When I recklessly told Xiao Ai that I wanted to be a builder in this city, she didn't think I was bragging, nor did I recognize it, but just said to me: "Three years should be enough for you to complete the transformation, I hope that when I come back from studying abroad, I will see a different river bridge." ”

I knew that Xiao Ai would go to Germany after finishing her studies in Nanjing, but when she told me about it in person, I still had a strange feeling in my heart, and I was silent for a long time before I asked her, "Is the specific date for going to Germany set?" ”

"Soon, when all the formalities for going abroad are completed, I will leave."

I subconsciously swallowed, then nodded, then looked at the oldest plane tree in the alley, smiled and asked, "When you come back, that plane tree should start to shed leaves again, right?" ”

"I don't know."

Her suddenly cold tone made me not know how to say the next sentence between us, so I lit the last cigarette of the evening and inhaled it in a complicated way.

"I'm leaving."

"Are you cold?"

We spoke at the same time, and then we were silent at the same time, just standing in the cold night and breathing, she didn't really leave, I didn't take off my coat to warm her, and we corresponded to the constant joy of the coffee shop and the flashing neon lights overhead, but the bluestone slab under our feet looked so cold!

I finally said to her again, "I'll send you." ”

She nodded, and I walked with her out of the alley, and I can't remember how many times we'd walked side by side, but I remembered that the last time we walked like that, it was autumn.

Yes, I don't want to remember that snowy night, so I'd rather keep the memory of us walking side by side in autumn, if it weren't for that snowy night when I was drunk and we wouldn't be as distant as we are now.

When I was about to walk out of the alley, I finally tentatively asked her, "I haven't heard from Yuan Zhen for a long time, how are you doing?" ”

Xiao Ai stopped, and she seemed to have some feelings in her heart that she couldn't speak, so she replied after a long time: "He went to Japan, and he should stay in Japan in the future to develop and be a professional music producer." ”

"Isn't he a singer, how can he be a producer?"

"His personality is not suitable for being a singer who shows his head, or is it more suitable for him."

Her answer didn't give me the answer I wanted to know the most, so I asked her again after a moment of silence: "If you go to Germany and he stays in Japan to develop, will such a long-distance relationship be tiring?" ”

Xiao Ai didn't answer me, she walked to the other side of the road on her own, I hurried to follow her footsteps, but she suddenly stopped, and then stood under a street lamp and looked at me, I was a little frightened...... I really seemed to be asking a little too much this night!

"You sue me first, you broke up with Chen Yi, what are your feelings now?"

"My mood? …… Hehe, it's good, now I can focus more on doing something I like, today's marriage proposal ceremony is a start, I believe that with the first successful case, the future business will be better...... I've thought about it, and after this year, I'm going to start my own wedding company, not only for weddings, but also for marriage proposals like today, and then my coffee shop is the best place to propose......"

I chattered as if I was trying to cover something, but Xiao Ai finally interrupted me and said impatiently, "I'm just asking you what kind of mood you are in now, do you need to say so many things that I am not interested in at all?" ”

I was stunned, and then I realized that I always unconsciously express myself, but I don't know why I do it, I seem to be afraid that I will lose the topic that I can continue to talk about with Xiao Ai, and I am even more afraid to think of the past that has ended with Chen Yi...... Actually, I am very sad, I will always look at the hair left by Chen Yi for a long time when I am the loneliest at night.

In my silence, Xiao Ai leaned against the lamppost of the street lamp behind her very insecurely, she wrapped her hands around her body, and whispered to me in the dim light for a long time: "Actually, I have never been with Yuan Zhen...... I have nothing but gratitude for him, but that gratitude can't be repaid with love, you know? ”

I opened my mouth in surprise, I didn't expect Yu Xin to really know more about Xiao Ai and Yuan Zhen than I did......

Xiao Ai smiled self-deprecatingly, and said to me again, "You must be curious about why I did this now, right?" ”

I nodded mechanically, but I actually had a vague answer in my mind.

"I said that I was with Yuan Zhen just to make myself desperate...... My self-esteem and pride don't allow me to fall in love with a man who doesn't love me, and my tutor doesn't allow me to be a third party who intervenes in other people's feelings, so I have no other choice, I can only let myself despair, maybe there will be new hope after despair, but unfortunately, ......"

My fingertips holding the cigarette trembled a little, but I still raised my hand and took a hard breath, in fact, in my heart, I really can't believe that the person Xiao Ai likes is myself, because from the first time I saw her, I felt that she was not an ordinary girl, but the integration between us came so violently, we played and played, and found that each other's fates were so similar in the fighting. Since then, it seems that we have been separated by a hard time.

"Jiang Qiao, do you see the abandoned textile factory opposite? …… I fell in love with that place from the first time you took me in, and I had a dream that night......"

"What dream?"

"It's a strange dream, and you'll laugh at me if you say it."

"If a dream is to be ridiculed, then I don't know how many times."

Xiao Ai nodded, her face showed an expression of reminiscence, and she said to me for a long time: "After I went back that night, I had such a dream...... In my dream, I saw your mother, and your father, who you didn't like...... We...... We got married, and the wedding car was the truck that only existed in the 80s, your dad was the driver, and the textile factory was where we had our wedding...... Others say that there will be no sunshine in the dream, but the sunshine that day is so good, the textile factory is so clean, everyone is applauding and blessing us, the music at the wedding is my favorite "Happy Tune", by the way, "Happy Tune" is Dou Wei's work when he was translating the band, my mother also came back from Taiwan, she is playing the piano for us to perform...... But, Jiang Qiao, dreams are all reversed, how can I marry you? …… My future is in Germany, and you probably can't even remember what your mother looked like, this dream is a joke, right? ”

This picture that Xiao Ai said in words, as if it was really presented in front of me, a warm current that has never been there before flowed happily in my body, in that dream, my wife turned out to be Xiao Ai...... It turned out to be Xiao Ai, a woman who always surprises me and never makes me feel bored, she is like an angel with broken wings falling into my life, but she is still so bright and moving in the sun, and I am her other wing, so that she can continue to roam freely in life with a joyful attitude......

But, as she said, it was just a joke dream!

When I suddenly woke up, it hurt a little, the pain was so real, not like a dream!