The tide rose and fell beside me and Xiao Ai, fishing fires and lights shone in distant places, and on this wide sea interface, there were no restraints and no fortresses, and one qiē seemed so free that neither Xiao Ai nor I wanted to be too eager for a result.

Dusk is completely gone, a bright moon over the hill is hanging in front of us, and in this place without the atmosphere of the city, gradually only two colors remain, one is the darkness of the night, the other is the color of the lights reflected on the sea, I looked at the qiē in front of me, and comfortably lit a cigarette.

Xiao Ai didn't know when she took out two cans of beer from her handbag, she handed me one of them, I suddenly felt that my life had been sublimated, because in front of me was the boundless sea, with my favorite cigarette in my hand, and the woman I wanted to see the most in my arms, she also gave me a can of beer, so what else could I not be satisfied with?

I raised my head, took a sip of beer wantonly, and asked Xiao Ai next to me with a smile, "Can you share with me how you feel now?" ”

"You speak first."

"Happy and comfortable, I want to die here!"

After I finished saying what I felt in my heart, I looked at Xiao Ai, and then waited with anticipation for her to share her feelings with me, but to my surprise, she took out her phone from her pocket and handed it to me.

I took it from her hand with doubts, the mobile phone is the interface of WeChat, and the text-based dialogue between Yu Xin and Xiao Ai clearly appeared in my sight in the "whoosh" sound of the tide.

"Xiao Ai, is Jiangqiao in Taipei?"

"Yes, what's wrong?"

"Hurry up and ask him to call Chen Yi back, Chen Yi has not been able to contact him these days, and then found my unit, his spirit is about to collapse, please ask you about his news."

"Well, I'll sue him."

It took Yu Xin twenty minutes before she sent another message: "Can you sue me, how do you feel about Jiangqiao?" If it's love, don't hide it anymore, and make things clear and clear, for you, for Jiang Qiao, and even for Chen Yi, it's a way to minimize the damage. ”

Xiao Ai replied after a full hour: "In this matter, Chen Yi and I are not the key, the key is, what does Jiang Qiao think...... Actually, I don't reject Chen Yi at all, because Jiang Qiao has been lonely since she was a child, and she is one of the few women who is willing to treat Jiang Qiao with sincerity. ”

"Can you sue me why do you like Jiangqiao? …… I really don't know what it is about him that can attract you, make you such a proud woman, willing to do so much for him. ”

Xiao Ai did not reply to Yu Xin's question, and the conversation ended here. I exhaled heavily, clenching my phone tighter and tighter, and my feelings fluctuated strongly at this moment, because many things and feelings that I didn't know were just said in the mouth of a third party.

It turns out that Chen Yi cares about me so much, but I never thought that after arriving in Taipei, I would report her a peace, in my consciousness, I am a man without roots, no matter where I wander, no one will care, no one cares, so I lost my phone for so many days, but I feel that it is a kind of tranquility.

I gave the phone back to Xiao Ai, and after staring at me for a long time, she finally asked, "Do you still want to know what kind of mood I am in?" ”

I didn't say anything, Xiao Ai handed my mobile phone to me again, and said, "You should remember Chen Yi's number, hurry up and give her a call, don't let her worry too much." ”

……

On another reef dozens of meters away from Xiao Ai, I dialed Chen Yi's phone, and after the dialing prompt rang twice, she answered, and asked with anticipation and nervousness: "Are you Jiangqiao?" ”

"Well, I've been in Taipei for many days, and I lost my phone and wallet before, so I don't know if you're worried about me...... I'm sorry! ”

"You don't have to say sorry to me, my worries are nothing compared to your safety, I am relieved to know that you are all good......"

She smiled and asked, "How is it, are you still having fun in Taiwan?" ”

I replied in a relaxed tone, "It's not about being happy, but I'm not guilty of anything." ”

"So you're with Xiao Ai now?"

"Hmm."

Chen Yi on the other end of the phone was silent for a while, and then said to me after a long time: "That's okay, I won't bother." When you're tired of playing, remember to come back early, and then find something serious to do, and it's time for you to start a family. ”

"I know."

Chen Yi didn't reply again, she hung up the phone, and I felt uncomfortable for this kind of conversation full of politeness, but we really don't have much to talk about anymore, because at the moment we broke up, we had already lost all the plans and expectations of both parties for the future, so what else could we talk about?

……

I didn't immediately return to Xiao Ai's side, but quietly smoked a cigarette by myself, thinking about some things in the ebb and flow of the tide.

Xiao Ai came to my side, and sat down, and the angle of our view of the sea changed again, and there was an additional lighthouse in our sight, which stood on the surface of the sea, guiding the passing ships.

"Jiang Qiao, I especially want to ask you a question, if you and Chen Yi hadn't broken up at the beginning, what kind of life do you think you would live now?"

I couldn't give an answer for a long time, because I gave up decisively, and I never carefully assumed that there would be no breakup.

"If you can't answer, then I'll give you the answer as a bystander."

I looked at Xiao Ai in astonishment, waiting for her to continue......

