Chapter 186: Why are you so pathetic
The spring night was very light, the wind blew in the direction of the car, and it seemed as if I had just arrived at Tulip Road from Mochou Lake in an instant.
At this time, only half of the street lights are still on, which is a characteristic of Tulip Road, and some of the street lights will be turned off after 11 o'clock at night to save resources, but it does not affect my ability to see the wind and grass here.
I stood in front of the convenience store, lit a cigarette and waited patiently, I knew that Xiao Ai would come, sooner or later, but it must be on this night.
Come to think of it, we've only been separated for a few hours and we'll be able to see each other again, so we don't like to say "goodbye" to each other, because sometimes we really don't feel separated.
I stood and waited for tiredness, sat down on the bench again, and then subconsciously looked at the place where Xiao Ai would appear, wondering why she hadn't come yet, after all, it was so late, where would there be such a bad traffic jam.
An hour passed, and I simply lay down on the bench, looking at the stars twinkling in the sky, and then thought about it a lot, and even felt that I was one of them, because I was far away, so I looked indifferently at the joys, sorrows, and sorrows that were happening on the earth.
I smiled, instantly feeling a sense of pride on top of me, and then looked at the other side of the sky from a different angle.
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Xiao Ai came to my side, she looked down at me, my high sense of honor was immediately shattered, and she was like the moon in the sky, shining with smart light.
I got up from the bench and looked at her, she looked like she was wearing makeup, she didn't seem to have it, but she wasn't wearing the same outfit she had been a few hours before.
I said to her, "I've been waiting for you for more than an hour. ”
"I'm already asleep, who knew you would suddenly ask me out...... Since your appointment is so formal, then I have to put on makeup and choose a decent outfit. ”
I looked at her carefully, and finally found a little trace of makeup, so I smiled and said to her, "I admit that I put on makeup so generously!" ”
"What can't be admitted, although I was born beautiful, but wearing makeup can defeat those who are also naturally beautiful...... By the way, remember the woman we saw on Mochou Road a long time ago? ”
I recalled, because I remembered the woman's beauty deeply, I immediately remembered, and then nodded back: "Remember, it seems that she was drinking coffee in a coffee shop called Mochou that day...... By the way, it's still a big belly! ”
"Hmm."
I was puzzled and asked, "Why did you suddenly mention that woman?" ”
Xiao Ai was silent, I stared at her for a while, her outfit today was obviously more mature than before, and I suddenly remembered that I had praised that woman in front of her, and compared it with her, thinking that she was not mature enough, it turned out that she had always remembered this thing.
Thinking about her thoughts, I smiled and said, "After all this time, you are still competing with that woman?" ”
"She's very beautiful, but I don't compete with her, I just don't like some people to compare me with other women, because every woman has her own personality, is unique, she wants the man she likes to be unique, and she can't have a little distraction in her heart."
I looked at her, and her eyes were very determined, which made me feel that her words just now were the point of view that can never be changed, representing her principles of looking at love.
I understood what she meant, and I knew what she was targeting, but I wasn't too confident in myself, because I wasn't a very pure man, and if it wasn't pure, it would be blasphemy for a woman like Xiao Ai.
I fell silent......
Xiao Ai asked me at this time, "Say, why did you ask me out so late?" …… I also put on makeup, and I think what you're going to say must be a very formal thing to do, because you rarely ask me out, let alone so late! ”
"I ......"
"What are you?"
I looked at her with a long suffocation, and finally replied with a blushing face: "I just hope you can stay in Nanjing......" I stopped at this point, because I couldn't get the reason, or my reason couldn't even convince me.
"Why do you want me to stay in Nanjing? …… I don't even have a home here, do you support me? ”
"Actually, mixed up like this, I don't even have the confidence to feed myself!"
"Oh, then you mean, I stayed in Nanjing to raise you, and you followed me to eat soft rice?"
