In the eyes that Qiao Ye and I didn't know anything about, Xiao Ai was staring at Qin Miao, although she didn't speak, but I could feel that her heart was weighing something, she was no longer as firm as she was at the beginning.

After a few more minutes, she finally said to Qin Miao: "I am willing to go with Jiang Qiao to meet his mother, the last time I met her, it was about two years ago, when my eyes were not able to see things, this time I can go and see what she looks like." ”

I was shocked and speechless for a while, but I gradually understood in my heart that maybe she had already met Xiao Ai before I met Yang Jin. Some time ago, I used to be so suspicious, but because I learned from Qiu Zi'an that Yuan Zhen terminated the contract with Tianqi Media back then, and it was Li Zishan who paid the liquidated damages behind his back, so I dispelled the idea of suspecting Yang Jin. And now, Xiao Ai actually said it himself, what reason do I have not to believe it?

I had a hunch that I was about to face a night that was not so quiet. But I don't know what prompted Xiao Ai to say what he didn't want to reveal after two years of conservative work.

Was she impressed by my desperation, or did she want me to die at the last minute?

When I wanted to speak, Xiao Ai suddenly turned to look at me, and then said to me: "Jiang Qiao, I know you must have a lot of questions in your heart, but don't ask them now, this is not the place to talk." When I eat with your mom at night, even if I don't say it, she will say it. ”

This time, I chose to respect her because I didn't want to be an angry youth in a place like the airport. Besides, I've been in the dark for two years, and it's not bad for the last few hours.

After reaching such an agreement, I carried my and Xiao Ai's luggage and walked to the parking lot with Yang Qu and the others. What surprised me was that this time Yang Qu drove Jin Qiu's Mercedes-Benz PV, and this car was bought by me when I went to the 4S store with Jin Qiu after I agreed to get married. It touched my heart a little bit, as if there would always be some unclear connection between us, and today might be the end point.

……

After nearly an hour's drive, a group of five of us returned to the "Dream Tree", which was once regarded as a home by me, but now it has its own business soul, and it is growing stronger day by day while conveying faith to many people.

Yang Qu had already prepared, and after entering the hotel, she called the waitress and arranged our rooms, but Xiao Ai was on the first floor and I was on the third floor.

After a brief lunch, we went back to our respective rooms. However, because Yang Jin has a work arrangement, he will not have time to meet us here until the evening.

Although I was very tired, I still didn't want to sleep, I stood alone by the window for a long time, and when I remembered to light a cigarette, I happened to see a Wrangler driving from outside the courtyard to the parking lot in the courtyard, and the next moment Jin Qiu walked out of the car.

It was as if there was an electrocardiogram, and when I looked at her, she also looked over to me, and after a brief eye contact, I shifted my gaze first.

Not to mention the rest of the time, for the past two years, I have a guilt for her, and this guilt makes me unable to face her. I thought about it, even if Xiao Ai and I didn't get together in the end, I wouldn't torture Jin Qiu again. I will only choose a strange town, and then slowly spend my long life, maybe I will marry a small city girl, maybe not, just hold the loneliness for a lifetime.

……

After a moment of complete distraction, the sky was already dark, the lights in the "dream tree" were turned on one after another, and the bar began to be lively.

I went downstairs to ask the aunt who was engaged in cleaning, and only then did I know that tonight, there will be a marriage proposal ceremony here, and the young man who proposed marriage is an executive of a foreign company with good financial ability, so he can make the pomp and circumstance very big. It's no wonder that the road to the bar is covered with streetlights in the shape of hearts.

Auntie said so enthusiastically, but my heart suddenly felt extremely lonely, because I am no longer a young person who can fall in love freely, I always feel that whether it is with Xiao Ai, or Jin Qiu, or even Chen Yi's emotional world, there are a lot of impure things, which makes us lose a lot of due happiness.

After a few pleasant conversations with my aunt, I sat down on a bench across from the bar, and then I felt everything I could feel with mixed feelings, and then I unconsciously thought about my time in Rome with Xiao Ai......

We went shopping, ate together, and chatted and laughed with the little people on the street...... Looking back on my life, it was definitely the happiest time because she was always by my side, giving me the illusion of being lost and regained, and this illusion lit up hope in my heart. However, from the moment I got off the plane, this delusion disappeared, and the result of my sobriety was all the loneliness and unhappiness I had now.

I don't know when, Xiao Ai came to my side, she looked at the twenty or so cars parked in front of the bar, and said to me: "The business of the bar is good! I heard that this bar is your brainchild, and you first came up with the idea to make it. ”

"Yes, the first thing I plan to do after living in Shanghai for a long time is to join the gang and get this bar...... In fact, the business is also very average, and there are usually no people, but there are some group activities every month. For example, birthday parties, class reunions, marriage proposal ceremonies, etc...... Today is just in time, there is a marriage proposal ceremony to be held here later, and the man has already taken his friends in place, and now they are all waiting for the heroine to appear.

