I sat with Xiao Ai for nearly 20 minutes, and she was still in the same position as before, holding her chin with both hands, and when she was irritated, she began to play with her hair. But at this moment, I can't figure out where I stand, and I can't imagine what the piano store would have developed without Xiao Ai. First of all, I have one less pillar in my spirit, and after the piano store has no Xiao Ai, the level of teachers will also drop a lot, and it will even affect the teaching situation of other teachers, at least Yu Xin's nature of playing tickets will re-evaluate whether it is worth spending so much spare time in the piano shop. I've always felt that her passion comes from doing this with Xiao Ai.

In the confusion, I lit another cigarette, and at this time, Xiao Ai finally turned his head to look at me and asked me, "Why didn't you say a word?" ”

"I don't know what to say."

Xiao Ai took out the cigarette he had only smoked from between my fingers, put it on the ground and pressed it out before saying to me, "If I go to Berklee College of Music to study abroad, what are you going to do in the piano store?" ”

I groaned, "To be honest, I don't have a clue...... But ......"

"Don't tell me, but I just want to know what's really going on in your heart...... Because when I go to study abroad, it's not a week or a month, it's a full three years, do you know what the concept of three years is? …… It's only been less than a year since we realized it, so three years is enough time to change the relationship between us, and even my mom said that by the time I come back, we will both be in our 30s...... At that time, we will not even have our youth! ”

I didn't make eye contact with her, but she forced my head over and let me meet her gaze.

Looking at her kind and beautiful face, countless pictures of being together came to my mind again......

I don't know when I got used to the life of having her by my side, so I had the courage to face the fact that the old house was about to be demolished, and even the textile factory was going to be converted into a hotel. It's all because I have her by my side that I don't have to fear that so many important memories and objects engraved in my life will disappear from my real world one after another......

"Jiangqiao, you talk quickly......"

I stared at her for a long time before I replied, "Isn't there another month left?" …… I feel like you and I should make the most of this time and figure out a lot of things! ”

Xiao Ai let out a rare sigh. I know that the tuition fee of more than one million yuan for three years is a burden on her heart, not to mention that this is only obtained by Ruan Su by selling her ancestral house in Taipei, if she lives up to it like this, Ruan Su will definitely be extremely disappointed!

After a long time, Xiao Ai said to me again: "Jiang Qiao, do you know? …… I've been thinking a lot about the future during this time. I fantasized that after the summer vacation, which is the peak of learning musical instruments, we would take time out to go abroad, and not too far away, Phuket in Thailand is very good, I went there once two years ago...... I didn't know you at that time, and I was looking forward to the day when I could have another time with the man I liked...... We drank coconut water, basked in the sun, went surfing and diving in the sea, and in short, did everything...... Because we've known each other for so long, we've had a hard time, and we've never been so relaxed...... However, why is it so difficult to make these imagined pictures that are already close at hand? ”

I didn't feel good in my heart, so I picked up the cigarette butt that she had extinguished from the ground, and then put it in my mouth and lit it, I raised my right arm, she leaned on my shoulder, I gently hugged her, like hugging the most beautiful cloud, although the tenderness was overflowing, but I was also afraid that this qiē in front of me was only a passing cloud after all.

I whispered in her ear, "Perhaps, we all live in a closed city, where some people play the accordion, some people look for sunlight, some people watch the smoke and fantasize about food...... Everyone seemed busy, finding happiness in their own way, but no one ever thought of opening the gates of this closed city...... Because we live in this environment, we are all numb, and for us, the challenge is a terrible thing. Or, the people who live in this city are naturally timid, and everyone is afraid that after opening that door, the outside world will make people feel more disgusting, so they would rather live like this......"

Xiao Ai hugged my waist tightly and said in a softer voice than me: "I don't want you to see the world so thoroughly, and I don't want you to tell me these deviant truths, I'm afraid that after I understand this, I will be more lonely than you, and there will be no one to comfort your loneliness......"

