From the time I entered the hospital to this moment, it was as if I had been in hell for two hours, and my mind kept flashing with Xiao Ai's smart and incomparably beautiful eyes. I thought of the woman I had seen with her on Mochou Road a long time ago.

I said at the time that although Xiao Ai is very beautiful, compared with her, she still lacks some mature temperament after going through the world, and she also lacks the charm of some intellectual women. But now, when I think of her eyes, I feel that she is the most beautiful woman in the world, and no one can replace her beauty, she is like a river that flows quietly, and my life is like a willow tree that withers on the bank because of lack of water, until she flows gently in the sun, and my life begins to open again......

I couldn't continue to think about the possibilities I didn't want to face, so I could only hold my head tightly with my hands and keep panting, I was going crazy!

I don't know how long it took, the door of the emergency room was suddenly opened, and Yu Xin, who was beside me, hurriedly shouted to me who was hanging her head: "Brother Jiangqiao, the doctor is out, let's go and ask what the situation is......"

I looked up suddenly, then looked at the doctor standing in the doorway in dismay, and then suddenly got up from the chair again, and I walked towards them, almost trembling and asked, "Doctor, how is my girlfriend, how are her eyes?" “

The doctor looked at me, his expression did not look optimistic at all, and he replied in a low voice: "We have taken care of the trauma she suffered, and there is nothing serious, but there may be some scars on her arms, but she still needs to be transferred to the ophthalmology department of our hospital for further treatment, because now her eyes are no longer able to see, and I suspect that it is an optic nerve contusion caused by external forces......"

As if struck by lightning, I grabbed the doctor who was already about to leave, and asked, "What is an optic nerve contusion, please tell me more details, is it possible for her to regain her sight?" “

The doctor paused and replied, "The optic nerve is the visual signal transmission pathway that connects the brain to the eyeball, and if damaged, it can lead to partial or even total loss of vision. The optic nerve runs inside the orbital skull and is surrounded by three layers of protective membrane: dura mater, arachnoid membrane, and pia mater. The optic nerve canal, which leads to a narrow area inside the skull, is a bony lumen, and within this lumen, the dura mater around the optic nerve and the bony coat on the inner wall of the lumen are fused into a layer. Once the skull is struck by an external force, the external force will be transmitted to the optic nerve canal through the skull, resulting in a shear injury to the optic nerve with sudden and huge momentum. The injured optic nerve then develops edema, and in the bony lumen with limited space, it can only "bully the soft and fear the hard", and it is "guilty" and oppressed. At the same time, tearing or stretching of the bony gown in the bony lumen can cause subdural hemorrhage of the optic nerve, compress the optic nerve, and cause "fascial space syndrome", causing physiological transection of the optic nerve. In the combination of mechanical external shear injury, edematous injury, physiological transection and three forces, the optic nerve may be temporarily or even permanently damaged...... I say that, can you understand? “

I grasped the most important key word in his words and asked nervously, "What does it mean to be permanently damaged?" ”

The doctor sighed, and he replied, "I will remain blind forever...... Your girlfriend's situation is not very optimistic, and I hope you can be mentally prepared enough to face it. Or, if you can afford it, you can transfer to a hospital with better medical conditions...... This girl is still very young, and if she is blind like this, it will have a very great impact on her later life, and she herself may not be able to accept this fact...... After all, a world without sunshine is not something that a once normal person can bear and accept. “

I couldn't accept this fact, I grabbed the doctor's arm and didn't let him leave, but I couldn't speak at all, and finally Yu Xin forcibly pulled my hand away, and the doctor left in a hurry like relief.

Yu Xin whispered to me who lost my mind, and said, "Brother Jiangqiao, go in and see Xiao Ai......"

