Monster.

Unlike human, non-human.

Like this kind of existence, there are many legends, many stories circulating, even if you don't deliberately understand it, you have heard a lot of it.

Most of the common denominator is that it is a dangerous creature, that it is harmful, that it is not good for humans, and, for the most part, that it feeds on humans......

It's not like he didn't think about it at all.

Heartunderblade is a vampire, and her first encounter with her, she has been cut off and her limbs are in a state of extreme weakness, and at that time, indeed, she is being watched with the eyes of food.

At that time, the Araragi calendar, which was still only a human being, was just a simple food in the eyes of Heartunderblade.

That look completely regarded him as an animal, so it was very simple, very indifferent to say, going to eat the Araragi calendar, talking lightly, as if he was saying something for granted.

If you eat him, you will be able to replenish your energy and get a recovery.

It can't be any other food, it has to be human flesh and blood, but for Heartunderblade, humans are food at best.

Then, myself, I became a creature like this.

But he didn't realize that he had become such a creature.

No, not without realization.

It's self-deception.

It's always deceived about yourself, always thinking ideally, and stupidly optimistic.

So I have never dared to think about it, I dare not go deeper, I think about it, I dare not face it.

- "You've become a vampire - you've become a man-eating monster"

Even if you have to be clearly criticized by others, you have to be awakened like this.

It's useless.

"And, I ran away."

It's not just useless, it's rubbish.

Ara Liangmuli, who ran away from Li Nian, is now lying on the river embankment, looking at the starry sky with empty eyes.

He finally realized that he hadn't done a single thing right since that encounter with Heartunderblade.

Heartunderblade is a youkai.

So hunted down - and so it is.

It's because she's a man-eating monster.

Her survival would have killed many people.

In fact, she has survived for five hundred years.

How many people have been killed and eaten by her?

A thousand, or ten thousand? Or is it more?

It was because of this existence that she was hunted down by those people, and appeared there as a dejected person with her hands and feet cut off.

In any case, that number is beyond the reach of Araragi.

Saved such a guy himself.

After that, he even agreed to her request to fight Quilokin Kada and them, thwart their movements, and regain the strength of such a dangerous existence.

His actions were wrong and incorrect.

The good deed of sacrificing one's own life to save others has lost the meaning of goodness at this time.

After that if someone dies.

That must be his fault.

Even if Hanekawa is eaten.

The sisters were eaten.

Both parents were eaten.

That's all his fault.

Even, the current self has become the same existence.

Turned into a vampire, turned into a man-eating youkai.

From now on, his life will survive at the cost of the death of others, and he must continue to digest the corpses of others to live, just like Heartunderblade.

Well, it's better to die.

It should have been on the original day, that time.

Underneath that lamp, if you don't save Kissshot, if you don't save her like that, that's the end of the matter.

At that time, I didn't see her die - it became like this, all because my heart was too fragile.

If it weren't for this kind of own fault, it wouldn't have become the current situation.

"-Already, enough."

What I did this spring break turned out to be all wrong -- I didn't even think about it. I've been through all sorts of twists and turns, but looking back, it's still good.

In fact, it was the worst spring break ever.

It's just hell.

It's like a hellish joke.

That's right, I don't understand anything.

Just like Li Nian said, he looks stupid that he doesn't understand anything.

Just one such idiot who has done quite a few stupid things.

Saved the Heartunderblade thing.

Something that thwarted their movements.

Hanekawa is in danger.

Mistake.

It doesn't make sense.

Disaster.

"That's it."

Guilt kills.

He didn't want to live anymore.

If you do something wrong, you have to pay it back, and in the first place, your own existence will not be ignored, and those people will soon find themselves after retiring from Heartunderblade, right? And then it's not the center of the chest that gets pierced, but the heart that is further to the left, and the vampire will die if the heart is destroyed, and he will die soon, right?

So, why not wait until the sun rises tomorrow and plunge into the sun?

But it hurts......

Then still.

"If you don't resist, please Mr. Li, kill me, if it's that person, unlike Quillokinkada and Abbysot, they will definitely kill me and give me a good time."

The moment the decision was made, it was like something attached to the body disappeared, and it suddenly calmed down.

I'm going to die.

On the side of the family, I sent a text message to my sister before, saying that I had embarked on a journey to find my life, although I was comforted by being ridiculed, but now that I haven't been back for a few days, I should almost feel that I am seriously running away from home, right?

Then, after he dies, he disappears for a longer time, probably really, and he will be regarded as determined to leave.

Well, that's it.

Oh my sisters, please forgive my brother who didn't make it.

Father and mother too, just don't have me as a son, anyway, I haven't let you go well, I'm sorry for the trouble for a long time.

"Then, before you die, make it clear to Kisshot."

Even with that kind of existence, Araragiri didn't resent her.

She didn't do anything wrong.

To survive, you have to eat people, so vampires do it, without malice, they just treat humans as food and eat.

It's just a difference in values.

After getting along these days, I can't hate her.

So, I'm sorry.

But he can no longer identify with her and fight with her.

You will be the first to be killed by those people.

If she makes her look forward to it without authorization, she must apologize.

So, go back and make it clear to her.

He propped himself up from the grass.

Under the starry sky, he took a stumbling step.