In the face of the news brought by He Meihui, my whole person was in a state of enlightenment, I felt that she was joking with me, and I couldn't accept this fact at all, because Yuan Zhen, a man, had been living in my consciousness and had made me miserable for more than a year. Sometimes, I would even equate him with Xiao Ai, because my pain was given by the two of them together, but now one person told me that he had been dead for more than a year, and what kind of mood I had to have to change to believe that it was true.

I took out a cigarette and lit it, and then asked He Meihui, "How did he die?" Accident, or is there something wrong with your body? ”

He Meihui shook her head and replied: "I don't know about this, I only met Xiao Ai about three months ago under the recommendation of others, and her album "Don't Come to Harm" was already produced before we met, I just helped her find a distribution channel, and I didn't participate in the production during the whole process, so I think there are many things that you know better than I know." ”

"Then how did you know the news that Yuan Zhen is no longer alive?"

"A month ago, I accompanied Xiao Ai to Ireland once to worship Yuan Zhen...... Before this, I was also very curious about Yuan Zhen's whereabouts, just like you, because as the producer of the album, he and Xiao Ai also needed to face the media on many occasions...... I think Xiao Ai finally chose to take me to Ireland because she had no choice, but other than that, she didn't want to say anything more to me, presumably this was a wound in her heart that couldn't heal! ……”

This time, I didn't speak until I finished the cigarette in my hand, I felt that all my assumptions over the years had been subverted, if the news brought by He Meihui was true, then in fact, not long after Xiao Ai left Nanjing, she began to live alone, I don't want to imagine how she survived alone in the days after losing Yuan Zhen.

Seeing that I was no longer talking, He Meihui asked me again, "Boss Jiang, can you tell me what you are thinking?" ”

I finally looked up at her, and I replied, "It's a world of contradictions, and there are a group of contradictory people, and I feel like I can't handle it anymore...... In fact, in the past two years since she left, my life has not been easy, especially after hearing the news of her marriage to Yuan Zhen, I have spent every day with my fingers crossed...... Sister Meihui, from my point of view, you tell me, what else can I think or do in the face of this regrettable news? …… At the beginning, in order to find her, I even left my grandmother, who was already seriously ill, and ran to Taiwan, but all I got was the news that she was married...... Now that my grandmother is gone, isn't it regret and pain when I think of this? ……”

He Meihui sighed softly, and only said to me after a while: "They are all hard-working people...... But the more bitter the life, the more the knot in my heart cannot be untied......"

I looked out the window a little dazedly, wishing that this weather could show a little spring momentum, and then a downpour would purify all things and our hearts!

At this time, He Meihui asked me again: "Xiao Jiang, do you have any plans in the future, will you leave Shanghai?" ”

I nodded and replied, "If it weren't for your call, I would have been on my way back to Nanjing by now...... I have been in Shanghai for the past two years, not to mention how deep the network has been accumulated, how much career I have done, but it is a new beginning in my life, although I do not plan to live for a long time in the future, but I will still worry about it. ”

He Meihui nodded with me and asked again, "Then where are you going to go next?" ”

I didn't hide it, and replied truthfully: "I have a spare amount of money in my hand now, so I plan to invest in a small sea-view house in a coastal city near Nanjing, and I also plan to rest there for a while." ”

Ho didn't say anything about my new life, just expressed her guilt to me again, and then we went our separate ways. But I couldn't calm down all afternoon.

I still don't believe that Yuan Zhen is no longer there, but I am afraid of the fragility of life, and at this time, all the emotions that used to be seem to be less important, because for more than a year, I may have lived better than Xiao Ai, and she is the most pitiful person. However, none of us have been defeated by life, and we are still finding the possibility of survival in our own way.

It's just that I do what I like, but she doesn't like it.

……

When I returned to Nanjing again, it was already six o'clock before nightfall, and in another hour and a half, Xiao Ai's first solo concert would be held, but it had nothing to do with me. That's fine, because in my opinion, most of the pain in my heart comes from unsatisfactory feelings, if I can't help but touch it, maybe it won't hurt so much, as for the woman named Xiao Ai, she must have thought the same way.

Back at my residence in Ersi Lane, after I opened the window for ventilation, I forcibly invited Qiao Ye, who had already had a meal, to the "Wutong Hotel", not for anything else, but in the hope that he could retract the decision to withdraw the investment.

