92. Today, no one can carry out the faith (23)
Araragi opened his mouth slightly.
- That can't be!
Of course, he would have wanted to answer like this.
If it was Araragi's calendar, it should have been answered.
It was the boy who sacrificed himself at a critical juncture, saved the vampire, and appeared here again, still working for the same purpose, and still trying to get up to now, and should have given a definite answer at once, without even a moment's hesitation—as it should have been.
But he didn't.
He opened his mouth—the words came to his lips, and he swallowed them back.
There was no immediate clear answer, no immediate no.
He hesitated.
He hesitated, then fell silent.
I couldn't help but cast my eyes on Heartunderblade.
Li Nian's words moved her, and the shaking was almost written on her face, and now she looked at the past and met her eyes.
Then, Heartunderblade looked away.
“……”
Yes, I understand.
That's exactly what Heartunderblade has been hoping for.
Now, it's back to square one.
"Good."
Li Nian nodded, he was very satisfied with Li's performance.
"It seems that even your stupid brain understands some of the current situation."
“…… Yes. ”
Li lowered his head.
"If you understand this, there is room for negotiation, I know you are entangled, but you are entangled and come and go, and it is estimated that you will still give the same answer in the end."
Li Nian knew that if it continued like this, this kid would eventually reject this proposal.
"But that's not good, since you're struggling, then keep struggling with me, don't make a decision so quickly, don't give an answer easily, I still have something to say, after listening to my words, give me another thought."
You have to get him to change his mind.
“……”
To this end, in a calm voice, continue:
"I think you should understand that I didn't kill you, and I don't plan to use you to force Heartunderblade to comply, so I give you back my heart. These are all out of my own discretion for two reasons, on the one hand, I still think that you are essentially an ordinary high school student, and in the position of a victim in this incident, on the other hand, I also agree with your efforts and awareness, and I understand your feelings of cherishing Heartunderblade, I will not apologize for what I did to you before, but I do think you are a good guy. ”
There was no harshness in the tone.
I felt that emotion, knew that he had the courage to give everything, and watched the effort and determination he showed, even if he was far from mature, he felt that he was an enemy worthy of respect.
Li Nian glanced at Heartunderblade.
"I have to admit that Heartunderblade does have a crush on a nice man."
“…… Oh, yes. ”
Heartunderblade's dull response.
"I was saved by Prince Charming when I was dying a few times, and a guy like you can be so lucky, God is really blind."
Li Nian sarcastic.
“…… You're right, I think so. ”
Heartunderblade raised his head and looked directly at Li Nian.
"Meeting this fool is the luckiest thing in my life."
“……”
I answered it seriously here.
Li Nian lowered his gaze and avoided it.
“…… It's really complicated to be commented on like this suddenly. ”
Li's expression was as complicated as he said.
"There aren't many people I can identify with."
"Yes."
"Well, I think it's a shame that a guy like you died here."
"I want to thank you for raising your hand to my little heart?"
"Of course, because I'm still trying to save you."
“……?”
"Don't show that expression, I mean, I think you should retract that sentence."
“…… What the? ”
"What I'm saying is that I've already let you go, and I'm not going to kill you, and you don't want to follow Heartunderblade after he dies."
Li Nian shrugged and said.
"She has to die, you don't have to die with her."
Li's expression froze.
"Don't talk big, you can't kill her."
Sure enough, the conversation turned out like this.
Li Nian shrugged his shoulders and was noncommittal.
"Did you hear him when he said that? Heartunderblade。 ”
Turning the conversation to Heartunderblade.
Li turned his head to look at his master and roared.
“kisshot! What are you scrupling about, stuff your heart back, and beat this obnoxious guy all over the place. ”
The woman looked at him with grief.
Didn't do that.
“…… kisshot? ”
Araragi was speechless.
The corners of Li Nian's mouth hooked up with a sneer.
"By the way, indeed, I should have confirmed to you again-"
He raised his sword, and the blade pointed at it.
"- The same question, one last time, at this point, do you still have the same idea? Do you still want to die under the hands of Araragiri? I'm not going to make a move on Arara Mul and vouch for it in the Godhead...... How's that, there's no mental drag anymore, right? Well, then, answer me really, yes, give me a good answer, Araragiri, you should almost make your attitude clear here. ”
“kisshot……”
Li's heart became uneasy.
