The river breeze at night is damp and cold, but when I hugged Chen Yi tightly in my arms, I was already bathed in the warm sunshine, her breath and her softness made me indulge in her world and I was unwilling to wake up, I was afraid that the moment I left her body, all the pain that could not be avoided would swallow me again......

However, we will be separated after all, just like the ship moored in front of us is going to another pier after all, I let go of Chen Yi, who had been hugged by me, but she hugged me tightly in the next moment, choked up and said to me: "Jiang Qiao, don't move, let me lean for a while." ”

I was a little stiff, I realized that while I was venting my unhappiness, Chen Yi also had her own pain, otherwise why would she bring me to this riverside that is easy to tear out the fragility of human nature in the middle of the night?

I gradually quieted down, the sound of the wind and the tide never stopped, I have remembered this scene tonight as a short and precious trip in my life, and Chen Yi's hug is the best souvenir of this trip.

I finally whispered in her ear: "My name is Jiang Qiao, but I have never been able to build a bridge between you and me, I have never longed to be the only single-plank bridge in your heart, but at least there must be such a bridge, so that I can stand at the head of the bridge and see the joys, sorrows and sorrows in your heart, do you understand?" ”

Chen Yi left my body, she wiped away her tears with the back of her hand, avoided my questioning eyes for a long time, and replied: "Actually, I've really had a good life over the years, I got what I deserved, and I got what I shouldn't, but there are always one or two things that I can never do that bother me, but now...... I've figured it out, there's no need to care too much about these things that I know I can't do......"

"What can you never do?"

"I hope you are happy...... But you have never allowed yourself to be happy, you should let your uncle come back, at least there will be a relative by your side! ”

"Can you please stop talking to me about this man all the time! Excuse me, what does it have to do with him whether I'm doing well or not? …… Chen Yi, I really want you to understand, I am a very ** person, my happiness is never based on who is by my side, it is never ......"

"I said, I've looked down on these things that I know I can't do, because your stubbornness is something I can never change, so you don't have to be so excited about me."

My Adam's apple squirmed but I didn't speak......

Chen Yi finally said to me: "I'll send you back, it's late." ”

I didn't want to move, so I took out another cigarette from my cigarette case and lit it, and it wasn't until I was about to finish smoking that I mustered up the courage to ask her, "Will you leave the TV station and go to Shanghai with Qiu Zi'an?" ”

"Wait until you're done officiating at your client's wedding before thinking about it."

I nodded, it turns out that many things really need to be communicated, although I am not sure if Chen Yi is completely open-minded, but at least I know that she has not agreed to renew her relationship with Qiu Zi'an for the time being, and leaving the TV station is just a matter under consideration, and it has not been determined, and my previous guess was only based on hearsay and my own subjectivity, and it was not accurate.

I finally said to her, "I've given you that pot of tulips, shouldn't you give me something too?" ”

"What do you want?"

"Your contact ......"

Chen Yi took out a pen from his shoulder bag and said to me, "Stretch out your hand." ”

I handed my right hand to her, she held my hand, and then wrote down the mobile phone number and her WeChat number on my hand one by one, but I felt that she was wearing a wedding ring for me, because my heart had already memorized all her contact information, and her expression was so serious, and only at the sacred moment of wearing a wedding ring, but in fact she was really not wearing a wedding ring for me, but it was enough for me to extricate myself from this self-satisfied hypothesis.

After Chen Yi finished writing, she put the cap back on the ballpoint pen, and I couldn't help but ask her, "Can you tell me why you made the decision not to contact me that day?" …… I'm going to blow up! ”

"Not every woman's decision is perfect, and everyone loses their reason because they are angry."

"So you admit it was a very two-sided decision?"

"Didn't you also make a more serious decision! …… Isn't it fun to delete my WeChat? ”

"It's because we're two together, that's why we can play from a small age to such a big one!"

Chen Yi finally smiled, I responded to her with a smile, and looked at the river in the distance, I hope that this endless river can be like a mirror, help me remember everything that happened here with Chen Yi this night, I don't want to forget the image of us hugging each other tightly and crying because of the pain in reality. Here, I seem to have forgotten all the gaps in the real world because of pain, so I have the courage to hug her into my arms, and without saying anything, I already regard her as my own woman and girlfriend in my heart!

……

Leaving the Yangtze River, Chen Yi sent me back to Tulip Road, which also ended this somewhat tortuous night, and when I returned to my accommodation, everything had calmed down, and even Zhao Mu had fallen asleep.

I took a hot shower, and then lay on the bed and added Chen Yi's WeChat, she quickly passed my friend certification, but I didn't say anything more to her, just clicked on her circle of friends and carefully read her recent updates, and then silently liked it, and at the same time, Chen Yi also left a "Don't be too tired" reply under the news I posted about the wedding scene.

I feel very comfortable in my heart, at least at this moment, Chen Yi and I have a tacit understanding, and we are both paying attention to each other's recent lives by browsing the circle of friends.

……

As October 1st approaches, I am more and more busy, busy to take care of the messy emotions in my heart, usually come home and fall asleep, and in the past few days, Xiao Ai, the girl, has not looked for me again, but she and Zhao Mu are still in contact, listening to Zhao Mu, she has been busy with a National Day theme of the art show recently, and she is also very busy.

It was an evening after work, and I received a call from Qiao Ye, who asked me to meet at the "Mood Coffee" shop, saying that there was something I needed help with.

