After ending the call with Yang Qu, I didn't go to the "Tulip Hotel" immediately, I cleaned the house briefly, and then sat on the sofa and lit a cigarette, I really didn't have any intention of eating, and I didn't want to face Yang Jin who was about to take me to Shenzhen.

Maybe she thinks that the time is ripe for me to go to Shenzhen, but I don't think so, because everyone has a different understanding of timing. I don't want to go to Shenzhen, which is a strange world for me, although I have many nominal relatives. Back then, they were the ones who didn't recognize us, so why do they want me to take the initiative to visit now?

After smoking a cigarette, I wanted to renew it, but remembering that I was in the critical period of quitting smoking, I held back this craving, and then my heart became more and more irritable. For me, there is nothing more difficult in life than to face this dilemma.

I took out my phone from my pocket again and looked at it, Chen Yi still didn't reply to my text message, so I had to call her more bothered, but she still didn't answer, presumably in a noisy environment, or it was inconvenient to look at the phone, so I turned the tone down.

At this moment, Yang Qu called me again, urging me to hurry over, saying that the dishes had been served, and they and Lao Jin's family were waiting for me.

I was forced to go. I changed my shoes, walked out of the house, and took the elevator up and down the stairs, everything was so mechanical, just like the mood in my heart.

After a few moments, I left the neighborhood and walked down the familiar and unfamiliar Tulip Road......

I wondered how I could tell them that I didn't want to go to Shenzhen for the time being. Because I have made an appointment with Xiao Ai to go to school tomorrow to see Xiaofang. From my heart, what I care about is not that I don't believe in my promise, but that I really care about the thing itself, which is like a continuation of two years ago......

Back then, Xiao Ai and I were busy all summer, just so that Xiaofang could achieve good results in the "Xinghai Cup" piano competition, but everything was buried because of a fire. Now, Xiao Fang invited Xiao Ai to be the guest of the "Xinghai Cup" again, is it really not symbolic for Mr. Xiao and Boss Jiang?

Just when I was weighing in my heart, the "Tulip Hotel" suddenly appeared not far in front of me. It is like a paradise on earth, forever embellished with all kinds of decorations, and always filled with the joy of marriage. At this moment, its square is full of many decorated wedding cars, and tomorrow must be a good day for wedding.

I just followed the crowd and walked in, and then faced Yang Jin, Jin Qiu and the others who were waiting......

……

The first to speak was Yang Qu, who complained to me: "Brother, why are you such a big man!" How long has it been since I just called you to now? ”

"There is a traffic jam on the road."

"Why don't you say block people? …… It's only a few hundred meters from where you live to the hotel, is it blocking you? ”

I sat down next to Jin Qiu, ignoring Yang Qu, she didn't mind, and asked me with a smile on her face: "Brother, what are you doing in Beijing these days, did you bring me a gift or something?" ”

I replied lightly: "In the future, I will go to any country in the tun and bring you gifts, okay?" ”

"Okay, if you go to Tunli, you can bring me some salted duck eggs, grass eggs or something according to local conditions, the more gifts, the better, I like to collect gifts the most."

I ignored her, but she refused to skip the topic, and asked me again: "Brother, let's put aside the gift for now, what are you doing in Beijing?" …… I found out that you have nothing to do lately and always like to run to Beijing. ”

After she finished speaking, she squeezed her eyes at me while everyone was not paying attention, as if to signal me to tell a lie, and then I looked at the others, and they all looked at me, as if they were very concerned about my motive for going to Beijing. Only then did I understand that Yang Qu was her own person, and she was towards me, my brother, but the purpose was just to prevent Jin Qiu from having a knot, and they must have thought that I went to Beijing just to watch Xiao Ai's concert.

I took a sip of water and replied in a low voice, "The last time I went to Beijing, I met a child with leukemia. Speaking of fate, Qiao Ye and Qin Miao's unexpectedly aborted child was the same as his name, and the two couples put their sustenance on him, saying that after he recovered from his illness, he would take him back to Nanjing for adoption...... This was supposed to be a heartwarming thing, but a few days ago, the child's condition suddenly deteriorated, and I rushed to Beijing to see him for the last time...... This morning, he left, and Qiao Ye and his wife stayed in Beijing to handle the funeral for him...... I'm in a bad mood, so I'm not in much shape this day. ”

Lao Jin opened his mouth and said to me: "Your child is too benevolent and righteous, and this is what we like about you, but people can't be resurrected after death, let him pass in the past...... Okay, without further ado, let's eat first, it's not too early. ”

Everyone picked up the chopsticks, but I looked at Jin Qiu, and it happened that she was also looking at me, and in a moment of staggered eyes, we each lowered our heads again. However, I don't know why, I always feel that she seems too calm, as if everything is expected by her, including my current struggle.

