The wind at night continued to blow, the scarf around Xiao Ai's neck had been fluttering, and my sorrow seemed to have been blown away, so I looked at her and smiled, and then lit a cigarette for myself, I already knew how to spend this night in my heart, I should be happy for her, because Taiwan is her best home.

I remembered that night in Lijiang, we sang the song "Mom" together, the song has expressed her longing for her mother, and now she has her wish, and the city of Nanjing has always been able to give her not much, although she has lived in luxury here, but the spiritual world is scarce, otherwise how would she abandon the prosperity of a whole city, mixed into a mottled old alley, and play life with me

I finally said to her: "I support you to go to Taiwan, and I hope you can live happily there"

At this point I stopped, I didn't want to sue her, I dreamed of her last night. In my dream, she married a young music professor in Taiwan, and she gave birth to two lovely children, a boy and a girl.

Another gust of wind blew, I squinted my eyes and took a deep breath of cigarette, but I saw some of the future in the haze of smoke, where there were my regrets, but what was fulfilled was Xiao Ai's happiness.

Xiao Ai ignored my expectations of her, she put her hands in her pockets, and then looked at the lights flickering across the street, and her sideburns hair was blown by the wind, and she didn't care

"By the way, this afternoon, Yu Xin sent me the daily necessities you left in the dormitory, you can take them back later."

Xiao Ai finally looked at me, and only replied in a low voice for a long time: "It's all something that is not useful, you can deal with it casually." ”

"Don't talk nonsense, there's a watch in there."

Xiao Ai smiled and replied a little absent-mindedly: "Whether it's a watch or anything else, it's all left over from the past, since you expect me to live a new life so much, why do you want to stuff these old things into me?"

"Is it true that you don't take anything with you?"

"I don't want to take away my memories, let alone these dispensable things."

I took another puff of cigarette and fell silent, although she didn't leave until the end of the year, but I already felt the smell of parting in advance because of some words, so I looked at her vigorously, and my brain recalled her smile and some of the vexatious troubles that had embarrassed me.

Xiao Ai picked up the handbag beside me under my gaze, and said to me calmly: "I'm leaving, do you have anything else to say?"

"Me"

Xiao Ai tucked her clothes and looked at me, her expression was more focused than mine, so that her posture was so firm in the flickering light.

I didn't say anything, and Xiao Ai finally turned and walked to the side of the road, which she didn't seem to be going to live on Tulip Road that night, because she was looking at the taxi waiting for her, and she was going to say goodbye to it.

When the car came, I was heartbroken, and finally couldn't restrain myself, and shouted loudly at her back: "Xiao Ai is here for the New Year, let's post couplets together and make Chinese New Year's Eve dinner."

She stopped her body, turned to look at me, and after a long time smiled and replied, "Okay, I'll come to you tomorrow." ”

The car gradually drove towards the intersection of tulips, and it was not until it disappeared from my sight that I nodded and said to myself: "Well, I'll wait for you, you come early and remember to be in a better mood and dress up nicely"

On the way back, I passed by the coffee shop and took the box that Yu Xin had left behind. After returning to the residence, I began to organize the things in the box, since Xiao Ai didn't want it anymore, then I would properly place these things, not to say that it was a thought, but it was also a sustenance, because they were Xiao Ai's most intimate things in college.

There were hairpins, sheet music, uneaten gummies, and a valuable Sennheiser headphones, which were good, and I used them, so I took them out separately.

This is really a treasure chest, after the headphones, I found a DSLR camera, when I decided to keep this SLR camera as well, I felt that I could not ask her for the 10,000 yuan, because the value of the 10,000 yuan I got was far more than 10,000 yuan, but this cheapness did not make me happy, I looked at these things that seemed to have her breath, and became more and more sad

She took away her future and left me with the most painful past, and I really am a self-righteous fool

I was lying on the bed a little tired, I didn't want to smoke, I didn't want to drink water, I didn't want to contact the outside world, until the phone rang, I picked it up and looked at it in a daze, but it was just a spam message for advertising.

I finally lit myself a cigarette and found the one Xiao Ai sent me a long time ago. I clicked on it again to take a look, and that evening, she sang this song for me in the textile factory, and said very arrogantly that that place would be her territory in the future, but the world was impermanent, and she was going to leave here, and even a qiē that happened in Lijiang would become a memory for her to lose.

