"If someone is in the mountains, he will be taken by Xue Lixi. is both embarrassed and smiling, Zi Muyu is good at smiling.

"Take the red leopard from the civet dog, and the Xinyi car will tie the laurel flag. was taken by Shi Lanxi to Du Heng, and he was left behind.

"The rest of the secluded seclusion will never see the sky, and the road is dangerous and difficult......

"The thunder fills the rain, and the night chirps. The wind is sassy and the wood is Xiao Xiao, and Si Gongzi is away from worry. ”

Yun Kai clasped his hands together, the expression on his face was very solemn, and the tone of his chant was quite peculiar. His voice went up and down, with a bit of desolate ancient rhyme, as if it was not a sound coming from his mouth, but a Sanskrit sound from above the nine heavens-

The three people closest to Lu Xiaoxian were in the pavilion in the backyard of the Second Municipal Hospital at this time, holding this unique funeral and memorial for her. On the stone table in front of Yunkai, there was a jade flower pot, and a flower had just been planted in the flower pot, Sun Xiaoqing and Liu Qingqing stood behind him, also dressed in black, with solemn expressions, and the two of them realized that this was Qu Yuan's "Nine Songs, Mountain Ghosts".

"Mountain Ghost" is a sacrificial song for the goddess of the mountain, describing a beautiful and infatuated girl, dressed in a lily, wearing a female dill, with a tanuki, riding a Xinyi car to go on a date with her sweetheart, despite the difficult road, she still arrived with joy, but he did not come as promised. The storm came, and she waited obsessively and forgot to go home, but he still did not come; It was getting late, and she returned to her lodgings, sad alone in the wind and rain, beautiful and sad—

Just like Lu Xiaoxian's last sigh: "Brother Yunkai, I like you so much......"

is also like Yunkai's mood at this time.

Lu Xiaoxian has no direct relatives, and his only brother and sister-in-law are still in Huacheng in southern Xinjiang. Yunkai promised to take her back to Butterfly Valley, and Sun Xiaoqing, as a cousin, did not object, because it was the best destination for Xiao Xian'er and her last expectation.

Every autumn equinox in the Butterfly Valley, a large number of fiery red flowers will bloom on the clear lake, with flowers and no leaves, like a gorgeous and magnificent red cloud, which is the flower of the other side, Manju Sawa in Sanskrit.

The flower of the other side is the flower of the soul in the world, and it is also the flower of heaven in Buddhism. The Lotus Sutra says: "When the world is surrounded by all people, offerings, respect, respect, and admiration; For the Bodhisattvas to say the Mahayana Sutra, the name is immeasurable, teach the Bodhisattva Dharma, and the Buddha protects the thoughts; The Buddha said that this sutra has been completed, and he sits on his knees, enters the samadhi of immeasurable righteousness, and does not move his body and mind, which is the time and rain mandalahua, the maha mandalahua, the manju saga, and the maha mandrup saga. ”

According to the custom of Butterfly Valley, the deceased will not have a coffin or urn, but will bury the ashes and plant flowers to express the memory and blessings of the deceased. If someone is displaced and unable to return to their roots, they will plant flowers in jade pots and send them back to the valley before they bloom for the first time, so that the soul can return to their hometown.

Outside the pavilion, dark clouds are low, and the sky is full of wind and snow; In the pavilion, the flowers on the other side swayed the emerald green branches and leaves, dancing. Yunkai's singing voice is as ethereal as the wind, high-pitched into the clouds, like the north wind whimpering sadly, and like the murmuring of lovers before separation, like chanting and singing, like crying and complaining......

I don't know what to do, and I go deep. Yunkai seemed to go back to the first time she saw her, she came out of the kindergarten door, surrounded by a group of lively and lovely children, the scene was very much like a fairy tale - Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.

Her smile was gentle and sweet, and she hugged the children one by one. The children obviously liked her, and everyone would kiss her on the face, and then they would jump up and run to their mother, and they would reluctantly wave goodbye after walking a long way.

After sending the children away, she walked up to Sun Xiaoqing and Yun Kai, the summer afternoon sun shining on her face, fine beads of sweat shining with a crystal luster. Seeing Yunkai, a strange person of the opposite sex, she blushed a little shyly and said, "Hello, my name is Lu Xiaoxian......"

Yunkai later heard that the children were crying profusely at the memorial service. Most of the kindergarten children don't understand the meaning of death, they just heard from their mother that the beautiful and kind Teacher Lu went to heaven and will never see her again-

yes, never to see her again.

He used to treat her as a sister, and now he regrets it, but she is gone, and he has not even been left with a chance to pursue it. He hates Luo Changwen, hates those bastards of the Green Gang, and deep down hates himself?

Sun Xiaoqing and Liu Qingqing often make fun of the two, and whenever this happens, the tender-faced Lu Xiaoxian will always run away with a red face. Yunkai is not a fool, it's just that he doesn't understand love, he just has some ignorant yearning, but when love really comes, he is at a loss, and subconsciously chooses to escape-

Or is it because between Su Hang, Xia Hanshuang, Chen Ziyi and Xiao Xian'er, he doesn't know who to pursue?