……

During the meal, Yang Jin roughly told me about the situation in Shenzhen, which is indeed a big family, I not only have an uncle I have never met, but also a cousin and cousin, and I also have an aunt and two children, both of whom are currently studying abroad. Yang Qu interjected again, saying that the cousin was the most difficult to deal with, and had a stinky temper that was older than her, but the cousin's temper was good, and now he had entered a government agency to hold an important position, which could be regarded as a continuation of the glory of the Yang family.

When I heard this, I felt a little inferior in my heart, because I was just a wild boy who had never graduated from high school, and I was not a member of this famous family at all, but I was forced into it because of Yang Jin, which made me feel very unsure.

As the conversation deepened, I became more and more absent-minded, and I didn't know how to talk to them about the fact that I didn't want to go to Shenzhen.

I excused myself to go to the bathroom, and when I came out, Yang Qu was standing at the door waiting for me, so scared that I almost went in to pee again, I asked her, "Are you waiting for me?" ”

"Otherwise, don't you think there's anything about this place that attracts me?"

I looked back and said, "Why don't you go in and have a look, let's go in and talk." ”

Yang Qu gave me a big roll of the eyes and replied: "It's better to be serious about your sister, be careful that I learn all of you, your sin will be great." ”

I glanced at her, then shifted away from the boring topic and asked, "What's the reason for standing in the men's restroom and waiting for me?" ”

"What the hell are you doing in Beijing? Although what you just said was very serious, and even pulled Qiao Ye and his wife out to increase the credibility of the lie, but a lie is a lie, and you can't fool me if you can deceive others...... I feel that except for Jin Qiu's parents at the dinner table, no one really believes what you just said, you must be there to watch Xiao Ai's concert, right? ”

I asked her rhetorically, "So Jin Qiu came back early, is it because I gave her a sense of crisis?" ”

Yang Qu said without giving an inch: "Then you just admit it?" ”

I turned my body away, stopped looking at her, and put my hand under the sensor faucet to wash. Yang Qu slapped me angrily, and then said to me in an aggravated tone: "Hey, Jiangqiao...... Do you really not know shame anymore? You are going to be engaged to Sister Jin Qiu, and you went to Beijing to watch Xiao Ai's concert...... Since you can't let go of her so much, then you go and give her a name, what kind of man is so sneaky? I'm sorry I just helped you cover up! ”

As soon as I turned my head and glared at her fiercely, she patted her chest and subconsciously took a step back, and I scolded fiercely: "You know a fart, what you know best is to be nosy, do you want you to get my marriage certificate for me?" ”

Yang Qu was not afraid of me at all, and in an instant, he said to me: "Okay, I'll help you get it, which woman do you want to marry?" I know that now that you have turned over, you have made yourself an emperor. It's not that I squeezed you, you really don't have the life of three palaces and six courts! Sister Jin Qiu is willing to marry you, you just thank God Brother Chun, dare to pick and choose? …… If there is any woman who follows you without trying to do anything, then I don't have a word of gossip, but in addition to Sister Jin Qiu, is there such a woman around you? ”

I was stunned, and then looked at Yang Qu without saying a word.

She looked at me with a smug look on her face, thinking that her words had broken through my heart and put me in a state of reflection. However, I think her ignorance is terrible, at least she doesn't know too much about my past with Xiao Ai. She didn't know that when Xiao Ai and I first met, we still had the halo of a rich daughter, and I was just a small clerk in a wedding company. Except for being nice to her, there is nothing in me that she can do with her.

I asked her, "Don't you really know that I had the past with Xiao Ai?" ”

"Yes, of course I do, but hasn't she betrayed you and married another man? I think this nature is more terrible than trying to get your money! ”

This time, I was really speechless, and I also understood that all the contradictions were focused on the fact that Xiao Ai had been married to Yuan Zhen, so whenever I talked about that past, I would have a feeling of powerlessness, I wanted to prove to others that she was also a good girl and loved me very much, but people who like to see the results of everything are unwilling to believe it.