Xiao Ai closed her eyes and raised her head, she was silent for a while before she said to me: "Chen Yi is a well-known hostess in Nanjing and even the whole country, no matter how miserable you Jiangqiao thinks about your married life, it is an indisputable fact that Chen Yi has enough financial ability to support a family. She has connections and all kinds of media resources, and you are not only not stupid, but also very thoughtful, and diligent and serious, with her by your side to supervise and help, how can you be so bad? So it's only a matter of time before everyone recognizes you. ”

I still didn't speak, but that didn't mean I denied Xiao Ai's idea......

"Jiang Qiao, I know that you came to Taipei this time to let me and you go back to Nanjing to engage in music training, but I can tell you very clearly that I will not go back with you."

I was filled with loss, but I had accepted her choice, because after all, it was a result that even Ade, a stranger, could see. I forced a smile and said to Xiao Ai: "I didn't have much hope when I came to Taipei this time, so I just thought that after the coffee shop closed down, I would come out to travel and relax...... Hehe, the sea in front of me really makes me feel like it's worth the trip. ”

Xiao Ai nodded, and then stood up from the reef, her hands in her coat pockets, looking at the sea that had merged with the night, I couldn't see her expression at all, let alone what she was thinking at the moment.

"Can you lend me a little money for the ride back?"

Xiao Ai finally turned her head to look at me, and she replied, "I don't have much money on me now, but you are so smart, you must be able to find a way to raise a sum of money to go back, right?" ”

……

This night, Xiao Ai sent me back to the "Ade Hotel", and I was a little depressed, because all the qiē was said by Ade.

Originally, under such a good situation, I could tell Xiao Ai all the thoughts in my heart, but when I knew that Chen Yi was looking for me all over the world and worried about my safety, my feelings immediately changed.

What Ade said is not wrong, there is indeed a woman in this world that I will never dare to forget between me and Xiao Ai, and Xiao Ai's mood is certainly understandable, because returning to Nanjing is a choice for her to overthrow Yiqiē, but I owe her a guarantee.

I sat on a recliner in a daze on the little balcony of the Ade Hotel, while Ade stared into his binoculars, aggressively looking at the women's dormitory of Shishin University.

"Ah Qiao roared, today at the beach, did you confess to Xiao Ai?"

I shook my head and sighed, and replied: "Seriously, the situation has already arrived at that time, and the difference is just a sentence, but there is a hurdle in my heart that I can't get over, and I can't say it in the end...... So in the end, Xiao Ai asked me to go back to Nanjing by myself. ”

"You went all the way to Taipei, but you got such a result, are you sad?"

"Sad, how not sad...... But there are so many sad things in life, there is no need to think about everything in your heart, sometimes it will pass with a smile. ”

Ade nodded in agreement, after all, we are all people living on the edge of life, and our psychological endurance is much stronger than that of ordinary people. I still remember that when I went all the way to Beijing to see Chen Yi, I didn't say a word of promise, I didn't even say a word, although I was so disappointed that I couldn't help it, but in the end, I just smoked a cigarette before getting on the train, and I held all my feelings in my heart, still waiting for the day when she graduated and returned to Nanjing.

Ade said to me again: "Aqiao roar, I've been curious about it these days, what kind of woman is it that will become a knot between you and Xiao Ai?" …… She must be extraordinary, right? ”

The night was long, and I didn't mind talking about the past between me and Chen Yi with Ade, a friend who might never see each other again in the life after separation.

For the next half hour, while drinking beer, I told Ade all the memorable episodes of myself and Chen Yi from childhood to adulthood. In the end, he sighed empathetically, looking infinitely embarrassed, because he was also in love with a woman with too obvious class gap like me, so he could understand all kinds of helplessness and pain in my heart.

Ade took out a Nanjing cigarette I gave him and lit it, and then said to me: "Ah Qiao roar, anyone who has driven a car should know that there is only one reverse gear, but there are several forward gears, which shows that people still have to move forward, and there are not many things that need to be looked back, so I think you should forget about those things in the past, because one day you will marry another woman and have children with her...... Chen Yi just let her go, her personal conditions are so good, just choose a way to live, she will live better than you! ”

I squinted and took a sip of my beer, and then I didn't say anything, but the darkness of the night was beating at me hard.

……

Lying on the bed, I had no intention of sleeping, of course I knew Xiao Ai's true thoughts about refusing to lend money to let me go back to Nanjing, and her heart didn't want me to come so vigorously, but in the end she left alone and melancholy, she was still waiting for me.

When it was almost 12 o'clock, I finally sat up from the bed, and then put on my slippers and ran to the bar on the first floor.

I sent Xiao Ai a text message: "Do you remember when we were in Lijiang, we used to sing together on the street and earn you money for accommodation? ”

"Yes."

"Do you want to repay this favor and help me make up a sum of money to go back to Nanjing in the same way?"

This time, it took Xiao Ai a long time to reply to the message: "Yes. ”

After getting Xiao Ai's reply, I exhaled heavily, then returned the phone to Ade, and said to him with a smile: "Ade, can you play the guitar?" ”

"Well, there's a problem?"

"Tomorrow will give you a chance to show your own talent in front of Lin Ziqing, such a thing as peeping with a telescope is too unlevel after all, and no woman will like it."

Ade looked at me puzzled, I patted him on the shoulder, said "You'll know tomorrow", and then went upstairs with slippers on. I want to recuperate and then welcome the arrival of tomorrow, and at this moment, I seem to have returned to those days in Lijiang, where there are Xiao Ai's singing, my dazedness, and a few light nights that envelop us!