Because it was the rush hour after work, the taxi we took encountered a very strict traffic jam, five minutes after crossing an intersection, and then drowned in the mighty traffic, although at the moment has been anxious, but there is nothing to be done, and finally just helplessly leaned on the saddle, a sigh, and gradually lit up the lights, in a flickering way to remind me that the night has come.

Xiao Ai lowered the window a little, and the cool wind blew in from between the cars and the cars, which finally made me feel a little more comfortable, I took my eyes back, but I looked at the FM radio on the center console of the car for a while. It wasn't until DJ played a song "Still Want to Be Happy" from Taiwanese artist Tian Fuzhen in the form of sending blessings that I concentrated my attention and listened to the slightly lonely and sad melody.

"Don't kiss if you're not sure, feelings can easily ruin a person, if a person is not ruthless enough, how cruel it is to love and never give up...... You still want to be happy, and you must not provoke others to cry again......"

This is not a very appropriate song, but some of the lyrics still sing that in the years after Qin Miao's marriage, she and Qiao Ye got married in helplessness that was uncertain, and a relationship that seemed unlikely was the root that ruined her and Qiao Ye.

It wasn't until this time that I, a bystander, really wanted to ask her from the bottom of my heart, have I really been happy all these years?

At this time, Xiao Ai beside me gently put her hand on mine, and finally spoke to me for the first time after getting into the car, and she asked in a low voice, "How could such a thing happen suddenly?" ”

I shook my head: "I also felt like it was sudden, and I couldn't believe it was true until now. A few days ago, I also saw her and Jin Qiu eating and chatting at the Wutong Hotel, today she is in the hospital, even with the child in the belly is uncertain, the power of fate is really terrible! ”

Xiao Ai's love was also affected by this flying disaster, she looked out of the car window a little blankly, holding my hand but tightened, as if she was also afraid of the power of fate, and at this moment, I, like her, were deeply caught in a panic of insecurity, and silently prayed for Qin Miao, hoping that she could survive this catastrophe.

In fact, a little common sense knows that most of the children in her womb can't be saved, I just hope that she still has a strong sense of survival, as long as she can live, those pains will be slowly healed by time after all.

……

By the time we arrived at the hospital, it was already a quarter past 8 o'clock in the evening, and more than an hour had passed since Jin Qiu called me, and I was even more worried about Qin Miao's current situation.

Xiao Ai and I squeezed through the crowd and ran quickly towards the elevator, and when we arrived at the 16th floor where Qin Miao was being rescued, the corridor was already full of all kinds of people. I know Qin Miao's parents and a few close relatives, as well as Qiao Ye's parents, and Chen Yi.

Some of these people shed tears silently, some were anxious, and some seemed to have lost their souls, and Qiao Ye belonged to the latter. At this moment, he was standing in a corner, and there was not a trace of expression on his face. Not only him, but no one else noticed the arrival of me and Xiao Ai.

Xiao Ai stood beside Jin Qiu, and I squeezed through the crowd and walked towards Qiao Ye, who was closest to the rescue room, just patted him on the shoulder to show comfort, but didn't say much, because it was superfluous to say anything at the moment.

……

I don't know how long I waited, the door of the rescue room was finally opened, and the doctor wore gloves stained with blood that had not yet had time to be treated, and walked out of it, although he looked tired, but when facing Qin Miao's parents, there was no slackness, his tone was full of solemn regret, and he said to Qin Miao's father: "Minister Qin, my lord has saved ...... But I beg your forgiveness, despite our best efforts, the child has not been saved, and Ling Qianjin will not be able to have children in the future......"

Qin Miao's father forcibly stood still, Qin Miao's mother staggered and couldn't stand anymore, Jin Qiu, who was closest to her, hurriedly reached out to support her, and Qiao Ye's father and mother were completely out of control, and they yelled at the doctor: "What do you mean that you will not have fertility in the future?" …… You quacks, if you don't give me an explanation today, I will smash your hospital, you are sorry for the title of saving lives and helping the wounded......! ”

The doctor looked at them and the angry two big families helplessly, and replied in a low voice: "Mr. Qiao, I really hope you can understand us, in that case, if we don't do this operation, I'm afraid we won't even be able to save the adults...... We can understand your feelings, but we've really done our best! ”

Another doctor advised, "Let's go to the office below and talk about something, the patient is very weak and needs a quiet environment." ”

While talking, the two nurses pushed Qin Miao out of the emergency room, and after the oxygen mask, her face was extremely weak, and we didn't have time to send care, she had been transferred to the intensive care unit. At this time, Qiao Ye finally shed the first tears for Qin Miao in his life, but he never followed the car pushing Qin Miao like everyone else, he put his hands on his head in pain, and then sat down on the ground against the wall in pain!

