After singing a song, Xiao Ai and I received a tip of about 100 yuan. The unsatisfied travelers applauded and hoped that Xiao Ai could sing another song for them, but Xiao Ai said that her partner was me, and she could not sing many songs, so she could only whistle after her, but she wanted to perform with me, so we would go to another place to continue singing this song.

Xiao Ai said so, and did, she didn't pay much attention to the enthusiasm of the tourists, and picked up the piano case, let me take the knitted hat with the money, and went to the next place where there was a lot of traffic, if we were lucky, just sing this song again and we could make up enough money for her night's stay.

When this song was performed by us for the second time, Xiao Ai and I collected more than 200 yuan, which made me a little envious of her musical talent, you must know that more than 200 yuan is a day's salary when I work, and she only took two songs to get these.

Xiao Ai was not greedy, she put the guitar into the piano case, and said to me: "The money for accommodation is enough, and you can eat some supper, let's go together." ”

"You're still eating supper at this point, aren't you afraid of gaining weight?"

"My mother has always taught me to be fat with a wide heart, so if I am fat, I will be fat."

I looked at her again, smiled and replied, "But you haven't gained weight all the time, does this prove that your heart is not wide?"

Xiao Ai put the blue piano case on his back, sighed and said, "A woman has to practice dancing every day, and she can't get fat even if she wants to." By the way, do you know what Nanjing looks like at four o'clock in the morning?"

I looked at Xiao Ai, and after a while, asked: "Why am I so familiar with this sentence, I remember, this sentence was said by a basketball star, the location is Los Angeles, and you stole it to Nanjing." ”

Xiao Ai did not deny it.

I sighed, "I didn't really realize that you liked ball games before."

Xiao Ai looked at me, and she replied with a serious expression: "I don't like basketball, I just like down-to-earth and hardworking men." Women are the same, diligence is the basis for maintaining a figure, and steadfastness is a kind of temperament, both of which are possessed, then in my eyes is an attractive person"

"It's a new statement, but you're a hardworking person, I don't think you can relate to it."

Xiao Ai seemed to care about me saying that she was not diligent, she took out a card camera from her pocket with a displeased face, and then found a photo album and said to me: "See, this is Nanjing at four or five o'clock in the morning"

I looked closely, and the dates of the photographs were coherent, with only occasional interruptions. She is indeed not as playful as I imagined, and there is no absolute genius in this world, and the talents that Xiao Ai is showing now are all obtained through long-term and unremitting training. I once really saw photos of acupuncture in her WeChat circle of friends, and these were all guided by high-intensity training, so she is a hardworking girl, but I didn't pay much attention to it before.

I finally replied: "It's really dark in Nanjing at four or five o'clock in the morning."

Seeing that I believed in her diligence, she put the camera back in her pocket and said, "These photos were taken in winter, and if it is summer, it is just when the sun rises, and it is still beautiful to stand on the playground of our school and look at it."

"Well, so different seasons have different scenarios, so do you like winter or summer?"

"Of course it's summer, the winter season is too devastating, you can only rely on explosive power to get up, you know the pain"

I smiled and nodded, she is such a girl, she will not be tactful to talk about the benefits of winter and summer, just simply and purely love a season, after all, she can wear a white skirt in summer, slim and compared to winter, she is dressed lightly, and she is more handy when she climbs the courtyard wall.

I put away my smile, and then smiled self-deprecatingly, I actually took the initiative to help her think of so many reasons to like summer, I also like summer, because at that time you can drink cold beer very refreshingly, and with Nanjing's special salted duck, it is simply a kind of enjoyment Of course, those girls walking on the street will also have more style than any season.

Chatting about the pros and cons of the seasons, Xiao Ai and I arrived at a noodle restaurant, where she was going to eat a bowl of dumplings and I wanted to eat a bowl of beef noodles.

Xiao Ai asked me to find a place to wait, and I went to the cash register, and after she and the waiter ordered, she took it out in her coat pocket, and she finally took out a handful of odd money, and a lot of steel hammers fell to the ground and rolled into the bottom of the cash register, and she squatted on the ground and pulled all the steel hammers out of it

I don't know why, this scene made me feel inexplicably sad in my heart, and I seemed to reacquaint myself with the woman in front of me.

Yes, I don't want to call her a girl anymore, because she has grown up and matured, she is a woman who can live, although her father Xiao is always a big developer on the rich side of Nanjing, but she is not arrogant and extravagant because of this, in my memory, she has been so ordinary for a long time.

As if remembering something again, she took out ten yuan from the change again and handed it to the cashier, and asked, "You can increase the amount of beef here?"

"Well, five dollars plus one."

"Please add two copies to me."

After the cashier took the ten yuan from Xiao Ai's hand, she put the stack of loose money into her coat pocket and walked over to me. I deliberately said to her nervously: "After you spent ten yuan to add two servings of beef to me, there will be no guarantee for your own accommodation later, although it is the off-season, but today is also the weekend, and the inn will basically increase the room rate a little." ”

"It's okay, you eat first, and only when you're full can you have the energy to carry those sad things over, I hope you don't lose sleep tonight."

I smiled wryly, then turned my gaze to the window, and across the street was a small shop selling Dongba paper, where the light was dim and antique. In this mood, I seem to see the past, in this past, there is my childhood, and there is also the woman I have always loved. I was a little happy, and I was lost in the joy that the woman who had taken my childhood with me was gone.

But I still miss it so much: she waited for me at the school gate with her schoolbag on her back, and I miss her sitting on the back of my bicycle, tucking my clothes tightly for me, not letting the cold wind blow into my chest, we rode in the sunset, by the river, resting beside the plane trees on the tulip road, a qiē is so kind and warm.