"How did you become so sensual?"

"I don't have any flesh, what I say is true...... Therefore, I don't want to leave Nanjing, I don't want you to have no one by your side, and I don't want to be alone to adapt to another world that I don't know at all after I go abroad. ”

"I don't want you to go either, our piano shop will slowly get better...... Also, when you get the house and compensation for the demolition, life will be much better than now! ”

Xiao Ai seemed a little tired, she didn't respond to my words, just leaned into my arms again, and then closed her eyes, the wind blew our hair messy, and the night became deeper!

……

I sent Xiao Ai back to the neighborhood where she lived, and I went back to my own place, I didn't like this night at all, not only was it hot, but there were annoying mosquitoes buzzing in my ears...... The mosquito coil tablets I just bought yesterday seem to be of inferior quality, and they have no effect.

I couldn't sleep, so I called Qiao Ye, I wanted to talk to this brother who was not reliable at all, just talk about anything, anyway, don't let yourself calm down and think nonsense.

After waiting for a while, Qiao Ye answered the phone, he seemed to be drinking something, so much so that he asked a little inarticulately: "Why did you call me so late, what's the situation?" "I have something in my heart and want to talk to you."

Qiao Ye replied with self-deprecation: "Aren't you burying yourself when you talk to a person like me who can't carry anything?" ”

"I didn't expect you to give me anything, I just didn't want to feel uncomfortable in my heart...... By the way, Qin Miao, is she resting, don't disturb you. "I was just lying in bed...... It's okay, I'll talk to you in the living room. As he spoke, there was a crisp sound on the phone, the sound of Qiao Ye lighting a cigarette with a lighter.

During this time, he also had an easy time, and it could not be easy. Because until now, their whole family has been hiding the fact that Qin Miao can't get pregnant in the future! This kind of psychological pressure is actually very large, but sooner or later this depth charge will be detonated. "I've arrived in the living room, you can tell me what is on your mind."

I brewed my feelings for a while, and after exhaling those sullen breaths in my heart, I finally said to him: "Today, Xiao Ai's mother came to Nanjing to find her, not for anything else, but to ask her to study at Berklee College of Music for three years......"

Qiao Ye spoke in a high pitch: "What? She has worked with you to make the piano store what it is now, how can she go abroad to study abroad at this time, it won't kill you! ”

"Look at what you're saying! …… She was really struggling right now, because her mom didn't give her a choice when she did it. Her mother has already paid the tuition and accommodation fees for her for three years of study, and the synthetic yuan must be more than one million! What's even worse is that her mother got this money from selling her ancestral house in Taipei, do you think she is likely to refuse? ”

Sure enough, Qiao Ye sighed: "What her mother did was amazing!" …… But it is precisely because of her attitude that you have to resist even more! ”

I was a little puzzled and asked, "How do you say that?" ”

"It's easy to understand, why would her mother do things so desperately? The purpose is not only to ask Xiao Ai to study abroad, but also part of the reason is to break you and Xiao Ai. Because combined with what you said before, I can judge that she wants Xiao Ai to stay in Taipei and stay by her side. But because Xiao Ai came to Nanjing with you regardless of it, she became very worried, otherwise how could she do such an extreme thing...... Therefore, letting Xiao Ai go abroad is only her first step, once Xiao Ai agrees, the next thing she plans must be how to break up the two of you...... After all, foreign countries are not domestic, and they are so far apart, any small misunderstanding is a bomb planted between two people, because the channel of face-to-face communication has been cut off...... You can refer to me and Su Han for this. ”

Even if Qiao Ye's analysis is not entirely correct, it still has some truth, which arouses a strong sense of distress in my heart. I lit myself a cigarette and smoked it in a muffled voice, but I didn't have a particularly good idea in my heart.