We were still sitting near the window, not in a hurry to drink or talk, we both just lit our cigarettes and smoked in silence, and that's how we relaxed.

After a while, he put the cigarette butt out in the ashtray and said to me, "Tell me, you have to ask me out about something." ”

"One big thing, one small thing, which one do you want to hear first?"

"Pick a small one, I just got off the wine table, and I haven't slowed down yet, don't stimulate my emotions too much!"

"Well, then I'll pick the small one first......" After a pause, I said to him again: "Don't withdraw from the dream tree...... It's not easy for everyone to do this project. ”

"Reason? …… Or did you give up on the decision to withdraw your shares? ”

I shook my head and replied, "No matter what, my determination to withdraw my shares will not change, and the finance side is already preparing my equity payment, so there is nothing to say about this......"

"Then you give me a solid reason."

I said, "Qiao Ye, I really hope that the way our brothers talk and get along with each other can be simpler...... You told me the truth, didn't Jin Qiu make a special trip to talk to you about your withdrawal? ”

Qiao Ye said with certainty: "No, not once...... It was almost a week ago since we last called, that is, she talked to me about you to withdraw your shares, and I said that if you withdraw your shares, I will withdraw my capital, but she didn't persuade her, so she hung up the phone...... Jiang Qiao, what do you think, what a smart woman Jin Qiu is, the reason why she doesn't entangle with me is because she understands that the key to this matter is that you are not with me. ”

"You're pushing me."

Qiao Ye corrected my statement very seriously, and he replied: "Wrong, I'm forcing Jin Qiu...... Now it seems that my idea is quite successful, otherwise you wouldn't have made a special trip to ask me out today. ”

"What do you mean by that?"

"Don't you understand? …… Between the two of you, there is only one layer of window paper that has not been pierced in the past two years, and this incident is a particularly good opportunity...... If I'm not mistaken, Jin Qiu should have already expressed his heart to you...... But you don't have to thank me, that's what I've done as a friend to both of you for so many years. ”

I replied evasively: "So the matter of divestment is a game in your eyes?" ”

"That's not what you said, don't you think you should give Jin Qiu a name? …… Some things are really clear to the authorities, you can imagine, if you really marry Jin Qiu, will you still think about those messy thoughts? …… You have to trust me, some decisions are really not that difficult to make, and that is a matter of a marriage certificate. ”

"If I really do this, won't I go through the old path of you and Qin Miao again?"

"You're wrong again, when I married Qin Miao, I was completely competing with myself, I just wanted my parents to see how unhappy they were after marriage, and what kind of bastard decision they made...... But you're not the same as Jin Qiu. Jiang Qiao, you should calm down and think about it, don't always think about the inappropriate places for the two of you, think more about those experiences of suffering together, you will find that the two of you are not as incompatible as you imagined, your personalities can actually complement each other, otherwise why can the dream tree be so successful by you in just two years? …… So this is the biggest difference between you and me and Qin Miao, Qin Miao and I didn't have any heart-to-heart experience before we got married......"

I interrupted Qiao Ye, who was still about to continue, and asked, "You don't have to say so much, I'll ask you now, if I listen to your persuasion, I will marry Jin Qiu tomorrow, do you dare to be responsible for our future marriage?" ”

Qiao Ye opened his mouth and looked at me with a confused expression...... And I know better than anyone else that the words of others are only the words of others after all, and the only one who can be responsible for himself is always himself.

After a long time, Qiao Ye opened his mouth again and changed the topic to me and said, "You think this is a trivial matter, then you can tell me, there is another big thing to tell me." ”

I took out another cigarette from my cigarette case and lit it, and then in the smoke-filled unreal scene, I remembered Yuan Zhen's arrogant back, and Yao Yu's heartbroken appearance when she said she loved him...... I think that this major bad news definitely didn't hurt me, but this woman named Yao Yu.

I finally said to Qiao Ye, who was waiting for the big news with his ears pricked up: "Just today at noon, I heard a piece of news...... Yuan Zhen died more than a year ago, and for more than a year, Xiao Ai has actually been living alone......"

After I finished speaking, Qiao Ye was completely silent, and he whispered for a long time: "The world is impermanent...... What a person actually went like this! Compared with death, all pursuits and dissatisfaction are actually a manifestation of greed, right? ”

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