Chapter 578: Childhood self-blame
Hearing Su Yanzhi say this, Mu gave him a blank look.
Seeing that the little wife was a little annoyed, Su Yan stepped forward to sit beside her and asked, "What about you, have you eaten at noon?" ”
The topic shifted to himself, Mu Zao was a little weak-hearted, and said stiffly: "Of course I ate it." ”
"Did you eat too much?" Su Yanzhi asked again.
"It's definitely more than you anyway." Mu was a little annoyed by Su Yanzhi's question early, obviously he was teaching him a lesson, why did he do something wrong now.
Afraid that Su Yanzhi would hold on to this matter, Mu Zao hurriedly changed the topic and said, "I went to the toilet by myself in the morning. ”
"Really?" Su Yanzhi was really attracted by Mu Zao's words, and asked with concern: "How is it, do you have anything to say?" ”
Mu shook his head in frustration.
Seeing that Mu was like this earlier, Su Yanzhi pinched her face: "Don't worry, it shouldn't be autistic at all times." ”
Mu raised his hand early and patted Su Yanzhi away, why does this man always move his hands and feet today. Immediately, Mu Zao reacted to what Su Yanzhi said just now: Isn't it autism all the time?
"What's going on? Is there a solution? Mu Zao didn't care about anything else, and asked eagerly.
"I discussed with Lu Shen, and Lin Yuan's matter has dealt a big blow to Shi Shi. Su Yanzhi said.
Mu gave him a 'this is not nonsense' look early, the matter is obvious, and he still needs to discuss it with Lin Yuan to find out.
Su Yanzhi continued: "He should know everything, but he just doesn't want to deal with us. ”
"Why?" Mu Zao frowned and subconsciously looked upstairs. Don't want to talk to her all the time? Don't you always miss your mother? Or is it that this time there was an accident, and I always hated my parents for not saving him back in time.
"You should know that there are many other children who were kidnapped by Lin Yuan with Shi Shi. I asked the children and they said that they tried to save them at all times, but it didn't work. ”
Mu Zao heard Su Yanzhi say this, and his heart was surprised. Want to save those children all the time? He was only four years old at the time, and in that situation, he didn't cry in fright, and even wanted to save those children? How does this sound exaggerated.
Su Yanzhi knew what Mu Zao was thinking, to be honest, when he heard the news for the first time, Su Yanzhi was also surprised in his heart. It's just that those children later said some things, and Su Yanzhi believed that he really wanted to save them.
"I always believed that you and I would get him out quickly, so at that time he advised those children not to cry and be obedient." Su Yanzhi said.
Mu Zao's eyes suddenly became a little hot. When I think of my son trusting his parents so much, but they are so late, it is understandable to blame them in my heart all the time.
"It's me who is not good, and I am disappointed from time to time." Mu lowered his eyes in early loss, feeling guilty, but he didn't know how to make up for it.
"I don't blame you all the time, to be exact, he blames himself." Su Yanzhi glanced at the direction of the upstairs and continued to say to Mu Zaozao: "Among that group of children, one died. It's the little girl who stole the car I saw at Daddy's last time. When someone grabbed her, they lost the necklace around her neck, and she kept crying. She was persuaded from time to time, but the girl did not listen, and was finally taken away by the bodyguards and never returned. ”
Mu listened to Su Yanzhi early, and his heart sank. remembered that the last time I was in the Mujia Villa, in order to help the little girl, I gave one of my highest-class cars to those little overlords. At that time, when I looked at the little girl, the smile on my face was so sweet, as if I had seen the most beautiful flower in the world. Mu knew early on that a child as old as Shi Shi couldn't distinguish all kinds of feelings. But as a mother, Mu could see early on that in his heart, the feeling that the little girl brought him was unprecedented.
Mu Zao couldn't imagine how sad he felt when he saw the little girl he liked so much being taken away and never brought back. An experience from her childhood suddenly appeared in her mind, she remembered that it seemed to be the first grade, because she made a bet with Lei Ruan Qin to see who would finish her homework first, she secretly cheated and took the homework book to find Su Yanzhi. saw Su Yanzhi's mother holding a handful of bamboo strips tied together, pressing Su Yanzhi on the sofa and whipping constantly, and her little buttocks were bruised. Mu Zao came forward to beg for mercy, but the aunt didn't listen to her at all. In the end, she was scolded by Su Yanzhi and left. Later, I heard that Su Yanzhi was beaten with a high fever and did not go to school for several days.
After that time, Mu Zao always felt very regretful and guilty. At that time, she should have worked harder, even if she found a way to tell Uncle Su, she would not let Su Yanzhi suffer like that.
This memory has been missing from his mind for a long time, and if it weren't for this time when he talked about the current events, Mu Zao probably wouldn't have remembered it earlier. She didn't say these words to Su Yanzhi, but she understood very well in her heart, how frustrated she should be now.