Qiao Ye said again: "Jiang Qiao, you have to think about this matter...... The reality of human beings has nothing to do with the educational process...... As a brother, I'm not afraid that you will think I speak ugly...... You say, whose parents would want to marry their daughters into a family like yours? What's more, Xiao Ai is still a bit of a rebellious girl, as long as she says she is willing, from Nanjing to Taipei, the man she wants to marry can form a group! ”

Qiao Ye's words were really ugly, and they also made me feel very uncomfortable, but they were the truth.

Over the years, it's not like no one has introduced me to someone, but every time they hear about my family situation, the girls' parents all retreat without exception...... I am equal to a fatherless and motherless, the only grandmother, and there are disabilities in my legs and feet, and any girl who marries me can't afford such a burden! If not, Xiao Ai and I have a special fate, I'm afraid I won't even have the opportunity to meet in this life, let alone face the wind and rain together to this day?

After a moment of silence, I finally asked him, "So what do you think I should do now?" …… It's not easy for us to get to where we are today, and I can't make up my mind to let her go! “

"Just ask me about this! …… The biggest problem with you is that your mind is too burdensome, and you can't let go of everything...... If you want me to say, since Xiao Ai's mother can do things so desperately, you and Xiao Ai can also treat others in the way of others, as long as you really want to be together, whether to leave Nanjing or not, you have a way better than her. ”

For the first time, I had respect for Qiao Ye that I wanted to listen to, so I asked urgently, "What can we do?" ”

Qiao Ye groaned for a while, and then asked me, "When is she going to the United States?" "It's probably a month away." "Well, that's going to be easy......"

His intermittent silence made me anxious, and I wanted to open his head to see what he was thinking......

Finally, he spoke again, "Why don't you open your mind?" …… You said that you and Xiao Ai, one is alive and well, and the other is in its prime. You have calculated her ovulation period, and it is not difficult to conceive a child in a month, right? …… When the time comes, if you dare to marry again, if you dare to stop you without opening your eyes, the law and moral public opinion are your backstage! “

My heart twitched a little, because I had never dared to think so boldly. At this stage, what is the concept of asking Xiao Ai to give birth to me?

Qiao Ye is really still so unreliable, because I have never heard of any law that protects unmarried childbearing, and morality is specifically used to condemn unmarried childbearing, but when it comes to his mouth, it has become our backstage. This whole thing is a!

Just when I was about to deny it, his voice talking to me became even lower: "Jiang Qiao, think about it, if Su Han and I had this kind of determination and consciousness at that time, would so many tragedies still happen?" …… No, none of this qiē will happen! …… Therefore, you don't have to repeat the old path of me and Su Han, otherwise your life will be the same as Qiao Ye, there is a Su Han who will never be able to get it, and there is a Qin Miao who will never be able to pay off his debts in his life......"

Thinking of what Qiao Ye has experienced in the past few years, I have a chilling feeling, the same pain, in fact, I have experienced it in Chen Yi's body, but it has not given Chen Yi back the happiness he imagined. Putting aside Qiao Ye's old path for the time being, do I have to go through my old path again?

However, apart from the method given by Qiao Ye, is there no other better way?

Just when I was struggling, Qiao Ye on the other end of the phone said again: "Jiang Qiao, don't hesitate anymore, because there is absolutely no more effective way than this." If Xiao Ai really loves you, she will be willing to make a sacrifice for you at the critical moment when the relationship is facing life and death...... Believe me! “

I took a deep breath, for me and Xiao Ai who were cornered, this was the last way not to do it, but this thing can't be done by my wishful thinking, Xiao Ai needs to have such thoughts and courage.

I'm not a scumbag, I'm really going to be responsible for her and marry her......

Imagine, if we really did it, just bravely advanced our married life by a few years, it would not be a mistake, but if we did, what would we do with the more than one million tuition fees?

I'm so confused, I feel like I'm thinking too much, because everything is not something I have the ability to solve now, and I need courage like the sea...... But at the moment, I can't even breathe normally!

I'm going to think about it, think about it again......