Watching She Shaobo walk away, my mood gradually calmed down, and then I looked at Yang Qu, who was still holding me and crying, and said to her, "Do you have any money on you?" Treat me to a good meal. ”

"You're said to be virtuous, and you're still in the mood to eat?"

I glanced at the unfinished lunch on the floor and replied, "I want to eat meat, I want to eat something I want to eat." ”

Yang Qu glanced at me with a distressed look on his face and said, "You were really wronged this time...... This foreign country is really not full of gold for you! ”

Before the evening, Yang Qu took me to a fancy restaurant in the neighborhood, she kept communicating with the staff in fluent English, and after a while, there were several Chinese dishes on the table that I liked to eat, Yang Qu handed me a pair of chopsticks, and then held her chin and looked at me, but she didn't eat.

After I had eaten half of my food, she asked me, "Have you heard anything about her?" ”

"If I had asked, I wouldn't be where I am now...... I'm ready to stay in Rome for a month. After a pause, I asked her again, "How is the family doing?" ”

"No one approves of you doing this, but no one can control you, but can you imagine everyone's feelings?"

I put down the chopsticks in my hand, and then looked out of the window that was gradually darkened by the night, my heart could not be released, and there was no way to hide, I replied to Yang Qu after a long time: "Qiao Ye told me this morning, all this I am doing now is to pass the ninety-nine-eighty-one difficulty, but this is my difficulty, and it has nothing to do with you...... You all have to keep a normal mindset. One day, I will also find the meaning of life, and slowly get better......" I said, I smiled and said: "I don't have high requirements for good, I am a person who can live as long as I guard my own one-third of an acre." ”

"But life sometimes deprives a person of the right to choose life, except for the true love and freedom that you have not yet pursued, you are almost nothing!"

"No, I don't want to discuss such a dialectical issue with you, for better or worse, I think it's a dream."

"Only people who are afraid of the outcome will numb themselves with dreams, I know that you are actually very helpless and unconfident now, and you care a lot about what the man just said to you......"

I looked up at her and felt like I had been drenched in a heavy rain, and the rain had destroyed my inner self-protection mechanism, and I realized that the medicine of time could only heal some skin wounds...... To this day, I still can't stand it, others say that I am the murderer who ruined Zhao Mu and Zhao Chu's family, although I have defended myself, but there are still a lot of unspeakable guilt in my heart!

I finally said to Yang Qu: "He won't say those things to me casually, I'm wondering, who did he find out about this, this person must be full of hostility towards me." ”

"You don't have many friends around you who know you well, so you can figure it out with the screening method, right? …… Anyway, I don't think it can be Sister Chen Yi or Sister Jin Qiu, because they are both women who have paid a lot for you, and they will not be willing to hurt you so much. ”

"And who else do you think?"

"The closest one is Qiao Ye, but he has no motives, and your relationship has always been very good, he is one of the few brothers around you who treats you sincerely."

I didn't speak, but I had the answer in my heart, but there was still no way to connect him with She Shaobo. I calmed down again to look for the cause and effect relationship inside, and suddenly a chill welled up in my heart, so that cold sweat broke out in my palms...... Could it be that over the years, he has not completely let go of the bitter consequences caused by my existence? He has been looking at me with extreme eyes behind the bitter consequences?

These need to be carefully verified.

"Brother, what are you thinking, why don't you speak?"

"I didn't ...... Nothing, eat, you eat too. ”

I just revealed this topic, Yang Qu didn't ask any more, she picked up the chopsticks and ate a few bites, then looked at me with a smile and said, "Brother, tell you something, don't talk about me...... In fact, I didn't come alone this time, I also brought a friend, you know, I'm a girl, and I'm as beautiful as a flower, how unsafe it is to go abroad alone! ”

"Boyfriend, huh?"

Yang Qu didn't answer directly, but still looked at me with a smile......

I asked her again, "What about others?" ”

"I'm staying in a hotel, and I don't dare to bring it out to you if I don't tell you in advance."

"Afraid I won't approve of him?"

Yang Qu's face was a little sad, she replied: "Sort of, he is a boy with very average family conditions, I'm afraid I won't be able to pass our mother's level, and my father, he is a political figure, and he cares more about the right person, he has always hoped that I can find a ** to marry, and he will have one more bargaining chip on the road of politics in the future." After a pause, she asked again, "Brother, you must be different from them, you will support me, right?" ”

"Of course I support you, but I also want to remind you that even if you are in a good relationship now, you must keep a moderate distance, do you understand what I mean by distance?"