Under the boy's gaze, Heartunderblade smiled.
It was a poignant laugh.
She said slowly.
"I said it, I haven't changed my mind, no matter what you think, that wish will not change."
Li shouted.
"That's not right! kisshot! You lie! You want to live! That's what you told me in the apartment! ”
And Heartunderblade replied yes -
"Yes, that's what I said then-"
"That's ......!"
Heartunderblade shook his head. "If you're with you, you'll be able to live."
“……!”
It's like being struck by lightning.
Yes, at that time Heartunderblade was talking about......
- "I'm used to living as a vampire, and I'm going to live with me." ”
However, at that time......
"At that time, you rejected me."
Calendar rejects Heartunderblade.
"You said that you don't want to be a vampire, you don't want to eat people, you don't want to become a monster, you don't want to live like this, and you say you want to kill yourself."
The impulsive heart is like being poured cold water.
Issues that could not be put on hold have resurfaced.
Li trembled.
"You showed up here and said you wanted to save me, so did you change your mind?"
Heartunderblade looked at him, his eyes full of sadness, and asked softly.
"Do you want to live with me now? Do you want to live forever with me as a vampire? ”
Li Nian's face was serious.
Oshino narrowed his eyes slightly.
With just one arm in his hand, carrying the Chilo Kinkada and Abysot on his shoulder, Dramanz Luki looked indifferently, as if everything had nothing to do with him.
Huang Quan was infected by this solemn atmosphere, frowned, and guessed something somewhat.
Kagura looked around blankly, not knowing what was going on.
But everybody looked at the boys over there.
She looked over too.
Everyone looked at Araragi.
Some things have to be faced.
If you don't face it, you won't find a way out.
But what if you face it?
If you face it, you may not be able to find a way out.
Heartunderblade has already answered.
She now asked again the question Araragi had asked in the past.
So, would Araragi give a different answer?
Could he have given a different answer?
Yes, I'm willing to live forever with you as a vampire - can he answer that?
All he knew was that he should answer here.
He opened his mouth, staccato sound out of his throat.
"I, I...... I would like to ......"
Heartunderblade shook his head.
Debunk this clumsy lie.
"No, you can't."
Li is speechless.
"You don't want to live as a vampire at all, that's what you told me at the time, you don't want to become a monster, you don't want to eat people, you look very painful, just like becoming my kind is more painful than death, and I knew at that time that you can't do it."
Heartunderblade looked at Li with gentle eyes.
"But as soon as I say that I will be defeated, that I will not be able to do it without your help, and then I will be shaken when I say that I will pray to you next, even if I don't want to, you will do it, and you are that kind of person, even if you hate life to death, and you are afraid of terrible things, and if someone asks you for it, you will do it, and you are so gentle. But that's meaningless, how could it be my intention to coerce you into doing something you don't want to do, and then I gave up. ”
So she came here alone and faced Li Nian alone.
"There is no need for you to come here, you should fall asleep there, and wait until tomorrow morning, when I am dead, and the sun shines on you, and you will wake up naturally, and you will be transformed back into a normal human being, as you wish."
"But you're still here. I'm here to save me. It makes me happy, but that's enough. ”
She strode towards the calendar.
"Then in the end, you will try again."
"Try to kill me."
"I have to die, I only have to die, you can turn back into a human being, I also wanted to die, I have spent too many years, but if I can, I still want to be killed by you, I know this is a very excessive request, but I want to die of your men, die in the last encounter in life, in your arms, can't you?."
She finally stuffed her heart back into her chest, and regeneration was only a matter of moments, and in the blink of an eye, her tattered body and clothes were back to their original state, and all the dirt was peeled off.
Gorgeous blonde hair spread out, swaying red skirts, dressed beauties walked up to Araragiri, hugged him tightly, held his head with one hand, and rested her chin on his shoulder.
"Bite down on my veins and wash my blood clean, so that you can kill me completely."
