Chen Yi's figure gradually disappeared from my sight with the dim light in the alley, and she gently closed the wooden door of the courtyard.

This suddenly opened up a distance of dozens of steps, just like one night, I stood at the crossroads of the crowds, swallowing all the tragedy and grandeur of life into my stomach, but I was still confused and desperate......

At this moment, how much I want to reconcile with this world, but it has been stumbling with me, unwilling to give me a way through.

Back at his residence, the house was as deserted as ever, except for some more coffee utensils brought back from the "Mood Coffee Shop", as well as a cash register, and a few discarded tables and chairs.

I looked at it numbly for a while, and I still couldn't believe that this qiē in front of me was all the results I had obtained after working hard for more than half a year.

What a result! I defeated Su Han's coffee shop, lost my car, and owed Xiao Ai tens of thousands, and the only thing left was that poor ideal, which was still supporting my numb flesh and blood!

I sighed, why is it so difficult to do something in this society? And what's next for me?

I envy Xiao Ai a little, like her, who has excellent conditions and real talents, she doesn't have to worry about her livelihood at all.

Lighting a cigarette, I stood in front of the mirror, looking at myself a little decadent, I always felt that it was too ordinary, not as good as the gold people who ate together today, they are the elite of this city, especially Qiu Zi'an, he made me deeply see how big the gap between men and men can be.

This kind of helplessness that I want to be awesome but can't live or die is like a whip slammed on my body, but in the pain of my skin and flesh, there is still no way to do my best to get my life done.

……

The next day, the weather was really as good as Chen Yi predicted last night. After breakfast, I boarded the 302 bus, which runs north and south of the city, with no destination, just to loosen my nerves.

Forgetting that this was the first stop of the car, I finally got off the bus with the crowd and stood at the door of a very famous talent training school in the city, listening to the constant sound of various pianos and children singing.

Xiao Ai, who once opened her own piano shop, affectionately calls these children who study as piano boys, although this is already last year, but I still remember when I was with those piano boys, she looked serious, compared to her in life, she was simply like two people.

In the sunshine at noon, I squinted and took out my phone from my pocket, and then sent a message to Xiao Ai: "Can you make money from the piano shop you opened last year?" ”

After waiting for about ten minutes, Xiao Ai replied to the message: "It's just to earn some living expenses, what's wrong?" ”

I took a panoramic view of the training school, and then sent it to Xiao Ai on WeChat, and sent another text: "You can earn enough living expenses with a small piano shop, I was thinking: How much does such a big training school make in a year?" It's scary! ”

Xiao Ai replied to me with a bloody knife: "Jiang Qiao, you are really good, do you want to dig a pit for me to jump into?" I'm not going to be fooled, no one wants to do music training with you because you're not professional! ”

I was a little stimulated, and after a while, I sent Xiao Ai a nostril-picking expression, and then I sat alone on the flower pond next to the street, smoking a cigarette for a while, kicking the garbage on the ground for a while, and the time was just wasted by my boredom.

I got even more bored, so I ran to a stall that used airsoft balloons and paid ten dollars for five rounds of ammunition, and if I could hit all the balloons, the stuffed teddy bear tied to the balloon would fall.

I hit four balloons in a row, and the success or failure was on this last bullet, and my spirit immediately became highly tense, and at the same time as I pulled the trigger, someone kicked my ass in the back, and the bullet missed with a "whoosh", and the stuffed bear, which was already in the bag, was still hanging on the top of the wooden plank and staggering.

"I. Exercise! ”

I scolded angrily, and then turned my head violently, but I didn't want the person standing behind me to be Xiao Ai!

"I just kicked you, is it necessary to look at me with such unsympathetic eyes?"

"You're just holding back until the last bullet kicks me, right? It's insidious! ”

"Who told you not to do your job......"

"I'm unemployed, how can I do it?"

As I spoke, I gave the vendor two more dollars and asked for a refill, but the vendor said that there was no such rule, and that if you wanted to play, you had to buy ten dollars of bullets and then shoot five balloons.

