Chapter 475: Choosing Life

After walking for a while, Chen Yi and I returned to the community where we lived, and after we arrived by elevator together, we each stood at the door of our house. She took the key I had given her from her bag and handed it back to me, then asked me again, "Are you staying here tonight?" ”

"I'd love to stay here, but it smells like a decoration, so wait a few days...... I'm going to clean the house today, so I don't have to worry about the day I move in. ”

"I'll help you, I'll do the light work, and you can do the heavy work yourself."

I looked at Chen Yi and replied, "It's all light work, nothing heavy, will you not care?" ”

"No, but I'm afraid you'll get sick, so you'll have to do some work......" After thinking about it, she said again, "Why don't you go to my side and make some supper, we are out and busy this long circle, and we feel hungry." ”

"What do you want to eat?"

"Just cook some porridge, you won't eat the fat kind."

"Okay, you go clean up, the cleaning tools are all in the kitchen cabinet."

After I finished speaking, Chen Yi really rolled up her sleeves and entered my room, and I was not too far behind, and the next moment I entered her room. To be honest, it's a strange feeling, but I can't quite say what is strange.

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After putting the ingredients for cooking porridge into the pot one after another, I sat on the sofa in the living room, and then recalled what Chen Yi said to me tonight, my mood gradually became very bad, I still couldn't believe that Su Han would be such a femme fatale, I always felt that I knew her. Because five or six years ago, I was a loyal customer of her "Mood Café", we talked a lot, we exchanged a lot of views on life, and I think she is a woman with personality, ideas, and independence. She would never use her personality for crooked ways. But I also understand that human nature is very complicated, and what I see is probably only one ten-millionth of Su Han's.

After a few moments, the phone vibrated in my pocket, and I picked it up and looked at it, and it was Xiao Ai who replied to the message I sent her after the evening.

She said: "You help me tell Xiaofang first, and after my concert in Beijing is over, I will go back to Nanjing to see her, as for whether I want to be a guest of the Xinghai Cup with her, I will talk to her myself after I meet." ”

I don't know why, it's just such a message with very ordinary words, but it flows into my heart like a clear spring, because it confirms that Xiao Ai has not changed in some aspects, and she, like me, cherishes the past, otherwise she wouldn't go out of her way to see Xiao Fang.

I texted her back: "Okay, then I'll go to school tomorrow and tell her...... Are you going well over there in Beijing? ”

"Everything's fine."

"That's good."

My chat with Xiao Ai stopped here, in fact, I still have something I want to ask her, I want to know if Zhao Mu has gone to her, but I still can't ask after all. It's a bad feeling, because we're like the two ends of a rubber band, and the more we pull, the farther away we get, but the feeling of tension can make people feel exhausted. What's even more regrettable is that I'm afraid that in this life, we will not talk casually, make noise at will, and invade each other's world at will like before.

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After another moment, the room was filled with the sweet smell of porridge, and the scene changed again, Chen Yi stood in front of me a little dirty, and it seemed that he had cleaned it very carefully.

I looked at her and said, "Thank you for your hard work, I didn't expect the newly renovated house to make you so dirty!" ”

Chen Yi replied indifferently: "Is your porridge ready?" ”

"You smell it."

Chen Yi looked at the kitchen and said, "It looks pretty good, it's not in vain that I've been working so hard for your house for so long...... But I'll have to wait for a late-night snack, so I'll take a shower first...... Jiangqiao, do you believe it? I've never done anything like this. ”

"Of course I do."

Chen Yi shrugged his shoulders and said with emotion: "So I feel sorry for myself for so many years, because of my laziness, I have never experienced the joy of doing housework, and I hope it is not too late to change from today...... People must always learn to clean up garbage and waste, and be a clean self. ”

"You have something to say."

Chen Yi smiled: "Don't worry about it, why don't you hurry up and take a look at your house." Seriously, it's not me boasting, even the air inside seems to have been cleaned by me. ”

"You're really ruthless this time!"

"People are not ruthless, and their hearts are unstable!"

I looked Chen Yi up and down, and I didn't think she had changed. On the contrary, it felt very intimate, because we used to talk like this, occasionally amusing a few words, but not crossing the line......

This makes me think: does love also mean a kind of bondage, and after losing the sensitivity of love, we can still be our former selves, just like me and Chen Yi now, at least I feel that some of the scars on my body are peeling off at this moment.

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During the time when Chen Yi was taking a bath, I consciously returned to my room. Chen Yi didn't brag, she cleaned all the rooms like a new house for a wedding, but this made me feel ashamed...... I'm sorry for this woman, no matter how many high-sounding reasons there are, I can't hide the fact that I have changed my mind. However, to this day, I can't figure out whether my change of heart is because Xiao Ai is more compatible with me, or whether I have never changed my mind, what I resist is only the pressure when I am with Chen Yi, and Xiao Ai appeared at the right time.

I heard that a man will fall in love with at least two women in his life, and this seems to have been verified in me.