In a trance, a bowl of steaming noodles was brought to me by the waiter, Xiao Ai knocked it in front of me with chopsticks, and I came back to my senses and thought to myself: While I miss that time, should Xiao Ai in front of me and the bowl of noodles she ordered for me also be remembered

I don't have the energy to think too clearly about the gains and losses of this night, I just know that I should go back to rest after eating this bowl of noodles, and as for what tomorrow will be, I will think about it tomorrow.

After supper, Xiao Ai and I walked side by side to the end of the ancient street, she stopped before me and said to me, "I'm going to find an inn, you can go back and rest." ”

"Hmm."

After a moment's pause, I added, "If you don't have money for food and accommodation tomorrow, send me a message and I can support you a little." ”

"If I sue you and I didn't even bring my phone when I came out this time, would you believe it?"

I looked at her with some surprise, then shook my head and replied, "I don't believe you dare to be so willful, because not having a mobile phone is a very dangerous thing, at least in this place in Lijiang"

"I don't think so, I don't want to speculate about the world with too much malice. For example, in the past, there was no mobile phone, and a qiē contact relied on letters, and it was a month between exchanges, so everyone loved very sincerely, because a lifetime was only enough to love one person, so the mobile phone was a terrible thing, and as soon as the signal was transmitted, it was a false confession, which was really boring."

At this moment, her idealistic romance and my realist prudence had a great conflict, and I was worried that she would encounter danger but not have anything to contact with the outside world, so I didn't give her any room for resistance, and pulled her into a nearby store that sold mobile phones, and bought her a mobile phone with very simple functions, and then charged her with 50 yuan in phone bills.

She didn't refuse the phone, while playing, she walked to the reverse ancient street, she was still the same as before, she didn't say a word of goodbye, let alone say goodnight, which made me feel unconfident to look forward to the next meeting with her.

Returning to the inn where I lived alone, I was surprised to find that Chen Yi had not slept yet, she was wearing a long down jacket standing by the handrail of the balcony, her heart was a little heavy, just like the color of her down jacket, black and white, with stripes and checkered.

I stood next to her and asked, "Why haven't you rested yet?"

"I just slept for a while, and now I can't sleep, so I come out to breathe."

I nodded, holding back a thousand words in my heart but couldn't find a way to speak, so that my chest was a little stuffy, and I breathed rapidly

Chen Yi and I shouldn't be like this, we used to be so happy, we ate and went shopping together, chatted, each other's lives were intimate, and even on a rainy weekend morning, we tacitly sent the same emotion in the circle of friends, and then she came to my house and played video games with me on the sofa all day.

But I can't go back, I can't go back, I really can't go back

I looked at her, and my mind was full of thoughts like this

She finally asked me, "Where did you just go?"

"Just go for a walk."

At the moment, she seemed to be in the same mood as me, her breathing was not so steady, and in a matter of seconds, she put her hand in her pocket, took it out, and then put it back into her pocket, but could not say anything.

I know that as I reminisce about the past, she recalls it as well, and it seems that in these memories, we just made some excuse and broke up, so that we are still hesitant and overwhelmed and painful to this moment

"Chen Yi, looking back now, do you think we really fell in love If it weren't for so many concerns, we might have been together at the age when we first fell in love in high school, hehe, in this era, it's not a big rebellion to fall in love in high school."

Women are inherently fragile, and when I pulled away a fact in the blood, Chen Yi cried

At this moment, I have to admit that some negative feelings have already sprouted at the age when our love first blossomed. Perhaps, at that time, her family had consciously prevented her from contacting me, like she instilled the idea that we should not be together, but at that time, Chen Yi had not yet noticed her feelings for me, so she didn't care so much about this kind of admonition, but at this time, we were all mature and had to face a lot of reality, and this admonition became sharp, so that Chen Yi had to face it.

I understand her, she's been living under pressure that can't be overcome, and she's trying hard enough

"Jiang Qiao, the worst outcome between us, have you ever thought about it?"

"I've thought about it, it's like this, when are you going to go back to Nanjing?"

"The day after tomorrow."

I squirmed my Adam's apple and used the last bit of courage to ask, "When are I going to marry Qiu Zi'an?"

Chen Yi's love showed signs of collapse, her breathing became more and more rapid, and then she closed her eyes tightly and waved her hand to signal me not to ask

Her pain at the moment made my love close to collapse, and I wanted to hold her in my arms and tell her with the last remaining strength: in my heart, I was reluctant to let go like this, but I was even more afraid to face the ruthless truth. I know that as long as Chen Yi returns to my side, she will rebel against the whole world, does she really have such strength

The night is always so deeply stimulating the fragility in people's hearts, inspiring endless **, I am about to lose control, I don't want to lose her who I love, I don't want to watch her put on a wedding dress for others, my heart is broken

This is my last chance to be alone with her, and if I miss it, there is no turning back, I finally squeaked my fist, I scolded myself for being cowardly and incompetent, and hated myself for not being able to treat the obstacles in the world as bullshit like Qiao Ye.

I finally asked Chen Yi: "Can you tell me do you want Qiao Ye to be with Su Han, who is true love, or do you want to return to Qin Miao for family responsibilities?"

Chen Yi looked at me, she didn't answer for a long time, and this hesitation just proved that she understood what I meant, and I waited with bated breath, waiting for her to give me a signal and a result

Time seemed to stand still at this moment, and some possible images of the future mixed with images of the past that could not be erased flashed in my brain alternately, and I lost the ability to think for a moment, only to feel my heart move to the place where my throat was beating violently