I originally wanted to lay down this bear and give it to Xiao Ai. At this moment, she was standing beside me, and this ** was even stronger, so I groped in my wallet for a while, and finally managed to make up enough ten yuan, but Xiao Ai didn't let me play, and snatched the ten dollars from me a little savagely, and then put it in my wallet.

I was a little upset and said, "Is it so hard to send you a stuffed bear?" ”

"You're working so hard just to give me a stuffed bear?"

I looked at Xiao Ai, and then at the stuffed bear that had faded significantly because it had been hanging in the open air for a long time, and suddenly felt a little shabby, so the confidence to give it to her was not so insufficient, so I threw away the air gun in my hand and replied: "If you don't like it, I won't play." ”

"Who says I don't like it anymore? Play it again. ”

Xiao Ai said as he handed back the ten dollars he had just confiscated from me to the vendor, and I crouched on the ground to get the bear down, but suddenly lost my accuracy and missed two bullets in a row.

……

A faded stuffed bear, which cost us a hundred dollars, Xiao Ai held it in his hand and dangled with me on the road, and I asked her, "How did you know I was here?" ”

"Silly, didn't you just send me a picture, I knew it was here, so I came quietly...... I really didn't expect that your boredom has reached the point of being terminally ill, the kind of game that is eliminated, and three-year-olds don't want to play! ”

Being squeezed by her like this, I felt even more weak, so I changed the subject and said, "You just kicked my ass, it hurts!" ”

"I'm trying hard, it's no wonder if you don't hurt."

I sighed and replied, "I don't know what kind of anger you're being with me. ”

"Because you didn't send me back yesterday, if I don't retaliate today, it's not my character."

I stopped and looked at her, and only after a while did I reply in a weird way: "It turns out that you are here for this, if you are not angry, I can kick you again!" ”

"You just need to realize that you are not thoughtful, and it hurts to kick you and my feet, so one kick is enough."

As soon as my eyes widened, I grabbed her waist, tripped under my feet, put her on the ground, and then grinned and said, "I can't hear it, I don't know if a man's ass can't be kicked?" …… I tell you, if there is a contradiction between the two of us and we must resolve it by force, then I am the hegemonic United States, and you are the beaten Iraq, and it is not of an order of magnitude at all! ”

I underestimated Xiao Ai's flexibility, even though I tripped and fell to the ground, she still kicked me in the ass with an extremely difficult movement, and I just scared her, although she was pressed to the ground by me, but my hand always had the action to protect her.

"Jiang Qiao, you bastard, you dare to bully me?"

I nervously replied, "Be quiet, the masses who don't know the truth are looking over here!" ”

Xiao Ai savagely grabbed me by the collar, then stood up and looked at me with a kind of unyielding eyes. I was a little hairy by her, and said again and again: "You are a hegemonist, I am a third world country that is about to be beaten if I am backward, right?" ”

"That's pretty much it!"

Xiao Ai let go of me as she spoke, and didn't really care about my bullying just now, and of course I wouldn't be annoyed and kicked by her again. Because this is the way we get along, we have been noisy since the first time we met, but they are all extraordinarily tolerant, so I who know her will have such a provocative behavior just now, and she who knows me also unceremoniously gave me a head-on attack.

……

After having lunch together, Xiao Ai accompanied me on the streets. It wasn't until almost dusk that she told me that she was going to Xiamen with the troupe tomorrow to participate in a singing event for elegant art on campus, so I was going to do my hair again today in order to look more solemn.

This is the first time I've accompanied her to do this, and girls like to do it every day, but it seems very trivial. This makes us more like a couple who have not yet been named, and neither of us seems to have a clear opinion on whether to pierce the last layer of window paper or not.

The barber has been praising Xiao Ai's good hair, and asked to leave a photo to use in the barbershop's brochure after the hair is done, and said that he can get a 6% discount.

I originally thought that Xiao Ai would refuse, but I didn't expect her to agree, but this decision did not fit her arrogant character at all, and later I learned that she wanted to save a little money, because at this moment, like me, she had to rely on careful calculations to live the next days.

