"She always told me how gentle her father was with her, but in my memory my father never saw her, and if I wasn't my father's daughter, I would even wonder if that person really existed."

She loves him like crazy, and every day she has to tell me over and over again what that person looks like, what he likes, what he hates, and what kind of small actions and habits he has. I've never met him, but I know everything about him as if I've been with him for years or even decades. My mother thought that if she told me everything about him, I would be able to love my father as much as she did, but she didn't know that the more she loved that person, the more I hated that person. ”

Hongchan's teary eyes released a light of hatred because of her childhood memories, but behind that light of hatred, there was more of a heartache that hurt to the extreme.

"I hated him, hated that he had taken everything from my mother without doing anything, and he had taken everything from me. Not only did he leave me without a father, but he also almost made me lose my mother, who was indeed by my side in those years, but everything she did was always preparing for my father, as long as my father called, she would not hesitate to throw me into his arms. ”

"Just because the man praised her hand for being gentle and slippery, she didn't allow anyone to touch her hand more, once when I was a child, I accidentally scratched her, and she beat me like an enemy," Hongchan's tears fell, but she didn't want to win Shangguan Jingxuan's sympathy with her tears, so she turned her back to him slightly, "At that time, I understood that my mother was not my mother, she was just an appendage of my father, an item that had lost herself, she might love me, But that kind of love and her master, my father, must have been nothing......"

Shangguan Jingxuan didn't know how to comfort her, a father who had never met, a mother who was crazy about love, no wonder she was so cold to people on weekdays, born in such a family, who would dare to indulge her heart to love others?

"For my mother, I loved her and hated her more, but I hated her and sympathized with her at the same time. She waited for her father to remember her, but year after year passed, and her father did not show up once. She looked in the mirror every day, fearing that she was getting old, and even if she could wait for her father to think of her, she would not be able to see him. She kept the plum blossom branch that her father gave her, and talked to it every day as if she were to her father, asking him when he would like to see her again......"

"I don't know how ruthless a man must be in the face of such an infatuated woman to be able to leave her behind and refuse to see her for six years. It wasn't until I grew up that I realized that there is nothing more ruthless in the world than infatuation. I love my mother, my mother loves my father, but my father loves his wife, and his wife hates him because of my mother and me, and then everyone is so tragic......"

"It is difficult for those who are amorous, and it is difficult for those who are unsentimental, and there is no luck in love." Shangguan Jingxuan didn't know why he suddenly remembered this sentence, was it because of Hongchan's parents, or because of Brother Wang, or because of himself who had a similar experience?

"Yes, it is difficult for the amorous, and it is difficult for the unsentimental, if you want not to get hurt, it is still ......good to be unkind" Hongchan looked at the plum blossom branch in her hand, not knowing whether she was echoing or persuading herself.

"What about your father? Has he never looked for you, and you have never seen him? He saw that Hongchan's words and deeds were full of an innate nobility, not like she was born in an ordinary family, her father must be either rich or expensive, she lost her mother at a young age, and her father should not ignore it.

"Things are not as simple as His Highness thinks," Hongchan was reluctant to talk about the later events and her father's decision, but the topic changed to a few years later, "Fortunately, Gonggong Cao adopted me later, although I failed to recognize my ancestors and return to my ancestors to get a good home as my mother hoped, but I finally grew up without worrying about food and clothing." ”

"Well, after all these years, haven't you ever thought of seeing your father again? Maybe he regretted it? "A family is a family after all, more than ten years have passed, and no matter how big the heart knot is, it should be opened. Although he understood that Hongchan didn't want to mention his father's affairs, he could see that Hongchan should have very affection for her father, and now she may not be able to let go of the things of the year, but once she misses the opportunity, it may be a lifelong regret.

"I may always be just a burden to him," Hongchan's gaze drifted away, "his heart will always be only his wife and their children, and I am just a wrong ......"

"You should probably try again." Shangguan Jingxuan encouraged. Brother Wang and his father were at odds for ten years, and later launched a palace change to make his father angry to death, when his father was there, Brother Wang was hard-hearted, but when his father died, Brother Wang was sadder than anyone else. If they were willing to take a step back during their father's lifetime, how could it lead to the tragedy that followed?

"He, he's dead......" Hongchan finally spoke slowly after a while.

Shangguan Jingxuan was embarrassed for a while, no wonder she didn't want to mention it more, it turned out to be ...... It was he who was reckless. "I—I thought...... I'm sorry. ”

Hongchan shook her head and smiled: "Your Highness doesn't have to blame yourself. In fact, I had been in contact with my father before he died, so I didn't have much regrets, but my mother couldn't wait for the day when my father turned back, and it was still a little worthless for her. ”

These words have been muffled in my heart, I have never said to anyone, His Royal Highness suddenly gave me a plum blossom, so I can't help but think of my mother, I have been babbling for so long. I feel much more comfortable, and I hope Your Highness won't be too tired of listening to my housework! ”

"How so?" Shangguan Jingxuan said heartily, "Every family has a scripture that is difficult to read, speaking of which, there are many similarities between my experience with the girl, and I have never told anyone else about the difficulties, and when I hear the girl say this today, it can be regarded as sympathy!" ”

"Princess......" Hongchan originally wanted to ask, 'Hasn't even the princess ever talked to you so deeply?' , but before the words came out, he already felt that it was a little inappropriate, so he hurriedly changed his words, "The princess will be back in the next two days, and His Royal Highness can talk to the princess more about his thoughts." ”

Hongchan's gaze unconsciously aimed at Shangguan Jingxuan, she seemed to be faintly expecting him to say something to refuse, but he sighed: "Yes, she will be able to come back in two days!" ”

The plum blossom in Hongchan's hand clenched for a while, just now the plum blossom was like the spring light in March warming her palm, but at this moment, it suddenly turned into a bunch of cold ice, cold to the heart.