Therefore, I don't want to explain anything to Yang Qu, because many things can't be explained, and forcing them to explain will only become a laughing stock in the eyes of others.

After a moment of silence, I changed the subject and asked Yang Qu, "Who bought this ticket today?" ”

"Me, what's wrong?"

"You retreat, I can't leave if I have something."

"What's the big deal with you?! …… Sister Jin Qiu specially rushed back from Shanghai, you actually said that you don't want to go to Shenzhen, could it be that you let Sister Jin Qiu go to meet those seven aunts and eight aunts in our family by herself? ”

"This is all arranged by your own initiative, have you said hello to me before? I'm not a vagrant, so isn't it normal to have something going on at my hands? ”

Yang Qu was obviously very angry, and she said to me politely: "I'm sorry, I really treat you as a jobless vagrant, otherwise where would I have the time to go to Beijing to watch Xiao Ai's concert!" Jiang Qiao, how greedy do you have to be to be cheeky enough to do such an upside-down thing? People have already been married, and they have dumped you a long time ago, and you are still stupid and have illusions, is it really the fulfillment of that sentence, the most commotion you can't get? ”

"Can you make it any more ugly?"

"If you want to, I'll be a hundred times worse to hear!"

I was so angry that I wanted to beat her, but I couldn't really do it, so I turned my back to her and tried to calm my emotions as much as possible. After a stalemate of two or three minutes, my phone rang at the right time, and I took it out of my pocket, and immediately felt my heart tighten, because this call was from Chen Yi.

I answered the phone, and she said to me, "I was hosting a company event just now, so the phone has been muted, where are you now?" ”

"I'm at the Tulip Hotel, when are you coming back?"

"I'm already on my way back, I'll be there around half past nine, where can we meet?"

I thought for a moment and replied, "Wutong Hotel." ”

"Okay, I'll see you later."

……

After ending the call with Chen Yi, I looked at Yang Qu, who had not left me, and I said to her: "I asked Chen Yi to go to tea and talk about something, if you are interested, come with me." ”

"You talk about things, what am I going to do?"

I patiently said to her: "Because we may be talking about topics that you are interested in, and it will also make you reacquaint yourself with Xiao Ai, a woman." ”

Yang Qu looked at me in disbelief, and sighed for a while: "Chen Yi will talk to you about Xiao Ai?!" What the hell is wrong with this world? ”

"Don't make these meaningless sighs, if you want to go, just follow me...... In addition, let me ask more, do you want me to marry Jin Qiu so much, is it because you are closest to Jin Qiu, or is it really out of your own heart that you want my brother to be happy? ”

"I'm just an older brother like you, of course I want you to be happy...... I can also see that Sister Jin Qiu and her parents are sincere to you, isn't what you have lacked most over the years is a stable home? …… It's not that you don't know that it is impossible for you and your mother to have that normal mother-son relationship, because she has too many people to balance, so it is impossible to stay in Nanjing to live with you...... Only when you marry Sister Jin Qiu, she can really feel at ease, sometimes although she is strong, but you also have to understand her, she is actually not easy! You'll understand when you go to Shenzhen. ”

Of course I understand Yang Jin, otherwise I wouldn't be so restrained, I was silent for a while, and then said to Yang Qu: "Happiness can indeed be defined as you said, but there is not only one way to be happy...... There is no deep affection between me and Jin Qiu, or love, you can all see it...... I'm in my current state, and you'll understand when you love someone you can't ask for one day. I'm not justifying myself, it's just that it's a really painful choice...... So I'm not happy at all right now, you know? ”

Yang Qu looked at me as if he didn't understand, and at this moment, Jin Qiu also walked to the bathroom with a handbag, she stopped in front of me and Yang Qu, then smiled and asked, "Why did you two brothers and sisters talk about this place?" ”

Yang Qu replied, "Uh...... I just happened to run into it...... Sister Jin Qiu, please take care of yourself, my brother and I still have some business, so let's go first. ”

Jin Qiu glanced at me, her gaze was still full of penetration, but she didn't ask anything, she didn't say much, she just nodded, and then went into the bathroom.

At this moment, I had a feeling that she came back early, not because of any sense of crisis, but because she was forcing me to make a choice as soon as possible...... My instincts told me that everything was under her control, but she was waiting for me to peel back the cocoon.