Xiao Ai looked up at the most lit part of the bar, and then asked, "Then what are you sitting here for?" ”

I was very confused by Xiao Ai's question, and it took a while to raise my head and look at her and reply, "I don't know...... Maybe I want to see if the woman will be as happy as I thought after being confessed......"

After lighting a cigarette and taking a puff, I said, "I've been in the wedding planning industry for six years, and I've seen everything and everyone. It stands to reason that no one understands the way of love better than me, but I am more and more skeptical about the authenticity of love...... I always feel that everyone seems to be not very honest and unwilling to treat the person they love the most with their bravest side. ”

"What about you? Are you honest and brave enough? ”

I shifted my gaze to look at her, and replied after a while: "This Jiangqiao in front of you now, whether you put on or take off your clothes, is open, because he has thrown his whole heart into the whirlpool of love, and he has not left himself a way out, but love has become a sharp dagger, chopping his heart to pieces, so he has become what you see at the moment, although he still knows how to breathe, but it is no different from the walking dead." ”

Xiao Ai leaned against the plane tree next to the chair, and after a long time whispered back, "Me too." ”

"What do you mean?"

Xiao Ai looked at me, but refused to speak again. Actually, it doesn't make much practical sense to say anything more, because she had already told me when she was in Rome that she had no idea of living with me again. Based on this, even if we understand each other's feelings very clearly, what positive effect can we play between us?

After a long silence, another white Scirocco coupe drove in from outside, it passed by the small area where Xiao Ai and I were, and then stopped in the open space in front of the bar, and the moment she stopped, the fireworks exploded around her small car, so that the whole "dream tree" was made very shiny, behind this shiny, no one would believe it, and there were some people who hid some unspeakable sadness in their hearts.

At this time, Xiao Ai said to me again: "Don't you go in and have a look?" ”

"Just take a look outside...... Hehe, some people say that marriage is a wall, people inside want to come out, people outside want to go in, do you believe this? ”

"Believe, maybe this is really the mentality of most people, but it is not excluded that the marriage will be managed very well."

"But our parents are both failures in marriage......"

I raised my hands in the air, then put them down weakly, and said again in a heavy tone: "But this is definitely not a reason for them to interfere with our freedom to marry, is it?" It's true...... I can swear to the grass and trees in the dream tree, I don't want much, I just want to be like the couple in front of me, I can confess freely, and then be together freely...... I don't want to be so cringed forever and live at the mercy of others...... Yes, I am indeed presumptuous enough, but the woman who made me hate to kill myself and be with her did not eat me at all, she avoided me again and again, rejected me again and again, but did not think at all, why we were together in the first place...... Xiao Ai, do you remember the beginning? At the beginning, we fought to have children before marriage, and we didn't want to separate...... Do you remember all this? ”

In the shining lights, Xiao Ai stood like a stone in the wind, although her body was thin, she refused to shake at all, she pointed to the woman who came out of Shangku and said to me: "Do you really think that they are in free love and presumptuous confession?" …… In my opinion, the conditions are equal is the basis for them to be together. If one day, this woman is not beautiful and not petty bourgeoisie, that man may not be willing to spend such a mind to please her...... Man is really a very realistic animal, and you can't leave the category of human beings...... Sometimes behind our seemingly glamorous appearance, it is just a pair of life and death! You know this better than I do. ”

I looked at her in disbelief, I couldn't believe that these dusty words came out of her mouth...... And just as my doubts began, another burst of fireworks exploded in front of us...... The pair of heroes and heroines at the door of the bar embraced deeply in this dazzling splendor. But behind the fireworks, there is my gloomy sadness, because my passion for love has died in their deep embrace.

After another commotion, the man picked up the woman in the crowd and walked into the bar, and the scene was so quiet that I realized that Xiao Ai had sat down next to me, and she smoked the unfinished cigarette in my hand, and then pressed it out on the ground.

It was such a simple action, but I was stimulated to cry, but in the end I just lowered my head and whispered to her: "No matter what the result is tonight, we will go back to Nanjing together tomorrow to see grandma, okay?" ”

"Well, I won't regret it."

I looked up at her, and after a long time, I choked up and said, "If Grandma had been alive a few years ago, she would have decided for us...... Perhaps, there would not have been such a painful few years between us at all, and of course Yuan Zhen would not have died in an accident...... However, God has given us so many regretful things that we are caught off guard and numb ourselves, and finally we don't even have the courage to struggle...... Xiao Ai, you who were so awesome back then that you lived just for your own mood are dead...... It's dead!! ”

Xiao Ai didn't reason with me or argue with me, she just patted my leg after a while, pointed to the courtyard gate and said to me, "Is that your mother's car?" …… She seems to be coming. ”