In the face of Jin Qiu's series of questions, I felt an unprecedented powerlessness, because some of the words that came out of her mouth were a kind of torture for me, and I obviously had the answer in my heart, but I really couldn't open my mouth.

In a daze, I glanced at Jin Qiu, only to find that her gaze had never left me for a moment. Under the huge pressure in my heart, I finally opened my mouth and said to her: "Before answering your question, I also have a question I want to ask you, why did you almost not object to my withdrawal before, but now because Qiao Ye wants to withdraw his investment, you have to question me in such harsh terms?" …… Can I also understand that I am also a chess piece in your heart that can be discarded at any time, and the two years we have been together have only taken advantage of each other? ”

Jin Qiu's face rarely showed a look of pain, and she muttered for a long time before she said to me, "Is this how you look at us, two years together?" ”

"It's not my attitude, I'm just following your logic......"

Jin Qiu finally shifted her gaze from looking at me, and then looked at the plane tree not far away, and she whispered to me: "This plane tree has existed since the time when it was a abandoned factory, and in the two years we have been moving in, it has been able to rejuvenate itself after every severe winter, but what about the relationship between us?" …… Two years have passed, and they are still suspicious and suspicious of each other! …… Sometimes I also ask myself, is it really too much of a failure as a person, otherwise why would this situation be in front of me? ”

I didn't have words, because I knew that she would continue to speak, and it was likely to be a big outburst, although she has always been a very forbearant person in my heart, but as long as she is a human being, there will definitely be a moment when she can't hold back.

After a while, Jin Qiu said to me again, "Don't you want an answer, okay! I'll tell you right now. The reason why I agree with you to quit is because I can recognize the weight of Dream Tree and Xiao Ai in your heart. I also know that the night before you made the decision to quit, Xiao Ai's agent made a special trip to find you...... I know you too well, so I know that forcibly keeping you will only make you feel depressed and unhappy; What's more, even if you leave the dream tree, it will have no impact on your life, because as long as you want, there is a bigger tulip hotel waiting for you in Nanjing...... The reason why I ask you not to withdraw now is because Qiao Ye tied himself to you, and if Qiao Ye also withdrew, Dream Tree would encounter a big financial crisis, and at the same time, it would also cause individual shareholders to panic withdraw their capital, which Dream Tree could never afford...... Yes, I admit that I am selfish, but is this selfishness really wrong? …… I just want to keep the dream tree, keep the hard work we have together and the good times we have struggled together! …… You can feel free and easy about that, but I can't let it go! ”

I looked at Jin Qiu with some surprise, and then thought about all these years with rational thinking......

If you look at it purely from the perspective of interests, Jin Qiu is the most free and easy person, because she only holds the smallest proportion of shares among all shareholders, and the only glamorous thing is her status as a professional manager, but leaving the dream tree, she will definitely have a broader space for development, so what is supporting her now?

Thinking about it made me even more confused, because there were many things that I didn't calm down and think about before I made a judgment. I can't help but ask myself, is it really that I am ignoring the people around me?

I couldn't speak, because I didn't dare to agree with Jin Qiu's words, but in the face of these reasonable logics, I couldn't refute it. So, smoke became the best prop again, hiding the uneasiness in my heart at the moment.

Jin Qiu is an extremely strong woman, although she is wronged in her heart, she still has no signs of crying, but the pain in her expression is real, and she said to me again: "Jiang Qiao, I want to ask you, do you remember how many lawsuits we have fought for infringement and other disputes since the establishment of the Dream Tree?" …… Behind these lawsuits, do you see my dedication and pain? …… In the past two years, I have moved the interests of others because of winning the lawsuit, and I have received dozens of life-threatening text messages, do you think I am really not afraid and do not want to quit? …… I was very scared, but I had to face it, because the dream tree is a very important choice in my life, just like love, once I choose, I will never regret it...... Perhaps, this is what I make you feel uninteresting, because my concept of love and values are highly unified, I don't understand romance, I don't have any interest, and in your heart, there is no beauty like Chen Yi growing up with you, so you never look at me with a straight eye, and you don't care about what I gain or what I lose! ”

I just listened to her quietly, but the moment she finished speaking, there was a very strong change in my heart, and I realized that there were unfathomable emotions behind her seemingly calm, but because she was too strong, so I didn't care about her, I always thought she was a woman who could handle everything, but I didn't know that she would also be afraid.

