Chapter 36: Let go because of love
Although he was beaten at that time, he was happy in his heart, he was not a despicable person, but he played tricks in this matter, and he couldn't help it.
I chose to speak out at this time because I graduated, I had the opportunity to intersect with Qianyan, and I could compete fairly with him.
Then he realized that he had finally succeeded in holding her hand, and perhaps he had been wrong from the beginning.
When he thought he didn't have a chance, fate pushed him to Qianyan.
And he found that what seemed to him was an opportunity that was just the process of ending his relationship.
He told him that they had a long conversation before leaving.
He mentioned to him that as long as Qianyan completes the work in Italy, his development after returning to China will be better, and he has the heart to arrange for Qianyan to continue his studies.
Originally, I was going to wait for the two-year appointment with Qianyan, but now it's obviously too late.
In a dilemma, he finally chose to fulfill the future of his mother's expectations, but gave up his love.
After listening to Le Peng's speech, he was silent for a long time, how could he just give up their love, love is a matter of two people, and it is not something that he can decide alone.
She was going to ask him to his face how he could just let go so easily, and she was going to tell him in person that his so-called fulfillment was not worth talking about to her.
She cares about her career because she wants to stand side by side with him, and without his career, there is no so-called care.
In this way, Asa Yan stepped on a plane to the United States.
After arriving in the United States, Qian Yan did not come directly to find him, but chose to visit his mother's hospital.
The mother recognized her the moment she came in, and after a brief greeting between the two of them, they fell into a brief silence.
It was still Yu Ran's mother who spoke first: "Shallow words, you are a good girl, and I also know that you have a good relationship with Yu Ran, but now his brother and I need him by our side more than you." ”
"Auntie, you need him, and I need him, but he is not anyone's property, and we can't imprison his thoughts because of our own needs."
"He is my son, I will only think about his future, and I will not harm him, his mind about you has not changed since he was a child, and now is not a child, I know you are inseparable, maybe you can stay together."
"Mom, don't worry about us." Before he could reply, he came in first and gave his mother a reply.
After a few words of greeting, he walked out of the ward with a shallow word and went to a restaurant outside.
"Why did you come here suddenly, and you didn't say a word."
"I was dumped by my boyfriend, so I have to know the reason."
Yan Ran deliberately avoided the words of the shallow words: "I heard Tong Kai say that you gave up the last chance to be selected in Italy. ”
"That's because, in between, I'm even more reluctant to give up on you, so don't try to push me away anymore."
"But I'm tired, and after a long-distance relationship, I don't have the confidence that I can hold on to a longer distance."
"I'm back."
"In short, what I want most is to have you by my side, but I don't want you to come here to accompany me, I can't let me imprison you.
Qian Yan lowered his head and took a sip of coffee: "Do you know what the biggest problem between us is?" ”
Before he could reply, he continued: "It's responsible." We are always self-righteous and choose to bear for each other, and we are always self-righteous to take everything on ourselves for each other.
What we lack is communication, it is sharing, we all hide our tiredness and sadness in our hearts, give the best side to each other, but in the end we let ourselves not bear the inner defense line and collapse. ”
"It's not that we don't love anymore, but we're tired of love, if we could have said it sooner, maybe we..."
Maybe it's just maybe, maybe, you can't go back to the past, maybe it's just a longing, maybe, you can't change the present.
Two people can't go back to the original point, and they can't go to the future......
After going back, he received an email from Qianyan.
Ran:
In the end, we didn't get together. Sitting in the car that was speeding on the telling, looking out the window at the scenery flashing by, I knew that we were moving away little by little.
I know that we still love each other, but the people who love each other may not make it to the end.
Of course, you're not wrong, and I'm not wrong. It's just that we love at the wrong time, and it's a pity that we can't meet you at the most appropriate time.
But I know enough to leave a mark in your youth.
Our separation doesn't mean it's over, and we don't want this embarrassment to happen again.
Tell me once in a while if you're doing well, if you've got a good girlfriend, and if you complain about work by the way, I'll be your best listener as always.
If we can meet again in the future, I hope that it will be the best moment for each other.
Plain talk
After reading the email, he stared at the screen and was silent for a long time.
The computer screen went black countless times, and it was lit up by him countless times. He wrote a long text and wanted to send it to Qianyan, but he deleted them one by one.
In the end, he just typed a few words on it and clicked send.
Shallow:
I never thought of our encounter as a mistake, no matter when you showed up. In my childhood, the presence of you in my youth was my best time.
Many years later, when I think of you again, I am still grateful that you have appeared in my memory.
Ran
Puya has been gone for three whole years, and no one knows anything about her.
It's been three years, everyone is no longer the ignorant teenagers they were at the beginning, with the polishing of time, the original most important things have become no longer important, and the original most persistent ones have also experienced the chase and let go.
Three years is not enough to change a person's life habits, but it is enough to change a person.
The love that I was waiting for, after more than ten years of tempering, still did not defeat the end of the sadness of the first love.
Even if they still love each other, in the face of reality, all the good things are just a sweet bubble.
The relationship that was carefully cared for was still bruised all over the body.
Excessive care does not bring the supreme baby, but the fragile glass heart that is vulnerable after the wind and rain.
The love that Gu Cheng was waiting for had already ended before it began.
The time, the occasion, the place, although not all correspond to that, with you, with the people you love, that's enough.
He once had such an opportunity to reveal his heart palpitations to the person he loved, but he was let go by himself.
Gu Jing was originally the daughter of Gu's International Bank, and later when she accompanied Puya and the agency, she became more and more shrewd and independent, and she had become a successful strong woman, but because of this, she missed her other half in the best years.
Li Chuan handed over Puya's company and his own company to Qian Yan and Gu Jing after returning to China.
In addition to processing the documents at a fixed time, he spent the rest of the time looking for this Ampuya, who had been missing for more than three years.