Chapter 133: Change Yourself
"I'm back!" When he got home, Yang Guo hugged Qiqi to shoot Song Zhiwen's door, the door was not closed tightly, Yang Guo opened it as soon as he patted it, he walked in and shouted loudly.
"You're back?" Song Zhiwen stretched out his head from behind the sofa and said weakly.
"What's wrong with you?" Yang Guo hugged Qiqi and took a few steps back, "Sick? Why don't you even close the door? He was worried that if Song Zhiwen had an infectious disease like a cold, he would infect Qiqi!
"No, you're sick." Song Zhiwen didn't even bother to roll his eyes, said in a low voice, and then smashed the whole person back into the sofa.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Since he was not sick, Yang Guo relieved himself to hold Qiqi and detour to the front of the sofa, sat on the coffee table, looked at Song Zhiwen and asked.
Only then did Yang Guo see clearly how decadent Song Zhiwen's current state was! His hair was messy, his eyes were bloodshot, and it was three or four o'clock in the afternoon, and he was still lying on the sofa in a daze.
"Hey, hey!" Yang Guo kicked the goods, "Wake up, look at you, what has become of you?" โ
Song Zhiwen sat up in a daze, leaned his head back on the sofa, and did not speak.
Yang Guo walked around the living room with Qiqi in his arms, and he said, "Why are you so decadent now?" You can't be out of love like me, right? No, wasn't it the breakup you proposed? โ
The breakup in Yang Guo's mouth refers to the incident a few days ago, when he was still in his hometown, Song Zhiwen called and said that he had broken up with the little demon. On the phone, Song Zhiwen was still very elated, as if he had thrown off a heavy burden.
Song Zhiwen has long wanted to break up with the little demon! Counting up, Song Zhiwen has been in contact with the little demon for more than half a year! This is something that Yang Guo can hardly believe.
When chatting with Song Zhiwen at home before, Yang Guo still laughed at him, whether the prodigal son had turned back.
Song Zhiwen has never talked about long-term relationships, and the girlfriends he talked about before, the two have been together for as little as two or three days or no more than a month, and even some girls use "cannon (isolation) friends" to describe it more appropriately.
He is a prodigal son in love, when he was in college, Song Zhiwen once declared after getting drunk: "Before the age of twenty-eight, don't consider marriage, don't consider long-term love!" โ
And this time, he and the little demon have been together for half a year, which is a miracle of miracles!
Song Zhiwen finally couldn't help it two months ago and told Yang Guo the truth about the matter.
It turned out that he had wanted to break up for a long time! It's just that, in the face of the little demon, he held back the words several times. This girl is too innocent, and if she proposes to break up like this, she can only hurt her fiercely!
Don't look at the little demon who usually dresses up very kawaii, and she also likes to pretend softly, but that's just that she has watched too much anime in the mud bombing country, and the whole person is a little "brain-dead"! She is a typical post-90s generation (although she was actually born in the late 80s), playful, individual, and has a unique way of thinking.
But the little demon is a very pure girl, when she was with Song Zhiwen, she was still innocent and very conservative about her feelings. Except for the point where she was influenced by anime, the others are really like a blank sheet of paper, her heart is very pure, and she believes that everything is beautiful, so as a public kindergarten teacher, she is especially liked by children and parents.
Such a girl, Song Zhiwen really doesn't know how to propose to break up. The little demon wants to stick to him all day long, Song Zhiwen is already a little tired, and he especially wants to find a new passion, but he is worried that breaking up with her will break this crystal ball-like girl to the ground!
So the two of them were entangled for half a year, until the little demon proposed that she wanted the relationship between the two to go deeper - she planned to change to a job close to here, and then move over to live with Song Zhiwen.
Song Zhiwen's character is unrestrained, he wants to live a single life, but he is not willing to be lonely and pursues excitement. The little demon really scared Song Zhiwen this time! can't drag it out any longer, if it drags on any longer, won't the little demon get an inch in and propose to himself?
Song Zhiwen decided that he should cut through the mess quickly, and gave this matter to him earlier, which also saved this good girl from delaying. He found an opportunity, asked the little demon out, and officially proposed to break up.
What the situation was at that time, Yang Guo didn't know. Maybe the little demon was heartbroken or even begged bitterly, but Song Zhiwen was really determined to break up!
Being trapped by love like this is not Song Zhiwen's style, right? Over the years, he has dumped so many girls, and he has never seen him so gloomy and haggard!
Yang Guo asked suspiciously, "Do you think of cherishing it because you lost it?" Since you can't bear it, then chase the little demon back? โ
"She's gone." Song Zhiwen said in a low voice, tears silently flowing from his eyes.
"Gone? Where did she go? Yang Guo asked puzzled.
"Nowhere to go, she's dead! People are gone! Song Zhiwen yelled impatiently.
"Dead? He's dead! Yang Guo was shocked, he couldn't believe this fact. If a person is good, why is it gone?
After asking for a long time, Yang Guo pieced together what happened from Song Zhiwen's intermittent response.
It turned out that after the kitten cried back that day, she made more than a dozen calls to Song Zhiwen, but Song Zhiwen didn't answer. The next day, the kitten went to work, she didn't sleep all night, and she was thinking about her heart, and the whole person was walking on the street in a trance, and suddenly she was hit by a car that ran a red light!
Sent to the hospital, the little demon was not rescued.
"She may not even have the obsession to live...... Song Zhiwen couldn't say it well, covered his face and choked up, "If I hadn't broken up with her, this accident wouldn't have happened, or, she could have persevered, maybe she would have survived!" โ
Song Zhiwen fell into deep self-blame at this moment, and he repeated over and over again: "If she hadn't broken up, she wouldn't have died." โ
Yang Guo walked to his side and hugged his shoulder, wanting to comfort, but he didn't know how to say it, a thousand words came out of his mouth, and it only became a dry sentence: "Mosquito, it's not your fault." โ
Song Zhiwen looked back at Yang Guo and said, "Old Guo, you said it wasn't my fault, do you believe it?" โ
Yes, Yang Guo doesn't believe this sentence himself!
Thinking about it from another perspective, if Yang Guo was facing this matter, he would also take all the mistakes on himself. This can be seen as long as Wu Yue's difficult birth, he himself is still feeling guilty about Wu Yue's death, although this guilt has slowly faded because of his father's love for Qiqi.
How did Yang Guo persuade him? He could only rack his brains and tell Song Zhiwen in a different way that now that the accidental death of the little demon has become a fact, no matter how much he regrets it, no matter how sad he is, he will no longer be able to let the little demon survive.
Yang Guo was worried that Song Zhiwen would become ill with grief because of this incident, and even the whole person would sink.
"What you should do now is to change yourself, stop treating feelings as child's play, and in the future, you have to take everyone who loves you seriously, so that the little demon can see it in the sky and feel a little gratified." Yang Guo said bitterly.
At this time, Song Zhiwen's dim eyes seemed to have a little brilliance.
(Ask for a monthly pass, ask for a recommendation, let's take a ticket and smash the cold door!) โงโฝโฆ๏ผ