I didn't know what to say about the city of Beijing, it didn't seem to be closely related to my life, but I came here twice for a concern that I couldn't let go...... The first time was for Chen Yi, and this time it was for Xiao Ai, who was only separated from me by a guardrail at the moment.

In our silence, I thought of some musical works related to Beijing, some of which were praised, some of which showed the style of the imperial city, but more often than not, the cry of a broken heart...... I know that there are too many confused people in this city, they are just like the lights of this city, dormant during the day, tearing their wounds at night, and then looking at the transparent blood, squeezing themselves out little by little, and consuming their enthusiasm little by little...... Therefore, compared with them, I am undoubtedly lucky, because now I have my own business, a house, and a car, and I don't have to chase a tomorrow with no light at all in my fantasy world like them.

A warm wind blew, I finally looked at Xiao Ai, and then said to her: "Whether you want to join Le Yao's Apocalypse Media or not, I suggest you go and meet her, I think she will be your noble person in this circle, so make a friend...... She's a good person, and you should fall in love. ”

"Well, I know, even if you don't say it, I will invite her to dinner, thank her for helping me solve Cao Yang's big trouble."

I nodded, and after a long silence, I said to her again: "I'm going back to Nanjing tomorrow, and you're here in Beijing...... Take care of yourself. ”

Xiao Ai turned to look at me, but I didn't look at her body, just looked at the neon building on the other side, but it looked like tears. Gradually, I became like a butterfly with two pairs of wings, and the wind blew me away...... But I didn't want to leave. I hate the feeling of separation......

After a long time, Xiao Ai said to me: "You too, live a good life after returning to Nanjing, I hope you are no longer the one, always regard yourself as the loneliest boy in Nanjing......"

"Boys?"

Xiao Ai smiled and replied: "There is a type of person who will never grow up, although he will always see many things with the thinking of an adult, but he has a child's heart in his bones...... Just like you, when you lie in bed and close your eyes, what you think about the most in your heart must be Tulip Road, and the old alley, there are stone roads and mood coffee shops in the alley; Outside the alley, there are low, old convenience stores and grocery stores...... And these are things that only came when you were young. ”

"Yes......"

I nodded my head and thought I smoked.

I fumbled in my pocket for a while, and finally I just took out a throat candy and threw it into my mouth, and when my throat felt cool, I opened my mouth again and asked her, "What about you?" Do you still have the heart to be a girl? ”

Xiao Ai shook his head and replied: "I'm different from you, I don't have too many pictures worth remembering in my life, I grew up with a variety of musical instruments and hard practice day and night...... However, life is so long, of course, there are days and fragments worth remembering......" At this point, she stopped, and after a while, she said: "If I could turn back time, I would definitely choose to climb over the courtyard wall of your house...... Then tell you, don't have so much panic and loneliness, because your future is better than anyone else, happier than anyone else! ”

After saying this, she looked at me, but I felt lonely in my heart. After that, neither of us spoke, and she went into her room before I did. And I stood there and stared at the distant neon and the cracked streets for a long time.

Early the next morning, I went to a famous porridge shop in Beijing to buy breakfast. It wasn't for myself, but it wasn't delivered to Xiao Ai's room, so I used a clothes pole to pick up the handy bag containing breakfast to her rattan table on the balcony.

Looking at the sunlight that already had strength in the morning, I was not worried that it would be cold at all, but I also hoped that Xiao Ai could find out earlier, and then sit here, eat the breakfast I bought for her, and then enjoy this rare morning without haze and full of sunshine. ”

……

After packing my luggage, I left the hotel, and Wang Er had already arrived at the door of the hotel with about 20 or so migrant workers. They were all workers who worked with Master Ge to make a living, and because they had nothing to do for the time being, they went back to Nanjing with me first. As for Master Ge, after he finished his work in Beijing, he would take another group of workers to Nanjing to join me.

I rented a minibus from the hotel, and then took these workers who started the business with me to the high-speed rail station, and we embarked on the journey back to Nanjing together, I had a hunch that this would be a dream start, and the "dream garden" I wanted to build was not just a planting base.

At noon, the group returned to Nanjing, and I temporarily took the workers to a teahouse, and then went with Yang Qu to a nearby furniture market, picked out a dozen beds on the upper and lower floors, and finally arranged the workers at my residence in Ersi Lane.

Yang Qu was very opposed at first, because it was a house that Yang Jin bought from a painter and gave it to me with a lot of effort, and it would definitely make a mess if there were about 20 people living in it at this time. But there is no way to do it, because there is no project to do recently, so there is no way for them to live on the construction site, so they can only be arranged here temporarily.

The workers were overjoyed by the arrangement, which was much better than what they had lived in Beijing. Not only does the house have good decoration, but the electrical equipment is also very complete, although there are only three rooms, it seems a little cramped, but when they were in Beijing, more than a dozen people were crammed into a room, sleeping on a large bed made of bricks and door panels.

……

After leaving Lane 24, I was a little confused, I seemed to have no place to live, so I had to go to the hotel again. So, I went back to Tulip Road and opened a room at the Tulip Hotel for a week.

Now the Tulip Hotel has undergone some changes, as it has its own brand of travel agency, wedding photography shop, and a department dedicated to wedding planning. In this way, its dependence on the external market will become less and less, and it is truly a one-stop service, and it is foreseeable that its reputation in Nanjing will get better and better.

After tidying up our clothes and daily necessities, Yang Qu and I left the hotel again, and we came to the "Wutong Hotel" to enjoy afternoon tea and enjoy the dusk.

