The sky was getting dark, and I finally cut to the chase and said to Xin: "I came to you this time, there is a marriage proposal plan that requires you to join as a cast member, and our client is ready to reproduce the warm picture of him and his girlfriend in college in the form of a micro-film, and the client's girlfriend is an opera singer who also graduated from your Nanyi, so I thought about it, it is more suitable for you to play your body type and she still have a high degree of similarity." ”

Yu Xin said to me with a happy face: "Brother Jiangqiao, you are really good, you are thinking about me for any good things, I am really short of money when I am about to graduate recently."

I smiled and replied, "Don't be in a hurry to praise me first, the remuneration this time is only 2,000 yuan, because it is only filmed for 3 days at most, and the content is not very much." ”

"2,000 yuan is not bad, it can solve my two-month rent problem, you are really a noble person in my life, every time I am short of money, you show up on time."

I smiled, but there was a bitterness in my heart, and now only Yu Xin, the girl, still thinks that I Jiangqiao is a little likable, and I even miss the early autumn when I just met Xiao Ai, we get along very simply, and no one thought that the relationship would be like this, so that even being friends has become a very laborious thing.

Yu Xin said again in my silence: "Brother Jiangqiao, I'll call Xiao Ai now, let's have a meal together in the evening, I haven't been together for a long time, thank you by the way, I'm in for a treat." ”

I was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly replied: "No need, I have to pick up a friend at the train station later, you can get together." ”

Yu Xin looked at me with some confusion

I was a little embarrassed, raised my hand, looked at the time, and said to her: "I will write the script of the micro-film in the past two days, and it will be almost the same time for me to contact you again, so let's talk about it here today." ”

Yu Xin didn't let me go, it seemed that she had to invite me to a meal, she said very persistently: "It's better to bring your friends to eat with you later, anyway, there are more people and it will be more lively." ”

I was especially afraid to face Xiao Ai, and despite Yu Xin's enthusiasm, I still refused: "I really don't have to be so troublesome, let's get together another day." ”

As I spoke, I walked towards the outside of the coffee shop before Yu Xin, and it wasn't until I breathed in the relatively fresh air outside that I felt that my nerves, which had been tense, gradually relaxed.

The most wrong thing I did in my life was to violate Xiao Ai that night. I sometimes think of Yuan Zhen's lonely but sharp eyes, how he would feel if he knew that his girlfriend had been treated like that by other men

Sometimes, people really can't completely stand in their own perspective and feel that they have made some small mistakes that can be forgiven, but in fact, the pain brought to the third party is extremely great.

Before the night came, I picked up Zhao Mu from the train station, he had only been away for a few months, but the change in appearance surprised me, he had lost weight, lost a lot of weight, the whole person looked so haggard, and his eyes showed a negative gaze.

As before, I took the heavy shoulder bag from his hand as soon as possible, and before I could speak first, he looked at me and said, "Brother Qiao, you have lost a lot of weight, are you too tired during this time?"

I realized that I hadn't eaten well at all in the past few days, and the hardest thing was the mood of collapse and collapse, so it was inevitable that I would lose weight. I smiled and replied, "It's quite tired, and you've lost a lot of weight, have you suffered any blow?"

"Let's go back and talk about it, I want to have a good talk with you."

I nodded, and then grabbed Zhao Mu's shoulders and walked towards the exit of the train station in the crowd of people, we were like two children who got nothing, kept bowing our heads and walking forward, and then refused to communicate with the world, but the lights of the city were exposed to the invisible air flickering, as if to tell those who had been discouraged and disappointed that in fact, the world has always been so exciting, so there is no need for us to escape those uneasy desires, even if the yellow skin is engraved with black sadness at the moment

Back in the small courtyard where I lived, Zhao Mu and I each bought a pancake and sat on the steps, but he didn't have much appetite, and I was always eating. After a while, I finally stopped and asked him, "Can you tell my brother now why he doesn't want to stay in Beijing?"

Zhao Mu nodded, but after a long time, he replied: "Brother Qiao, this world is really too different from what I imagined, I have been working in a large private company recently, but because I had some disagreements with the vice president about management, I was suppressed." In the end, all the senior management of the company criticized me, and the general manager who valued me at the beginning also chose to maintain the vice president, but I really stood in the company's position to put forward my own opinions. There have been similar projects abroad, and I didn't do anything wrong because we made the mistakes that our company is making now, and the whole project lost money."

"Objectively, although you are not wrong, but subjectively you have chosen the wrong position, you have not yet reached a position where you can question the high-level, can you understand what I mean?"

