I was born with a golden key. For as long as I can remember, I've been surrounded by a lot of people. I was too young to know how I was different from other children, but as time went on, I came to appreciate the difference. The most obvious thing was that while other people's children were playing together in groups, I was surrounded by four or five muscular people who seemed to be possessed. The ups and downs of childhood are incomplete, because I have only tasted the sweetness of astringency. I was the center of the whole family, and because my parents were busy with work, they had no time to take care of me, so they arranged many nannies and housekeepers to "imprison" me in this black and white monotonous space.

In the blink of an eye, I reached school age. This is something I've been looking forward to for a long time, because I'm eager to communicate with others and see more and stranger worlds. Unfortunately, it backfired. Just as I was taking my first class at school, I was enchanted with a kind of magic. It was a very simple self-introduction, and each student walked up to the podium and said childish but true words. But I stood there stupidly, facing a pair of eyes full of innocence and doubt, and I was so anxious that I cried.

Because of me, I can't speak.

Later, the babysitter told me that it was a mental illness called "autistic aphasia". Due to my long period of "isolation", I lost the ability to communicate. My parents, worried that I would be ridiculed by my classmates, applied to the school for "off-campus teaching", that is, inviting teachers to their homes for one-on-one teaching. Another disappointing, old-fashioned six years have passed.

I don't know why the wind blowing into the bedroom is always warm; I don't know why the pool in the middle of the lobby keeps gushing water; I don't know why the flowers in the windowsill vase bloom all year round without watering......

The first time my parents took me out of the house was when I was 12 years old, and I was like a bird born in a cage, timid and greedy to receive signals from the outside world through a weak railing. About an hour away, the car stopped in front of a tall building that was more than ten times larger than my house. I hid behind my mother and looked around at the people who were bowing to me. I seem to have seen these people, dressed in suits, ties, and with trained smiles.

My parents led me down the hall and I was greeted by five people—three adults and two children my age.

That was the first time I met you, two of the most important people in my life.

While the parents shook hands and talked to each other, I hid behind my mother and secretly looked at the two children. These two children are not as afraid of life as I am, and they stand generously in front of their respective adults. The boy who had both parents had a sunny smile and short black hair, and when I met his brown eyes, I saw that he was also looking at me. I instinctively staggered my gaze from him, not daring to look in his direction again. Behind the other boy stood his father, this boy was not as energetic as the sunny one just now, he had a straight face, and he looked lazy with no one in his eyes. What I care about more is his dark blonde hair, I thought my hair color was already very special, but I didn't expect to meet another person with a special hair color here. Well, it's as special as if dyeing your hair failed.

Then, I was pushed in front of both of them by my parents. The long-buried "heart barrier" came to my chest again, pressing on my vocal cords. To my surprise, my parents introduced me, and then I learned their names.

These are the two names I remember the most, and until the end, I kept calling in my heart......

- Mu Chen? Yu Xia.

- Huaguang? Yes.

On the way back, my parents told me that these two were classmates who were going to study with me for three years.

Twelve sweet and sour years had finally passed, and I couldn't wait to get out of the room where I had been held for so long and emptied of loneliness. In the coming year, cherry blossoms will visit the campus, leaving a brief floral scent to take away unforgettable memories.

- Unforgettable Middle School, that's the name of my alma mater.

My seat was in the fourth row by the window, and there were only three people in the fourth row because there were so few people in the class. I don't know why Mu Chen and Hua Guang have to sit in the back, are they also suffering from the same disease as me? Hua Guang sat between me and Mu Chen, he and Mu Chen were simply people from two worlds. Hua Guang talked non-stop all day long, and he got acquainted with his classmates in a few days, but Mu Chen held a book in his hand all day long, and read it without saying a word for a day. I often secretly observe Hua Guang, and he has a strong affinity for him that can attract the attention of others.

That day, he found me. I forgot to avoid his fiery gaze as I watched mesmerizingly.

He greeted me as if he were a human being. I don't know if he remembers how we met a month ago, so I nodded, scurrying away from his gaze. No, he won't remember me.

I envy those who are free to be exposed to the sun, and I long to stand with those people and see the different shapes of clouds and the different colors of flowers. I am a cherry blossom swaying in the night, and I look up to your endless purity with my darkness.

Later, they changed me, and from that moment on, I owe them to this day. Both of them are my best friends and my greatest benefactors. In just a few months, I have experienced that soft sweetness, the sweetness that just needs to be on the tip of my tongue and a sense of happiness will spring up in my heart. I love this school, from the grass and trees, to the classmates and teachers, I follow the footsteps of Mu Chen and Huaguang, from the vast night to the next dawn......

It was the beginning of the winter break of the first year of junior high school, and just as I was packing my bags and preparing to cross the sea with them, a sensational scandal stopped us.

-- My parents have caused financial losses to more than 10 enterprises, including Muchen Shipping Commercial Group and Huaguang Chief Real Estate Business Group, due to unauthorized use of joint venture property, and the estimated amount is about 50 million yuan.

Nothing.

