very peaceful would have such a talent, all the images she gave me before had been frozen in the arrogant picture of the courtyard wall, and in my cognitive system, the courtyard wall and the music performer can never have anything to do with it.

The girl urged, "Is there anything else you want to ask?" If not, I'm gone. ”

"Uh...... You ask her to go to me to get her student ID back after the performance, my name is Jiang Qiao, and she will know if you report your name. ”

"You give it to me directly, and I'll just hand it over to her."

"She often takes the initiative to find me, and it's also a matter of passing to me to get it."

"I heard you right, she's such a cold, uncaring woman who loves to talk to everyone and often takes the initiative to come to you? ……”

I was stunned again, in my memory, that girl couldn't match the three words cold, but at this moment, there was indeed such an argument...... Maybe people have many facets, at least she took the initiative to find me first, if she still has the coldness in the mouth of the schoolgirl, how can she play games with me? So she has to be lively, so that we can communicate.

I finally replied in a very troubled tone, "You heard me right, maybe it's because I'm too good and handsome." ”

"Come on, don't blame me (Nanjing dialect)!"

I smiled, and told the female student to remember to tell Xiao Ai to go to me to get back the student ID, and then left Nanyi, but the doubts about this girl in my heart were deeper, because I couldn't figure out what purpose she was trying to find me