Before the night, there were five or six customers sitting in the coffee shop scattered around, although the popularity was very weak, but it did not make Yu Xin's performance feel embarrassed, she played the violin, and gently performed the popular classic "Because of Love".

As I listened, I couldn't help but think of some images in my heart, which were very real, because they happened a few years ago.

That day, it was snowing, I accompanied Chen Yi to the mall to shop, and when I was about to go back, the music video of this song was playing on the giant screen in the mall......

It's such a thing that doesn't twist at all, but it dominates my feelings at the moment, I turned the glass with temperature, and looked out the window for a long time in silence.

Yu Xin finally called it a day, she put the violin back in the case, and several customers politely gave her applause, and I also gave her a hot cappuccino.

"Good work!"

"It's not hard, anyway, there haven't been any performances recently, it's quite leisurely, so I should come and have fun."

I took out 200 yuan from my wallet and handed it to Yu Xin, saying, "The market price is 100 yuan for an hour and 200 yuan for two hours." ”

Yu Xin smiled and replied: "The market price is for those freelance musicians who don't have a formal job, I'm going out to run a field now, the performance fee is 3,000 yuan in the province, and 6,000 yuan outside the province, you have to give it according to this standard." ”

I was a little stunned, and said excitedly: "Don't be too dark-hearted!" ”

"Haha...... I don't have a black heart, it's because you're too calculating...... I told you last time I came, whether it's me or bring friends to play in the future, it's a friendship performance, no charge, you have to take these 200 yuan to knock people, is it interesting? ”

I was a little embarrassed by Yu Xin's words, so the 200 yuan that couldn't be handed over seemed to have become a hot potato in my hands.

Yu Xin took out the money from my hand, then put it back in my wallet, and said to me: "Okay, your coffee shop is so difficult now, it's hard to say if you can earn 200 yuan a day, besides, you and Xiao Ai have also helped me so much before, aren't people all reciprocating with each other, so it's actually good." ”

I looked at Yu Xin, I don't know if there is an inevitable connection between me and Xiao Ai helping her, and why did she put it together?

Before I could figure it out, Yu Xin stretched out her hand and said to me, "Brother Jiangqiao, what about Xiao Ai's watch, you promised to bring it to me today." ”

"Brought it." As I spoke, I took out the small and delicate watch from my pocket and handed it to Yu Xin.

She took it happily, put it in her hand and looked at it repeatedly, it seemed that she liked this watch from the bottom of her heart.

I smiled and said to her, "The appeal of luxury to women is really beyond our men's comprehension!" ”

Yu Xin put the watch into her purse, looked at me with a very serious expression, and replied after a while: "There is no way, when you enter this circle, you often have the opportunity to participate in some high-end social occasions, without these things to package yourself, you will really be laughed at by others!" ”

"Is that circle that powerful?"

Yu Xin nodded vigorously, and sighed again: "Yes, we girls who were born in ordinary families squeezed into that circle, and we are actually quite inferior in our hearts, but sometimes for the sake of life, we can only do something we don't like......!" ”

I looked at Yu Xin, and then I realized that she didn't like Xiao Ai's watch very much, what she really wanted was that she could integrate into that circle with dignity.

Yu Xin finished drinking the coffee I made for her in this silence, her eyes stopped on the handwriting that Xiao Ai had written with eyeliner, although some of them had been blurred by the rain, but some of them were still very intact, and she finally asked me: "Brother Jiangqiao, are these words written by Xiao Ai?" It feels very similar to her handwriting! ”

I nodded, and as I looked at Yu Xin's gaze, I couldn't help but think of her again......

In my mind, she is a bit of a lonely woman, so when I think of her recently, she is sitting alone by the sea, watching the sunset gradually set, and behind her is a Mazu temple that can make people devote...... Of course, this is just my imagination, in reality, I really don't know what kind of life she lives, and whether she will occasionally think of a qiē in Nanjing.

I lit a cigarette and squinted out of the coffee shop, and she seemed to be standing right outside the window, riding her red bike, waving and smiling at me, and I felt kind......