I couldn't move my feet to face Xiao Ai, who couldn't see anything anymore. Yu Xin pulled me towards the ward and comforted: "The doctor just said that it is only possible to be permanently blind, and there is a high chance that I can recover." At this time, she needs you most to give her confidence, rather than seeing a desperate you break down, you know? “

I closed my eyes, held back the tears that were about to overflow, and then followed Yu Xin's footsteps towards the ward, I wanted to squeeze out a smile to comfort Xiao Ai, who was about to see me, but I remembered that she couldn't see my smile anymore......

……

In a very ordinary ward, the nurse hung a hanging water bottle for Xiao Ai, and Yu Xin and I came to the bedside, and I couldn't speak. Yu Xinqiang smiled and asked her, "Do you feel okay?" “

Xiao Ai's voice was a little weak: "My eyes hurt a little...... Why can't I see anything? …… What about the river bridge? “

Yu Xin pushed me who was standing next to me and motioned for me to open my mouth to talk to her, but I could only look at her and couldn't say a word. I can't believe that she, who was still having dinner with me tonight, walked through the ghost gate again, and then the world lost all its color?

I was in the middle of a knife as I looked at her gauze-wrapped eyes, and all I could think of was how she sat on the courtyard wall drinking beer, and when she was angry with me, she lifted her slender legs up on my shoulders...... I almost lost my voice in pain, but I held it back again, and finally gently held her soft hand and whispered "I'm here".

I don't know what kind of scene it is at the moment, I only saw that Yu Xin's eyes were full of tears that were about to fall, she turned her back to us, and then wiped away these tears with a tissue to prevent herself from choking, and then whispered to Xiao Ai: "Don't worry, dear...... Your eyes are fine, just a little trauma, and after a while it will be fine. “

Xiao Ai nodded, and then suddenly asked Yu Xin and me, "What about Xiao Fang, how is Xiao Fang?" “

I tried hard to restrain my feelings, and whispered back, "You protected her very well...... She's fine, she's just choked on the cigarette and should be discharged tomorrow. ”

Xiao Ai was relieved: "That's good......" Soon, she asked with concern: "Are we still in time to participate in the Xinghai Cup Piano Competition?" "Now you don't have to think about it, just take care of your body...... Nothing is more important than your body! “

Xiao Ai's tone was full of loss: "It's too late, right?" ＂

Yu Xin hurriedly took over the conversation and replied, "It's too late, how can it be too late...... You can rest in peace, Xiaofang can be her teacher and accompany her to participate in the competition. ”

Xiao Ai nodded, and didn't speak again, I don't know what she was thinking, maybe she was thinking about the piano shop that was completely destroyed by the fire, maybe she wasn't thinking about anything......

After a moment of silence, Yu Xin pulled me aside, and then whispered in my ear: "Brother Jiangqiao, you can accompany Xiao Ai tonight...... This may be the last quiet night between you...... After I went to see Xiaofang, I went back first. ”

I answered, and then I thought of Yuan Zhenji Xiaowei, who was about to arrive in the morning, and her mother Ruan Su, and my heart swelled with a sadness that was almost desperate, how should I give them an explanation?

Xiao Ai is already like this!

……

After Yu Xin left, I stood back by the bed, and then gently pulled the quilt for her. Sensing my, she held my hand tightly, and after being silent for a long time, she whispered to me and asked, "Jiang Qiao, have you ever thought about what kind of life you will live in the future?" ”

I looked at her in the dim light, and she must have sensed something, for she had barely asked me that in my memory.

I was silent for a longer time, and with the last smile I could make, I whispered in her ear, "I hope that one day, I will be able to stop smoking." Will feed a dog, earn some money, raise you and your children, and live a life that is no different from everyone else. No more thinking about the troublesome things and troublesome people in the past, no more squatting on the side of the street, drinking, smoking and shedding tears...... I will live an optimistic life, smile occasionally, and call my old friends often, instead of being silent at every turn, and again, always silent......"

Xiao Ai held my hand tighter before she knew it, she must be laughing, she didn't cry, she must not cry......