Qiao Ye was my classmate in high school, and I can't define the relationship between us, but there is one thing worth mentioning, he and Qin Miao got married two years ago, and the wedding I planned for them was also on October 1st.

After a while, I came to the "Mood Coffee", and Qiao Ye had already drunk a few bottles of beer alone, I threw the briefcase on the table, he opened a bottle of beer and handed it to me, and then said to me with a bitter face: "Jiang Qiao, think about it A few years ago I was a young teenager, but now that my youth is gone, I have become a forced person in a blink of an eye, and I have lived too collapsed!" ”

I didn't take his words too seriously, and took a sip of beer before asking, "What's wrong?" ”

"You say, I follow my own Lao Tzu all day long, I have no ideals and no life...... Marrying a woman like Qin Miao, there is no love and no passion, what do you say I have left? ”

I was disgusted by his hypocrisy, who didn't know that his father was a big boss specializing in municipal engineering, and he bought him a BMW X6 in the year he just graduated from college, and his wife Qin Miao was a typical example of Bai Fumei. If he is not satisfied with this world, then we civilians who are still fighting at the bottom of society can die.

I squeezed and said, "Actually, you don't have nothing, at least you can think cranky!" ”

"Jiang Qiao, you said that we have a lot of fate, my surname is your name, but you birdman really don't treat me as a brother, I'm about to collapse in pain, and your grandson is still squeezing me."

I lit a cigarette and replied impatiently, "What do you have to break down?" Look at your hair, you don't go out every day without applying a bottle of hairspray, and the money for a random pair of underwear on your body is worth our outfit, just you Qiao Ye is here, who dares not to call you a son? ”

Qiao Ye stretched out his hand and threw the BMW's car keys in the garbage basket, and replied angrily: "Whoever loves to be this boy brother will do it, I'm fed up!" ”

"Yo, look at how you look like you have nothing to love in this life, what's wrong?"

"Nothing happened."

"Then who are you angry with?"

Qiao Ye picked up the beer bottle and poured it again, and replied: "Brother, I really didn't mean to pour bitter water on you, I came to tell you that I must divorce this marriage with Qin Miao, you help me plan another divorce celebration, I just want to show our old man, how unreliable it was for him to force me to marry Qin Miao, why should I marry a woman I don't love?" ”

I looked at this person with tears and laughter, then picked up the car keys from the garbage basket and put them in front of him and said, "You are not here to pour bitter water on me, you are here to give me a long experience, the first time I heard that there is a celebration of divorce...... Can we not do it? ”

Qiao Ye slapped the table and said excitedly: "Jiang Qiao, think about it yourself, when I got married the year before last, did you ever see me smile from beginning to end?" Ah, have you ever seen me laugh? Let me tell you, this marriage is my history of blood and tears, and I must leave this marriage! ”

"Don't make trouble, I still have a 3 million wedding list to be done, how can I have time to make a divorce celebration for you, even if you have complaints about your father and are not satisfied with your married life with Qin Miao, you won't have a nonsense divorce celebration, you do things so desperately, where do you let your old man and Qin Miao's face go?"

Qiao Ye lit a cigarette and inhaled violently, trying to calm the anger in his heart, and it could be seen that the two years of his marriage to Qin Miao had brought him close to an unbearable critical point.

He finally spit out the cigarette in his mouth and said to me full of pain: "Jiangqiao, do you know? Before marrying Qin Miao, I really loved a woman, and I loved it deeply, deeply, but ......" Speaking of this, he shook his head even more painfully, and said: "But I am still cowardly in my bones, really cowardly!" …… Let me tell you, Qin Miao is really more than 108,000 miles worse than her, you said that she Qin Miao can spend money and put a stinky shelf of rich people, what else will she do? …… But she is different, she is a very special woman, every minute and second I am with her, I really have a heartbeat feeling, but since we broke up, she has left Nanjing...... I never found her again, but I can't forget her! ……”

Because of the different circles of life, I don't have much contact with Qiao Ye in private, so I really don't know that he still has this past, I feel a little sad for him, and then I also lit a cigarette and said: "Your biggest tragedy is that you got married too early!" ”

Qiao Ye smiled bitterly: "My parents forced me to get married so early, just to cut off contact with her, what are they trying to Qin Miao?" Isn't it just that she has a father who works in the Construction Department! ”

The world is too realistic, and I don't know how to persuade Qiao Ye, a man who always lives in the envy of others, just said: "The divorce celebration is really too nonsense, I think you just live the wrong way, if the hurdle in your heart is really unbearable, just look at the people around you." Let's just say that I Jiangqiao, I must be more handsome than you, right? More than you can live, right? If you want to say that I am more dedicated to my feelings than you, but what do I have? Until now, he is still a single person, so he really knows how to be a man! ”

Qiao Ye was silent, just smoking a cigarette one by one.

I asked him again: "Tell me, buddy, what is the name of the woman you have been thinking about for a long time, I don't think she should be, at least let you untie your heart and leave Nanjing." ”

Qiao Ye looked up at me, his expression seemed to be about to say a shocking name to me, I thought that it might be a certain celebrity, and hurriedly listened to it......

At this time, Zhao Mu and Xiao Ai also pushed open the door of the coffee shop and walked in, this sudden coincidence forced Qiao Ye's words back into his stomach and couldn't say it, and Xiao Ai had already sat down beside me very unceremoniously