I know it's just a delusion, but I really miss her a little.

Yu Xin didn't know if she was deliberately teasing or had other ideas, so she picked up her violin again, and then pulled out the melody of the song "How" in my ear.

My mighty imagination began to work again in the melodious melody, as if Xiao Ai was singing in my ear: "It's getting dark here for me, where is it?" It's cool here, but where? I've changed all the time? I've become sensible, I've started journaling again, and what about you? ……”

Listening to this, I almost shed tears, hurriedly held back in the name of a man, and then said to Xin: "You go, hurry up, don't make trouble with me!" ”

Yu Xin laughed, but the movements of her hands did not stop, so that she was a little out of tune, but in my imagination, Xiao Ai, who was singing, still sang so tactfully and listened, which made my heart crisp!

……

Yu Xin left, I sat alone at the bar and smoked a cigarette, I suddenly felt that I was a very garbage man, if one day I really married Jin Qiu, but because of such a song for the occasion and miss Xiao Ai so deeply, then wouldn't I be in the twilight?

However, until now, I still don't want to admit that the relationship between myself and Xiao Ai was based on love, and we only got along so seriously by taking loneliness as a link to communicate with each other......

After my mood gradually calmed down, I finally came to the two customers yesterday with my own plan. After asking, they were also interested in my activity, so I explained it to them in detail, and immediately got their approval, saying that they would recommend this event to the coffee lovers around them, and ask those people to help spread it together, so as to ensure the effect of the activity.

The next day, I used the 10,000 yuan to buy a watch, bought a lot of activity supplies, and the remaining 3,000 yuan went to a nearby piano store to rent a piano.

……

After another two days, I finally heard that a local barista with a very high professional level in Nanjing was interested in changing jobs recently, and I knew that I didn't have many chips to attract him, so I was ready to talk to him with the shares of the coffee shop, and told him that he would make this "mood coffee shop" the most iconic store with coffee culture in Nanjing, hoping to impress him with his feelings and shares in the coffee shop.

This process is very difficult, I ran a total of no less than ten times, before gradually convincing the other party, and promised that in addition to the shares of the coffee shop, he will also be paid a monthly salary of no less than 10,000 yuan per month, in order to show sincerity, I am ready to pay him a quarter's salary at one time, a total of 50,000 yuan, although this is far beyond my ability, but for the urgent need of talents, I am still ready to fight desperately.

This night, I cheekily went to the new company that Jin Qiu had relocated, and I was going to borrow 100,000 yuan from her, because in addition to paying the barista's salary, there was also this year's rent to pay. After waiting for about half an hour, she finally walked out of the office building, her face full of exhaustion after high-intensity work.

I walked up to her, smiled and said, "You must be tired after a day of work, right?" …… I'll invite you to dinner, and you can order whatever you want. ”

After Jin Qiuhu glanced at me suspiciously, he replied: "You talk about things first, otherwise I won't be able to eat this meal." ”

I knew that Jin Qiu was a staunch opponent of me opening a coffee shop, so I avoided it and said, "I've been a little short of money lately...... That, can you lend me ...... 100,000 dollars? ”

Jin Qiu is such a shrewd woman, she immediately said, "You must have borrowed money for the coffee shop, right?" ”

"Don't think about it...... If you treat me as a buddy, the 100,000 yuan will be regarded as an emergency in the rivers and lakes, okay? ”

Jin Qiu's face was a little cold, and after a period of silence, she replied: "It's no problem to borrow your money, but if you want to develop a coffee shop, then I definitely can't borrow it...... Because I don't want to see you offend your friends by not doing your job. ”

There was a burst of anger in my heart for no reason, and my voice was very loud: "After so many years, when did I ask you that Jin Qiu borrowed a penny, if it wasn't for the point of being forced to do so, could I talk to you about this?" …… Men and women borrowing money is already a very shameless thing in itself! ”

Jin Qiu and Chen Yi are definitely not the same kind of people, she fought back mercilessly: "Yes, especially since this man is still able-bodied, what reason does he have to borrow money from a woman?" ”

"You ......"