"I'll talk to him." Mu got up from the sofa early, and just wanted to leave, he was pulled back by Su Yanzhi.
"Do you have to tell us a little bit before you talk about it?" Su Yanzhi embraced Mu into his arms early.
Mu Zao didn't know if she was wrong, she felt that Su Yanzhi's gaze stayed on her lower abdomen for a while. Could it be that he knew he was pregnant? It shouldn't be possible, no one else knows about this. Could it be that Lei Ruan Qin told Su Yanzhi to inform?
"What do we have to say?" Mu Zao saw Su Yanzhi's eyes looking straight at her, and he looked away a little weakly, not looking at him.
"Are you sure we don't have anything to say?" Su Yanzhi's handsome face was close to Mu Zaozao's face, forcing her to look at herself.
Mu Zao's heart was beating faster, and he wanted to refute, but his throat seemed to be blocked by something, and he couldn't say a word. It seems that Su Yanzhi really knows something.
Could it be that because he didn't call the doctor in time, the doctor leaked the secret?
After thinking about it, I still think this is the most likely. The doctor was too unethical to keep this bit of a secret.
"Now that you know everything, what else to ask." Mu Zao was a little annoyed, pursed his lips and glared at Su Yan.
Su Yanzhi looked innocent: "What do I know?" ”
Mu was disturbed by him early, and he couldn't tell the difference, whether Su Yanzhi knew it or not. just felt that if she continued to look at Su Yanzhi like this, her poor little heart was about to flutter out, so she hurriedly struggled to get up from Su Yanzhi's arms and ran upstairs quickly.
Looking at Mu Zao's figure fleeing in a panic, a smile flashed on Su Yanzhi's face. originally wanted to confess directly to Mu Zao, but now it seems that it is more interesting to let Mu Zaozao say it himself.
Mu didn't stop early, and ran into the bedroom in one breath.
I thought I was still sleeping, but I found that the little guy was sitting on the bed at this time, and his eyes were red.
Seeing Mu come in early, he raised his hand and rubbed his eyes. Lie down on the bed again, with your back to the outside, and pull the quilt over yourself.
Seeing his little body lying on the bed, Mu Zaozao was extremely distressed. She and Su Yanzhi are both people who are prone to self-blame, but they didn't expect that this kind of thing can also be inherited. is only so young, at this age, he should be carefree, he should be happy and laugh and cry, but he bears so much alone.
"Son." Mu stepped forward early, sat down on the edge of Shishi's small bed, and gently patted Shishi's shoulder.
He didn't speak, he didn't move. Still lying motionless as usual.
"I know you're sad about that little sister." Mu caressed his back early and opened his mouth.
I obviously felt the small body in the quilt tremble. Mu Zao was also sure that what Su Yanzhi said just now was right. There is no autism at all times, he just wants to close himself, he is just blaming himself.
Mu knew early that the comfort at this time was useless. Self-blame is self-blame, and you won't get better just because someone else says, 'It's none of your business.'"
She thought about it, and didn't force her to say anything, her mother's hand gently patted Shi Shi's shoulder, and her voice was soft: "Mom will tell you a story." ”
Su Yanzhi, who was downstairs, stepped upstairs. As soon as I walked to the door of the bedroom, I heard Mu Zaozao's words. He subconsciously stopped, leaning against the wall, and also wanted to hear what story Mu was going to tell earlier.
The air around me is unusually quiet, listen carefully, there is the sound of birds chirping outside the bedroom window, the breeze blowing the curtains, and time seems to stand still all at once.
"At that time, my mother was in first grade, and your father was already in third grade. I took my homework and tried to ask him to help me with the problem, but I saw your grandmother holding a bamboo stick tied together and slapping your father's ass with bruises. Mu paused early, with a small face. When I was a child, I thought it was like the sky was falling, but when I think about it when I grow up, I just think it's funny.
Outside the bedroom door, Su Yanzhi put one hand in his trouser pocket and leaned against the wall. Listening to Mu Zaozao's words, the corners of his lips unconsciously hooked. From childhood to adulthood, he was beaten a lot. It's not that he's naughty, it's just that he has a mother who is not very conscious.
Since he was a child, Su Yanzhi has been beaten so many times, and he still remembers the time when he was bumped into by Mu Zao. After all, it's too embarrassing to be spanked in front of the girl you like.
In the room, Mu Zao continued: "At that time, I advised your grandmother, don't beat him, at that time, I didn't know the severity, looking at the bruise of your father's buttocks, I was really afraid that your grandmother would beat him to death." It's just that your father didn't appreciate it at all, and told me not to meddle in my affairs, and shouted fiercely for me to get out. I was also a little angry at the time, thinking that your father was unreasonable, so I took the homework book and left. Later, I found out that your grandmother had a high fever and didn't see him at school for several days. ”——
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