Yang Qu hurriedly replied: "I understand, I understand...... I didn't live with him. ”

I nodded, and then asked, "Does he know what's going on on your side now?" ”

"I don't know, I didn't dare to say it...... I'm afraid that he thinks that we are not people of the same world. ”

I sighed softly, I knew that when Yang Qu, a brutal lady, would put herself in the shoes of a man, she must have true feelings, but what was in front of her was not an easy way to go, and it was even more difficult than me, because I only had to face Yang Jin, and she also had to face an adoptive father with political ambitions. Although I don't know her adoptive father very well, judging from his choices back then, he was definitely not a simple character, and what I was most worried about was that his compromise back then would become a thorn in his heart as his career continued to rise. Based on this, he will not have a true father-daughter relationship with Yang Qu. After all, no one knows better than him that Yang Qu is not his own.

"Brother, what are you sighing for, it makes me feel even more bottomless."

"I'm sighing for myself, you don't have to think too much, you're still young now, and there is still room for many things...... You just have to deal with it yourself. ”

"Oh......"

Yang Qu answered, then leaned in front of me, and said, "Brother, do you want to see him, I'll call him to come over now." ”

"Tomorrow, I'll invite you to dinner tomorrow, forget it today, I'm going to sit at the Trevi Fountain later."

……

After eating, I returned to the Trevi Fountain, Yang Qu followed me, I sat in a corner with a better line of sight and kept watching the crowd of people with tense nerves, I was afraid that I would miss her inadvertently.

As the night deepened, Yang Qu, who was bored, yawned, then looked at the gradually deserted street and said to me: "Brother, can you go back, hurry up." ”

"You're going to be tired, you go back first, I'll sit for a while, I can touch the road to the hotel myself."

"Then don't worry that I'll go back alone, this is abroad, and the security is not very good, what if I meet a rogue driver?"

I raised my hand and looked at my watch, and it was indeed in a hurry. For Xiao Ai, this is not a very safe point in time, so it is unlikely that she will appear here, and the hope in my heart that I can't ask for can only continue to look forward to tomorrow......

When I was about to go back, I met the homeless man named Albert again, he mistook Yang Qu for the woman I was waiting for, and then gave me a blessing solidly, when I learned the truth, there was an embarrassed laugh, he sighed, miracles, it is precisely because of too small a probability that people will be called miracles, but this did not hit my confidence, because she is the woman I have to wait for.

……

After returning to the hotel, Yang Qu and I went back to our rooms. Although I was very tired, I still didn't want to sleep, I thought about what She Shaobo said to me this evening, and finally I couldn't hold it anymore and knocked on his door.

I knocked several times in a row, but I didn't get a response from him, so I went to the floor manager who could speak some Chinese, but she told me that She Shaobo checked out in the evening, and she didn't know why and where she went.

I had a vague feeling in my heart, maybe he really believed some of the so-called findings and disdained to be with me, but I had something I wanted to ask him.

I went to Yang Qu's room again, then borrowed her mobile phone and logged in to my WeChat, but when I sent him a message, I found out that I had been blacklisted by him, which further verified my judgment......

My heart was full of frustration, I put my phone on the head of the bed, and lay down on Yang Qu's bed, and then kept looking at the ceiling in a daze. Although I didn't have any comradeship with She Shaobo in such a short period of time, his sudden departure made me feel isolated and helpless, and I also had strong self-doubt. As if as long as I live, it is an unforgivable mistake in itself.

Yang Qu, who was washing up in the bathroom, seemed to notice something, and while brushing her teeth, she asked me vaguely: "Brother, what are you doing, why did you suddenly stop moving?" ”

I came back to my senses, and after answering the "it's okay", I picked up the phone from the cabinet again, and I could vaguely remember She Shaobo's mobile phone number, so I sent him another text message and asked, "Where have you been, I have something I want to ask you." ”

After a while, he really replied: "I found a hotel near the airport to stay, and tomorrow I will fly to the United States...... I'll tell you the truth, I really can't force myself to be with you when I get to know you better, and I think it's more likely to find Shaw Ai in Berkeley...... If I find her first, even if she doesn't want to accept my sincerity, I will persuade her to keep her distance from people like you...... Because whoever gets your hands on you is unlucky! ”