That office building, that villa, those strange uncles and aunts, and even my parents left me and fled to the sky. I had no identity anymore, and I became an exile when that country lied that "the whereabouts of the criminals and their families are unknown" to evade responsibility. I can't go back to that place, and I can only live incognito for the rest of my life in this anarchic town. Countless phone calls and threatening text messages bombarded my phone, and those who knew my real identity no longer approached me, and I was the superfluous one, the only point of spark in this scandal.

Not to mention the worst of all, they are still there.

When I received the news, my brain went blank and I collapsed to the ground, as if I saw the smile of death. Hua Guang and Mu Chen forcibly helped me up and patted me on the back hard, Mu Chen just said lightly, It's okay, there are us.

The next day, the two of them said they had a surprise for me. Without saying a word, they took me to a building in the old town. - Look! This is your new home.

My new home is a very ordinary but very unusual two-story building.

Do you know how I felt? That kind of hot and sour mixture, I don't know what to do! When I cried and asked why you did this, you said – go in and see. I know your parents must be trying to find me, why are you doing this for me? Have pity on me? We're enemies......

Behind the small building is a vegetable market, and the striking thing is that at the front of the market is a hibernating cherry tree, which is so fragile and thin that only the bare trunk and scattered branches remain. Mu Chen and Hua Guang spent all their savings, but they never mentioned it to me. And just like that, the two of them became all I had.

I like to sit on the windowsill on the second floor and watch the tree sprout little by little, and the cherry blossoms bloom into the flowers. Occasionally, cherry blossoms swim into the house in the spring breeze, and I collect them in empty bottles and keep them. The sweetness of the cherry blossoms gradually neutralized the bitterness in my heart, making me sensitive to pain again.

On April 25, I passed out in this house.

They took me to the hospital for a detailed examination, and the results made me feel helpless but not disappointed. I had a disease called "blood cancer."

On that day, you came to visit me in my hospital bed. I welcome you with a smile, but you cry uncontrollably, can't we change our roles? I know that you secretly made bone marrow pairings behind my back, just look at your faces. The dean also told me that you had a big fight with your parents to raise money, and you also borrowed money from the hospital in the name of the company behind their backs...... I didn't cry when I was in debt and my family was ruined, because I knew I was not guilty. I didn't cry because I knew it was retribution. But when I saw you crying for me, I cried uncontrollably, and I couldn't find a reason to be strong.

I didn't even ask how long you would survive, and I dragged you out of this hospital. Born in the hospital, died in the hospital, how sad! I went back to the building, the place where my fate was buried. I put my chair in front of the windowsill on the second floor and watched the people and clouds roll in outside the window all day. Mu Chen and Hua Guang used the loan to buy a sofa and put it on the second floor. For the rest of the day, they lived upstairs and I lived downstairs. I laughed and said that they were making a big fuss, and they said that they were not worried about me living alone.

I love sitting in front of the window with three people every night and watching the cherry blossoms bloom through the goose-egg-sized light from the street lamps. My hair fell one by one, turning the floor pink. It's strange, why did the cherry blossoms wither when they were in full bloom...... My body was getting weaker and weaker, and I had to rely on human support, and I felt like an eighty-year-old lady who had almost forgotten my name.

The sturdy cherry blossom tree was defeated by a sudden thunderstorm that slashed the trunk and burned all night. When the sky clears, all that remains of the earthwork is the roots covered in black charcoal. Mu Chen frowned and sneaked out the next night. A few days later, I was amazed to find that many white flowers had grown around the roots of the old tree, and like the cherry blossoms, they were fragrant and fragrant. Mu Chen said that the name of this flower is "Bailan", and the flower language means hope.

At the end of the year, his eyesight began to deteriorate, he could not see anything from five meters away, and he was very afraid of light. Hua Guang removed the light bulb on the second floor and put Bai Lan in a flower pot and moved it into the house. I don't know when death will visit me, but I know my life is perfect. Sweet and sour, the four flavors are reincarnated, just like the pot of flowers in front of the window, blooming and thanking, thanking and blooming.

There is still half a month to go until a full year of illness, and to be honest, I didn't expect that I would survive until now. I've been paralyzed in bed for more than ten days, and Mu Chen wants to contact the hospital for me, but I know it's useless. Now, don't cry anymore, like life and death.

This is the last time I'll see you, Journal. There are some things that I need you to tell them for me. Mu Chen, Hua Guang, I have been taken care of by you a lot in the past two years, but unfortunately I can't repay it in my life. It was only when I came to death that I tasted that helpless fear. I counted every day for more than ten years, in fact, every day left regrets, and every day I wanted to start over. I'll forget the guilt, I'll forget the campus, I'll forget my name, but I'm going to remember you, I'll remember this home, and that's the only proof that I've lived. By the way, that pot of orchids should be watered once a night, not too much water, it will be watered to death. Let's get a new light on the second floor, so don't make the room dark...... Oh, I'm getting more and more verbose! If in the future, you can still think of a song called "Yuyun? Inazakura", put a bouquet of white orchids in front of my grave......

Remember the first thing you said to me?

"Yuyun, do you want to make friends with us?"

Now, next year, let's go to enjoy the flowers together, shall we?