Even so, Xiao Ai is still accustomed to a high-consumption life, and this time the dyeing and perming and care still cost more than 2,000 yuan after a 6% discount, which is her pressure, and it is also my pressure.

After I swiped the card to pay for her, the two of them wandered aimlessly in the streets and alleys, and it was already the end of spring, and the unique warmth made Yiqiē seem so lazy, and I finally felt less lonely. Although I don't communicate much with Xiao Ai who walks beside me, the tacit understanding of mutual integration has dispelled a lot of negativity and coldness flowing in the blood, making me feel that there is tenderness in this world.

Sitting on a bench on the street, after being blown by the evening breeze for a while, I finally asked Xiao Ai: "I am floating around like a jobless vagrant, do you look upset?" ”

Xiao Ai put his leg on my lap, and then leaned back on the bench, as if he was closing his eyes and enjoying the comfort of the dusk, and said to me lightly for a long time: "Who can not experience a low point in their life, what do you care so much about?" …… Just like me, joining the performing arts group, there is no formal establishment, and the salary is only 1,800 yuan a month, and the troupe will not arrange some commercial performance activities with relatively high performance fees for me to participate in, so there is a floating income of about 2,000 yuan a month, according to your logic, don't you also see that I am upset? ! ”

I was a little surprised: "It can't be so low, Yu Xin and you are in the same unit." As far as I know, her monthly income is 10,000 or 20,000, or even 20,000 or 30,000! ”

"The basic salary is like this, if there is a commercial performance arrangement in the group, it will be counted separately, and there will be thousands of yuan of income after a normal commercial performance, so it is normal for Yu Xin to earn so much, but because I didn't sign a formal contract, this kind of commercial performance opportunity will not be my turn, of course, I must give priority to those employees who are loyal to the death!"

I subconsciously wanted to ask her why she didn't sign it, but the words came to my mouth and swallowed again, because if she wanted to sue sù me, she would have sued me a long time ago, and if she didn't want to sue sù, even if I wore out my mouth, she wouldn't say anything.

Another pleasant warm breeze blew, and the disturbing feelings that plagued me were gradually blown away. I fell on Xiao Ai's lap and closed my eyes and squinted for a moment. As for work, as for career, as for that cruel tomorrow, if you still think about it in your heart at this time, it will be a bit of a bad scenery!

The ringtone of the mobile phone suddenly broke the silence between us, and I laboriously took it out of my pocket, and then looked at it, the call was from Jin Qiu.

I connected the phone, Jin Qiu was still the kind of character who didn't talk nonsense, and she said to me directly: "Jiangqiao, if you are not busy now, come to my company, and I will talk to you about something." ”

I looked at Xiao Ai beside me and replied, "What's the matter, can't you say it on the phone?" ”

"I can't."

"Okay, then you wait for me for a while."

"How long?"

"It's an hour to walk, and it's been ten minutes to take a taxi."

"Be serious."

"You person, can't you hear that I want you to reimburse the travel expenses?"

Jin Qiu on the other end of the phone was speechless for a while, and after saying "Please have dinner", he hung up the phone, and at the same time Xiao Ai also stood up from me and asked me, "Is Jin Qiu looking for you?" ”

"Well, probably let me help their company with the wedding execution business, I'll talk about it."

"Okay, I'll go back first, tomorrow morning at the 6 o'clock plane, I have to go to bed early."

I nodded, and Xiao Ai left where she had just been sitting, and then followed the crowd into the 108 bus that had just arrived, but it was not the last goodbye of the evening, because she smiled at me through the window again.

Before the night came, I cleaned up my mood and boarded a bus to Jinqiu's company.

It seems to be the most uneventful day of the year, but it has been a rare treat for me. During this day, I wandered around the city of Nanjing, not having to deal with complicated interpersonal relationships or worrying too much about what would happen tomorrow. On the contrary, he had a quarrel with Xiao Ai, and finally cleared up the fatigue accumulated throughout the day, and slept on her lap.

Is there a more lighter part of my life?

If there is, there are very few!