As she cried, I stood behind an imperceptible tree, and all I remembered was the images of me taking her to a nursing home to see my grandmother...... Now, grandma is gone, and she is not the Xiao Ai she was at the beginning, how can this not make people feel sad? And in the midst of this heavy sadness, I didn't even have time to think about what kind of pain she was enduring in her heart......

It wasn't until my phone vibrated in my pocket that I came back to my senses for a while, and I received a message from Jin Qiu. She told me that she had already gotten on the highway and that if the road conditions were good, she would be able to reach Nanjing by 7 o'clock.

I was awake in an instant.

I put my phone back in my pocket, and she stopped crying, so I straightened my clothes and walked to the tombstone...... She finally discovered my presence, and I could see her and the afterglow scattered on the cobblestones, which made everything look stale and mottled, and what was stolen was the expressions that made us look at each other a little stiffly.

The next moment, she stood up, and I bent down and placed the lily in my hand in front of the tombstone, as if we were facing each other, just two emotionless shells.

I finally showed my gentlemanly demeanor and said to her first, "Thank you for taking the time to see Grandma...... Thank you also for being able to meet here. ”

"I don't know what you mean."

"I don't quite understand what you mean...... Anyway, we ran into each other again, and then ......" I said, spreading my hands, glancing around, and raising my voice, "and then, everything looks weird!" ”

She turned her back to me and replied, "Because I didn't expect you to come, and you didn't expect me to come...... But we still met in this place where we shouldn't have met. ”

I couldn't answer her words, so I fell into silence, she didn't seem to want to face me, but as she was about to leave, I grabbed her and said to her, "I just saw you cry...... What did you say in front of your grandmother's tombstone? ”

At this moment, she looked me in the eye for the first time, and then replied without changing her face: "I didn't come to complain, so I didn't say anything as you thought...... I cried because my grandmother was one of the few people in the world who was truly good to me, but I was not able to give her the last ride, which is a regret that I will never be able to make up for in my life. ”

"Really?" After a pause, I added, "However, I feel obligated to restore the situation to you. Actually, there is no need for you to feel regret or pain...... Because when Grandma was leaving, she never mentioned you...... I don't think she will blame you if you go or not. ”

Xiao Ai nodded, but did not respond to my words, and by the time she spoke again, she was no longer entangled in the previous topic. She said to me, "I heard that you and Jin Qiu are getting engaged, and I'm very happy for you...... I hope you can be happy together. ”

"Where did you hear from that?"

"It was told to me by a girl who called herself your sister...... She found the hotel where I was staying...... By the way, you help me tell her, I won't complain that the hotel leaked my check-in information, let her not worry, because I think she brought good news, even if it was a failure! ”

Only then did I react, why did Yang Qu suddenly say that there was something that had to be done. It turned out that she was looking for Xiao Ai, presumably she heard the conversation between me and Yu Xin, and knew that Xiao Ai was also staying in the "Tulip Hotel", and it was too simple for her to find someone in this hotel.

After saying this, Xiao Ai left me alone. I also unbuttoned my collar at the same time, and sat down on the ground and lit a cigarette.

I looked at my grandmother's photo on the tombstone with some distraction...... She is the bridge that connects me and Xiao Ai's hearts, but unfortunately this bridge no longer exists...... So I'll never know what Xiao Ai just said.

The ghost would believe it, and she cried as much as she could...... Without the release of emotions, she would never cry like that, so that when she left, even her eyes were swollen. However, I have no way or position to get to the bottom of it...... This helplessness makes me feel exhausted!

I extinguished my cigarette and lay down on the grass.

……

Leaving the cemetery, I went back to my apartment in Lane 24 for a moment, and then sat alone on the steps in front of the door, just as I had sat in the old alley of Tulip Road a long time ago, and the feeling of emptiness returned to my heart, but I could not figure out the source of it. It stands to reason that my life should be very fulfilling now, right?

Why do I still feel lonely? Or is loneliness an invisible but real organ in our body, which we can perceive not because of who is accompanying us, but because it is born with us and will accompany us until the day of old age.

I don't know how long later, there was a whistling sound in the alley, and then I saw Yang Qu using his handbag as a plaything, and while carrying it in his hand, he walked towards me in a dashing manner.

I immediately reprimanded her: "You put me in place, what does a girl's family look like all day long!" ”

Yang Qu looked left and right, pointed to his nose and asked me, "Are you scolding me?" ”

"Nonsense, is there anyone else in this alley besides you?"

