After an hour of driving, the car finally came to the place where I had found Xiao Ai in Taipei, but Ade didn't want to park for me, he wanted to take me and Qiao Ye directly to his hostel.

"Ade, stop."

Ade slowed down and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

"I want to come down and take a walk by myself, you can take Qiao Ye first, anyway, I know your hostel."

Ade looked around, then asked me, "This is where you last met Ru, right?" ”

"Well, that's where we met, let me come down and take a walk."

Ade looked at me sympathetically, and finally pulled the car to a halt. I took out another 1,000 yuan from my wallet, and then exchanged it with Ade for NT$.

After getting out of the car, I went to the convenience store across the road to buy a cold drink, then sat under the street lamp where I had last seen Xiao Ai, replaced the cigarette, and ate it.

I sue myself that I am happy, at least in this hot summer, there is something to eat to relieve the heat, and the only regret is that there is a woman named Xiao Ai next to me.

I'm a numb person, but every time I think of her, I'm extra conscious. I wish she was sitting on the bench across the street, and even if she didn't want to give me a hug, she just smiled at me, and I would feel satisfied.

In the melancholy warm breeze, I took my phone out of my pocket and found all the photos related to Xiao Ai inside. A moment later, I turned to the photo of her in denim overalls and bowing her head to teach Xiaofang to play the piano.

This picture seems to be a long time ago, but in fact, it was only a month ago that I secretly took a picture at dusk while she was not looking. On that day, her smiling face was so beautiful in the aperture of the setting sun...... I'm afraid, this is the best photo I've ever captured in my life!

But what I never expected was that I could only look at this photo today, a month later, and miss the kindness of her when she was by my side, and I was about to die in this indescribable feeling. I closed my eyes and held my phone tightly, I was afraid to face this strange city, especially when night was approaching, every flickering neon sign seemed to bring people into an unknown and strange world, in which you are isolated and the air is black......

……

I don't know how long it took for my phone to vibrate in my hand, which took my mind out of that lonely situation. I looked at the phone screen in a trance, this call was from Jin Qiu. I didn't want to talk to her, but I was afraid that what she was going to talk to me about my grandmother.

After a little hesitation, I finally connected, and then asked in a hoarse voice, "What's wrong?" ”

"Have you arrived in Taipei?"

"Hmm."

Jin Qiu was silent for a while, and then asked, "When will you go back to Nanjing?" ”

"I just got off the plane to Taipei, and you asked me when I was going back to Nanjing...... Do you think it's appropriate? ”

"I just care about you...... You've been talking to me with hostile feelings, does it have to be like this between us? Or is it true that I'm already making you feel like you can't communicate in a normal way? ”

I was the one who was silent this time, and in this silence, I couldn't help but ask myself, what is wrong with me now? I seem to have become a restless bomb, and whoever approaches me, I am ready to blow myself up, hurt others, and break myself to pieces!

I turned around and saw my figure reflected in the window of the grocery store opposite, feeling extremely strange. But I don't know why I'm the way I am, I'm pretty sure I hate who I am, so much!

After a full minute, I finally calmed down and replied to Jin Qiu: "It doesn't matter how we communicate with each other, and I don't need your concern, if you talk to me about business, then open up." ”

"Okay, since you regard other people's concerns as a false attack, then I will tell you directly...... I believe that you already know that the big boss behind the demolition and reconstruction of the hotel in the textile factory is your mother. At present, all the documents and procedures related to the opening and operation of the hotel have been processed, and the approval has been completed as soon as possible. But there's one more important part that you need to be involved in...... If you go back to Nanjing, please tell me one day in advance, and I will prepare the equity distribution agreement. What you mean by the fuck is that she has a 49 percent stake in this hotel, I have 31 percent, and you have 20 percent. In addition, there will be no other capital into the hotel, so our respective shares, without special circumstances, are basically permanent, and in the formal agreement, you will also see that in the hotel in a profitable state, the shares are not transferable, and the first three years can not be transferred regardless of profit or loss. ”

The news came so suddenly, I was stunned for a moment before replying, "I don't quite understand what you mean." ”

"Quite simply, the purpose is to let you have a stable career...... I can tell you that there is almost no possibility of this hotel losing money, and you should be able to think of the reasons. ”

I think it's a bit like a dream, and it's even more ridiculous. They are such a group of strong women, and even the way they gave me this poor creature is so barbaric, there is no need to ask me in advance if I will accept it.

