"I have walked through thousands of mountains and rivers, and washed away the lead in the world. Eight? A Chinese network? ?? (viii).? 8 (1) 1 Z ( ) .? Suddenly, it was not the sweetest and most intense moments of pleasure that I had ever enjoyed that attracted me the most. This short-lived meme of intoxication is too intense to be a sparse point in life. The happiness I miss is a simple and lasting state that has no strong stimulus in itself. But the longer it lasts, the more attractive it becomes, and finally it gets a kind of extreme happiness in time. ”

Guan Ying, who stopped whimpering, lay in Xiao Zhan's arms like this, muttering these words with a smile.

A warm and silent feeling, a memory that seems to be flowing through the years. Xiao Zhan knew what the other party wanted to express behind the quote from Lu Jun's "Dream of a Lonely Walker".

It was a strong and fearless feeling, but at times it was plain and tenacious! Like a wildflower on the side of the road, it is still gorgeous after picking it, and it is swaying in the wind if it is not picked, waiting, longing, and silently paying.

"What are you afraid of? I'm not afraid, what are you afraid of? I don't care about yours, what are you afraid of? ”

Facing Guan Ying's questioning, the thoughtful Xiao Daguan finally spoke at this time: "I'm afraid that you will bet on your happiness for a lifetime, and in the end you will lose nothing." ”

When Xiao Zhan said this, Guan Ying, who was nestled in his arms, slowly propped himself up and looked up at the man from his chin. It was as if waiting for his next step.

"Do you know why I don't want to call home and send a letter instead? Because sending letters is cyclical, but also replaceable. I don't want to worry about me if they don't get my calls for a long time. So from the beginning of enlistment, except for giving you a phone call, everyone else rarely used this instant messaging. ”

"I write a lot of letters before I go to work. Let my leaders send it out every other cycle. If I can come back alive, I will continue to have my pen. If I hadn't come back alive, my leader would have inherited my mantle and could imitate my handwriting. ”

When Xiao Zhan finished saying this, the corners of his mouth were raised. But Guan Ying's expression was complicated.

"That's why you stopped talking to me on the phone six years ago, and instead sent me something inexplicable every certain period?" Facing Guan Ying's questioning, Xiao Zhan didn't evade a 'hmm'.

"I've been in the army for more than 10 years, and the first four years have mostly focused on training, relatively simple tasks. There are times when you are born and die, but at least you have the confidence to come back alive. Six years ago, he left his citizenship and infiltrated the border to fight the local drug lord warlord to the death. For the first time, for the first time, it made me feel so close to death. The bullet pierced my chest, just millimeters from my heart. It took more than three hours to rescue. It was that disembowelment that hurt my vitality a lot. The realm has plummeted, and he has not yet been able to climb to the condensation realm. It is really not easy for people who have been deflated to gather gas again. ”

"The first thing I did when I woke up was that it was time to send a letter to my family, and it was time to tell you that I was safe. What if I don't wake up? The last phone call I made to you was from the hospital room. Since then, I have not completed a mission, and when I come back alive, I will send you letters and souvenirs from the place where I am on duty. ”

"I'm not saying this to flaunt how great I am. On the contrary, my life is extremely fragile in certain circumstances. After so many years of birth and death, I don't know if I can see the sun tomorrow. Follow me, what happiness do you have? Yes, my temperament is like to mess with flowers. But apart from the catharsis of 'trading', I have never had a particularly special relationship with any girl. At most, it's emotional comfort! Even behind the flamboyant tongue, there is still a sense of guilt. Tiger girl, you say you're fearless, you say you don't care, you say you're not afraid of anything. But I'm afraid, I care, I'm afraid. ”

"Even my mother has prepared a 'mound of clothes' for me. She knew that many of the letters had been written by me in advance and had people send them for me. But she'd rather believe I'm alive! ”

As soon as Xiao Zhan finished speaking, Guan Ying got up and said, "You have done a good job. You can completely get out of this life. Why do you have to chase tirelessly. Just like Uncle Zhong, just like Aunt Xiao, she has lived in that small mountain village for half her life. I don't understand, I don't understand, I can't ......"

"Duty, duty and glory! This is also the reason why my fiancée can only be Womagang Xiaofang. She also has responsibilities, obligations, and honors. It's just our Zhong family. ”

"Can you tell me why?" This time, Guan Ying asked solemnly. Before, a lot of people kept their mouths shut. But now, Guan Ying really wants to hear this reason from Xiao Zhan's mouth.