"I ...... Don't talk nonsense, why do I want you to raise a man who doesn't lack hands and feet? ”
"You don't support me, and you don't need me to raise you, so why do you want me to stay in Nanjing? …… Isn't it just to stare at you every day? I can't do that! …… If that's the case, I might as well go back to Taipei, because in contrast, I still prefer to spend time with my mom shopping and talk about music. ”
Xiao Ai looked at me with disdain, I decided to forget about the troubles in my relationship for a while, and I also wanted to give myself a little time, so I avoided and said, "The coffee shop can't open now, so I want to do something else...... I think we can work together to open a piano shop, you are responsible for teaching, I am responsible for marketing planning, and we all do business together...... I can't guarantee anything else, but I will help you solve your food, clothing and accommodation problems...... Think about it, you have to solve the accommodation by yourself in Taipei, so in comparison, isn't Nanjing better? ”
Xiao Ai didn't expect that I would make a request to do a career with her, so much so that she looked at me with a complicated face, and my heart beat faster and faster in her gaze. I swear, this would have been the boldest request I had ever made of her, because if she had said yes, it would have changed her life.
She asked me, "Jiang Qiao, do you think I will promise you?" Just to have a place to live for the food and clothing you promised me. ”
I replied a little dejectedly, "You just think I am talking about it when my brain is hot." ”
"Yes, you definitely said these words to me because of a moment of brain fever, I don't like you in this state, and I don't want a sense of security that comes from having a place to live...... So I won't promise you. ”
I had no words, silently savoring the rejection in my heart. I feel a little ridiculous, like a person who doesn't know martial arts accidentally gets a martial arts cheats book and wants to dominate the world. How could I just rely on the courage that a song "elopement" brought to me, so that Xiao Ai could change his future life for me?
Although Xiao Ai is a few years younger than me, she is very smart, she has said everything quietly, and it also makes me understand what kind of obstacles are between us.
She minded the past between me and Chen Yi, and it was impossible for me to come out of the previous relationship world in such a short time. So, how can an impure Jiang Qiao be heavier than her mother in Taipei, so it is a normal choice for her to be reluctant to stay!
I stood a little stunned, sad and very sad, but I had nothing to say. Xiao Ai didn't leave, just stood with me in the boundless night.
"Jiang Qiao, why are you so pitiful?"
I looked up at her: "Ah, what? ”
Xiao Ai sighed, and it took a long time for her to reply: "I must return to Taiwan...... You let me think about it, it really takes courage for me to go back to live in Nanjing, and I don't know what kind of reason to give my mother. For the sake of me being able to teach in a public school, she gave up her principles for the first time and begged her former teacher, and I had no position to disappoint her too much! ”
I didn't know this, and said even more guiltily: "It's me who is asking too much!" ”
"You're not asking too much, you're just a little late. Did you know that a few days before I returned to Nanjing, I was very serious about planning my future life, and I had accepted the fact that I would stay in Taipei. ”
I still looked at her, speechless, and she looked at me with a little reluctance and a little hatred.
"If nothing else, I'm leaving."
Xiao Ai turned around to leave, I felt a sense of loss in my heart, and then subconsciously pulled the clothes behind her: "Wait......"
She looked back at me again, expressionless.
"Leave a contact information...... When I'm done with the coffee shop, I'll go to Taipei to find you. ”
Xiao Ai, who barely smiled on this night, finally smiled: "...... Okay, there you go. ”
"Give me the address and contact details."
"The address can be given to you, contact information is not to be given...... Do you still dare to go? ”
"Dare to go, I'll wait for you at the address you gave...... Maybe when you come out to buy something to eat, I'll be able to catch you. ”
"Really? Then good luck...... Hands outstretched. ”
I reached in front of Xiao Ai, she took an eyeliner from her handbag, and then left her address in Taipei on my hand, and after that, I didn't say anything, and walked along the direction of the streetlight to the west of Tulip Road, and I watched her leave......
I seemed to see the dusk in Taipei and the various special food stalls set up in the dusk in her back, and we sat under the tents of those food stalls and chatted about life, chatting about what kind of piano shop we were going to open, and soon after that, we got on the flight to Nanjing together!
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Xiao Ai has been gone for a long time, I am still standing at the door of the convenience store, I reminisce about what happened today, which makes me a little prostration, a little weak, but my life has really been refreshed today, I seem to see some outlines of tomorrow through the dark remnant of the barrier, in that looming outline, Jiang Qiao is dare to pay, dare to pursue......