I really want to know, what the hell are they doing with me?

I gasped heavily, and in a depressed mood, I finally said to Jin Qiu: "If I sue you, I'm not rare? ”

"Why isn't it rare? The market value of this hotel will exceed 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 …… What a thrilling capital game it is! Can't you see how many people have worked hard all their lives for it, and they can't even touch a corner of this value? ”

I was stunned again, because no one can still treat it calmly when suddenly faced with a value of 200 million. However, for a moment, I felt a sense of rejection in my heart. Because if I accept it, my life is really illusory to the point of being a dream, and I don't want to live in a dream, and I don't want to accept this gift that borders on humiliation.

Because Yang Jin must think that I don't have the ability to enjoy a rich material life in this world, I am a waste!

Yes, I ruined the "Mood Coffee" and lost the "Aiqiao Piano Shop" because of a fire, but did I really become a complete waste because of this?

I'm not willing, I'm really unwilling!

So, I said to Jin Qiu, who was still waiting for a reply on the other end of the phone: "I repeat, I don't want to play this game with you, I have my own life, I don't want to, and I don't need you to break into my life so savagely, it will make me feel disgusting!" ”

Jin Qiu's tone was obviously impatient, and she asked, "Who are you having trouble with?" ”

"And money."

Jin Qiu's laughter was complicated, and he replied after a long time: "Okay, if our behavior really makes you feel disgusting, then you can repay the 2 million commercial loan that I borrowed from the bank before with the principal and interest...... If you have the ability, you can take what I just said as nonsense! …… But can you?! ”

I was so aggrieved that I trembled, and yelled into the phone: "You are forcing me in this way, ****** is sick!" ”

"It's not that I'm sick, it's that this society is too realistic, but you can't learn to adapt to it...... Jiangqiao ......"

I didn't give Jin Qiu a chance to speak again, the anger was like a wave, layer after layer impacting the most inferior place in my heart, I had lost my mind, and slammed the phone to the ground. I slammed my hand on my head, trying to torture myself, but I forgot that this was precisely the most incompetent form of expression.

……

I don't know how long it took me to calm down. Then he squatted on the ground and picked up the broken phone again. My heart ached and I couldn't breathe, because the few photos of Xiao Ai were in this phone.

I miss her even more, and I miss our piano shop. What would it be like now if it weren't for that fire? I don't think I'll be so aggrieved! Think about it again, if it weren't for that fire, Yang Jin might not have appeared in my world so grandly.

Is this what everyone is talking about, gains and losses? But how ironic it is! How tormenting it is for me, because I never wanted to be a waste person who lives by gifts. My upbringing and education didn't allow me to do that. I believe that grandma is also not in favor!

……

As night drew on, I returned to Ade's inn. From a distance, I saw him and Qiao Ye like two happy immortals, drinking beer and eating homemade barbecue, which just contrasted with the heaviness of my nowhere to escape. I stood downstairs under the dim street lamp and watched them, with scattered leaves at my feet......

I only heard Qiao Ye say to Ade: "Fatty, do you believe it or not?" The ultimate direction of human beings is self-destruction, and all qiē will be ruined in their own hands. But on the other side of those darkness and blood is the most glorious and unyielding side of human nature. Whether forgotten or remembered, they will always continue to survive strongly, carrying scars and regaining new life in the devastated land...... Like that little white flower on the ruins of Croatia! ”

Ade put down the skewers in his hand to show respect, and then replied with a smile: "I can't see the roar, you really don't look like a cynical rich second generation, the truths you just said are simply beyond the scope of philosophy and ethics, and they are the highest feelings...... It's really an admirable five-body throw! ”

"Hehe, life is a dream, a dream is like life, no matter how you live, you are alive...... Come fat, drink...... Today's happiness should never be saved for tomorrow...... Don't learn from Jiang Qiao's stupidity, no one is as unsightly as him, so he deserves to be tired! ……”

Qiao Ye raised his head and drank a glass of beer as he spoke, then sighed heavily, and said: Anyway, Xiao Ai is gone, and it doesn't matter to him whether he lives or dies...... He's already living in a dream and can't get out! ”