On the night before New Year's Day, Xiao Xian'er whispered in his ear, and he actually heard it all - that moment of hesitation became the guilt and regret of his life.

"Yunkai, what do you think I should do with you?

"You know, I've liked you since I first saw you. That day, Sister Xiaoqing took you to appear in front of me, and at that moment time seemed to stop, I was at a loss, and my heart was about to jump out of my throat, and that day I knew what love at first sight was.

"I like to listen to your voice, I like to see your smile, I like the mole on your neck, I like the way you look bright, I like you to rub your earlobes and smile evilly, I like everything about you. But you just treat me as a sister, I know, I know it......

"I wish I could fall asleep, because in my dreams you will spoil me, love me, make me happy, we will run hand in hand on the prairie, chase butterflies in the garden, dance in the maple forest, and talk around the fireplace in the snowstorm......

"It's a pity that you are an eagle soaring in the sky, and Xian'er is just a little rabbit in the grass. There are so many wonderful girls around you, they are all so beautiful, so capable, I don't have anything, I can only keep you secretly in my heart. Sister Qingqing and Sister Xiaoqing made fun of us, I knew they meant well, but I didn't like this, and then I figured it out, I just looked at you quietly, and I was fine for the rest of my life.

"In front of the person you really love, you are always small. Even if God gives me wealth and beauty, I will be equally humble in the face of you. Xian'er is actually not so shy, nor is she so thin-faced, but she has no confidence in front of you, I'm sorry, Brother Yunkai, I really love you......"

In front of the person you really love, you are always small. In Liu Qingqing's words, true love is two people who look like pigs, and they are afraid that the other party will be snatched away by others - Yunkai has always thought he was smart, but now he feels that he is the pig, no, he is even more stupid than a pig.

Liu Qingqing also said that if he missed a girl like Lu Xiaoxian, he would regret it for the rest of his life. Now he regrets that he missed a heart that is more precious than a diamond, a girl who is willing to give her life for him, and a love that can grow old forever......

Yun Kai chanted the ancient sacrificial song repeatedly, holding the flower pot on the other side with both hands, and the smile on his face was more ugly than crying. His voice trembled a little, and he chanted until the back of the song became lower and lower, and finally he knelt on one leg in front of the flower pot, like a marriage proposal, and did not move for a long time.

"Yunkai, get up."

Sun Xiaoqing wiped her tears, tried to squeeze out a smile and said: "You have this thought, Xiao Xian'er will be very happy when she looks at her from the sky, but what she likes is the person who is free and easy, the one who smiles all day long." Let's all stop crying, she saw the ...... who laughed."

It's okay if she doesn't say this, but even Liu Qingqing can't help it after saying it. The two squatted down, hugged Yunkai and cried so much that they were heartbroken, and they were overwhelmed with grief. Yun Kai beat his spirit, choked and hissed: "Sister Xiaoqing, Sister Qingqing, I'm sorry!" I couldn't protect her, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"

Long Yan, dressed in black, stood quietly not far away, sighing without a trace.

Long Yan is used to seeing too many lives and deaths, and he has lost many comrades who fought side by side. She understands Yunkai's grief and anger, just like when she lost her partner for the first time, she guarded the enemy's stronghold for three days and three nights without eating or drinking, and finally killed the enemy inside, even the civilian personnel who had no combat power.

A boy who has not experienced love can only be a boy and not a man; A warrior who has not experienced life and death cannot be called a real warrior, but Yunkai didn't expect that the price of growth would be so painful.

Sun Xiaoqing and Liu Qingqing wanted to comfort him, but they cried profusely. Yun Kai had no choice but to comfort the two girls in turn, and carefully sent the jade flower pot to the two of them and said, "Sister Xiaoqing, Sister Qingqing, I want to leave for a while." Little Xian'er will be handed over to you to take care of, and I will take her home after a while......"

"Little Xian'er's departure made me understand what I should do." In Yun Kai's eyes, it was no longer the usual cynicism, but there were more indescribable things.

"Xiao Xian'er died for saving me, and even if I get rid of those who killed her directly, I can't get her back to my side. If it can happen to Xiao Xian'er yesterday, it may happen to you tomorrow, or, to other kind people, which I can't accept.

"In this world, there is light and darkness, good and evil. I originally thought that it would be good to eat and wait for death to live happily in this life, but some people don't let us live well, so I can't let them live well!

"At the end of the day, it's because I'm not strong enough to intimidate the enemy like the dragon god. I have to make myself strong, so that even if they hate me and grind their teeth, they can only hide in the mouse hole and tremble, and dare not attack my relatives and friends, this is my responsibility and my promise to the little fairy.

"Sister Xiaoqing, Sister Qingqing, I'm leaving, take care!" Yun Kai hugged the two sisters, patted them on the back, raised his head and walked towards Long Yan, and turned around to show a bright smile, his eyes were persistent and firm. "Don't worry, I'm still the same Yunkai as before, and the little fairy is still watching me in the sky!"

He clenched the sachet on his chest with both hands, and said to himself gently: "Little fairy, let's go!" ”

In the wind and snow, Yun Kai and Long Yan left side by side.

In the gazebo, the flowers on the other side in the hands of the two women swayed their branches and stretched their green leaves, as if they were softly saying goodbye and blessings.