"This is about the foundation of Womagang and Wuzi Town. It is very difficult for any state institution to allow individuals and organizations like us, whose abilities are above ordinary people, to be free from their control. This seems to be an agreement, and there must always be one person in each generation who has the courage to bear the constraints and shackles brought about by this agreement. Fulfilling the promise of the older generation to this country. ”

"You only see my uncle's arrogance, but do you know how his legs are lame? You only see the recklessness of my second uncle, but do you know that he has old injuries and is now living in seconds? My dad is a scholar, an old man. When my eldest uncle and second uncle chose to go to the battlefield, he was sure that he had to stay in the one-third of an acre of land in Womagang for the rest of his life. I am the eldest son and eldest grandson of the Zhong family, and now you should understand why my father is the youngest and my son is the oldest. ”

"Related?" Guan Ying, who heard this at first glance, asked in surprise.

"Yes, my cousins, cousins. They are all the children of my eldest uncle and second uncle's comrades-in-arms. In other words, they are all children of martyrs! The country that their parents have beaten down, they have no reason not to enjoy it. Therefore, no matter how arrogant and reckless they are, in the eyes of some people, they are all taken for granted. ”

After Xiao Zhan finished saying this, Guan Ying was completely silent. At this moment, her heart is turbulent, and she doesn't know how to describe her mood in words.

A promise, a history, a shackle that binds forever.

"But why, as far as I know, those people in Wuzi Town ......" Hearing Guan Ying's questioning, Xiao Zhan smiled brightly.

"Chic, huh? If you are really chic, you will not be shackled by worldly rights everywhere. Everything is given and given, and if you can enjoy such a great right, you have to pay so much effort. Unearned? It's hard to ......" When he said this, Xiao Zhan held his inches, as if he was very disdainful of those so-called 'ancient martial artists' in Wuzi Town.

Of course, it is. A family or family that has lost and forgotten its roots, no matter how beautiful it is, on the surface it is nothing more than a rootless duckweed. A gust of wind blew up......

"People are free, but they are not necessarily worldly. Still thinking about it, still thinking about it, and still want to buy an old cow that doesn't eat grass? That's absolute. The Wu family, the top spot in Wuzi Town, has almost exhausted the favors that can be used with the departure of the older generation. Otherwise, there would be no such thing as the marriage between Wu Lan and Zhan Tianyang. But the Guwu family married the heirs of the military bigwigs? Not before, and there will be no ...... in the future."

Guan Ying, who heard this, looked at Xiao Zhan with wide eyes. As an authentic native of Su Province, even if she didn't stay in this province for too long, because of the special status of the Guan family in Suzhou, she knew some inside stories that were usually difficult to peek into. For example, Wuzi Town, such as the Sun Zhongtian, is called the Wu family that is best integrated into modern society by people in the ancient martial arts world. But today's Xiao Zhan's words made her re-examine the current Wu family from a political perspective, and it seems that their rise is really as difficult to last as a 'simple house'......

"You mean......" Guan Ying asked cautiously.

"Think about it from another perspective, if you are in power, can you tolerate the dominance of one family? is still unable to prevent it, and the ancient martial arts family is unwilling to fulfill its promise. What I dare to conclude is that the reason why Tong Zhiye, who was attached to the Zhan family, was able to enter Su City, and the guarantee made by the Zhan family must be related to this aspect. Tong family, a new type of family in Sioux Province. The Wu family, an old ancient martial arts family. Of course, he has now abandoned the military and engaged in business. The shortcomings of the Tong family are not substantial, and there is a ruling Tong Zhiye who just makes up for this. ”

"It is said that when two tigers fight, one will be injured. In my opinion, it is a thousand wounds to the enemy and eight hundred to self-inflicted! It is the warlord who reaps the benefits of the fisherman, and it is the person in power. Everything else is a loser......"

When Xiao Zhan finished saying this, Guan Ying, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly remembered something and asked, "Aren't you the wild man in Wu Lan's legend?" Now that you know that, you can't sit idly by. ”

When she said this, Guan Yingdai raised her eyebrows slightly, and the smile on her face looked very 'treacherous'.

"You said it was a 'legend'. I've only been in Hong Kong for a little more than a month, and even a blind person can tell that I've been used as a gunman. And I'm a shengdou****, how can I stop the 'will to right'? ”

"But I heard that you are willing to be this gun for Wu Lan." When he said this, Guan Ying's slender hand had already wandered to the inner thigh of Xiao Zhan. Suddenly, he pinched the piece of flesh on the inner thigh, but pinched it hard.

Xiao Daguan, whose whole face was distorted instantly, made a weird 'whoop' sound. Only the tiger girl who grew up with him knows where her 'weakness' is.

"Tell me, how many apples do you still have in your pocket?"

"No, there are no apples, there are a lot of bananas." After saying this, Xiao Zhan suddenly got up. Holding Guan Ying's arm, I only heard a messy sound of 'bang, lala', and Guan Ying's graceful figure was forcibly pressed on the dining table.

Guan Ying, who looked at each other and had tears in her eyes, gave Xiao Zhan a different feeling. Panting chest waves. The distance between the two is only a few tens of centimeters, and the atmosphere in the room is constantly climbing at this time.