The white neck was close in front of him, and the sluggish calendar barely resisted until Heartunderblade, his lips touching the agitated veins.
Li suddenly came to his senses.
"How could I have done it!"
He immediately began to roar and struggle.
"Nope." Li Nian said lightly: "You have to do it." ”
"No kidding! I thought I was here for what I was here! I'm here to save kisshot! How could it be up to me to kill her! ”
"Then you think it's better for me to do it?"
"What a joke!"
"Also, Heartunderblade has struggled until now because he didn't want to be killed by me. It's better for you to kill. ”
"Can't do it, can it?! That's not the kind of problem! ”
"So you have to do it, isn't that what Heartunderblade asks for? Then no matter how unwilling you are in your heart, you have to overcome it and achieve it. ”
"I'm not going to kill kisshot! Let me go! kisshot! Isn't there an option that will keep you alive?! ”
"No, I don't." Kisshot hugged Araragi Calendar tightly, no matter how much he broke free.
"Still don't understand? The person you want to save doesn't need your salvation at all, she wants to die here, she wants you to turn back into a human. ”
"I understand! I understand! I TM understand! But even if you understand, you can't do it! It's impossible! ”
"It's up to you to do it, and it's your duty and responsibility to kill her."
"If you can't do it, you can't do it......"
Realizing that struggling was useless, he gave up.
He muttered feebly.
"Why do you take it for granted, can't you? It's too hard, I can't do it. ”
"Kill me, count me for you."
In turn, he hugged Heartunderblade as if he wanted to merge it into his body.
"No, no, I really, no, I can't, I can't do it, I can't do it!"
His voice trembled, and he almost cried.
Li Nian shook his head.
"I said, you have to do it."
"Don't talk cold there!" Li shouted angrily: "Isn't it so natural that you can say it yourself? If someone close to you tells you to kill him, will you be able to raise the butcher's knife? ”
Li Nian replied categorically.
"I can."
"Anyone can say that!"
"I've killed."
“……”
"More than once."
Li was speechless.
Oshino also raised his eyebrows and opened his eyes slightly.
Huang Quan looked at Li Nian in surprise.
Of course, she understood the meaning of that.
The expression of the person who said such things was still calm, as if he was talking about trivial things.
"There's no way I have to kill it, even if it's a friend, I'll cut it, it's better to say that if I can, I have to do it myself."
The eyes were cold and numb, as if there was a thousand years of ice hidden inside.
This kind of look Huang Quan has ever seen.
said that her work should be used to the same look when someone died.
What kind of past is it......
Li Nian noticed Huang Quan's gaze and frowned.
Sighing, he suddenly changed his words, closed his eyes and said.
"But that's a situation where there is no way, if there is still a glimmer of life, I will not give up."
When I opened it again, my pupils returned to calmness.
Liyi gritted his teeth.
“…… That'...... I."
He wanted to say that he wouldn't give up either.
"Heartunderblade has to be taken out, there are already people who are dead because of her, and if you don't take it out here, more people will die because of her, I know you know that."
"I ......"
"Wanting to save someone, and therefore coming here, and not thinking about anything else - there's nothing to be ashamed of, people are selfish. It's not your responsibility, it's mine, I just want to say that it's my bottom line to retreat from Heartunderblade. As I said before, if you can't do it, I'll kill her. ”
“……”
Heartunderblade murmured in Li's ear.
"Don't shirk your responsibilities."
Li stopped talking.
He didn't move.
It's like giving up.
And it seems that he will not give in.
Seeing this, Li Nian exhaled tiredly.
"So, here I am."
Step forward with your sword in hand.
Li suddenly spoke, speaking in a deep voice.
"It's decided."
"Decide what?"
"I'll do it."
“……”
Li Nian stopped.
"That's right."
Heartunderblade smiled miserably.
"I should have said that a long time ago, I can't wait, come on, come on, pierce the veins with your sharpened teeth, instinct will teach you to eat, this will be your first and last blood, drink my blood freely, just remember me, remember the taste."
Pressing Li's head hard, he leaned his white neck against the sharp fangs.
“…… Ah, here I am. ”
With a hard hug, he opened his mouth, bared his fangs, and pierced into his veins.