Jin Qiu said without giving an inch: "Jiang Qiao, I have already told you many times, you must be measured, you don't care about Qin Miao's feelings, now Qin Miao and I are cooperating in the development of the hotel project in Sanya, if I lend you money to open that coffee shop that should not have been stored in the long past, and it reaches Qin Miao's ears, aren't you trapping me in injustice?" ”

"Hehe, I don't believe that Qin Miao will stop cooperating with you for this matter, this is not a family, don't be so high-sounding, okay?"

Jin Qiu's face became more and more ugly, she didn't blush, but her voice became deeper and lower: "How much do you know about human nature, you dare to say it so surely?" …… Of course, this will not affect the cooperation, but there will definitely be a gap between the two of us...... Hehe, the biggest investors and partners have a gap in their hearts, do you know what that means in cooperation? …… I'm not going to take that risk. ”

I gasped heavily, because I realized that I was nothing in front of Qin Miao, everyone only cared about Qin Miao's feelings, but no one wanted to care about my deep affection for that coffee shop...... Hehe, a small coffee shop reflects cruel human nature, and human warmth is nothing more than that!

Jin Qiu looked at me, her face had a trace of unbearable color, and she finally said to me again: "Jiang Qiao, listen to me...... You shouldn't waste your time at this coffee shop, you have a better choice......"

I interrupted rudely: "I don't listen, I don't listen!" ”

As I spoke, I turned around and walked to the side of the road, but the flame of anger in my heart could not be extinguished, I turned to Jin Qiu, who had been watching me, and said, "Listen, this coffee shop, even if my Jiangqiao is bankrupt, will continue to open......"

……

At dusk, I parked my car on the side of the road and walked alone on the road of an industrial park outside the suburbs, which was not very wide, and I felt depressed as I walked through the small roadside full of trucks loading and unloading goods......

We always shout about industrial civilization, technological civilization, and social civilization, but is there really civilization in this materialistic world? Why do little people have to live so sadly.

The mood coffee shop is just an innocent carrier, but under the refraction of human nature that seeks advantages and avoids disadvantages, even it is forcibly assigned right and wrong, which makes me incomprehensible and unacceptable.

I finally stopped next to a truck, I remembered Zhao Mu, originally he had a sum of money to sell the house, but because I didn't ask for it that time, he used all the money for investment, and he couldn't get it back for a while.

So who else can help me?

I lit a cigarette, and my heart filled with a feeling of powerlessness, the people in this world who could lend me 100,000 yuan had left my life, and I finally looked at the car parked on the side of the road.

My heart was cramping, I was reluctant to sell it, it carried all the dreams of me and Zhao Chu when we were young, I couldn't let this dream be shattered in the cruel reality, I finally thought of Chen Yi again......

When I was most helpless, I habitually thought of her, should I borrow this money from her? Will she choose Qin Miao again and ignore my feelings?

The inexplicable fear in my heart......

The sky was getting dark, a flock of unknown birds flew over my head, they seemed to have flown back from the south, the flock made me even more lonely, I don't know when I was alone in this world, everyone heard my accusation, but no one was willing to ask, they were still cruel in their own position......

Before my eyes, there is no door or road, only the vanity of human nature and the real pros and cons!

I clenched my fists and vowed to keep this coffee shop even if I stood alone on the edge of this world......

I finally sat on the curb, looking up at the boundless gray sky, and I thought of the woman in Taipei again, is she, like them, in her own world, to define an unobjective and unjust view of right and wrong?

She won't, she won't...... Because she was as lonely as I was, all she had left in her world was music and an expectation of home. But in my eyes, it is the richest, because the concert heals, and the home will sprout and blossom......

I spit out the cigarettes in my mouth and let them go straight to the sky with the wind, I finally bowed my head and sent a message to Chen Yi, I mustered up the courage to borrow the 100,000 yuan from her, if what she gave me was also despair, then I would not hesitate to sell the car, without hesitation......

(Everyone is always complaining about my first update, why can't you see that this one is a big chapter of 4000+ words?) ）