Chapter 203: Destiny
Time is just a few years in a hurry, the imperial capital has changed hands several times, but the mountains and rivers are the same as in the past.
Yuan Chengcheng often lamented the impermanence of the world, but the ups and downs of Yuan's joys and sorrows were so small and powerless in front of the thousands of miles of rivers and mountains in Dahua. Just like a person who thinks that his fate has been ups and downs has fallen under the wheel of history, no matter how many struggles he has had, what is left in the end is just dust that has been lost in history.
Yuan Chengcheng always thought that she had an unspeakable death-free gold medal in her hand, which was enough for her to properly protect herself even when the sky fell. But now that the situation is coming to an end, love has dispersed like the wind and mist, family affection has passed without a trace, and friendship is also a drop in the bucket. At this fateful moment, she wasn't sure how many chips she had left, or if she really had them......
"You say the world is ...... Is there really a destiny? Looking at the endless infinite rivers and mountains of Dahua, Yuan Chengcheng suddenly asked Shangguan Jingxuan beside him.
"Maybe," probably no one will feel more about fate than Shangguan Jingxuan, "But what if you have it, what if you don't?" If there is really a destiny, how can human beings change it, and it cannot be changed, what difference does it make if you know it early and know it later? If it's useless, don't believe it! ”
Yuan Qingcheng was slightly stunned when he heard this, and then chuckled: "Is this still the Shangguan Heavenly Master that we can calculate well?" When did the Heavenly Master become so unfaithful? ”
"What do you believe?" Shangguan Jingxuan smiled bitterly, "I thought I had a glimpse of the heavenly machine, and I tried my best to change, but it was only self-defeating to accelerate its progress, and knowing it was more painful and entangled than not knowing." ”
"Life is like a flat boat going down the river, even if you know that there are many reefs ahead, what can you do? Knowing earlier is just panicking, rather than trying to avoid the inevitable, it is better to be calm. If it wants to come, let it come, anyway, I'm standing here, I won't suffer any less from what you have suffered, and in this life, I finally have no one to be sorry for......"
Shangguan Jingxuan's words were light and light, but how could he not know the deep meaning of the love in it? He said "you", but how much weight did she have in these two words, and how could she not understand?
Yuan Chengcheng's heart was both moved and sad, the happiness of her life was almost all used up before the age of seventeen, he didn't share it with her when she was the happiest, when she was in endless pain, why did Shangguan Jingxuan bear it with her?
She didn't want to owe him, but she always owed him......
"If one day, Huangfu suddenly turned back in the cold night," Shangguan Jingxuan looked at the horizon that seemed to never find the end, the setting sun slanted the last rays of afterglow on this golden earth, not dazzling but enough to sting his eyes, "Between Ning Guo and you, he really chose you, what would you do?" ”
Shangguan Jingxuan's words made it impossible not to be careful, but his eyes were as quiet as an ancient well, so that Yuan Qingcheng could not hide the voice in his heart.
Yuan Chengcheng didn't answer for a long time, Shangguan Jingxuan thought she had some scruples, and said, "I don't ask this because I want you to agree to something. But just to understand that if there really is a day, I hope that you can choose everything you want with your own heart, no matter what the result is, my heart will be the same as it was at the beginning, and it will never change. ”
"The grievances of the Three Kingdoms have been entangled for so many years, and you and I were originally innocent, but we had no choice but to be involved because of other people's choices. Today, it is up to us to be the Lord and make our own choice. Like two small animals snuggling together tightly to keep warm in the cold winter, Shangguan Jingxuan held Yuan Chengcheng's hand tightly, "And you can get rid of the shackles of the world and be your true self - it is my choice." Can you understand? ”
How could Yuan Chengcheng not understand? He treats her as she treats him, her and Shangguan Jingxuan's mood is like looking in a mirror, how can she not understand his intentions! What if you just understand? In this world, there are many people who take the path they should take; How many people are there who take the path they want to take? There are too many shackles in her heart, even if he voluntarily breaks the bonds, how relaxed can she feel?
A tear slipped quietly from the corner of Yuan Chengcheng's eyes: "We have come to this point, we are all forced by the times, and the burden on our bodies was not thrown down at the beginning, and there is no possibility of letting go of it again when we reach the end." You don't want me to force myself for you, why am I willing others to give up their persistence for me? None of us can force anyone to let go of their burdens for whom. ”
"I don't know if there is a destiny in this world, but I know that in the face of fate, people are involuntarily, no matter what they choose in the end, what they give up, no one can complain about anyone, and no one can hope for anyone's ......"
Who in this world doesn't want her lover to give up everything for herself, and who doesn't want her lover's heart to be full of herself? No matter how righteous she is, she is just an ordinary woman in the face of love.
When she loved that person the most, when she wanted that person to be by her side the most, she didn't want him to appear by her side desperately, but she understood his distress so well, and knew so well that he couldn't be as desperate for her as the most ordinary lover in the world.
The more the hope grows in the heart, the more reason cannot be refuted and stifled, but the more it is suppressed, the more it is desired, and after a long period of hope, hope is really extinguished, dead, despair, a smear of dust after the candle has been burned, and a speck of dust in the wind......
Sometimes, Yuan Chengcheng really wishes that time would stand still at this moment, without having to face everyone's final choice, without worrying about the inevitable ending, and without worrying about everything in this world.
If tomorrow is the end of the world, she certainly hopes that Huangfu Yehan can come to see her for the last time, but she understands so well that if tomorrow is really the end of the world, the only one who can accompany her until the last moment can only be Shangguan Jingxuan.
What is love, is it a vain expectation, or is it a real stay? Does she love Huangfu in the cold? Did Huangfu Yehan really love her?
The big hero who saved her under the cliff, the big villain who teased her in the night, and the infatuated lover who fought her to the death in Xiangguo, did it really exist?
If so, why did she feel so strange, so far away, as if she had never known that person, and as if the person who knew him was not her......