"Oh, then you will treat me as a cow ghost and snake god...... When I'm in a better mood one day, maybe I'll call my friends to give you a group of demons to dance! ”

I looked at her with a dark face, and wanted to ask her why she ran to find Xiao Ai, but I couldn't speak. Because this doesn't seem to be a matter worth considering, whether she goes or not, it won't have a substantial impact on my relationship with Xiao Ai, and if I think too much, it will only seem that I still have superfluous thoughts in my heart...... In the end, I chose to be patient.

In this way, my heart is getting bigger and bigger, but my world is getting smaller and smaller, because there are too many people interfering in my life, although they say that it is for my good, but it also makes me lose my freedom to a certain extent, so I hate this feeling of self-contradiction while enjoying it!

……

At seven o'clock in the evening, Jin Qiu and I met in a high-end restaurant, and we asked for red wine and other Western food. Before eating, I gave her the bag I bought, and she happily said thank you. Then we ate and chatted......

I asked her, "Are Shi Jing and Shi Jing still adapting to the Dream Tree?" ”

"Well, the adaptation is not bad, Shi Jing is going through the procedures for returning to school. If it's fast, you should be back in school next week; Her younger brother, I also asked a friend to help me find a school near the dream tree and let him go in first. ”

I replied approvingly, "It's a very good arrangement...... What about Aunt Li (Shi Jing and Shishi's mother), how did you arrange it? ”

Jin Qiu smiled very comfortably, and she said, "If I don't say it, you may really not know...... Aunt Li knows how to cut paper, which is a great craft, so I specifically asked some customers who are inclined to traditional weddings to do research, and they are eager to see the art of paper-cutting at their weddings. Therefore, such stickers as double happiness and good fortune, they are more willing to accept handmade ...... Then I included paper-cutting as a high-end service project in the wedding customization...... If it can be successfully promoted, there will be at least tens of thousands of income a month, which will completely solve the problems of their family's life. ”

I complimented from the bottom of my heart: "I really admire your problem-solving skills, how do you say one word?" …… Oh, yes, yes, it's a magical ......."

Jin Qiu smiled unashamedly and replied, "It's not about turning decay into magic. In fact, in the final analysis, it is the accumulation of contacts and resources, so I have the way to carry forward Aunt Li's paper-cutting skills and transform them into real economic income...... Jiang Qiao, I think you should also have a deep understanding now, right? …… When everyone is complaining about the difficulty of making money, have you really reflected on yourself, and have you taken seriously the social resources that appear around you all the time? …… In fact, it is really not difficult to make money, but the difficult thing is how to overcome the fear and negativity of not making money? ”

"yes...... We should accept this society, and when you can really integrate into it, you won't have to worry about survival; On the contrary, if you are marginalized by this society, you will feel that it is difficult to move an inch, because all wealth is generated in social interactions, so catering and acceptance are the most important things! ”

Jin Qiu nodded and said, "It's right that you can think so...... By the way, I went back to Nanjing this time, mainly to change a car for myself, and you can accompany me to the 4S store tomorrow to have a look. ”

"Why did you suddenly think of changing cars? Isn't that Wrangler of yours pretty good? ”

"No matter how good the Wrangler is, it's just a car suitable for off-roading...... But now, I prefer to travel, so I want to buy a more comfortable coach...... So Wrangler just fits into my old self, and everyone is changing, isn't it? ”

I didn't respond immediately, I just remembered how domineering she was when she first returned home, and now she has really changed, and she is more and more like a woman who lives in life.

Speaking of life, I remembered the 300,000 yuan that Luo Sumei gave me yesterday, so I changed the topic and said to her: "By the way, your mother gave me a bank card yesterday with 300,000 yuan in it, saying that it was for the decoration of the new house...... I think this money is still at your disposal, because of the decoration matters, I think it is more appropriate for you to call the shots. ”

Jin Qiu didn't take it from me, she replied: "After seeing the car tomorrow, we will go to the decoration company to talk...... From now on, it's our common home, how can you not be involved? ”

……

That night, after Jin Qiu and I finished eating, we walked together for a while, and then she went home, and I went back to my residence in Lane 24.

But unlike before, I didn't think about those emotional ties anymore, and instead focused on what I wanted to do in the future. I also want to be like Jin Qiu, while making money, I can also do some practical things for the disadvantaged groups in society.

Yes, Jin Qiu is such a woman who will ignite a man's entrepreneurial passion...... Of course, she's not perfect, and it's hard for me to feel some of life's little pleasures in her.

It's like, she will never raise flowers and grass with me...... However, for so many years, my favorite thing is to raise flowers and grass.