It took a long time for me to calm down and whisper "I'm sorry" to her.

Jin Qiu looked at me, and after a long time, he replied with a tired face: "What I want is not your word of sorry, because from your point of view, you have not done anything wrong...... And I'm not telling you this to get anything out of you! Sometimes, I really feel tired because ever since I came back to China, I've been trying to prove to you that I'm not what you think I am...... But why should I prove it to you? Is it because you are not confident in yourself, or because you care? …… I think it's the latter, but the more I do it, the more I feel like I'm stuck in a strange circle, so much so that you think that everything I do has a purpose...... Actually, I didn't. ”

I didn't look her in the eye, I just turned to look at the plane tree that would decay and regenerate...... Gradually, I felt that I couldn't cope with the situation in front of me, because I knew that I was wrong, but Jin Qiu told me that I was not wrong, but she was very sad......

Perhaps, this shows the nature of women, even in Jinqiu.

So, I also had a feeling of exhaustion......

Looking up at the somewhat golden sky that had been rendered by the setting sun, I finally asked Jin Qiu, "What do you need me to do?" To withdraw the decision to withdraw shares, or to persuade Qiao Ye to withdraw the decision to withdraw his capital? ”

Jin Qiu shook her head, and she replied in a heavy tone, "These are not what I want the most. ”

"What do you want most?"

"You know my ......"

……

This night, I didn't stay in the Dream Tree, nor did I rush to ask other people to have a casual meal, I just went to Yang Qu's school, originally just planned to repay the money I borrowed from her before returning to Nanjing, but after the two met, she didn't let me go anyway, she took me to a noodle shop near the school, and invited me to eat a bowl of her favorite mushy noodles.

During the process of eating noodles, Yang Qu kept holding his chin and looked at me, and he didn't speak. I was a little hairy by her, so I asked her, "What is it about me that attracts you?" I can't change it! ”

"Brother, you are so ruthless and unjust!"

I put down my chopsticks and looked at her...... Until now, I still can't get used to her neuroticism and logical thinking jumps.

He said again: "You can withdraw from the dream tree yourself, why do you want to pull Qiao Ye, the unjust leader, to retreat together?" …… Alas! I really can't see that you are such a person with such means! ”

I immediately reprimanded: "Where did you hear this news, it's complete nonsense!" ”

Yang Qu looked at me with a smile, and then replied: "You also know that you will be anxious if you are wronged?" …… But when you wronged Sister Jin Qiu, why didn't you think about it from her point of view? …… Brother, to be honest, I have no objection to you withdrawing from Dream Tree and returning to Nanjing, but can you do this thing beautifully and not hurt those who really care about you? …… You are also a big man, I really hope that you can marry Sister Jin Qiu, and stop fantasizing about an unrealistic woman, okay? ”

I immediately denied: "I have no object of fantasy, please don't wronged me so much." ”

"Oh." Yang Qu looked at the date on his watch, and then asked me coldly, "Then will you go to her concert?" There are still two days to go! ”

I was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously touched the ticket in my pocket, and only replied after a while: "No." ”

Yang Qu leaned in front of me and asked in a strange way, "Did you never plan to go, or did you decide not to go after your conscience found out?" ”

I pushed her face away and scolded her for smearing lard on her face, which forcibly reversed the topic, and then hurriedly finished the noodles in the bowl, and then never gave Yang Qu a chance to speak, drove my own car, and left the drama school where Yang Qu studied.

……

On the way, I parked my car by a small river, and after standing alone for a long time, I finally took out the concert ticket that had been burning me for a long time in my pocket......

I let out a heavy breath, then tore the ticket in my hand and threw it into the calm-looking river that didn't even ripple.

I turned around again, leaned my back against the guardrail, and lit the cigarette in my hand, and inevitably thought a lot more about it...... I asked myself, is there a woman in this world who is more suitable for me than Jin Qiu, and what kind of feelings do I have for her?

Can we really be married as everyone expects?

I'll admit that this is the first time I've been thinking about this issue so seriously since I came to Shanghai, and maybe it would be more appropriate to turn my thinking into a trade-off!

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