After a while, Yang Qu couldn't help but ask me, "Brother, what are you doing in Beijing, could it be that the business has already been done over there?" ”

I took a sip of tea, but looked at the busy street and replied to her, "It's time to talk about business." ”

"Oh, I heard that Xiao Ai recently had a concert in Beijing, she should have gone there to prepare, I don't know if you have met?"

"See."

Yang Qu's eyes widened, and he replied: "You are really not ashamed, you are a person who is about to marry Sister Jin Qiu, how can you still meet her?" ”

I also glared at her and said, "Are you trying to sue?" ”

"I really want to...... But I think Sister Jin Qiu should know, because she is a woman who is very good at discerning...... But...... Why would she be so lenient with you? …… It stands to reason that you've already challenged her bottom line, haven't you? ”

What Yang Qu said was not wrong, Jin Qiu did know what I was going to Beijing for, but she didn't blame me. After a moment of silence, I said to Yang Qu, "Do you want to know the truth?" ”

"Of course I want to, you don't even know how irritated I am looking at you now!"

I let out a soft breath and replied, "The reason why Jin Qiu was able to tolerate me so much is because she didn't really love me...... And we are together, just because it is suitable, there is no love between us. ”

Yang Qu looked at me in disbelief, and she said, "You mean, while Sister Jin Qiu doesn't love you, you don't love her either?" ”

I nodded, but I didn't want to say too much, because it was something that didn't need to be repeated. But Yang Qu said to me excitedly: "Why, why is Sister Jin Qiu so good, but you don't love her?" ”

I finally looked at her, and then replied, "You are also very beautiful, and your family background is better than that of Jin Qiu, does every man who knows you have to fall in love with you?" ”

Yang Qu sat motionless on a wooden chair like a deflated ball. And her performance only proves that she has not yet figured out the line between loving and not loving. Or rather, she hasn't really figured out what it's like to love someone.

After a while, she said to me: "But there is one thing I can't understand, if there is no feeling of love between the two of you, then why do you have to make the decision to get married, isn't it better to find the person you love?" ”

My mood gradually became complicated, and I didn't feel like I had the strength to explain to Yang Qu, I just felt that there are some things that you will only understand what it feels like when you really experience them. In this world, only a small number of people can be lucky to choose to marry love, but Jin Qiu is not the lucky one. I'm the same, what I like is the feeling of stability that Golden Autumn brings me, and I'm at an age where I need stability the most.

Yang Qu didn't seem to have eaten well at this dinner, she went back to the Tulip Hotel with a heavy heart, and I went to look at my own house for demolition compensation, and happened to meet the renovation workers who were working overtime, and then learned from them that there would be a week at most, and this side would be completed. I was very concerned about whether it would be possible to live in it immediately, and they said that the house was made of more environmentally friendly materials, and it should be able to move in soon, but how long it would take depends on the results of the air test.

After seeing off the renovation workers, I walked around the house again, but I never found any sense of belonging or the excitement of being ready to move in. I told myself that it might have something to do with the fact that I was used to living in a house with a yard, so I didn't like this kind of closed house. I haven't lost my expectations for the future and Jin Qiu's married life, we may be able to forget the temptation of love, and then spend the rest of our lives in this house without incident.

Before nightfall, I walked out of the house, and just as I was about to close the door, a familiar figure came out of the elevator not far away, she was Chen Yi I hadn't seen for a long time. I was pleasantly surprised and surprised. She froze for a few seconds before coming up to me, then leaning over to the room where the door was not completely closed, and she asked me, "Is this your house to compensate?" ”

"Well, it's being renovated."

Chen Yi looked at me incredulously, then pointed to the opposite house and said to me: "This is the demolition compensation house that my family got, but I didn't expect us to live in the opposite door!" ”

I asked tentatively, "You're moving in?" ”

Chen Yi nodded and replied: "The media company I participated in before has a very large investment film to be made, and I am the producer, so I will stay in China for a long time this time...... It just so happened that the house here was renovated last year, so I will live here for the time being......" After a pause, she asked me again: "I see that you have also started to renovate here, are you going to live in?" ”

"Maybe."

Chen Yi smiled embarrassedly, and only replied after a long time: "I didn't expect that after three years, we would have the opportunity to be neighbors again!" ”

I was more moved and said, "yes." "But even though we had a sense of going back to the old days, we didn't talk much about it. So after a few more quick conversations, I was ready to leave.

Before I got on the elevator, she stopped me, thinking that she wanted me to go in and sit down, but she just said to me: "I forgot to tell you, try to decorate the house before 8 o'clock in the evening...... I'm jet lag, it's noisy! ”

I was stunned for a moment, then nodded again, and Chen Yi closed the door afterwards. I don't know why, but I looked back again. I only think that the layout of this floor is a bit small, because there are only three families on this floor who share this elevator, and I am afraid that the other household in addition is also the compensation room of Chen Yi's family. In other words, on the entire floor of this building, I'm afraid that only Chen Yi and I live. But what does that mean? All I know is that everything is not the same as before.

……

When I went downstairs, I sat on a bench by the garden of the community for a while, and I looked at each building carefully, and judging from the lighting inside, the occupancy rate was almost seventy or eighty percent. I know that many of the people who live here are neighbors from the old alleys. We just changed the way, and although it was impossible to meet and greet each other at any time like in the past, we still lived together. Perhaps, this is really a special fate......

A moment later, I met edamame who had gone downstairs to buy a homework book. This time, he wouldn't let me go anyway, and insisted that I wait for him for a while, and then go to his house together to see his cool toys that are hanging in the sky.

There has been a subtle change in my heart, and I no longer reject this place as much as I used to, because there are so many people here that make me feel dear. Perhaps, Edamame's home is downstairs from my house......