At this painful moment, there is no distinction between the protagonist and the supporting role, and I looked at the chaotic figures, and gradually thought of Su Han, who had already walked away......

Qin Miao has no ability to have children, and the child that Su Han is carrying will probably be Qiao Ye's only flesh and blood in this world, and this secret is only known to me so far, but in this environment, I can't judge whether I should tell Qiao Ye or his family the truth, on the one hand, I am afraid of causing trouble to Su Han, and on the other hand, I am also afraid that Qiao Ye will lose the right to be a father in his life.

Actually, of course, I was inclined to Qiao Ye in my heart. I thought I might find an appropriate time to sue him about this, but now is not the time. At least, wait for Qin Miao's physical and mental recovery. But I can't predict whether Su Han didn't take the child away in the first place and insisted on taking it away, whether it was a blessing or the beginning of another dispute.

After Qin Miao was settled, those relatives and friends left one after another after comforting a few words, Xiao Ai and I inevitably faced Chen Yi, who was already crying and red-eyed, we both stopped, and then looked at each other in a sad atmosphere.

Qin Miao is not only Chen Yi's best friend, but also her hair, when such a thing happens, in addition to Qin Miao's family, she must be the most sad! However, I couldn't find the right words to comfort her, because it had become an irreversible fact that Qin Miao could no longer get pregnant.

After a moment of silence, I finally said to her, "Everyone is sad that something like this happened, but we will continue tomorrow...... You are the closest person to Qin Miao and can communicate with her, when she wakes up, accompany her more and help her get out of this painful memory. ”

Chen Yi's tears couldn't stop falling, and she choked up and replied: "Jiang Qiao, is there really such a thing as fate that governs our lives...... Qin Miao...... Qin Miao is such a maternal woman, every time she accompanies her to the hospital for examination, I know how much she is looking forward to the birth of this child, but ...... God gave her such a result, not only did she have no children, but even a woman's most basic reproductive rights were deprived...... I can't imagine how she will live in the future, she will really collapse! ”

After Chen Yi said these words heartbreakingly, we were all silent, and even Xiao Ai, a woman who was not interested in Qin Miao, had tears overflowing in her eyes. At this time, they all felt Qin Miao's experience from the perspective of women, and it was unbearable for such a thing to happen to any of them, so they should be able to understand and understand this kind of pain better than men.

……

Leaving the hospital in a sad mood, Xiao Ai and I stood on the side of the road waiting for a taxi to come and go......

I lit myself a cigarette and looked a little tired at the 70-storey building across the road, where the neon on made a heart shape and fell down like a waterfall, and then a heart was spelled out, and the cycle continued......

Xiao Ai, who had not spoken, turned his head and looked up at my side face in the haze created by smoke and neon.

When I came back to my senses, I looked at her, and gradually changed from staring at each other, and I felt a kind of affection spreading in my body, and Xiao Ai was the same, I had never seen her look at me with such a complicated gaze.

"What's wrong?"

Xiao Ai raised her head, then closed her eyes, and after a long time, she replied: "I saw these in the hospital today, and I realized how happy a woman is to fall in love, to look forward to married life, and to enjoy the right to have children...... Without all of this, what would you be able to do with all the money? ”

I also raised my head and looked at the neon lights that kept spinning and drifting in my sight, and I also had a lot of feelings in my heart. I seem to be able to forgive myself for wanting to stop the demolition even if I infringe on the interests of the neighborhood...... Because compared to some things in life that can give you a lot of feelings, money is really nothing, even if it is sometimes omnipotent, but sometimes it is just a piece of meaningless waste paper, it can't buy back Qin Miao's children, and it can't buy back those warm times in my small courtyard.

In my dazed stupor, Xiao Ai reached out and stopped a taxi, I thought she would go to Yuan Zhen's place, but she told the driver that the place we were going to was a nursing home.

As if my hand had inadvertently touched the ring in my pocket again, my heart fluttered, and the demand for love became more and more intense. I deeply understand: after such a night of seeing through life, I must take the initiative to grasp the happiness that has never left quietly by my side.

I don't want to live up to myself again, and I don't want to live up to Xiao Ai anymore