While she was thinking about it, Chen Yi opened her door and asked me to go in and have a supper with her. But I asked her, who was only in her pajamas, "Is it convenient, it's the dead of night?" ”

"It's inconvenient, but I don't think it's a big deal for us...... You used to think that you used to be door-to-door in the old alley, and now the only thing missing is a small courtyard. ”

I nodded and replied: "China's moral culture is really broad and profound, and the artistic conception of one more courtyard is different." ”

Chen Yi sighed softly, she seemed to remember something, and I also remembered such a past. Since she returned to Nanjing after graduating from university, she has often been busy until late at night in order to host work, and I am a caring person, always making some delicious supper, deliberately waiting for her to pass by in front of my house...... Every time, she would stop for me and go in for a bite to eat and have a chat...... And what happened at that time is also one of the few things in my life that is worth cherishing, and even now I still feel comfortable when I think about it. So my former self once wanted to spend my life with her in that small courtyard.

After a while, Chen Yicai said to me: "If you really care, then let's move a round table out, you sit at your door, I sit at my door, anyway, this floor is for the two of us, and no one will see it, and then treat us as psychopaths." ”

"Okay, that's good, I haven't eaten in the hallway in my life."

"I didn't have a similar experience, but I was lucky to have the convenience of being across the door."

During the meal, Chen Yi and I were fine, and we didn't touch some sensitive topics anymore, and we didn't even say anything about reminiscing about the past, because Chen Yi kept paying attention to his mobile phone, while I persistently took out two salted duck eggs and ate them cleanly.

Suddenly, Chen Yi raised his head and said to me, "Jiangqiao, your car is famous." ”

I couldn't figure it out for a moment and asked, "What did you say?" ”

Chen Yi handed me his mobile phone, and what appeared on the screen was a social networking site, in which someone posted a video, which should have been taken by a dashcam, and my scrapped Maserati was the protagonist......

It turned out that what Xiao Li said was true, there was indeed a big car that said goodbye to her at that time, but the big car was not intentional. Judging from the video screen, the car was about to overtake, and suddenly a black object appeared in front of the car, because the light was relatively strong at that time, so I couldn't see what it was, but netizens judged that it was a black dog, and the driver subconsciously slammed the direction in order to avoid the black dog, and then affected Xiao Li, who was driving...... As a result, a heated discussion on social media was sparked about whether or not to avoid animals that suddenly appeared on the road. Netizens had heated discussions, some people thought that life was equal, and the approach of the driver of the big car was undoubtedly right and humane, and some people thought that the black dog should be decisively killed, because nothing is more important than their own safety, not to mention indirectly destroying such a good car.

I didn't expect the truth to come out so quickly, which shattered Chen Yi's previous conspiracy theory, because there is no way that anyone could manipulate a dog to cause this car accident...... It's a pity that the dash cam doesn't have high pixels, and the light at night is too messy, so it can't take a picture of the license plate number of the big car.

I breathed a sigh of relief abruptly, and then looked at Chen Yi. Chen Yi also looked at me and smiled, she said, "Thank God, it's really me thinking too much, can you forgive me for being nervous?" ”

Looking at Chen Yi's sincere appearance, there was another wave of warmth in my heart, and I knew that she was one of the people in this world who really cared about me. So, I replied with a nonchalant smile, "Seriously, I don't think what happened tonight is a bad thing at all...... At the very least, it reminds us not to use too extreme malice to figure out the world...... Because we have experienced so much, I am really tired enough, so sometimes it is not that my heart is too big, I just hope that I don't live in this terrifying atmosphere all the time, and then increase my psychological pressure, I think this is a kind of ability. ”

Chen Yi nodded, and only said after a while: "Maybe I'm too much of an adult to speculate about the world...... But Jiang Qiao, there are only a few people in this world who can make me so nervous...... All along, I want you to live well. It's a pity that you can't care about some of your little emotions as much as before...... But I'm really glad to see that you've been through so much and still have a steady mind. ”

I let out a heavy breath and looked out of the window in the hallway, through the small window, I still saw the starry sky that had not changed, and my heart had the same desire. I hope Su Han has never changed, she is still the woman with feelings and love.

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After a while, Chen Yi said to me again: "Jiang Qiao, I have a suggestion, if you really need time and space, you can take advantage of this incident to postpone the engagement with Jin Qiu, because we have a custom here, if such a thing happens before or before the engagement, it is considered unlucky, and the wedding needs to be re-selected, and it is best to postpone it to the auspicious day of the zodiac next month." ”

Chen Yi is right, and I suddenly realized that this is a good reason, but do I really need to do this? Or do I need to leave that room for my life?

My heart was a little messy and a little shaken...... I feel like I've chosen a lowest-of-the-line attitude in a lot of things. I seem to have been running away for too long, and I haven't been able to make a convincing choice in my life.

I remembered that I had made an appointment to meet Qiu Zi'an tomorrow, which was another unknown beginning, but this time, I very much hope that he can bring me some valuable insider information, and then let me have more basis to choose my life.