Chapter 36: The White-Haired Nun
On this day, I ascended the throne and I became Her Royal Highness the Queen of the country.
When I was marching through the streets, all the people looked up to me, and I sat on the top of the car and looked down at my people below, and I was so proud, and I was so honorable.
However, at night, everyone was gone, and everyone had to rest, and then I slept alone in a big bed, very big, like a boat compared to the bed in the dormitory, and comparable to this night, like a dream.
It's like a dream, so luxurious and beautiful.
Wenli smiled and said to me, congratulations, Pinxi, congratulations on becoming Her Royal Highness the Queen, congratulations, and then the voice became smaller and smaller, smaller and smaller, and then there was no more, no matter how much you tried to find it, there was no more.
Then Dae Ying came, and then they all came, and they all came to congratulate me, but when I tried to catch them and not let them go, they were all far away, and then, farther and farther away, farther and farther away, until I could never see them again.
When even the shadow disappeared, I was a little lonely, I was a little lonely in this big place, this feeling made my heart hurt, it was the most real pain that passed through all the bones and blood, the flesh.
For example, dancing, I like to dance the most, but I can't swing my movements anymore, every movement seems so fragmented, in this dark place, in and then resonates with my soul, the defective movements are like a broken mask with blood stains in the grinning, gorgeous laughter, like the most dazzling pearl falling into the darkest cliff, and then never to be seen again, blowing ashes and annihilation.
For example, night stalkers, I like the sound of night stalkers, beyond all pain.
In this darkness, I saw a white-haired person, she was very beautiful, and I asked her, where is this, why am I here, and will I not sleep in my big bed in the hall that belongs to me?
She replied to me, don't you remember, you came here with me, you want to be a nun with me, but I became a nun, but you disappeared, and now I see you again, let's go to be a nun together!
Don't, why go to be a nun, who are you and why am I here? I want to go back, I'm the queen, I have my people, I want to go back.
Don't you remember, your country is gone, in that dark night, the gorgeous ostentatious is gone, but there is no mark left, you are no longer a queen, are you still thinking about your queen? You have so many people who have died for you, you don't have to think about the queen for them, go and find those clues, all the people who are going to kill you are dead, you have to take the initiative to find them, avenge your friends, you know?
I, can I.. I'm just a girl, how can I fight those people, and besides, I don't have any weapons now, all of them have been confiscated by the Heavenly Court, how can I fight them, how can I fight them.
It's right in front, there's the weapon I'm going to give you in the cave in front, you go get it, and I'll show you where you're going.
Isn't this, all this, a dream?
Do you feel like a dream, or at night, at night, at night, your country is gone, it can't be anymore, all your memories are shattered, now you're going to fight, you only rely on yourself, now only you can save yourself, you have to come on.
Yes, I will, and I'll prove it to you.