It's good, it's good

This night, I had another dream in which we said goodbye. After saying goodbye, my ears are the sound of firecrackers that can't be stopped, the whole tulip road is a grand scene of joy for all the people, I walked alone in the crowd, bought lanterns for myself, bought bombers and delicious rice cakes, but I couldn't be happy after all, just sat at the door of the convenience store, facing the sunset at dusk, put a bomber, and eat a bite of rice cake

When I woke up, I was greeted by the sound of firecrackers, the smell of the New Year is getting stronger and stronger, I am ready to do a good job of hygiene at home today, and go to the nursing home tomorrow to pick up my grandmother, and I have a trace of expectation about the New Year, because my grandmother will give me New Year's money, although it is not much, but it makes me feel that I have relatives in this world, although she is old, although she has no financial ability, but she loves me.

Just as I was washing my face, Xiao Ai, who was wearing a red down jacket, quietly walked into the yard, but instead of teasing me like before, he stood next to Lamei and watched, then took out his mobile phone and took a picture of it I kind of wanted to ask her if she would bring this photo to Taiwan, but in the end she held back. Because it will seem that I care about her departure, so I want to talk to her about the topic after leaving.

"Jiangqiao, what's the arrangement today?"

I wiped the water stains off my face with a towel and replied, "The gas tank at home is out of gas, so I'll go to inflate it after breakfast later, and then go to the vegetable market to buy some cold dishes and keep it for the New Year." ”

"Oh, did you cook breakfast?"

"The porridge and the buns sent by Aunt Wu next door, the buns are steamed by her own family, the skin is thin and big, do you want to try it?"

This morning, Xiao Ai, like me, sat on the steps of the door with pickles and ate porridge and steamed buns, her mood seemed to be better than yesterday, and every neighbor who greeted me, she would ask me what my name was, and then she would wave to the neighbors, which was considered to be a greeting.

Gradually, no more neighbors walked by, Xiao Ai also put down the bowl in his hand, and then took out his mobile phone and photographed the alley with a long view mode. While she was shooting, she asked me: "Jiangqiao, you have lived here for so many years, are you as happy as those neighbors?"

I asked, "Where do you see they're happy?"

"The people in the city are so indifferent, who will deliberately greet whom, this place can make everyone so welcoming, so the people who live here should be quite happy."

I can't tell what's wrong with her logic, and after a while, I smiled and replied: "If you don't have any pursuit of material things, then it's a pleasure to live here, you know, I once thought about saving a sum of money, decorating the old house, and then marrying a daughter-in-law and living here." In the morning, we went to the alley to buy soybean milk fritters, ate hearty in the evening, went to the vegetable market next to us to buy some vegetables, and came back to do it ourselves.

At this point, I felt as if I had lived the life I had imagined, so I squinted and smiled, and then stuffed the half-uneaten bun in my hand into my mouth.

"Do you still think so?"

I looked at Xiao Ai, and after looking at it for a while, I shook my head and replied: "Don't think so, a man, you still have to have a sense of professionalism, it's not bad to drive a luxury car and live in a villa Actually, I'm a very good-looking person, I don't want to be worse than others."

"Yes, my dad is a good mix, so with a woman like my mom, he can't be enough"

Xiao Ai didn't say anything more when she said this, but I vaguely knew what she wanted to express, Mr. Xiao's man's mistakes and mistakes have changed her values and outlook on love, she is different from women who represent mainstream thoughts, anyway, she has had enough of the life of a rich person

So, isn't it better to go to Taiwan to live, don't be too rich, not too poor, marry a petty bourgeois man, and live a leisurely and leisurely life of petty bourgeoisie

After breakfast, I removed the empty gas canister from the kitchen. I don't want to drive, because the new car is auspicious, and it's better not to ship things like gas canisters during the Chinese New Year.

I pushed out the bicycle and tied the gas canister to the back seat, but Xiao Ai insisted on going with me, she sat in the front seat of the car, but when I stepped on the car, my nose was firm and sour, wasn't this the life I dreamed of

Her hair fell on my shoulders, the cold wind blew in gusts, and the car swayed unsteadily, but the hearts of the two people were on a blind date, so the smile kept on her face, the sound of the bell was crisp, and the shouting in the bazaar drove away the loneliness.

"River Bridge, Look at the Road"

"Jiangqiao, you ride well, don't shake it and be scary"

"Jiang Qiao, it's almost next year if you ride fast and go so slowly."

"Jiang Qiao, change me to ride, my skills are no worse than yours."

All the way, it was all like this, but it was still me who was riding, still very slow, but I took off my coat halfway and wrapped her more tightly, and the wind and rain did not invade