"How can I not understand that in this world, everyone is shouting that everyone is equal, but there are strict hierarchies everywhere, even if I am right, but because I have no right to speak, it will also be reversed by people in high positions of power, sometimes I will question, so many years of hard work, in the end, is it important to learn to be a sleek man? and then dignity."

I looked at Zhao Mu and was a little speechless, and his perception would really tear open the souls of the disadvantaged, and then pick out the most injured places bloodily.

After being silent for a long time, I finally said to him: "I know that you have been wronged over there, but your character brother knows best, and this is definitely not the main reason why you returned to Nanjing, because you are not a person who does not know how to forbear and will give up easily." ”

The pain on Zhao Mu's face became more and more intense, he closed his eyes and said to me in a low voice: "Brother Qiao, I fell in love with a woman, but she didn't love me, she rejected my confession. ”

I was so surprised by this sudden revelation that it took me a long time before I came back to my senses and asked, "Who is it?"

Zhao Mu sighed, and then replied with a painful smile: "It's Xiao Ai since I returned to Nanjing on the last National Day, and it was hard for me to forget her for the first time, and then I went back to Beijing, and we were in contact with each other intermittently, and I realized that I really liked her, she was the only woman who moved my heart for so many years." ”

I was so surprised that the woman Zhao Mu liked turned out to be Xiao Ai, didn't he know that Xiao Ai already had a boyfriend

I finally spoke, "This is quite surprising to me, when did you confess to her"

"A week ago she said she had no feelings for me."

"Then she didn't tell you that she already has a boyfriend"

Zhao Mu looked at me, and a painful expression appeared on his face again, and he replied after a long time: "No, she didn't say if she really has a boyfriend."

Although I knew it was cruel, I nodded and replied: "Well, her boyfriend's name is Yuan Zhen, he is a well-known rock singer in the music industry, he can be regarded as a talented woman Zhao Mu, brother advises you, some people who should not be loved, it is better to give up as soon as possible, she really already has a boyfriend"

Zhao Mu's emotions became excited: "No, I won't give up, I'm a paranoid person in love, and I'm a man who won't be easily tempted by women, so once I fall in love, I won't give up, as long as she doesn't get married for a day, I still have a chance." ”

"Have you ever thought that even if she is not with Yuan Zhen now, she is also the daughter of Mr. Xiao of Jinding Real Estate, and it is difficult to make people happy in a love with too big a material gap?"

"I don't want to think about this, even if it's Mr. Xiao, he was self-made back then, so why can't I, Zhao Mu, improve myself after the struggle, only cowardly people will talk about the gap, and then blaspheme love"

I don't know if I should criticize Zhao Mu's ignorance and fearlessness, but at this moment I do blush, because I have become the man in Zhao Mu's mouth who uses cowardice to desecrate love.

Zhao Mu looked at me and said in an extremely firm tone: "Brother Qiao, this is the main purpose of my return to Nanjing for development, there are only a few things that people really need to fight for in this life, so I don't want to give up easily, I believe that as long as I work hard enough, the city of Nanjing will definitely give me a chance." ”

I nodded, didn't respond much, just lit a cigarette with some annoyance, and then seemed to see two extremes in the hazy smoke, Zhao Mu and I stood on the side, he shone with the aura of a graduate student of Tsinghua University, and I became more and more gloomy in the inferiority complex of failing to graduate from high school, and I didn't seem to have much capital to compete with reality

At this time, my mobile phone rang again, it was a call from Yu Xin. I had definitely rejected her offer to eat with her, so I thought she was calling to talk to me about some issues related to filming.

But I didn't want to, after I connected the phone, she said to me with a high emotion: "Brother Jiangqiao, I have already asked Xiao Ai out, and now it is in the Wutong Hotel on Tulip Road, you should have received your friend by now, if you do, come over together, we are ready to order." ”

Yu Xin's kind invitation made me a little overwhelmed, and I asked for a long time: "Did you tell Xiao Ai that you were going to ask me out?"

"Why did I tell Xiao Ai about you This time, I also invited a lot of other classmates, it's very lively, you hurry up, count your friends, it's just a whole table."

After saying this, Yu Xin hung up the phone, and I was very conflicted in her kind invitation, after all, she had brought her friends to Tulip Road, and it was also to make it easier for me to travel less, if I didn't go, it would be too hypocritical.

I finally said to Zhao Mu: "Don't eat the pancakes and fruits in your hand, Yu Xin just called us to go to Wutong Restaurant to eat, Xiao Ai is also there"